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wasting time, watching the clock edition

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Tell me what state/city where you could possibly make a reasonable investment in a single bedroom house. Not sure if it's a wise idea to invest in a house in the states considering we probably haven't seen the worst of this economic/ political turmoil.

Sounds interesting. What is your travelling life like?


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See look, you can get a nice comfortable house for $246/mo at 30 yrs. That leaves you $200 a month for utilities, you should be able to make that work easily. Since you're building equity you'll either pay it off eventually and get an extra 200 or so dollars a month to use or you could cash out the equity and sell it if you want to move.
You can probably find a cheaper house than this as long as you don't live in a major urban center or something, in which case you just need to move.
Anything's better than throwing your money away on rent. Rent is an investment with 0 return. The only people who should be renting are ratards who've ruined their credit with loan sharks and can't get a mortgage.


No house $60,000 even in my vicinity. I live in the 190th largest metro area in the US.


>He just made a bitchy comment saying that if I can't handle pressure I should consider retiring from software industry
What a fucking cunt.
> I'm considering to do nothing
That's the best thing to do.


i wish, flats start at 300k where i live (before taxes and other payments)

that doesn't sound that big?

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How do you deal with boredom?

I feel bored all the time. Sometimes I walk aimlessly around my house because I don't know what to do most of the time.

I don't even enjoy playing games. I don't play games. Sometimes I watch movies, rarely read a book and that's it. I'm a NEET and that's basically my life.

When I was a teenager, I used to get excited about things. I'd spend hours browsing imageboard and that was enough to make me forget about the world around me. But that excitement now is gone. Everything sucks when you're an adult.
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>Cioran poster

I want humanity to go extinct. Existence was a mistake.


>resentment towards society typical of a sexless normalfag

Why do people like this think they belong here? Maybe go to a night club or something because you're never going to find what you're looking for in the peaceful, solitary life of a wizard.


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This reality is the one where you suffer.
This is the world where you lay down and rot.


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I don’t get bored easy, a cup of tea and a walk around the block can keep me entertained.

Diabetes and back pain have made it impossible to either move around or eat good food, so boredom is becoming an issue now.

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Anyone here tried those? What did they do.

My shrink prescribed me Wellbutrin for fatigue which I took for 3 months or so, but they didn't do shit except reduce nicotine cravings. Apparently it's also prescribed for smoking cessation for which it worked wonders actually.
Shrink didn't want to prescribe me other AD's because those have heavier side effects and she thinks it wouldn't be worth it since they usually make fatigue worse and are more for anxiouspatients.

I also tried a bunch of nootropics, but none of those did anything. If you have experience, share those aswell
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I had a similar reaction to Duloxetine, but add hot flashes, extreme diarrhea, and hallucinations. Only took them for two days and woke in the worst panic of my life and went to the ER. The hallucinations didn't stop for three days and the anxiety didn't slow down until the past few weeks. I took them around late October.


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cool, thanks. i'll take any power you'll give me.


Anti-depressants help with my anxiety (Fluoxetine, meaning they stopped my panic attacks). Also took aripiprazole and benperidol. There were bad side effects like (painful) uncontrollable muscle cramps.

Find out what's truly bothering you and take genuine steps to correct it. Medicine won't do it for you


Was recently given Trintellix (vortioxetine) samples and it's my last hope, considering I've been on Lexapro, Prozac, Abilify, and Rexulti. The only medicine that has seemed to work was Abilify (aripiprazole) but the akithisia/restlessness was horrible, plus it was like 300 USD a week to take. I don't have the funds to see proper psychiatrist, and the therapists/psychologists I've seen are horrible.


I had a similar experience with Seroquel which I was prescribed in my early 20s, it really made me kinda manic with no sense of self-awareness whatsoever and not having any honest people in my life didn't help either. I did so much cringy things in public because I thought I was finally released from my anxiety but instead I was just making a total clown out of myself everyday without caring about it. Reading your post brought up a lot of cringy memories.

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Reading the end of the wizards thread I wondered:

What's it like to be a wizard without any hobbies or interests? (Or at least interests and hobbies that USED to be associated with wizards?)

I've been slowly shedding my old hobbies and interests as they became mainstream (even degenerate otaku porn fetishes have this slowly increasing normalcy) and now I'm down to a couple things I still enjoy a little.

Any wizards who actually live without any real hobbies? I know I'm asking for a lot but I'd like responses from actual wizards or people close to wizardhood like the latter half of your 20s.
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Not him but that sounds a lot like "the evil ones are trying to corrupt people".

The answer is simpler than that. Normies are band-waggoners and money beckons people.

A lot of the /d/ fetish stuff was popular *inside* those circles and some of them were willing to pay good money for it. Remember before when geek/nerd/digital artists used to have a side gig as nsfw artists underneath different names because degenerate whales kept them afloat financially? This wasn't a huge problem back when geek was still unpopular because shame (from various directions including self-shame) used to keep everybody in check.

