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The last suicide thread has hit the bump limit.
Previous thread:


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There are reports that this guy, who has often been discussed here, passed away peacefully. Let's hope it's true.
>A heartbroken mother has released photos of her son, who is in a vegetative state after attempting suicide.


Is there an explanation to why some succubi act like this?


Thank you.
I want to believe it.


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How did the story of the blinking prince end? It ended with the grim reaper offering out his hand and our prince blinking twice.


αἰών τέλεος finally got him.


There is a God.


My mother gave me a reality check two days ago and it made me really suicidal, I feel better now but next time I will probably train because everything is just fucked.


I'm just a bad couple days from hanging myself in my closet.


What is your problem?


Where do I even begin?
My whole life has been a steadily accelerating spiral of bad decisions, brain problems, addiction, lust, self loathing, and failure. The past three months in particular have been pretty bad - I get pretty close to just tying a sheet into a rope and doing it already almost every night these days, and only hold back because the impulse eventually passes, but each time it takes longer and feels more convincing.
I keep wishing that I could get hit by a car or have a fatal massive aneurysm or something. I'm tired of being a burden on those around me, a disappointment to my parents, and a disgusting addict. I'm tired of those brief moments where things seem to be going okay that inevitably lead into another failure, managing only to delay the action I should have taken years ago.


Just disappear and start a new life. Better than suicide without knowing what's waiting you after death.
If life after death exists, better not go as suicidal. If it doesn't, fuck the world, start a new life.
For me it's logical


Is this post satire?


Welp, looks like self immolation as a form of political protest is out as an option. Holy fuck look how long he's just walking around while engulfed in flames. I really would have thought death would come sooner than that.



>Just disappear and start a new life.
lmao you watch too many movies bro


this just makes me angry, and i'm not even that suicidal.
give the man some fucking dignity, don't post his crippled body online for people to gawk at. self righteous assholes…..


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How do you cope with a loved one wanting to take their own life? I am struggling to reconcile my open views on suicide with my care for this person (a distant family member).


a "distant family member" huh


i don't know your relationship with this person, but if you love them enough, maybe you should talk with them?

in the end, it's really their decision.

i would make it very obvious that you're there for them if they need you (if you're in a mental/emotional position to do so, of course).

the fuck is your problem, this guy is upset and you're questioning his motives.


How do you kys in Canada?


Who in the fuck says distant family member? Just a curious thing he was called out for


I wonder if anything will come of this, if Sanctioned Suicide will get shut down. It's a deeply flawed site, filled with a lot of normans and poor advice, but there are still some good and interesting people contributing on there.
>Suicide assistance: Did website contribute to Shawn Shatto's death?
>A young Pennsylvania succubus with severe depression and anxiety killed herself after allegedly getting detailed instructions on a site that bills itself as a “pro-choice” suicide forum.
>Shatto’s parents saved screenshots of her posts and gave them to police. They now hope to raise awareness that such “evil” websites exist and to hold someone accountable in her death.


Be careful of sanctioned suicide as it is now run by normalfag clique trolls. Make sure to keep anonymous through vpn on there.


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Does anyone here know anything about pentobarbital? If you live in the US, you can go to Mexico and buy it over the counter, since it's used for euthanizing animals. Does anyone here know if it's legal to import into the US, and how one might go about doing that?


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I wonder what his story is. Looks like he killed himself just before his 40th birthday, if I'm reading his passport right. Did he die in some cheap, sweltering third world hotel? Seems like a sad place to die.


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Thank you, wiz. Was he some sort of Russian Internet personality?

RIP Viktor.


It's the only thing I want to do but most days I can't even get out of bed to take a shower so I know I'm not going to do it any time soon.


There is an email for a supplier that will send to the US in The Peaceful Pill Handbook. It's not legal.


>A 17-year-old Dutch succubus has been euthanised at her home after she said the trauma of being raped as a young succubus made her feel she couldn’t keep living.


lucky lass tbh.


Shame euthanasia will never be a thing in America


Probably fucked by her middle-eastern migrant bf and regretted it.


must be nice


Rip moddess


Funny thing is, the article says it does
>Euthanasia is also legal in some US states

She was raped by two men when she was 14


In a few states, and only if you're someone with 500 diseases and physical ailments.



Thanks for the link.
>Pothoven did indeed apply for The Netherlands' legal euthanasia process, but physicians reportedly denied her request. Her recent death came after a long struggle with anorexia and depression, in which the teen ultimately refused to consume food, water, or anything to keep her alive.


