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 No.215457[Last 50 Posts]

The last suicide general has hit the bump limit.
Previous thread:
>>213010

 No.215462

https://vimeo.com/264985884

Saint Philip Nitschke

 No.215486

things have been getting real lately with my dad dying of cancer and poverty on top of that. Was planning to end it after he dies which won't be long but I went to go check out my suicide gun that I just bought new bullets for. Fucking gun has a little but of rust on the bottom rail. Now im worried internal parts may be fucked and it won't do the job. Goddamn thing only needs to work fucking once and this is what I get . I also don't really know how to take it apart and fix it because I am an idiot.

I just don't know what to say or do here. just venting

 No.215487

Euroanons

BUY SN NOW BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. There are vendors on ebay international but I fully expect the EU or national governments to ban it in the near future.
Even if you don't want to use it now, buy it and bury that shit.

20g dissolved in 50ml of water will kill you reliably. BE SURE TO TAKE AN ANTIEMITIC. Get meto from your doctor by telling him you have had a base case of gastroenteritis or acid reflux as the medicine is used routinely for such purposes. Meto is not an illegal or controlled substance but it isn't otc in most nations.

If you want more info on dosage and the regimen so SN go to sanctionedsuicide and look at the SN resource thread

 No.215488

>>215487
if the doctor doesn't prescribe meto no matter what you can buy it from alldaychemist without a prescription (just search for perinorm)

 No.215494

>>215487

>EU or national governments to ban it in the near future.


Why? How will this work?

Even though I know about SN and I'm going to choose this option, thank you for informing my wizbrothers from Europe.

 No.215506

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i just saw the archive of this thread and this next-last post really struck me.
this guy didn't genuinely want to die. he was convincing himself of things.
look how the typing is impeccable until he writes that his hands are tremvling. also in his next post there was almost no typo.

this guy wasn't meant to die. he was convincing himself that he was.

don't kill yourselves if you don't genuinely should wizbros.

 No.215508

Is this SN link legit? It's the only one that ships to my area…

amazon.com/Sodium-Nitrite-Chem-pure-100g/dp/B06XZPRD1H

 No.215512

>>215506
yeah, what a tragedy and his father died when he went to check on him in the shed.

 No.215526

>>215457
Is argon a good inert gas to asphyxiate myself with?

 No.215528

>>215526
It's probably expensive and relatively hard to get a hold of.

 No.215530

>>215487
I don't even know how to buy things from the internet. I have no credit card, no money, connections, nothing. I'm the most retarded being on this planet and deserve to be tortured.

 No.215535

>>215528
Yeah but it's the only inert gas I can source at the moment. Also if I'm going to kill myself anyway, it's not like I have anything better to spend money on. Do you know where I could buy pure nitrogen or some other inert gas?

 No.215554

>>215512
how do you know his dad died?

 No.215602

I think i'm going to die because i swallowed a fishbone. My throat hurts and it feels fucked. Most likely I won't even be able to see a laryngologist until Tuesday, which will be too late. At first i thought it was just my hypochondria, but i must be the most unlucky person in the world. The fish i was eating isn't supposed to have any fishbones in the first place, maybe the soft ones if they miss them. A pathetic death for a pathetic person.

 No.215603

>>215602
Oh man that is the worst, when I was eating fish I feared everything anyone possibly deboned by hand. I always got the fish bones in my pieces, no one else ever did. They could eat their fried fish like chicken nuggets but if I wasn't careful with every single chew I was fucked.

 No.215614

Is it lethal enough if to swallow a razor blade? Or maybe a pack of them of two? I know it sounds stupid, but i'm beyond paranoidal last months and i'd rather bring myself to death one way or another, then get raided by cop niggers and tortured to death. They were already visiting my home several times to make sure if i don't have any guns on me (luckily, they were just asking). Next time, it will be my computer, and then - it will be me. My time is short, it is going to happen and i have no idea how to act when they'll start breaking into my door. If i cut myself, they will just stop the bleeding, they are already prepared for that.

 No.215615

What are some non-prescription drugs to overdose on? Will aspirin or amitriptilyne do? I just want to combine it with some other method, you can never be sure.

 No.215664

Any info on bleeding to death? From what I've seen on the internet is almost painless except for the wound to make you bleed

 No.215665

>>215664
I mean, of course the wound will hurt, my concerns are only of it being a quick method (seems like 5 min and you're off)

 No.215667

>>215664
it must be super exciting, I once cut my hand and seeing that the bleeding wasn't stopping and getting lightheaded and that I was slowly fading away was pretty thrilling.

 No.215670

>>215667
>slowly fading away
That sounds like a comfy way to die. That's pretty much what I want. I'd throw myself into the subway rails but the pain and fear of my head getting crushed or my spine destroyed genuinely scare me

 No.215671

>>215670
only thing is my cut was quick and accidental, so I didn't even process any pain. I don't think it'd be that easy to self inflict it.

 No.215673

>>215671
I'll try to get high or drunk to do it

 No.215685

>>215667
Same except that in my case it was intentional and i was bleeding out for an hour untill i decided to patch up. I was drunk too, but my blood sugar is exceptionally high. Would love to post photo of it but tor is blocked here so whatever.

 No.215691

>>215673
Don't you will just get cut in half or lose limbs I have seems countless of cases in gore sites please don't do it this way wizzie

 No.215705

how long does a kitchen knife to the gut take?

 No.215707

>>215691
I don't know how somebody can get cut in half or dismembered other than throwing itself to the rails or into a machine. I'm talking about a homemade suicide, my idea is to cut main veins with a very sharp knife. Like the carotid, some in the leg, the jugular. I'm guessing only one will be enough tho, but if I have the energy I'd try to cut at least two in case the bleeding stops

 No.215715

>>215705
Not long if you hit the mesenteric.
>>215707
But man all this talk about bleeding out, just search for "[favorite artery] surgery" on youtube and you'll note just how much muscle and fat and veins you have to go through to reach one. Looks difficult.

 No.215724


 No.215726

>>215614
I hope you aren't seriously contemplating that, because that would be the stupidest way to attempt suicide and would just leave you needing to go to the hospital

 No.215729

>>215715
Well that vein on the neck seems more reachable but yes that's a good point, should rather check a little about procedures and anatomy first. At least giving a try maybe. If it were possible for me I'd shot myself in the chest/heart but guns are impossible to get in my country

 No.215741

>>215726
How do i avoid getting gulagged then when they will start breaking into the door. I don't have any other options and i don't care about physical pain.

 No.215742

>>215740
Yeah dude. Teenagers dude. No guns, no tall building, nothing and nothing, literally what the fuck am i supposed to do to off myself you stupid idiot?

 No.215745

>>215741
are you planning to bleed over a course of few months or what?

 No.215746

>>215745
Doubt it will take that long. Anyway i know of no better instant way of complementing your suicide in the police coming into your house scenario.

 No.215756

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The idea that everything will start again after death makes me sick. Fuck, if I decided to die, it means I obviously don't want to live, don't want to be born in another body, and all that shit. I understand that "me" will not be there, but suddenly the universe is unpredictable and illogical, and we do not know everything, so you can not be sure one hundred percent.
At the same time, I'm an atheist and don't believe in the soul, but I recognize that the world is too complex to draw far-reaching conclusions. I'm confused.

 No.215757

Anyone knows what would happen if you use expired meto for SN method?

