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 No.201702

Anyone here legit have brain damage?

I've never got a brain scan to confirm it, but I'm 99 percent sure I do. 10 years ago when I was 16 I was beaten really badly by a white knight. He hit me with a punch off guard and stomped on my head repeatedly. I was able to get up and go home and never saw a doctor, but I was never the same since that day.

I began stuttering even though I never did before that day, my grades tanked, my thinking became scattered, I became less coordinated, I forget words, even common words, very easily, and my typing speed tanked. I remember my goal used to be to be able to consistently type at 100 wpm and I did those online things to test it and I went from consistently being in the 80-90 wpm range all the way down to 35-40. I also remember literally nothing that happened before middle school, but who knows if that's related.

I think about getting a brain scan to confirm my suspicions but I know nothing can be done about it if that's the case, so why bother. Part of my likes to cling to hope that I just have some sort of mental block that I'll magically snap out of.

 No.201703

my parents got me scanned for brain damage but I didn't have any

 No.201704

All people who suffered/suffer from depression have brain damage.
As for your story, I'm pretty sure you had suffered brain damage. If you puked, had blurry vision and visual and auditory sensitivity after the incident, you must have suffered a concussion. About the scans, don't even bother. Unless you had some internal bleeding and severe scarring (which you would have noticed and had it treated, otherwise you'd be dead) practically nothing will be seen. Unless you decide to do a fMRI, that is.

 No.201705

>>201704
>If you puked, had blurry vision and visual and auditory sensitivity after the incident

I sort of remember having blurry vision for a little while after but it wasn't permanent. I've been sensitive to loud noises since, and I forgot to mention, but I also had tinnitus since that day. The tinnitus has only gotten worse.

 No.201748

>>201702
And the funny stuff is that the fag who did that to you is now probably a "successful" normalfag applauded by society. Stories like this of people getting their lives ruined forever and the one doing evil celebrated make me mad

Fuck this world and fuck the demiurge

 No.201974

Two strokes here and a failed suicide attempt induced by sleeping pills. Central nervous system is shutting down, I'm absolutely terrified even if fear of death is irrational because I'm only 26. I never could have predicted or prepared for something like this. I'm probably going to hang myself tonight. Life is beautiful when it isn't totally unprecedented.

 No.201975

I've done enough drugs to make Hunter Thompson blush and my brain is still intact

 No.202049

ive got the schizophrenia and have been taking antipsychotics on again off again for fifteen years now. I'm afraid my brain is a slurpee at this point.

 No.202051

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yes

 No.202053

I suspect i do, when i was a kid i inhaled can after can of buthane gas. Later i found that it is extremely toxtic and the high you get from it is basically neurons dying and asfixiating.
Add a lot of hits to the head from fights with other people when i was young and i would be surprised if i have a healthy brain.

 No.202056

Why were you beaten up? Are you flirting with a witchie?

 No.202072

Severe depression permanently damages the brain to begin with. It inflames your brain and shrinks the hippocampus.

 No.202134

I'm afraid that whatever radiation I get from a brain scan would cause more brain damage than all the hitting my head on things. Been punched in the head pretty hard sometimes, but that pales in comparison to impact of my own clumsiness.

 No.202136

I was hit by a truck when I was little and got a head injury, broken arm and a broken leg.

I frequently forget common words, names, my street address, phone number, etc.

 No.202158

I was just discussing this with my mom. I might… I had multiple concussions as a child. Who knows, maybe this is the reason I'm depressed and unable to function within the parameters society has set. Maybe this is why socialization is so difficult, and I frequently jumble up words and names when trying to speak… Compared to what OP described it's very minor, and I offer my sympathies for your suffering. Normals are brutal creatures, the males in a physical sense- the females in an emotional one. Pure evil, no doubt.

 No.202196

>>202056
Me and my sister went grocery shopping, neither of us had a car so we had to walk. On the way home, she realized something we were supposed to get was missing and we got into an argument about who's fault it was, which quickly devolved into us shouting at each other.

That's when the white knight came up to me and told me to back off her and not to talk to her like that. I told him to fuck off and he hit me with a sucker punch as I had both of my hands full. He stomped on me like 6 or 7 times and he told my sister something along the lines of "you need to get away from this abuser".

She told him I was her brother and that I was 16 and he said "oh fuck" and ran off.