>pro life moralfags shaming her parents
This just make it even more depressing


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Must be nice to live in a country that respects your right to die.


If one doesn't have access to fentanyl, is jumping the next best option.

I'm thinking it is, especially if its into a river that will take care of your body and not leave a mess. Any other ideas for someone who's set a date for Oct 31st?


Why did you choose Halloween?


I can't wait to suicide and finally get life over with


It's the extreme last day I think I can keep going. Most likely I'll snap before though.


how do you plan on doing it?


I have everything I need except meto


Can you order Nembutal through the dark web?


What is there to cope with?
>if they want to die and die, it's what they wanted
>if they don't want to die but die, they can't regret it
Anything else is just selfishness on your part. Substitute suicide for unpopular career choice, marriage, or joining some group.


no look and infinity chans sucide board >>201981

I received 2 bottles from him. I have nembutal, but i am scard to die and it would be a disaster if i open the bottles and can't drink it. any advice? I litteraly have no choice anymore, it's all a disaster and really fucked up. I want to be gone this years…


Trapped in a loop where I feel suicidal urges, sleep or wait long enough to get over them, feel better, give in to my addiction again, feel disgusting, and feel suicidal again.
I'll probably do it with my belt hung over my doorknob. My coworkers see me as a pretty bright guy so it'll probably be fairly shocking. I won't leave a note.
I know I'll probably end up in Hell afterwards. The temptation to die gets stronger every day, and it's all I can do to keep going like this.


Why i always turn religious when i plan to suicide
Is it because i kinda know that it's real and i will be fucked in hell , or just because im a big pussy


The survival instinct is hard-coded deep within our minds; it causes all sorts of absurd effects.


It's because it's real and you should do something before you go


In my case I was heavily brainwashed with christian garbage that still worries me about the afterlife despite not believing in god nor any shit like that. My mind has ingrained the idea that everything I do will be judged and that I'm being watched all the time, even by people. I think I might have paranoia at this point


How can I go to the roof of a building? are those locked or what? Maybe I'll see an abandoned building or some shit idk


Look up spirit box communication videos, no one ever changes we just lose our physical bodies. The shit you hear during very clear one's that quite the absurd super serious opposite of some religious nonsense about heaven and hell. I'm sure there are hell worlds out there you can find or end up in should you enter the astral not knowing how much control you will have but other heaven and hell are umbrella states.


How much did you pay? It says 600 for two bottles. I think I'll buy one too. Seems to be the most peaceful method. Dying in your sleep with no pain…

I don't have any advice for you. You can die anytime you want, if you really will want to die, you'll do it.


Where can I ship/store Nembutal? I live with my parents.


Please help me, wizards.


The sad truth is you or 99% of people are too pussy to do it anyways cause of our shitty survival instincts and instincts, you are stuck here forever boi.


hanging is tried and true (and free).


I know I will never have the courage to kill myself. I will endlessly fall in this bottomless well of hatred and despair until the demiurge takes me.


Mary Kills People finale is on tonight!


I think I'm more concerned with people who are only subconsciously suicidal. If you were fully consciously suicidal you'd just end it.


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The earth is a brazen bull. You can't escape. You can't man up and overcome the pain. You can only suffer.


Gonna try to helium myself tonight but I'll most likely pussy out like the coward I am might try to get xanax or alcohol and try then if I bitch out yet again god I hate my lizard brain so fucking much


Whatever happens, may you find peace of mind.


Stop coping and rationalising the fact that you are way too much of a pussy to walk up 20 stories and dive head first into pavement dying instantly?

When I see someone whining "wahhhhh suicide is hard" what I see is "Wahhhh, I'm too afraid to commit suicide, someone please make me feel better!"


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Mother and I had a long talk about suicide today. Seems it might finally be time for me to order some fentanyl and, frankly, it's been a long time coming. I have a few questions first, however, and I'd appreciate if someone could take the time to answer them. It's a bit lazy, since I know there's probably info on this elsewhere, but please bear with me.

Anyway, to start with, is there a chance I could go to jail over ordering fentanyl? Would it be best to have it sent directly to me, or to a 3rd party P.O. box? I live in Canada, by the way.

How would the fentanyl itself be utilized? Would it most likely be an injectable, or a liquid to be imbibed? Could it be put in a pill capsule of some kind? In whichever case, how much would be enough?

Following from the last question, is fentanyl really as painless a method as I've heard it is? Is it possible to take too little and end up as a vegetable, or take too much and have an awful freakout, panic filled demise? If not, what can I expect to feel after in-taking it? How long does the process of dying take? Would my older, overweight need more, or less than what the usual amount is?