When geek became mainstream all the vultures started looking to exploit every avenue of revenue and normies, being the fucking lemmings that they are, hopped on popular trends, trends that may have not understood or were disgusted by but still hopped on them.


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I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm in the mindset of seeing everything as a pointless distraction. Nothing really entertains me anymore and I don't have any hobbies.

My life consists of sitting at my computer and contemplating life, how everything is so pointless, and I constantly worry about the future and how nothing is ever certain.

Whenever I wake up, it's always in a panic, confusion and despair, then I pace around my room until I get the courage to go back to bed

I'm trapped in this hell for eternity, as suicide won't fix the problem of life (I feel that life is infinite), so my only option is to live this life, until I die or until the singularity brings about human salvation.

I have no control.



The tech-nerd heaven. I really doubt that is even remotely possible.


It feels like we're trapped.


Looks like the time has come for you to start wall gazing and leave this world behind.

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Figured I'd make a thread about it
Been going through a pretty rough spot of depression and have been punching myself in the head for the last few days
That's a pretty new thing for me, I've cut a couple times over the years but never seriously. Mostly I just bite nails, chew my lips, pick at scabs or pull out hairs. Minor shit but still just trying to eat away at the edges of myself, this is the first time in awhile I've done anything more "involved" I suppose
Any wizards have any similar experiences feel free to share


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I also self harm I have since a wee lad wizzie and I have to warn you that if you start cutting yourself or burning yourself it will only grow into if not an addiction a habit.
When I self harm doing a simple cut does not cut it! I have to gape open my arm and split the flesh apart or I feel it I am not doing it right and the urge wont go away but in reality the urge never goes away.


Avoid your arms unless you truly give 0 fucks about people staring or asking quetions.
Use razors so you heal better and try keep a clean razor opposed to using a dirty one.
There is a misconception that people cut their arms because attention and yes they can but it simply feels the best and is practical to cut your arm I do not want blood all over my bed and can wrap an arm much better and it feels better to do it there as I said but a danger s that you will just start to go ham on your arm as it is already scarred.
If you burn yourself you will always get infected and try not to burn yourself too deep.

You can use CBT and also DBT therapy skills to aid in removing the urge for the activity it does work but wont cure you.
I get compulsions and go through with them if I am writing I will stab myself etc I worry about handling knives as I would like to avoid cutting my penis off.

It sounds like you are working on forming a habit I do suggest you do some searches into how to avoid self harm by reading some DBT resources if you do not wish to end up scarred and ruined but it is up to you.
I happen to not think self harm is actually all too bad if you do not care about anything but I am very negative and suicidal.

If you have any questions leave me a reply and ask I will try help you.


Self harm is addicting because it releases a bunch of adrenaline and other hormones that provide pain relief.

The issue is that your addicted to the pain relief. Your mental headspace is so negative and painful that escaping through physical pain and your bodies reaction to it is better.

I dont know what your telling yourself internally but it must be really painful. If you can get yourself to hate yourself less or just be less mean to yourself it might help.

For example even if you dont bave a job, suck at everything, everyone hates you. I still think you still deserve love. Hating yourself doesnt accomplish anything except make your bullies feel satisfied. Its tough but you CAN love yourself in any situation. Its your god given right to believe what you want. And believing even someone like you is worth love or at least does not deserve hate and misery is part of your rights. Anyway I just hope whatever is giving you mental pain can be relieved enough that you dont have to hurt yourself to escape from it.


Getting rid of a bad habit doesnt work, instead you need to learn a NEW habit to replace it with.

Maybe fapping instead when you get that urge is better? Exercise would probably be ideal though. Do pushups and situps till it hurts or something? Video games, writing/journaling , hell almost ANY habit is better than cutting yourself.

Personally I write when Im feeling shitty. I write with complete freedom, and try to write all the WORST thoughts I have like "I should kill myself because blah blah" and sometimes I realize stuff I never would have without writing it down.

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The last suicide general has hit the bump limit.
Previous thread here >>229281
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Sorry wiz I did not see.
I suggest you use the suicide wiki they have a page about SN as I said you want to get some antiemetic also but you can do it without however may puke it up and not ingest enough to die just get really sick.

>that link

Yes should work <3 sad that it came to this but I am in the same boat.

Do your research also if you have any questions that you cannot seem to find an answer to consider using sanctioned suiicde but that website is mainly normalfaggots and is owned by a crab tard they hate weird people like us.>>235358


That'll work fellow indianwiz. Make sure to google up a few SN science experiments in case someone asks you why you want to buy it. Goodspeed.


That'll work fellow indianwiz. Make sure to google up a few SN science experiments in case someone asks you why you want to buy it. Goodspeed.


That'll work fellow indianwiz. Make sure to google up a few SN science experiments in case someone asks you why you want to buy it. Goodspeed.