 No.215760

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>>215756
I think we are all stuck in this hell forever, doesn't matter what life form or universe or anything, we will probably be reincarnated and back in this universe with a different conscious, personality and body and no one will realize it, its pretty scary isn't it? Being stuck in this universe for all eternity ;)

 No.215765

>>215760
Seek every religion, they have more things in common than it may seem.

 No.215769

>>215760
Soul is untarnished by all levels below, it won't matter as much as you think it does once you pass the barriers of physical agony.It's weird how much pain distorts our vision on earth constantly, we can't comprehend what actions we would take without it and the burden of flesh. This is probably why we are here though, soul wanted to see a movie. It wanted to experience all flavors of the madness and it's divisions enter all sorts of physical forms. It does because it can, I can describe it as a giant entity in itself. But I've one OBE and found myself in a giant temple like space with this energy flowing through me which was a single point resonating itself there and I didn't want to leave. I could do literally nothing and be filled with more bliss than anything I've ever felt here which is all pain in comparison.

>>215765
Yes they're all interpretations of the same thing with different twists and elements. Choose whatever or choose none, it doesn't really matter.

 No.215792

>>215614
Why police came to your house? What you did?

 No.215817

>>215792
I've no idea but it all started after i've been locked down in psych ward 2 years ago. Maybe i wrote something wrote something bad about my country (i live in an authoritarian state), or because i used to dodge a military draft.

 No.215830

>>215756
Anybody else thinking about moving to some particular place or country you like and killing yourself there? The idea that there might be a reincarnation and that the place is tied to your geographical proximity really scares me. Life will be shit but being reborn in the same shithole I live now scares me even more

I don't believe in karma based retribution, sounds purely absurd to me

 No.215881

I'm thinking about killing my parents then killing myself. Not due to hate or something, my parents are old people (68-70) and me killing myself will end destroying them worse. I feel like liberating them to kill myself without worries of the aftermath would be more humane. Of course I could also try to resist until nature does it but I can't take it anymore and them living maybe two decades more will be unthinkable for me. I'd kill them in some painless way like CO or something then throw myself into the rails

 No.215896

>>215881
just wait until they die and then kill yourself, cope with drugs or something until then

 No.215924

>>215881
Am I the only person that never cared about family? I hate them all
And never considered not suiciding because of them. It's not like they abuse me or something, maybe I'm a sociopath.

 No.215932

>>215924
>It's not like they abuse me or something
You hate them for no reason at all?

 No.215935

>>215924
they're quiet possibly shit people, just in ways you can't conciously realize, but your unconcious does.
im normally against therapy, but in these scenarios it's almost always the case so maybe one could help you realize how exaclty they're a terrible influence on you. it's often not trivial to see how someone is ruining your life, but you can usually feel the hatred toward them regardless

 No.215943

>>215932
>>215935
Well, I mostly hate them for being retards that can't count to three. Because of this I live with 4 other people in 2 rooms. Never had a room, and I got my own pc not shared with brothers when I was like 20. I'm a retard that's almost too stupid to boil water, but I can't blame them for that. I suppose that I could have gotten most other things I wanted except a place to live unless I moved out, or understanding for my physical illness, because they are trash that will die soon from their own health problems and can't understand anything told to them, but im too old to care now. It would be best if I left and never seen anyone from my family again years ago, but I am helpless. I'm done with this place and these people either way. I've made my choice to die and left everything behind a very long time ago, so such details shouldn't bother me.

 No.215951

The depression is hitting harder than usual the past 2 days. I feel weak and have no energy. The anhedonia is robbing me of any enjoyment from playing mindless video games.
I am just a fleshheap burdened with pain and negative thoughts and emotions.
I hate people, especially myself. Tired of life and looking forward to death. Why even exist?
Because my brain refuses to let me commit suicide at this time. The evolutionary traits and self preservation instincts overpower my decision to kill myself regardless of how I fall.
Talking about this online provides a very brief moment of relief but it's not like anyone cares. The happy successful people are too busy with themselves and the other depressed people have their own problems. Loneliness spikes when trying to interact.
Why bother?
Just let me die.

 No.215952

>>215951
Also my back really hurts. Any position to sit or lie is painful. God what the fuck

 No.215953

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 No.215954

>>215953
Do you know the story behind this suicide?

 No.215955

>>215954
norper shit
boyfriend got her preggo and then left her for another succubus.
her being pregnant would bring a lot of shame to her parents, so she kills herself.

 No.215957

>>215955
Thanks, wiz.

 No.215958

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>>215457
Would asphyxiating yourself with propane be a good way to kill yourself? Sure I guess there's a slim chance that the gas will ignite and you will blow up or something, but propane is supposedly otherwise physiologically inert I think. Methane can be used for asphyxiation.

 No.215961

How to do it if I'm being watched 24/7?

 No.215962

>>215961
staying naked, that'll disgust them

 No.215964

>>215958
propane is heavier than air, so you will probably need to use a different method than you would for most types of gasses. Also, it would smell terrible since the manufacturers usually put really bad smelling stuff in there.

 No.215972

>>215964
Since propane is heavier than air, does this also mean that argon is a bad gas to asphyxiate yourself with? Argon is the only noble gas I can find a seller for, and I can't find anywhere I can buy pure nitrogen or helium from.

 No.215977

>>215961
How exactly are you being watched? Have you tried just going into the woods, or will they even follow you there?

 No.216040

>>215958
It wouldn't work. Propane or any other hydrocarbon gas as >>215964 had already pointed out they are heavier than O2. You'd want to stick with helium or nitrogen if you insist on the gas route.

Personally, I don't like the gas method. There is too much to go wrong than I'm comfortable with. So far, I think the best method is probably SN in a hotel room.

 No.216067

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I noticed today is the one-year anniversary of Olympian Kelly Catlin's suicide. She died on her second attempt, both times she used helium.
>Olympic cyclist Kelly Catlin could do it all. Until it all became too much.
https://www.washingtonpost.com/sports/2019/07/29/kelly-catlin-death-cyclist/?arc404=true
>Olympic Cyclist Kelly Catlin Seemed Destined for Glory. Then She Killed Herself.
https://archive.is/INpRm

 No.216142

>>215506
fuck off. life is hell and pain. i cannot take it anymore

 No.216144

>>215972
Im not sure. In some ways I think heavier than air gasses are more dangerous because they don't escape enclosed areas as easily sometimes. Like for example propane is much more dangerous than natural gas because it will pool up in a home instead of more easily escaping upwards.

Perhaps you could pool up argon in a airtight place like a bathtub and lay face down in it and suffocate. I wouldn't recommend doing something like that though. It sounds really risky.

Maybe even the standard exit bag with argon instead of helium would work ok. I cant say for sure, but in general would not recommend trying an untested method.

 No.216209

I have just ordered a rope. Last time I tried to hang myself I failed, and I still don't understand why. I just wouldn't pass out, even after 20 minutes. It was just agonizing to the point where my body involuntarily was clawing at my throat to release the pressure.
Is it just about tying the noose harder around the neck? Why didn't I pass out quickly?

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 No.216290

Any info on slicing arteries? Or another way to self inflict damage on them to die outta bleeding?

 No.216294

>>216290
Would love to hear this info too.

 No.216297

When it comes to gasses think the carbon monoxide one is still the best option, painless and your brain/body won't notice until time has run out. There is still a possibility of becoming a vegetable when trying various forms of gasses if not done correctly because your brain cells will also make an exit, there might also be the possibility that someone stops you in the middle of the process (risking their own life) because they are suspicious or someone might smell the gasses also if you do it in the wrong surroundings you might end up killing or seriously hurting other people and animals as well.