How much does fentanyl cost these days? Is it possible to get a bad, impure batch of it from some black hearted shyster? Is there a list of reputable vendors out there somewhere?

Those are all the ones I could think of for now. I'm sure I won't get all the info I'm looking for here, but I just thought I'd try anyway.

It's a strange thing, though. Not only looking to find the means to kill oneself, but also for another to do so as well. In this case, that being my mother. Is it wrong to do so? I want her to have the freedom to do as she wills in this regard, but I can't deny the pain of her being my mother and me being her son, as I go about this task. In her case, she wants to leave before things can get any worse than they already are. Ideally, once the fentanyl is on hand, she'd like to meet her end in whatever moment of calm bliss, however brief, manages to come along. Smiling and at peace on a quiet day, with the sun shining and the breeze blowing through the trees near her window. Clean, private & dignified. Almost as a Bodhisattva would choose to end things, after deciding it's time to depart their mortal vessel and leave all this behind. No bad emotions or depressing thoughts to pollute or upset the experience of departure.

A good example of this, and one my mother uses as an example for what she'd like to emulate, can be found in one Sadhguru (the famous Indian guru & mystic), whose late wife, Vijaykumari, was said to have achieved Mahasamadhi, the great and final samādhi, which is the act of consciously and intentionally leaving one's body for good while in a deep meditative state. Reaching Nirvana, basically. Helped along by fentanyl, perhaps? Who can say. It's a noble goal for my mother to aspire to either way.

I'd certainly like to join her in that, as I'm sure most here would, but, in my case, I almost feel like the opposite will have to be true. As one night, in some black pit of despair, like the kind I always seem to reside in, I'll finally feel pushed & desperate enough to, at long last, do what needs to be done. At least that's the grim hope, anyway. Why wait for things to get that bad, though? That's certainly my mother's question and, certainly, it's a fair one to pose. I guess it's because I'm still mostly a coward, quivering in the face of the exit door out of this terrible thing called life. I've thought & fantasized about death & suicide for so many years now. And yet my mother is so much more prepared & equipped to go through with it than I am. I can't help, but feel ashamed & afraid. Ashamed at my weakness, and afraid at the possibility of going on without my mother, who's quite determined & committed to go through with it, should I obtain the necessary fentanyl. Which itself begs the question, would she still kill herself without it? Maybe, maybe not, so what does that make me? I don't know. Getting fentanyl originally started out as simply me having a back-up plan against future anguish, with a ready to go means of escape. After talking with my mother, along with the continued deterioration & inevitable doom of this whole situation, it's changed into something else entirely. I almost feel like it's my duty now to acquire some. If not for my sake, then at least for hers. She's almost depending on me to, in a way. Yet, despite it all, I don't want her to leave me. What would I do if she did? I'll have nothing. I'm a helpless shut-in for fuck's sake! She says she'll look after me from the otherside. What nonsense! There is no "otherside" and, even if there were, so what? In the end, I'd rather she just say she doesn't care what happens to me. Either way, what if I'm still too afraid to kill myself even after she's dead? What will I do then? Wasn't I the fucking one who wanted to die here? Damn it, what a bad joke this all is.

Needless to say, but what an awful place this world is. Why did this have to happen? Why did I have to exist? To find myself in this kind of mind rending position, brought about by the sheer arbitrary nature of life itself, to be made to process & experience this kind of ghastly predicament, such as it is. Not that it'll solve anything, but I'll continue to simply plead laziness for the time being. Magic space rock, please crush this house and save me from myself.


If you're going to post here, at least try not to type like a retarded underage kid. Thanks lil buddy.


I don't read your whole post, but you are to late for fentanyl probably 2-3 years


I don't know anything about Canadian law, but you could possibly get yourself in some very serious legal trouble if you help someone else commit suicide. She should handle all the preparations by herself if possible.

Good luck with everything; your post was very moving.


Fentanyl is the big bad drug in Canada right now. If you check the local bad news for golden horseshoe area you'll see frequent accounts of deaths as a result of utilizing opioids that had been even lightly laced with fentanyl. Good news towards its effectiveness as a killer, but because people who want to live are dying because of it there are going to be a lot of sting ops and package sniffing for it in particular. Most people who do overdose on it don't know that they're dying which is one of the reasons deaths involving fentanyl are so common. Their euphoria inhibits their ability to feel anything but content as they drift off to death.