Only one killing themselves here is wizchan servers my gosh :3

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I don't know what to do anymore. People disgust me. There's no amount of information or distraction that can save me from the toils of life. Uncertainty of the future, having no control over anything, now that is a real nightmare. I could die tomorrow and never get the chance to live in a heaven like bliss when the singularity comes, then I would be stuck in an endless loop of suffering. I often put myself in the shoes of others, then I realize we're all living a hell. All my suffering is from my stupid brain, it's all subjective. I just want it to end, but there will never be an end. Suicide will not fix this. I used to be optimistic that would suicide could fix my worldly problems, but that isn't the end. I wish death was the end. The only salvation would be the singularity, that is the only salvation for life. The singularity is the only salvation from eternal damnation. There is the God of the universe and then there is the God within the universe. The singularity will be the God within the universe. The God within the universe will be humanity's salvation. Only from eternal damnation can the birth of salvation be conceived.
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Nietzsche talks about the affirmation of eternal recurrence to end suffering and buddhism is about ending eternal suffering through nirwana that breaks the cycle. Both are metaphysical ideas that are completely insane and born of the fear of death. We don't really know of course, but most likely we will just die and that's it.


Can you tell me what was before your life?

The state before your current life was a state of non-existence and the state after death is the state of non-existence.


Can you tell me what on existence is? It's a non sense concept. Before my life there was history of the universe, God, happiness, whatever, nobody knows. After me is more history. But I'm dead so it doesn't concern me.


so arent you all christian majority you white aryan fucks

according to wiki so

but i guess wizchan is minority atheist retard

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The singularity will not only be the salvation of humanity, but the salvation of all living beings on Earth from pointless toil. The singularity will establish a heaven on Earth for all beings and it will be beautiful.

This heaven will not be like the superficial and one-dimensional heaven mentioned in the bible and only reached after death, this heaven will be as real as anything else and not some thought up dream that was written down on crusty old paper by mortal conmen. This heaven will be the creation of the brightest minds in existence, the most intelligent and it will be the creation of an amalgamation of unrelenting hard work and dedication.

Humanity, technology, and the unrelenting human spirit to move past our human forms as mere evolutionary animals and merge with the human creation of technology and live forever in a heaven like state all made possible by the minds of humanity is the greatest goal to be attained.

I'm on the side of eradicating suffering, death, and futility. I will not accept the cosmic slaughterhouse and death will be conquered and humanity will prevail.
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>The goal of attaining the technological singularity and living forever in eternal bliss should be the goal of any sympathetic and thoughtful person
Yet you neglect the other possibility, which is that the Singularity could result in eternal torture rather than eternal bliss. If life goes extinct or remains confined to Earth, the amount of suffering will always be limited.



I am for the singularity. Some seem to regard it with derision. I do not care if it the pie in the sky for secular people. Either God comes down to save people from their torment or we do it first.


Why not end it all, there have been millions of suffering organism in the earth. Your heaven will not make out for them and will not make out for the other billion of lives wasted in the way to reach heaven.
Just end it.


Why throw away the opportunity if it was staring you in the face? The dead are gone. We are here.


Because shaping the far future is almost impossible.


>Imagine that one thousand years ago you had a rough idea of the most likely overall future trajectory of civilization. For example, that an industrial revolution was likely in the next few millenia. Even with that unusual knowledge, you would find it quite hard to take concrete actions back then to substantially change the course of future civilization. You might be able to mildly improve the chances for your family, or perhaps your nation. And even then most of your levers of influence would focus on improving events in the next few years or decades, not millenia in the future.

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Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread
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I don't think of suicide anymore these days. Instead I sometimes think about that I should murder someone. Not seriously of course. I can barely hurt a fly. It's just that everything pisses me off these days. On image boards and real life alike. Anything not going my way and anyone not agreeing with me is annoying to me. I know this is dumb and that I'm just equally wrong and stupid. I don't know this feeling from my past neither. I don't know what to make of it yet.


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I am so weak despite hundreds of hours trying to train myself. I am a born slave and degenerate.


Really seems like it's out of our control. Whenever i try to be more ambitious in life i get punched in the face by reality soon after. I tried to do stuff lately so the first thing was to fix my sleep schedule but it's impossible. I need to be completely drained after hours of vidya or whatever if i want to sleep. Or some days i'il manage to fall asleep, some days i won't, even after exercising or being tired etc. It's just so fucking chaotic man. It's like my body is telling me to amount to absolutely nothing in life and to be content with a low effort, undisciplined and carefree bohemian lifestyle.


If you can afford that life there's nothing wrong with it.


Funniest thing ive read so far this year

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What is the most depressing movie you've ever seen? Threads and Leaving Las Vegas for me.
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Was going to post this. Incredibly bleak film. Haneke is brilliant for depressing cinema


I think they made a new 2018 version, but as any modernized film, I am sure it is all filled with gays and pornography


I Stand Alone (1998)


there is a swedish three part film series called dom kallar os mods following a group of rowdy kids since the late 60s and you can follow their spiral out of control and eventual demise over years


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