 No.216380

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How do I get the coronavirus?

 No.216388

>>215530
i'm on the same boat as you wizbrother… been thinking about sodium nitride suicide for a while but too retarded to even know how to buy online

 No.216389

>>216380
stay close as possible for other people and don't wash your hands

 No.216390

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>>216380
Pay a chinese KungFlu practitioner to cough and spit in a jar and ship it to you, drink it all like a man then walk all around town and share the fun with everyone.
Any info on those straw roofs? They look like a pain to maintain.

 No.216401

Thinking of buying a bottle of acetaminophen and downing much of it all at once, then going out somewhere I won't be easily found. By the time I am found and end up in a hospital my liver will already be fucked and I'm basically guaranteed dead at that point. I know it would be extremely painful but it's a delayed death in a way, the act of swallowing so many pills would probably be very uncomfortable but it'd be much easier than willing myself to do a much more violent method, and I'd just have to keep myself away from people long enough to cross the point of no return.

From what I've read it can take up to a day for major symptoms to kick in but you need to be hospitalized and treated in the first 8 hours or your chances of survival are extremely slim. I'm a massive coward who flinched and cries if I get stung by a bee even so this seems like the easiest way to get myself to kill myself.

 No.216402

>>216401
No don't do this. It's better to jump off a tall building or shoot yourself in the head or take lots of fentanyl or lay your head down on a traintrack around a bend

 No.216412

>>216402
>tall buildings
Only thing tall enough here is tv or cell towers, which are all fenced with barbed wire and dangerous to climb, most don't even have ladders. Trust me I've explored that option.
>gun
Money I don't have.
>fentanyl
Still too expensive.
>train
There is a track near me but it's not very high speed and there's no "blind" corners or tight bends, also too damn loud and I'm a coward. Have explored that option too.

 No.216418

>>216412
Hanging works and is less painful than your pill method. The method you described is unnecessarily painful, don't torture yourself wiz!

 No.216425

>>216401
Stupid. Absolutely not an option.

>>216412
you literally dont even have a couple of hundred dollars available? Difficult to believe.
In this case just use a rope.

 No.216433

How about an exit bag?

I heard news today. There was Ukraine chess players how killed themseves with laughing gas a couple of days ago.

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-51767082

They did it with balloons containing the gas.

 No.216437

>>216433
It is difficult to set up + not everyone has money, although it is not so much; I do not think that your parents will just give you 100 dollars, considering that you are a wizard and you do not need anything (obviously I am not talking about those who have a job) + if you live with your parents, then the construction can be confiscated, and you will go to a psychiatric hospital if they know about your true intentions + you can remain a vegetable for the rest of your life = shitty option.

 No.216459

I was thinking about SN or N but i may just end with a charcoal grill on the back seat of my car

 No.216462

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Don't think this was mentioned:
German Federal Constitutional Court has lifted the ban on physician-assisted suicide on 26 February 2020.
Meanwhile, Portugal, Spain and New Zealand will be discussing voluntary euthanasia and voting on the issue in the near future.

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-51643306
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-51588601
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Legality_of_euthanasia

News like this fill my heart with hope. Perhaps, we will eventually see voluntary euthanasia/physician-assisted suicide legalized in most countries, and it will be possible to be considered eligible for the procedure on the basis of having a debilitating mental illness, too.

 No.216465

I wonder if I was going to end it all would I be able to do it or would my survival instict be too strong, do I just enjoy fantasising about it or could I manage to pull it off.

 No.216466

The worst feeling in the world is when you don't want to be alive but you're too big of a pussy to do it because you feel obligated to stay for other people's well-being
I don't know why they'd even miss me. Even want me around. I destroy everything I touch, in a way. I'm not cut out for this "life" thing.

 No.216471

>>216425
I have 3 dollars.
>difficult to believe
I guess even on here it's hard for people to believe genuine neets exist, or at least ones that don't get the luxury of mommy's credit card

 No.216478

>>216465
For me, having creature comforts and not doing anything is what's stopping me. If I was having to do stuff every day, then I could probably hunger strike myself to death at least or the train method. I'm not anhedonic so I still enjoy stuff where it's not dependent on me doing anything well e.g. reading/watching tv/food/etc. It's only when I'm having to do stuff or try to do stuff that I suck at(which is everything) that I really feel suicidal. If i could just be a ghost then just spectating like I am now would be viable, but given I'm a blood and flesh clumsy inept oaf, it's not sustainable and I will have to do it or just rot on the sidewalk as a bum.

 No.216492

>>216478
I wish I could still enjoy all that stuff, I remember being a kid playing PS2 and it was like crack, now with the anxiety and depression and self hatred it's difficult for me to get immersed in anything, I'll have to figure out what I'm going to do though, my mind goes between being a NEET, suicide and going out there and making a life for myself, none of them sound great, but I'll have to pick one and run with it because living in limbo where you aren't confident in how you're living doesn't feel great.

 No.216497

>>216462
I don't think so, there's too many pro suffering sadistic scum in both lefties and righties

Lefties: individual is property of the state must wagie for state and consume for it
Righties:life is le gift given le demiurge or le demi nature or le deminationatlism
Both suffering worshipping bastards should get what they deserve and ignore in some many beings I mean fucking pets have the right to die even just for the stress of changing homes and not being able to be supported properly to at least in some countries

 No.216506

>>216492
Yeah, video games aren't as good for it because you're actively playing. It's easier for me to get distracted by reading a wikipedia article on some random thing. I can't be immersed 24/7 though and every time I have to get up to use the bathroom or anything where I'm actively doing something reminds me of my failure and ineptitude. I get flashbacks all the time to screw ups when I'm not fully immersed in reading or watching tv. Even walking in the street, I'll mostly be in my head and then people react even more poorly to my awkwardness. At the end of the day, I'm all too self-aware of my worthlessness while other people are more delusional. The people who are stuck working minimum wage security jobs don't hate themselves as much. I think it's mostly less internal monologue in people who are able to reconcile themselves with low stature where as I always had inferiority complexes on every little thing and I hate seeing people doing better than I am.

 No.216508

>>216497
Well, religion has lost most of its influence in terms of people using it as a disincentive to suicide. There's a new way where psychiatry is used to justify sadism. If you want to kill yourself, you're not qualified to make decisions even if it's the most rational outcome for you. The right wing needs people not to kill themselves for the same motives your left example gives: if everyone who is dissatisfied with their existence kills themselves, then the economic opportunities for them decrease. There has to be necessarily a bottom class of losers for the rest of the system to function properly. If some of them die from not having enough money, that's fine because it wasn't an autonomously made decision and culls the herd. In general, upper classes like hierarchy and having a bunch of losers to rule over is desired.

 No.216523

>>216508
I will kill any psychiatrist I see

 No.216527

>>216290
This. If anybody knows please add info on this

 No.216538

Have any of you tried the 3 day rule from Lost all Hope? It says you must let pass 3 days or a week and see if you think about suicide all the time or not, in this case meaning you don't really wanna kill yourself but instead you have another problem

Back in the day I used to "fix" myself after falling asleep or with random stuff. Nowadays I think about ending it all 24/7 and not only sleeping doesn't changes it but sometimes I wake up and the first thing I think about is killing myself or start reminding myself about my situation and how I arrived at this no-escape point. Before I could pass entire months if not even years without thinking about suicide. Now it is a permanent thing and nothing changes my mood at all

 No.216539

>>216538
>>216538
Oh, if I'm not distracted with something, I usually think about it. I can't really do anything productive, so I've just been reading wikipedia. It's just I'm taking the path of least resistance and indulging in eating/escapism/etc. while I still have a roof over my head. It only will get super intolerable when I can't sustain even an escapist lifestyle.