If you do order it, I would highly suggest ordering in small batches spread out over time if you have the patience. If you're not buying enough to be considered someone with an intent to deal illegal substances, and the seller (assuming it's an import) didn't falsely label the package in an attempt to hide it ("supplements", "health product", "vitamins" are vague but proper), customs is likely to just destroy the package and notify the sender's LEA. Maybe.

I hope you two fare well on your way out of this world. It's going to get real cold real soon. Bundling up under the blanket of death will let you sleep through it all.



>but you are to late for fentanyl probably 2-3 years

Damn, that's quite discouraging to hear. Why is that? Opioid crisis, or whatever? I actually had an idea to order this about 3 years ago, but never bothered with it out of laziness & apathy, thinking it would always be around and relatively easier to acquire via the darknet, which I was already somewhat familiar with, even back then. Certainly serves me right to find myself in this position, but my mother deserves better, having massively let her down in this sense.


>I don't know anything about Canadian law, but you could possibly get yourself in some very serious legal trouble if you help someone else commit suicide.

Yeah. Ideally we'd do it at roughly the same time. If not at once together, then perhaps me, hopefully, following a day or two afterwards. It's hard to say because I just don't know. Perhaps I wouldn't be so afraid as I'm concerned I would be, especially with my mother there to provide the extra impetus. I'd like to think so, anyway. The alternative of simply bowing to the demiurgic whims of my survival instinct, only to find myself in a much worse position than I was before, is just too terrible to consider. Accounting for my troublesome weakness makes my head hurt.

Irregardless, could I really be implicated in that way? Where would the evidence be and how could they trace it back to me if I'm using the darknet/TAILS? I also wish she didn't my help for this. I wish fentanyl could just be ordered from Amazon, or acquired from a simple pharmacy. I wish human society at large wasn't so condemning & obtuse towards this sort of thing, but here we are. Either way, you're right that I should be concerned about this sort of thing, despite euthanasia being at least somewhat accepted in this country. All the more reason for us to do it at once, I guess.


>Fentanyl is the big bad drug in Canada right now.

Is that so? I don't follow or read any sort of current news for Canada, so I honestly wouldn't know. I heard it's a big thing in the States though, so I guess it's only natural the same would be true here. Cracking down on the current opioid crisis and all that, like you mentioned.

When all's said & done, I'm just really stupid, out of the loop & incompetent. I actually know next to nothing about what the actual state of things are and, thus, have seemed to severely underestimate the difficulty of acquiring this sort of thing. Even looking at the stickied Nembutal (a worse substitute, no?) thread on 8chan's /suicide/ board, has thrown me utterly for a loop. No proper vendors, seemingly complicated procedure with some risks attached (not just injecting or imbibing a tiny bit of Fentanyl and that being that), potentially uncomfortable & long demise without taking other substances (etc.). For the longest time, I literally just thought it was as simple as going on the darknet and visiting an Alphabay-like equivalent website, finding the right vendor, and simply ordering fentanyl. Grossly mistaken would be an understatement. Hoisted aloft by my own stupidity and stunning lack of awareness once again. I honestly don't know what I'll do now, or what I'll tell my mother. Damn it, so much for this being simple.

>If you do order it, I would highly suggest ordering in small batches spread out over time if you have the patience.

Over the darknet, I assume? Assuming I can find any that is and, even then, perhaps it'd just be a honeypot or a fake. Hell, can fentanyl even be ordered just from the regular internet? Can't imagine that'd be wise to do. I'll really need to look through that fentanyl thread on /suicide/ at some point. Talk about hopeless that I haven't done so already. First time, I'm really trying to get serious about this and I'm not doing a very good job.

>It's going to get real cold real soon. Bundling up under the blanket of death will let you sleep through it all.

That's the idea. A graceful, painless exit is a very handy thing to have, especially for the days to come. It'd just be nice if this were a lot easier/safer than it is, and that I was less stupid and wasn't so profoundly ignorant about fentanyl itself.


>Most people who do overdose on it don't know that they're dying which is one of the reasons deaths involving fentanyl are so common. Their euphoria inhibits their ability to feel anything but content as they drift off to death.
Sounds heavenly.


Im ex muslim , the same here , but in our religion there is no forgiveness if you do it unless you are mentally unstable like in psychosis , which im not of course
Anything other than that is thrown in hell forever


> For the longest time, I literally just thought it was as simple as going on the darknet and visiting an Alphabay-like equivalent website, finding the right vendor, and simply ordering fentanyl.
That's how it was 1-2 years ago. I got my fentanyl like that. You need to use Tor browser and look for reputable vendors within your country. If fentanyl is not available then heroin will be, and it will also do the job


Use nitrogen, retard. Helium is mixed with oxygen now.