He somehow thought I was an adult, that my sister was my girlfriend, and that I was an abusive boyfriend. I can understand thinking I was an adult as I was over 6 foot by then and had a beard but it was pretty obvious that she was still a minor. That combined with how similar we look/looked would have clued in anyone with common sense that we were brother and sister. Also we were just shouting at each other, I never hit her (be it that day or EVER) nor did I threaten her physically in any way.

But beating up an evil abusive man to protect m'lady is every male normalfag's wet dream, so he was probably eagerly waiting for a day where he could live out his white knight fantasy.

 No.202208

>>202196
Lmao, i'm sorry for laughing because of the absurdity of the situation. I wish you well.

 No.202209

>>202049
typical or atypical?

 No.202210

>>202196
I hope that gut gets shot or run over by a truck

 No.202211

>>202196
Thats fucked man. Were you ever able to find him or press charges?

 No.202216

>>202196
That really sucks and that guy is a piece of shit

 No.202399

>>202211
This. Please tell me there is some justice in this screwed up world.

 No.202623

>>202211
>>202399
Nope. I went to the police, filled out some paperwork and was interviewed by an officer for maybe like 2 or 3 minutes. The cop I spoke to seemed completely indifferent. He didn't even pretend to give one iota of a fuck. I knew when I went to the cops the chances of him getting caught were slim, but after talking to them, I knew there was zero chance. I have no doubt they did zero investigation into the assault.

So I tried taking matters into my own hands. I made sure to walk up and down the street it happened on everyday, during the same time of day, for at least 15 to 20 minutes, looking for the guy, but I never saw him again. I gave up after about a month.

 No.202781

>>202196
>>202623
the absurdity of this situation is baffling, feels unreal. Have I unknowingly entered a crooked mirror world and I've been living in it ever since?
Its just terrible, I am so sorry OP

 No.204501

>>202623
>>202196
Females can't think logically, all they are capable of is emotional outbursts, so it's literally impossible to reason with them. I can't stop my mom or any other female from erupting into a bitchy fit at me, but I can just ignore it like it's a dog barking at me when I walk past it's yard.

 No.204503

>>204501
And the counter-intuitive thing is that females get even more mad at you when you ignore their bitching than if you try to argue with them. At least being aloof and smug won't be mistaken as aggression by some white night or nigger thug looking for a reason to go apeshit to protect m'lady.

 No.204504

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 No.204506

>>204504
My wizard power is bringing things back from the dead

 No.204536

Had a subarachnoid hemorrhage due to ruprtured aneurysm at 24. Largest issues is aphantasia and light form of hemiparesis. I'm feeling so empty now, can't hide myself in daydreams anymore.

 No.204732

I used to rage hardcore at competitive shooters and fighting games every day for 5 hours a day for about 15 years. I would punch myself in the face and jaw. I have a misaligned nose, chipped teeth, probably a standard deviation lower iq. I had no competitive outlets at all as a fat sperg child so underperforming at the only thing I felt even slightly competent at caused pretty strong reactions.

 No.204741

I think I do, something's wrong in there. I've done IQ tests and always get around 100, so there's no other reason for me to be as slow as I am.

 No.204743

>>204741
100 IQ is average. If anything you think you're smart but since you're not dumb enough to entirely believe it you can notice things aren't going as they should thus you're stuck in a situation where you feel slow.

 No.204750

>>204743
I get what you're saying, but you might be overestimating what exactly i'm trying to do, its not something a person with average IQ would find difficult.

My brain is probably damaged from marinating in stress hormones for the first 20 or so years of my life. I would get a brain scan but its not something you can do for curiosities sake.

 No.205539

>>202196
I'm 22 and I can't grow a beard.

 No.205540

>>204750
IQ tests are actually a bunch of different tests that are added up together to determine your score. Most people are worse at some tests and better at other tests than their IQ would suggest. So depending on what you are doing you could indeed be well below average for that specific catagory.

 No.205542

>>201702
really sorry op, that's actually fucked up.

I wanted to tell you that pretty much every mental illness can cause the symptoms you listed. something as simple as insomnia can cause you to stutter, forget words, slur them, etc. but with that it symptoms would come and go and not be constant.

i don't know if you have brain damage from the incident or not but its an indication of how hard it is to know without a proper diagnosis.

 No.205579

>>201748
I second this

 No.205879

Depression, memory loss, brain fog, I'm sure I have all sorts of brain damage but am too apathetic to even care.

 No.205927

>>205879
vitamin D3 & B12.



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