I was pretty close to jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge in 2011, but I've always had motor skills deficits and never could jump over a fence or anything like that, so when I put my feet on the railing and saw there were people around, I chickened out since I thought if I was too slow, I'd get caught and locked up. I'm really regretting that since not too long after they put a net/barrier there.

 No.216547

If i'm about to overdose on aspirin and warfarin, what type of antiemetics should i use and in what dosage?

 No.216564

>>216538
>you must let pass 3 days or a week and see if you think about suicide all the time or not, in this case meaning you don't really wanna kill yourself but instead you have another problem
Human behavior is more complex than described in this book. You can always change your mind, even if you think about suicide for 3 days in a row, and in some cases you may not think about it at all, but commit it by experiencing sudden, very strong stress. And there are people who think about suicide for years seriously, but do not dare to it, because they are too cowardly.

 No.216571

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I hope I never respawn when I die. That would just be fucking cruel.

 No.216576

>>216571
How can you respawn if your "I" has disappeared? Even if somewhere in another universe there is your clone, it will have a separate consciousness. Do not you think that you, exactly you, live only once?

 No.216578

I bought my N from A, I hope he delivers and it doesnt get caught at customs. Sick and tired of this shit world, people are disgusting

 No.216590

>>215615

OTC drugs are OTC for a reason. Your best bet are probably painkillers like Paracetamol or Ibuprofen, but you're more likely to throw it back up or end up a potato.

>>215664
very low rate of success. your blood will clot up the wound.


>>215955
Im glad for the kid. It probably would have ended up a Wizard or dumb thot anyway.

 No.216591

>>216578
Godspeed anon

 No.216681

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Just ordered the Pedersoli Black Powder .45 caliber Kentucky pistol. Lead bullets and all. Where do I shoot? Anyone have tips on where to shoot for an instant suicide. I know I have to point inside the mouth just not sure about the angle, I remember a thread perhaps years ago where it's been described in great detail.

 No.216683

>>216681
>trying to an hero with a goddamn percussion cap
Oh lel. Hope you don't vegetable yourself.

 No.216685

>>216683
I ordered lead bullets with it, not the average percussion bullets. Should do the job, don't you think?

 No.216686

>>216685
Not the guy you're responding too but I too think this is a terrible idea.

 No.216696

>>216686
Why? It's just as effective as a normal gun, I'll test it first to see the damage. But I think it should be fatal. Especially a straight shot into the head.

 No.216703

>>216696
They just aren’t very powerful. Most people only died to those firearms in the old days after succumbing to infection and such. They probably still have enough power to blow open your skull but it’s just not as assured as a modern firearm or some other methods.

 No.216704

You know, a really good way to make a suicide look like an accident would be to walk next to train tracks while wearing headphones. I think people fairly regularly accidentally die because they jog next to train tracks and aren't able to hear it coming because the music is too loud.

 No.216706

>>216703
But surely if I point it up into my brain through my mouth the effects will be fatal.

Normal modern guns here require too much bureaucratic nonsense, psych tests and similar. Old timey guns that shoot one or two bullets at a time are available for purchase from 18+

 No.216712

>>215664
Cutting your arteries can be deadly if you aim at a main artery like the carotid

 No.216716

>>216704
Dude do you know how fucking loud trains are?

 No.216842

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>>216681
The gun has arrived.

 No.216843

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>>216842
Which bullet should I use? Both are the same material - lead. However the cylindrical shaped one seems heavier.

 No.216849

>>216843
Honestly please consider at least ingesting poison beforehand, or shoot while leaning off a tall building. Black powder is less powerful than what's in modern calibres which still fail to kill some of the time. Also shoot a few test shots if you can to make sure the recoil won't compromise the shot.

 No.216854

>>216716
It does sound crazy that people wouldnt hear it. But they do die like that.

 No.216856

>>216843
The pointed round. It’ll be more accurate, stronger, and pierce better.

 No.216909

is it worth it to try the detergent death ? i'm very poor so it seems like the only option left to me

 No.216913

>>216909
If you can afford detergent you can afford a piece of rope.

 No.216914

>>216913
but then i'll die

 No.216935

Anyone has a clear pic/infographic on where's the best spot on the side of your head to shoot yourself? Don't wanna do it through my mouth.

 No.216939

>>216935
I repeat this request, I'm the dude with the black powder pistol, but please include the mouth version as well.

 No.216953

>>216939
If you're still here, fellow wizard, I found a helpful post in the last thread.

https://wizchan.org/dep/res/213010.html#q213704

Seems like you can basically use your ear as a guide as the brainstem seems to be in the same location according to pics I found on google. Gonna give that a try later tonight or tomorrow, wish me luck.

 No.216954

>>216953
Wizzie, those medical pictures aren't completely anatomically correct, they are only shown the way they are for reference. The actual insides of your body are messy and and vary depending on the shape of your bones and what-not. The only surefire way of destroying your brain stem is by drop hanging, which due to the shape of the vertebrae and the force will cause the vertebrae in your neck to break and rip your spinal cord from your brain.

 No.216957

>>216954
Don't have the luxury of drop-hanging, unfortunately, so this will have to do.

 No.217147

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Has anyone tested the carbon rod one? Seems pretty easy/cheap.

 No.217233

literally just use sodium nitrite. there are sellers on ebay international that even ship to bongoloids and leafs ffs. just make sure its nano2 or acs and use metoclopramide

 No.217273

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I'll probably get banned for this but…
>suicide probably sends you to hell. Meditate on the possibility
>even from a materialist POV, its bad…youre quitting your only chance at existing in such a manner,maybe youll regret it in the last seconds?think of that

if anyone wants to revert their suicide plan,try one last time at life,or just survive,feel free to talk to me

 No.217274

>>217273
Fuck you romznc9csl7er

 No.217275

>>217273
>maybe going through life without committing suicide sends you to hell
>maybe you'll regret later not having done it
Done

 No.217276

>>217275
No!
NO!
You will die, yes..why hurry up?
why not take one last chance at glory?
>>217274
stay alive and come beat me up

 No.217278

>>217276
I never said I wanted to hurt you I hate conf2and those who start it like parents

 No.217279

why can't you accept Thomas Ligotti as our lord and savor

 No.217280

>>217278
Whats what you mean?
use normal words please

 No.217281

>>217278
>>217280
Can't even type correctly I'm fucking sick of it all

 No.217287

>>217273
There isn't anything in the Bible that says suicide will send someone to Hell. In Mark 3, Jesus specifically refers to the unforgivable sin, and it isn't suicide.

 No.217288

>>217287
Also in Matthew 12:31-32.

 No.217289

>>217273
wizchan 2020

 No.217291

Christcucks are at it again with their anti-suicide bullshit. What next, mods advertising suicide hotlines?

 No.217298

this world is hell. checkmate.

 No.217309

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What rope to use for hanging? What rope width would be more suitable? Or any kind of rope will do? It seems I'm too stupid to figure this out myself

 No.217326

>>217309
Just use a good old leather belt and do partial hanging off a doorknob

 No.217340

>>217288
>>217287
the Bible must be interpreted trough the Catholic Church.
Paul says murderers go to hell,and suicide is murder.