Is this actually true though? I've heard it a few times but I've never once seen an actual source for it. I was going to get helium because it was substantially cheaper than Nitrogen. I guess I might as well save up for the Nitrogen just to be safe anyway.


I actually found a source
>In 2015 author and right-to-die advocate Derek Humphry reported that Worthington Industries, the world's largest manufacturer of disposable helium cylinders, had announced that their helium cylinders will guarantee only 80% helium, with up to 20% air, making them inappropriate for use with a suicide bag in Humphry's opinion.


Far as I can tell some companies in some countries now dilute their helium. But people are still finding suitable helium, it just takes a liitle more effort. In the past a wizard could just walk into a party store and get what he needed. Now sometimes you need to go to specialty suppliers, ask for helium, and possibly make up a reason as to why you want it if he asks. So, much less wiz friendly now unfortunately.



I hope this is an appropriate place to ask

Can you please recommend me suicide methods? I'm not sure if I can obtain some magic ingredients from darknet, though


Exit bag is the safest, most painless and cheapest method.
Go to amazon, buy a nitrogen tank, cpap mask that covers your nose and mouth. And a cpap tube
Exhale all air out of your body, put your mask on and breathe in through the mask.
Make sure no one is able to bother you for the next 2 hours or you might risk becoming a vegetable


That's nice, thanks for this info

The only disadvantage is that it takes a lot of time to perform. Self preservation instincts might kick in the middle of the process and I'll screw up


>Self preservation instincts
What? No. There's literally zero pain involved. You literally just breathe in normally like you would do with oxygen. You'll be fine.
>The only disadvantage is that it takes a lot of time to perform
Putting on a mask is a lot of time to you?


Another guy who was interrupted in the act by his mother, though he was much luckier than the poor fellow from the first post ITT.
>Man, 40, with Asperger’s who was left paralysed in one arm after his mother saved him from suicide bid told her ‘I wish you hadn’t saved me’ just weeks before he killed himself, inquest hears


What about hypothermia?


this is infuriating to read. why can't the mom just let her kid die? he's fucking 40 years old. he's an adult, he can make his own god damn decisions


How do you get fentanyl without getting caught?


Whats with those bumpers on trains, wizzies? Could they interfere with my plan to lie my head on the track for a quick lights out? Or are they high enough to not cause issues?


I've watched several of this guy's videos in support of euthanasia. He is at times a bit combative and cranky in an Inmendham sort of way, but I like him a lot. His two most recent videos concern his reaction to his brother's grisly suicide.


Visit the avengers forum on tor. Some vendors sell heroin spiked with fentanyl. Check out the reviews. Stillslyhi is a good vendor


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Depends on the train. Scout out which kind of train will be your executioner to determine whether the bumper is high enough. If you're that unsure you could put your neck instead of head for a bit longer, but 100% successful execution.


This video made me reconsider suicide. It's about a mom talking about her son, who killed himself. Every person's reaction to suicide is different, so this may or may not be useful.

It's kinda hard to see what your family will go trough after committing suicide.


You will be dead, so I find it rather pointless to consider. You won't in any way be impacted by their feelings.


Being dead is easy, literally everything that ever lived can manage being dead pretty well, it's probably the easiest task I can think of. Actually getting to be dead however


Your parents' suffering will not exceed yours I want to think. In my case, if I were to end my life my mother would use me as a great and probably only reason to get and be sad and miserable, so whenever she's feeling kind of down, she'll remind herself of my death to make the sadness take place faster and easier, and she will feel justified doing so because she lost her son, and what else is supposed to be if not depressed.
Maybe for this situation to not be a problem we might need to promote an acceptance of death.
One solution for your case if you really want to commit suicide would be to leave your family and move into another place without notice, and proceed with your mortal wish. It'd be a mystery that way, they would never know what took you to do it, or maybe they'd think that something happened in the way, and would never think of themselves as guilty, don't you think? At least in their minds they'd see you as a victim of the circumstances or something of the like. Surround your death with a puzzle, don't make it so obvious that it was a suicide, make them think that something or someone forced you to do it.