 No.217357

>>217273
>suicide probably sends you to hell

lol

 No.217360

>>217273
Tried to kill myself 2 years ago, had second thoughts, chickened out. What's changed? Nothing at all. Every day I wish I'd just done it

 No.217362

>>217340
If the person who committed suicide never accepted Jesus Christ then they would be lost forever, yes. However a Christian who killed themselves would be forgiven.

 No.217364

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>murder
Not allowed
>adultery
Not allowed
>theft
Not allowed
>Suicide
Allowed

 No.217367

>>217360
I mean I've had similar attempts before but I was under real threat of getting caught so I had to stop it.

 No.217376

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>>217364
You may have a point but it's pretty obvious suicide is forbidden in Christianity due to the fact that most or probably all believers would just suicide just to go to heaven. Religion was created to give mankind some purpose and hope to evolve. Without action or purpose we would simply not even be here.

 No.217378

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>>217367
I did it in front of a family member that didn't even try to stop me. We don't talk anymore. My plan now is to do it once the forced vaccinations start happening

 No.217382

>>217376
Alternate view: What if religion was created by people in elite positions to keep people working and living, thus preventing them from killing themselves so that these elite people could continue to live luxurious lives at the expense of all others?

 No.217391

>>217382
Yep in high school some kid told me about this, he was strange. But he told me that religion was also made to keep cattle in check and not kill themselves because they gotta work for them for no reason. Without religion I don't think we would advance as fast as this.

 No.217393

>>217382
>>217391
There are religion out there there that preach the "this world is just an illusion, just renounce your ties with the earthy to reach god" bullshit.

 No.217394

>>217393
The world feels like a complicated mess, I lost my faith because I can not understand this place one bit or why am I here. Gods are just like mantras to keep people in check, there is no chosen one, no God, no fucking nothing. We are in empty space and plopped just like this to eat sleep and reproduce mindlessly. The Earth doesn't speak, it doesn't do anything but rotate, we have no true guidence and we just follow our mindlessly instincts untill we are all killed off by something, what a waste of time.

 No.217395

>>217393
That's more fitting the definition of a cult. Established religions usually give validation to a certain ruler. Religions that can be manipulated to support a ruler are also a thing. The level of organization needed to go from a cult to an organized religion is pretty high and can typically only happen with legal sanction.

There's a reason the Cathars got killed off.

 No.217435

What are your thoughts on this scene bros?
I just thought this scene is quite interesting because it BTFOs the normalfaggy arguments that are raised against suicide.
The anime sucks by the way.

 No.217436

>>217435
That was good to watch. To be frank, this could never get aired on US TV. Like he said, Christianity and governments are a main reason it's not allowed, but idk how that makes sense in a Japanese context besides being influenced by the US. It's probably that since I remember it being common for people in Japan to kill themselves so the family would get the life insurance money.

 No.217454

>>216576
Your "I" could come into existence the first time, so there's no reason it couldn't come into existence again. What makes you think you only live once? One human lifetime and then eternal nothingness sounds too good to be true.

 No.217455

>>216576
We don't even know if there is a continuous self in the first place. It's possible that your "I" dies every moment of every day.

 No.217458

>>217455
I’m so tired of this metaphysical BS. God philosophy is so worthless.

 No.217459

>>217458
your comment is Undue and Improper;the shirtless guy is talking about science-based concepts

 No.217460

>>217458
Philosophy isn't all metaphysics. Most of metaphysics was just a product of the science not being advanced enough at the time. Science came from philosophy itself, though.

Life is a lot more mundane though now that we know we're just flesh and blood meatbags who exist for no real reason.

 No.217464

>>217458
Your comment is a philosophical observation.

 No.217465

>>217459
> science-based concepts
No, no he is not. There is no testable basis to see if your "I" dies, or if you're a boltzmann brain or whatever other bullshit. And the outcome of such a thing if it was testable would not matter in the slightest.

 No.217476

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A shot in the head is clearly the best method. You'll die so quickly that you won't even have time to feel the pain. If you're among the 5% who survive just try it again, I'm sure a second time will do it.

For those who have a gun, why haven't you done it already?

 No.217503

>>217476
As much as anyone would like to deny it, very few people still have a slimmer of hope somewhere that stops them from ending it instantly.

 No.217572


 No.217606

>>217309
Same, no matter how i try i cannot achieve any result in partial. I can't even sharpen a fucking knife watching video guides for several fucking hours. I'm too stupid to figure how leave this world.

 No.217608

>>217273
give me ONE fucking logical argument against poverty charged suicide. I live in post soviet shithole, there is no sun, there is no love, it's literal hellhole in which i will never survive without the help from my granny which is already sick in mind and dying. There is no rational arguments against killing self in my occasion.

 No.217610

I've already tried to kill myself 2 years ago and failed. Nothing changed since that. Nothing will ever change, it's going to be only worse. That's how life works.

 No.217623

>>217608
Jesus has chosen for you to suffer in this fashion as a spiritually redeeming experience. If you kill yourself over poverty, you won't go to heaven.

Real talk: You're right.

 No.217625

>>217623
>He has chosen me to suffer.
Seems like a god I want to worship. Why couldn't he just make me live in a 2D isekai power fantasy instead.

 No.217629

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How to do tourniquet method during sleep ? I am in lockdown and can't go outside. Want to die by strangulation from tourniquet method . Any video or tips would he appreciated please

 No.217630

>>217629
you can't strangle yourself in your sleep, you'll subconsciously undo whatever is around your neck

 No.217631

>>217630
https://www.researchgate.net/figure/Tourniquet-method-case-1_fig1_38078596

But people succeed doing this . I have no option due to lockdown any other method

 No.217641

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How easy is it to get to your carotid and bleed out. If you mix it with high dosage of aspirine beforehand and a strong long course of taking anticoagulants (i.e. warfarin). Please tell this is as lethal and reliable, as i think it is. I don't have any other methods on my hands, except for some meme ones like poisoning on OTC drugs. Can't even find a decently tall enough building in this fucking city.

 No.217643

>>217623
>Jesus has chosen for you to suffer in this fashion as a spiritually redeeming experience
There's already hell for that exact purpose. Let alone i'll simply be forced to make even more nasty things and sinning to redeem for simply in order to survive. Just throwing me into hell would be more consistent, but this "Jesus has a plan for you" explanation is a pure retardcy.
>If you kill yourself over poverty, you won't go to heaven
Cry me a fucking river on that. I just want to be returned back to the void and never bothered again.

 No.217647

>>217455
Modscum also deleted our comments regarding the shirtless wizkid?

Is he untouchable around here or something

 No.217651

Is suicide by crossbow a decent alternative to a firearm in a country where I don't have access to firearms? I'd rather not go through with a method like hanging where possible

 No.217678

>>217641
Yes it will make your blood thin and bleed like a river but you have to take warfarin and aspirin days before the suicide.

And I would prefer jumping when my blood is thin you would die 100 percent.

 No.217679

>>217651
No just no. You would injure yourself than die. It's better to die in a warzone area than crossbow byself .

 No.217682

>>217678
Thanks for giving me hope, anon.
>And I would prefer jumping
I'm thinking about combining these two methods. But first of all i need to find a tall enough building - not an easy task in thirdworld. And then i have to make sure there is an access to the roof.

 No.217687

>>217682
It's hard in the US too due to anti-suicide barriers and stuff put up at the best spots.

 No.217688

>>217687
are there some nets on the edges of Grand Canyon?