I'm adamant on finally finalizing and going through with my suicide, I will be using a 12 gauge shotgun but im not quite sure i have the right ammo type for it.
will it actually work (through roof of the mouth) if i used birdshot?


no you need buck shot or deerslug


this shit is so stupid. you gonna let someone else dictate your entire existence? who gives a fuck what they think. stop being a slave to everyone else. your family will cry, boo fucking hoo. not like you will even get to see them cry cause you will be dead. fucking retarded faggot


Amazing how she turned that into a 40 fucking episode thing, isn't it


think i’m deciding on fent OD. Jumping from a building seems straightforward, but I tried train before but was too pussy, so i doubt i’d have the balls to jump. Only issue is getting fent. I guess i’d have to order online and hope it doesn’t get caught. My other option is a shotgun rifle to the head. Does anyone have advice on that? What caliber/how much it would cost/ etc. I can sell my guitar probably for $200-$300, would that be enough?


Ha. Good point. If anything, her sons suicide has given her lots of youtube money and fame.


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0.001% of you will kill yourselves, and whether or not you’re one of those who do is mostly a dice roll.

Food for thought.


You are very unique for noticing that.


How do I get courage to do it? I'm past beyond the "muh family" and fear stages and stuff but somehow after I go to sleep the suicide willingness disappears. It only reapears as I get depressed again in the day, sometimes as soon as I wake up. But still I can't do it somehow. Is it possible that laziness keeps me away from suicide?


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based, i was afraid we wouldn't get a threadly reminder to all wizkids here that they're never gonna go through with it


same, hiding from the reality checks every day. feels like i'm living on borrowed time. one of these days i'm just going to be fucked.


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I can relate to this so much.

>college dropout nearing 30

>parents aren't getting younger and don't have the money to support me indefinitely
>health is getting worse
>push all these thoughts into the back of my head
>instead focus on unrelated things like how to get better at some video game or watch some documentary on something that doesn't affect me


What did you study in college?


Computer Science meme


What kinds of languages did you study?


what about carfentanile?


is there any argument against poverty charged suicide
i live in a post soviet shithole on my grandmother's retirement benefit, am mentally ill and afraid to go outside, my pc is old and dying and i've never had any friends online or at least someone who is aware of my existence


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We look for God everywhere. In religion, in art, in science, in wealth, in power, in love, in pleasure., in craft, in drugs, in culture. God being an end to suffering, liberation, redemption.

But we can’t find this release. Not in life, anyway. Every one of the things I mentioned comes with painful strings attached.

The only true God is death. Death releases us from suffering. Death releases us from all the stress, rage, frustration. As a result, the only useful study is the knowledge of death and how to die.

It’s the best hope we’ve got.


> As a result, the only useful study is the knowledge of death and how to die.
That's the core of buddhism and jainism basically


Prove it


Is there another word in the english language as poorly defined as God?


To describe the concept of God as simply as possible would be to use the label "Unconditioned Reality".


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what is the best painless and efficient method to kill yourself?


CO poisoning in a small space, maybe with a drug and alcohol cocktail to knock you out and make the whole thing fail safe.
No pain, you just go to sleep and never wake up again.


You're probably just shitposting, but you're actually right. This thread is terrible. I don't think a single person here is serious about actually going through with it. They just want to vent about how bad their day was and entertain the thought of suicide without seriously considering it.
It's sad, really. Wizchan is one of the few places on the internet where suicide discussion isn't frowned upon. There's potential to have some good legitimate discussion about it


Is that why they call us "a cult"?
Sodium nitrite will get banned soon, get it while you can.


I feel like if I ever commit suicide it would just be a spur of the moment thing and I would just disappear one day from the internet and maybe a couple people on steam would wonder what happened to me but no one would ever really know. I'm too much of a wuss to make a big plan about it, but maybe in the future I'll buy a gun so I can take advantage of some random moment of clarity to actually kill myself, pull the trigger before I get to really think about it.


I think people would love to suicide obviously cause of their conditions, but death is a very scary thought to the human mind and if someone tries to do it, most likely they will stop cause they're very afraid and it's their natural instinct to be afraid. I know some people actually got through with it though, like a 12 year old succubus literally committed suicide way back 2014, she has more balls than us apparently.


Is self harm a succubi behaviour? I like to cut myself sometimes because Im alone and emotionally neutered. It's the only time I feel true adrenaline. And is slitting one's wrists the right way to go? I have nothing to contribute to this world and too much anger


one time i stubbed my toe while depressed, and i could kinda relate to the attempt to substitute physical for emotional pain


I think the answer is that it depends. Scratching up your skin in very visible places and then trying to get people to notice for sympathy is succubi behaviour, but there's nothing inherently attention-seeking about harming yourself.
That said, limb/torso wounds are a shit suicide method. It's painful, takes a long-ass time, and is unreliable. If somebody were locked in a box with literally no way to die but a knife then going for the throat would be a much better choice, but even that is not consistent.


The issue is, you're making a bet on whether reality is objective. Does it exist without your presence, in a meaningful sense?
Okey ty anon. I used to cut my forearms but that's partly because there was more blood. Now I cut my thighs, so only I'm seeing it xad


>That said, limb/torso wounds are a shit suicide method.
Isn't that common sense. What kind of idiot unironically asks if wrist cutting is a good suicide method


based Mainländer


Not at all. You can self harm for many reasons and im many ways, most acts of self-harm dont leave permanent marks either.


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Yeah, yeah. Rub it in some more, why don't ya.


You won't kill yourself


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It's too late now, anyways. On the other hand, it can also be said that it's never too late to save yourself from future pain & suffering by catching that big, old bus to oblivion. I'll continue to go with the former, however, mostly for coping purposes. No need to remind me of who much of a gutless turd I am. I'm already well aware of the tortuous predicament I'm in, since I'm consumed by it nearly every day. What do those damn kids who go & kill themselves over social media, or something equally trivial, got, that I don't got? I'd imagine it mostly comes down to the fact that they just do it without thinking & get lucky, as opposed to me who's a complete neurotic mess constantly wrapped up inside himself. So that's, that, really. I've no business in this thread, nor, odds are, will I ever. What a shame.


Don't kill yourself, kill your self.


I wanna slap his head.


I want to rub his head for good luck.


keep us informed


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There's a new article about Kelly Catlin. It is interesting and moving, though it feels a bit maudlin and overwritten at times. There is also mention that she was apparently a celibate loner. Anyway, she somehow was unsuccessful with helium the first time, but the second attempt was fatal.
>Kelly, according to relatives, was perhaps as confused by her survival as anyone. She had done as her research suggested, and indeed the helium had caused her to drift off. But after a while, she’d write in her journal later, she simply regained consciousness; the first thing she remembered was standing fully clothed in the shower. Colin would say authorities had arrived, discovering Kelly’s materials and rushing her to Stanford Hospital, where she’d spend seven days on an involuntary hold. Kelly either couldn’t remember, or wouldn’t reveal, much else.


Thanks Xavier.


I won't lie, I'm jealous of her, reading about her achievements and near-perfect attitude towards life which put her at the top made me angry but pleased at the same time, knowing that the bitch is dead. Reading about her attempt at making her death as theatrical as possible, with a strong humble-bragging and conceited undertone in her letter that boils down to: "I'll kill myself on the day I have a scheduled meeting with the Queen of Spain because that'd be edgy," was both hilarious and exasperating. She will not be missed.
So many conflicting emotions from reading about a dead succubus I've never heard about until now.


>regarding sports as achievements


They always hide suicide because they are afraid of the herd waking up to the truth


She spoke Chinese fluently, played the violin, knew biology and studied biomedical engineering all of which take tremendous amounts of time and willpower; she wasn't just a cyclist, read the article God damn it.
You mean her death wasn't given any publicity immediately? Also, how can suicide coverage in media "wake up the herd to the truth" and what sort of truth would it even be? I'm curious.


>what sort of truth would it even be?
Hello, sheepie.


I certainly did notice she has many of the negative traits that one often sees in highly competitive individuals. But I still like her and feel great sympathy for her. To be hit with mood changes, depression, and nihilism practically out of the blue must have been very hard for her.


This shows that suicide can affect basically anyone no matter how much of an overconfident go-getter they may try to be. Even with all those achievements and all that success, she still ended up just offing herself. This is why I can't really look down on suicide or call it weak like so many normalfag retards do, it can affect anyone at any time. Even on a spiritual level, I keep thinking that it isn't as bad of a thing as people try to make it out to be.


>Instead, she had rented two cylinders of compressed
seems excessive. why two?
you become unconscious really fast before the first one is barely used .
i agree with you. it was way too dramatic. suicide fags think their death is important and life changing, but the reality is that everyone will forget about it in 2 weeks


Are cpap masks suppose to be so expensive? i'd rather not have to pay $120 just for the mask


This is going to be your last investment anyway, you won't need money where you'll be going.


Everyone in this thread, please do not commit suicide. There is literally no benefit to suicide. If you have an internet connection to post on this board, then life really isn’t that bad for you. Whatever problems you’re going through won’t even mean shit in 10 years. Start actually trying to cure your depression instead of wallowing in your own despair. Easier said than done, but why not give it a try? Live out your lives to their fullest.


Kill yourself.


> literally no benefit to suicide
how about to escape the "despair"?