 No.217692

>>217688
I don't think so, but guards will try to stop you and it's not so steep that you'd die on impact, so you'd have a painful fall down and suffer.

 No.217712

So is it a fact now that the oxygen method no longer works? I've heard they've modified the tanks or masks or something so you can no longer kill yourself with them.

 No.217713

>>217692
Yeah, I'm more talking about places where the height is high enough and the fall is a perfect slam into the ground/ocean. The issue is, it's bad publicity so they will try to stop people at all costs. I'm kicking myself every day for not doing it before they cracked down on the golden gate bridge.

 No.217717

>>217713
If it's steep enough that you will tumble on the way down then you're likely to end up dead. People can die just from falling down a flight of stairs, after all, although with that distance they can also just end up crippled.

 No.217733

So if i'm about to buy a 10mm climbing rope, how many meters do i need and where exactly do i buy it? Sorry for being retarded.

 No.217746

I've got needles. What are my chances by injecting air into my veins? Drugs are not an option.

 No.217749

>>217746
If a larger amount of air is injected at once, you get air instead of blood flowing through the veins. When this reaches the right heart, you get a beating right ventricle sloshing around bubbles instead of blood, and cardiac output goes to zero just as if the heart had stopped. The patient dies suddenly.

 No.217754

>>217749
Thank you for the information by instantly do you mean real quick? How come no one ever talks about this method?

>>217752 everyone is a jew nowadays, that's why I am killing myself

 No.217757

On other instances i was in a hospital constantly pulling out my lifelines on the IC

Traumatized the staff so much. The guard holding me down was literally crying when he stared into my lost, doomed soul. Perhaps he caught a quicj glimpse of his own future reflection.

That shit was real hell. Change can happen though. It is not likely that crushing of new dreams will not occur, they always shatter

But dont kill yrself mayne.
not like that

 No.217963

>>217476
I have a chronic procrastination problem. It's one of the big reasons I want to kill myself, because this problem has pretty much caused me to fuck my own life up. It's just one of the reasons I want to kill myself, but it is also ironically enough one of the reasons I haven't done it yet. I just constantly keep pushing it back, I think maybe because I'm still a little afraid.

 No.218025

>>217963
If you procrastinate long enough you'll die anyway, I wonder if that counts as suicide.

 No.218074

>>217357
i DEFEND my statement

 No.218075

>>217455
>>217647
he's dead
a thread on /sci/ showed a poster of him as a missing person,then his car was found near a lake

 No.218083

How much propane would it take to blow myself up in an enclosed space and leave almost no remains? Couldn't care less if it looks intentional, just don't want to leave a mess.

 No.218095

>>218083
> leave almost no remains
No amount will do this.

 No.218102

>>218095
How much will guarantee death, then?

 No.218215

Heard about the guy that went out with a bang out in front of a wally world in Michigan. What a fucking champ. I still think the best suicide I've read about was a dude from my town who drove his car into the side of a brick building.

 No.218219

>>215554
his dad didn't die wtf is that anon on about. that guy did want to die, he was a friend of mine. i understand his pain

 No.218220

>>218219
>friend

 No.218221

>>215457
for me its my cat that keeps me from doing it. i've had him for 10 years and every time someone else had to watch him for a bit he ends up miserable and fat. i think he genuinely becomes depressed when i leave him for more than a week. the people i leave him to don't try to overfeed him or anything, i give him the same amount of food and everything, but he becomes lifeless and fat just like a depressed human if i leave him. he only has maybe 4-6 years left, so do i then

 No.218228

>>218220
>04/09/20

 No.218231

Slicing my carotid… my only hope…

 No.218236

Suicide is a task and you have to work hard to achieve it.

 No.218542

BBC documentary on a young autistic succubus who killed herself.

 No.218546

I have this big thing to say that I'll order heroin off Empire Market and do it in the woods and overdosed and die. Anyway, seems more likely I'll smoke cigarettes until I get cancer and then die of that, either that or severe alcohol withdrawal will give me chest pains that are lethal.
The best way to dye and sell alcoho is alcohol or benzodiazepine withdrawal preferably both. If you know a meth dealer you can always smoke a few grams and wait for a heart attack to.
I honestly don't know it doesn't make sense to me, committing suicide when you could be drinking alcohol that makes you feel better in the first place. U

 No.218597

>>218542
looks like a tranny

 No.218598

Eh, collapse is coming soon anyways… I want to live long enough to see my bullies suffer from climate change. I feel instant relief whenever I see news about people dying from droughts and floods. I wonder if I can do anything to accelerate it. If humans are going to all die then they might as well speed it up. To think the all mighty bullies who tortured me are now having their homes burnt, it does bring a smile to my face. It won't be pleasant when it happens to me. I like to shoot without being shot. I seek a one sided victory against my enemies. My fan is constantly turned on spurting its carbon, goddamn what a hard worker. Fans are the epitome of diligence. Every breath I visualize as the toxic rain that will ruin crops as the locusts that will eat up other people's breakfast. wtf man…. It's like God is deciding to quicksave and make a playthrough for the worst ending possible. This is such a queer timeline. Entropy is my best friend.

 No.218617

>>218597
let me ask you this: what does NOT look like a tranny to you?

 No.218619

>>218617
round face, soft features, small nose, small mouth, small forehead, neotenous

is this hard for you?

 No.218623

>>218598
Nice larp wizkid, but you'll be the first on your knees, working for rations with tears in your eyes

Got take some more action that that

 No.218628

>>218623
Rations? The cannibalistic marauders will kill me for my flesh before that… I wonder if you even understand what a climate change collapse situation would look like….

 No.218632

>>218597
Are you one?

 No.218737

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Thoughts on this thing?

You can order it for 175$, but I'd be careful. might be a scam

https://www.right2die.org/wp-content/uploads/videos/moon.mp4

 No.218798

>>215554
It was in the news article that went up online about it

 No.218833

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I've had this gut feeling that I will die in the near future since I was a teenager–so for about twenty years now. (Either by accident or suicide.) It's always stopped me from planning for the future, since I never believed I had much longer to live. It's a thought I have daily.

It gets so bad sometimes I won't even pay bills, because I figure why bother since I'll be dead soon.

Now in my thirties I can manage to force myself to eat well, brush after every meal, and save a little bit of my autismbux each month. But this gut feeling that I'll be dead soon still impedes any serious long-term planning.

 No.218834

>>215512
Oh shieeet! this is the first time I've heard this.

Hope you are happy suicidewiz…no seriously I hope you're alright,hug your dad for me,as you said I hope you have crazy fast internet speeds up there.

 No.218835

>>215506
Did you actually read it? He said that the only reason he was still alive because he lacked a good method,once that barrier was gone he did it.

btw can you post the link to the archive? Also there was another guy from finland I think that killed himself in 2019,he made a thread about it.

I wonder how many wizards have killed themselves since this place started,anyone knows of someone else?

 No.218836

>>218835
He says that because the guy seemed very distressed and scared.

 No.218838


 No.218854

How deep do i have to cut to reach carotid and in what place? Will 1cm be enough? I think fear has taken hold of me.

 No.218933

Can someone tell me how i should do partial hanging so i can die fast and painless?

 No.218978

>>218933
I've read a lot of info on this method, but it simply isn't working out for me. I'm not losing consciousness no matter how i place the noose. Now i'm forced to place my faith other methods that i have on my hands and all of them are brutal and not that reliable. I think i'm in hell.

 No.219395

>>217476
Because I have SN and SA and would rather not contribute to the gun death statistics so leftists could abuse it? I'm in Switzerland btw.