>If you have an internet connection to post on this board, then life really isn’t that bad

yeah living like a dog imprisoned in a cage with some toys isn't that bad, what's worse is you have to slave away and then be caged all day. but hey at least you're not starving like the african children right?

>Whatever problems you’re going through won’t even mean shit in 10 years

yeah they will get much worse that the current problems won't even compare

>Easier said than done

At least you admit this.


rude, no one's gonna kill themselves in this thread mkay


Rude? It's a fitting response to someone denying your suffering and telling you recycled platitudes as if they mean anything. Your problems don't mean anything, just cure your depression and live your life to the fullest, bro :)

Neck yourself.


I see what you've tried to do, your message may help some, but not all.

>If you have an internet connection to post on this board, then life really isn’t that bad for you.

Who's going to pay for that? My problems are in the real life, I wish I could live 100% on the internet and never see the sunlight again, but that's not possible.

>Whatever problems you’re going through won’t even mean shit in 10 years.

My problems started 12 years ago. They aren't going anywhere.

>but why not give it a try?


I'll kill myself at some point, it's just a matter of when I get 100% motivated to do so.


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I don't know if it has already been discussed here, but anyways.
After some thinking about some method that won't cause a lot of emotional pain to my parents, this came: what if I get a gun pointed at me by some thug and ask him for a gunshot at my head?
I know that asking for a bullet in my head is weird, but could that work? Another option would be to not ask and get a bullet at a random place, which could be worse than death itself.
My goal here is to minimize the emotional pain that my parents would feel, instead of a normal suicide which they could blame themselves with, I would die by homicide and therefore put the blame on someone else.

I don't see how this could go wrong, but it feels bad. It's like the normal suicide (like hanging) is more pure.


>I don't see how this could go wrong
You walk up to Tyrone in the ghetto and ask him to shoot you. Either you have no money and he tells you to fuck off (because he's not going to risk going to prison for nothing) or you have money and he robs you and runs away.

Your logic is pointless anyway. There is no way for you to die that isn't going to absolutely destroy your parents. The little marginal improvements you're imagining aren't even noticeable.
You're going to have to get over this fact if you ever want to work up the guts to die in the next 4 decades.


Well-written article.


anyone else curious about what that last straw will be? I went from depressed teen wanting to die, to poor hiki and crippled adult with chronic pain and migraines, yet nothing seems to do it. i'm still here, i wonder what it'll be.


Do it before it's too late. What if you become too ill to even KYS? Suicide is going against self-preservation bullshit, it's not easy at all, y'know. How are you going to do it when you're this broken? Improve your health a little bit and we'll meet in another life c:


the last straw is your natural death of old age



thats what im afraid of, just lingering here until then - always wanting to suicide but never being able to.


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planning on doing it in early september, after I get my wage to pay for the supplies I need (at the end of the month). gonna go pretty deep into one of the remote forests nearby and sit in my tent, undisturbed, full of alcohol and sleeping pills, and the nitrogen will put me into my eternal sleep

it's really hard to talk to people and go to work every day because of the overwhelming apathy and knowledge that it just doesn't matter anymore, but I only have to deal with about 3 more weeks, and then it's all over

thanks for being here for me for the last few months guys


farewell anon
I hope you find peace at last


Farewell anon, good luck with the plan and may you find peace for once.


usually you get a burst of energy and a lighter step once you've made definite plans. see on the other side man.


What do you think will happen next? Are you prepared? Are you sure?


Hi fellow wizards. New to all of this. Has somebody bought the How to make your own inert gas hood kit from finalexit? Is there any information in there I cant find otherwise? How does it compare to what you can find on wikibooks? The suicide wikibooks mentions a spring loaded nozzle with no real regulator on these party balloon helium tanks and recommends changing it to a real one. Which one do I have to buy or would it be sufficiant to hold the nozzle into place with tape or something?


Thank you, I needed to hear this.


why is >>205469 still up


Because mods are anti-death normalfaggots. Remember the suicide hotline ad?


I won't ever kill myself. I will talk about suicide and nihilistic(look it up) ideas for the rest of my life though and talk about it inappropriately in other places.


Places such as?


>I'll kill myself at some point, it's just a matter of when I get 100% motivated to do so.


I wonder why the knowledge that I can always kill myself if I fuck up my life too badly doesn't give me more confidence to do things. Oh well, not doing things is fucking my life up pretty bad but thankfully there's a solution to that…


>fuck up
you cannot fuck up if you walk into a snowstorm on a mountain forest and undress your coat
some booze to numb the feels and overnight you are done

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