 No.219411

R.I.P Witchie

 No.219412

>>219411
i read the comments lamenting her ripness state and couldn't help but laugh, thanks wizbro

 No.219427

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>>215486
>>216681
>>216842
>>217476
What are wizards' experiences with buying guns? I keep hearing stories about autists getting turned away from gun stores from acting "creepy" and bullshit like that, but other people have told me that that's bullshit, and if you're White and can pass a background check you're fine. I'm probably going to order a gun online and pick it up at the shop just to be safe. And when I pick up the gun, what's the process like exactly? Do I have to fill out any paperwork or things like that before getting the gun?

Also, do wizards here have any tips on what type of gun to buy? I'm thinking of getting either a revolver or a shotgun. I'm reluctant to buy a shotgun mostly because I'm still living with my parents and because of their large size, which might increase the odds of getting caught with a gun. Revolvers and semi-auto pistols are a lot easier to hide. I'm also planning on getting one with a high caliber, probably a .45 and will use a hollow point.

 No.219437

>>219411
What happened and why do you post this?
I do not wish to see 3d when i browse here

 No.219454

>>219437
Wizchan 2020

 No.219480

>>219427
I've bought plenty of guns.
You can order online but it won't really make much of a difference, you still have to go to the store and fill out the form and do the background check.

I don't know how much of an autist you are but, as long as you don't set off any red flags and give them a reason to think you might kill yourself or someone else, you'll be fine. I assure you the gun community is filled with autistic weirdos, just go on /k/ for 20 minutes and you'll see.


As far as firearm choice, the obvious gold standard for suicide is a shotgun, but if you're concerned about hiding it, a large caliber pistol will still be okay, just make sure to do your research and make sure you shoot yourself in the right spot. Personally I would go with atleast .44 magnum or .357, but you could do it just fine with a 9mm. I wouldn't feel comfortable with anything less than that though.

 No.219508

This year will be my last
I'm going to die by hanging on my birthday I hope to enjoy these last months of my life brothers

 No.219509

>>219508
Good luck, wizzie. I don't know your situation, but please try to continue to take care of your health and finances right up until your suicide, just in case. Too many people completely let themselves go because they intend to suicide, only they discover they're just not ready yet. And now they're obese, have dental issues, broke, etc., AND suicidal.

 No.219511

>>219508
You should do it now before you change your mind. Setting dates like this rarely works, there's too much buildup.

 No.219519

>>219480
>You can order online but it won't really make much of a difference, you still have to go to the store and fill out the form and do the background check.
Can you get the background check done online before you pick the gun up at the store?

 No.219525

>>219509

I've always ideated suicide but I can't think of anything I'd do differently since the ideation is mostly due to those things. Like the excessive maintenance costs of being alive, being good enough at something to make enough money to afford medical care, and so on.

 No.219528

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>>219480
If I use a shotgun, should I use a slug or 00 buckshot?

 No.219535

>>219528
I'd go with slug

 No.219553

>>219528
Slug for sure, but buckshot is fine as well.

 No.219604

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>>219480
Should I shoot myself in the mouth or temple?

 No.219605


 No.219606

>>219604
When you shoot yourself in the mouth with a shotgun you should be dead for sure, but you still should use a mirror and check the angle. If you do it wrong you just end up with a big whole in your cheek.

 No.219607

>>219605
>>219606
What are the odds that I accidentally shoot myself in the neck if I put the gun in the mouth, and become a quadriplegic and live?

 No.219611

>>219607
If you pay me $500 + shipping I'll construct a jig you can put your head and gun inside to ascertain correct angle.

 No.219619

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>>219607
Probably less than 1%

 No.219624

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 No.219630

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>>219624
You know, I think we're onto something here. The Jisatsu Shoppe

>wide range of helpful tools to help you help me help us all

>family pack deluxe noose set
>sect discounts
>customer dead = no warranty returns
>all items come with a multilingual manual

I'd keep a banner on this site, if you enter discount code WIZCHAN you'll get 10% off, manufacture would be outsourced to China

 No.219640

>>218628
>climate change collapse
lmao, ok Greta. It will be economic.

 No.219668

>>219619
What are they using to measure agont and how do you end up with 17.78 agony

 No.219669

There is hope wizzies, don't commit suicide.

 No.219670

>>219669
Please do not proselytize here. This is not only /dep/ but the suicide general as I'm sure you're aware. The people here do not want encouraging words.

 No.219671

>>219670
Why are discouraging words okay, but not encouraging words? If they're on the suicide general, that means they're open to life still. I used to post on these threads and I want to help my fellow wizzies by reminding them that there is always hope.

 No.219672

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>>219671
>I used to post on these threads
Quitter!

 No.219674

>>219671
Hope for what? You must have forgotten to say.

 No.219675

>>219607
Combine the shotgun method with a rope, that way after you fire into your head you'll collapse into the noose and choke yourself to death in the instance you survive the shot.

 No.219677

>>219675
What's the best way to do this? Should I stand on a chair with a noose around my neck when I blow my brains out, and hope I get knocked off the chair and the rope tightens?

 No.219681

>>219671
>Why are discouraging words okay, but not encouraging words?
Cause the people here have heard it all before.

 No.219684

>>219677
You can do it standing on the ground through partial suspension hanging, after you fire into your head your body is going to collapse.

Another method is to do it in waist deep water.

Or if it's a shotgun, you can fire it right into your heart. I'll be a bit longer but you're definitely going to die.

 No.219713

>>215457

How to commit suicide at home during lockdown successfully?

I am afraid of hanging method because there are family with me in my house and they can fine me at wrong time that would make me a vegetable instead of dead.

Is there any other method which can be done at home ? What about tourniquet method where you have to tie a cloth strip around your neck and tie a stick like object to it.

You rotate it clockwise so that you compress your artery vein and die during sleep .

Is there any method which can be done ?

 No.219718

>>219713
>What about tourniquet method
To do this safely, you want to do it in a place where no one will find you for at least thirty minutes. You pass out in seconds, then your brain dies a few minutes later. The extra 25 minutes is mostly just to be absolutely sure some doctor can't revive you into a vegetable state.

 No.219724

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>>219718

Any tips to make the artery compress instead of burning my skin . All I get is burning of skin or head going to pop out feeling.

Where should I apply the pressure ? A pic should be helpful . Thanks

 No.219734

>>219731

Thanks .I will keep practicing it and when I am master in this then I am ready for the oblivion.

 No.219738

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>>219411
holy shit what a feeble minded simpleton

 No.219755

>>219738
agree op also if i could sing i would fucking sing all day in my house and outside whnat a dumb cunt sorry not sorry -_-

 No.219765

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I got stood over for my car by a gang.

They kept on parking on my property and I got angry and slashed one of their tires.

I didn't know they were gangsters.

I'm lucky they didn't just take everything off me and put me in hospital tbh.

 No.219781

>>219755
> if i could sing
you mean your singing voice is terrible or you would disturb others?

 No.219782

>>219781
considering he replied to a post about a talented singer, I think he means that if he had a voice as good as hers.

 No.219841

>>219738
My dick gets hard every time i hear about a normie's suicide or death. When the black thug basketball player died i celebrated with some cheap store bought cake. It really validates the soul.

 No.219842

>>219640
Climate change will cause droughts and famines resulting in a food shortage, climate and economy is interlinked. The gangs will roam looking for homes with food and they will kill the people for survival. All i have to do then is simply wait at home for them to come into my house and shoot me in the head and eat me for my flesh. I hope it will be painless…. I;m too pussy to kill myself so i let others do the dirty work…

 No.219870

>>218737
Im also interested in this. Anyone got any info if its a scam site? They claim this product got an award in 2017 by Nutch in Toronto but I cant find proof of that.

 No.219873

>>219842
well, you're going to be waiting around like 30 years for this. I don't have that kind of time.

 No.219878

why is nembutal so expensive? I need to spend all my money for it. Is heroin OD too risky? I don't really want to spend all my money for a nembutal bottle that I might get scammed on…

 No.219882

>>219873
It will take even less, thus is exponential progress and the effects of feedback loops. I have to survive to see my enemies suffer

 No.219906

>>219738
>died days after lockdown began
>felt like 300 years
is this some kind of a joke? how can be someone this turbo normal for not meeting anyone in person for some days and ends it all. for me to not going anywhere for 3 months is like heaven, i'dont go anywhere if it is not unecesarry and they say i'm the idiot weak one. much joy for me, that my "idiotic" ways of life suddenly forced on whose always looked down on me and they handle it even worse than i handle the forced socialization in person. i hope this will be the key to clean up the wageslave industry, youth normals falling apart, they gonna quit their forced home office jobs to go for less wage but "live as a normal" anything shit jobs where needed to be presented in person. or kill themself. boomers gonna do the same. wizards going to be left, who can endure solitude remote work, but not many wizards in the world, so employers gonna beg and pay good wages for lazy jobs with no pressure, because there will be no 100 other fast paced idiot normals applying anymore. i hope the ones who have money, aka the employers will need to apply employees almost like a partner to give fair share from their business, because their cheap slave biorobots dissapears.

 No.219907

>>219906
She was a singer, so it's more she got validated. If she just worked at wal-mart, I doubt she'd give a shit.

the scenario you describe would be good but more likely they just automate as much as they can and pay low wages for the rest

 No.219914

>>219907
Yeah. Any job you can do remotely can be done by someone in India for a fraction of your wages. Working remotely is the dream but it's probably not sustainable.

 No.219923

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>>219878
Does anyone here know how hard it is to get more powerful opiates like fentanyl, carfentanil, U-47700, etc.? It seems like most of the Upjohn opiates have been banned. Are there any opiate analogs that are still legal, or is the street the only place to realistically get heroin/opiates? Also, if you're an autist with no social skills, how should you approach homeless people or potential dealers in order to get heroin?

 No.219924

>>219923
>>219878
Darknet. Wizzes shouldnt be taking the risk of drug deals in person. Heroin is an excellent choice of suicide drug and is one of the most plentiful drugs on the darknet. Fentanyl is better, more difficult to find, but only try to get it over heroin if it is available with a reputable seller in your country

 No.219925

>>219924
How likely is it that you will get caught if you order from the darknet?

 No.219926

>>219925
It depends how careful you are. If you only pick vendors with a lot of reviews, do one small order, use one of the main sites, use monero instead of bitcoin, then I'd say it is very safe. If you want to be fully sure then just make sure you don't leave any evidence that you placed the order on your PC - police would have no proof since anyone can send a package to your address.

 No.219929

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>>219411
>>219738
Made me chuckle, that's some entry-level norman shite.

 No.219930

Any wizzy can tell me if its an good idea to get yourself killed by drowning? Because I don't know how to swim. So it would be a convenient idea

 No.219933

>>219926
Should I get a new laptop for the sole purpose of ordering drugs off the darknet?

 No.219934

>>219930
Drowning seems extremely painful according to >>219619. If you kill yourself by drowning, I suggest getting extremely drunk or doing some other drug before hand in order to anesthetize yourself.

 No.219938

>>219933
I would try and order through an open wifi with TOR or something as well. Its not full proof though. Your router can have records of the mac address of any device connected to it. Pretty sure this data gets purged if the device doesn't connect and you can usually reset the router to factory default or erase it manually.

I have no idea how thoroughly the cops check this shit for just a regular user though. More than likely they would just use it is an excuse to poke around and hope they actually find the drugs in your home.

 No.219948

>>219933
Using a bootable USB drive works fine and isnt too hard

 No.219954

is taking 1g of Pure Fentanyl Powder mixed with water and drinking it overkill? I know you just need some mg but I wanna take the whole thing to be sure. I might take half and leave whats left with a note to my mother to take it if she want to follow me.

 No.219955

Thought about it for some time now but it all arises from trying to escape inevitable pain, I actually want to live but I'm afraid and things feel hopeless.

 No.219956

>>219955
I've found that often times the anticipation of pain is more painful than the pain itself. If you do you want to live, then seek detachment from the future and live just day to day.

 No.219963

>>219933
you shouldn't worry too much, for the most part LE only goes after vendors and dealers, not small time users.

>>219948
this. install tails, use dark.fail to avoid getting scammed, if you can - use bitcoin ATM's to buy, remember to encrypt your messages and you should be fine. if you're ordering domestic the chance of you getting caught are really really slim, especially during the corona panic ppl are ordering tons of useless shit so the chance of them checking your package are almost nonexistent. search for dnm bible on reddit and follow the guide.

 No.219967

>>219954
Better to snort it because you'll basically vomit poison everywhere

 No.219971

>>215512
>yeah, what a tragedy and his father died when he went to check on him in the shed.
Can you verify this??

 No.219975

>>217757
Why were you in hospital in the first place?

 No.219976

>>219765
nice panjeet macro, can you explain how you came into this circumstance?

 No.220025

>>219611
Are you serious or are you just LARPing? Have you built similar things before? If you're serious, how should I pay you?

 No.220027

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>>220025
Well, back when I posted that I just threw it out on a whim, partially because I thought it was a silly question. I mean, "what are the odds that I accidentally…", how the fuck is anyone going to know how clumsy that person is, and if he actually had ordered one I figured I'd either just send him a birdhouse with the base removed and he could just put that on his head and shoot into the entrance or a bicycle helmet with a hole drilled on top and a piece of pvc pipe glued on. The bird house is probably not too bad of an idea actually as it could possibly bring some amusement to the situation for those present in the aftermath.

But on a serious note, yes, I think I could construct something like it. I have a well equipped workshop and experience making constructions in metal, wood, plastic, fibreglass etc. For a functioning and "bullet proof" solution I'd much rather make a copy of the classic suicide helmet though, with multiple shots fired from many angles, or for a larger sum of money I could imagine just meeting up with someone, putting them out and dispose of their body.

 No.220028

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>>220027
>For a functioning and "bullet proof" solution I'd much rather make a copy of the classic suicide helmet though, with multiple shots fired from many angles
Do you also have experience with circuits/electronics? If you actually do this, you may want to create a miniature circuit connected to a bullet beforehand, in order to make sure that your setup is capable of detonating the bullets.

 No.220043

>>220028
Aye, I'd definitely run tests, probably with the full number of bullets. But I might also give that part a different approach, maybe a setup with spring loaded pins. For european customers one could probably make a version for bolt gun rounds as those are legal for anyone to purchase in most countries.

 No.220060

Seaside is a long trip to the astral and the suffering doesn't end there, it begins. Hating creation = hating yourself. Sorry boys that dutch wizard is literally suffering in hell right now because he chose that for himself.

 No.220067

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>>220060
Which hell is he in?

 No.220105

>>215486
What kind of gun is it? I can have a look

 No.221031

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Is there a way to get SN in India? I need help wizards.


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