Yesterday I got so fucking stressed that I literally started to hallucinate and soon passed out. I woke up this morning with no thoughts on my head, no emotions, nothing. This has happened before. Right now, I'm preparing to hit the nearest store and get some alcohol, probably some beer and a bottle of whiskey. Perhaps I'll look for a Tanqueray gin, grab some fruits and prepare something good.
I have some local beer I'll enjoy later
I just want to forget that I even exist. What could I drink/do to achieve that?>>209955
How did you feel after waking up?
Usually I wake up desperate with no idea of what the fuck is going on around me. After that episode, I woke up feeling nothing, no stress, no thoughts in my mind, literally nothing. It's really weird, I can't really explain. My theory is that my brain got so full of shit that its emotional side stopped working properly for a moment, to avoid an overload or something. I'm drunk right now, and I feel like it came back to normal.
I got completely drunk alone a few nights ago, but I still feel spaced out as fuck. This always happens when I drink a lot. I feel dissociated for the next few days. What the fuck.
I feel the urge to scream well up inside myself. I want to scream "just fucking end me already. Take me away. I don't like it here." I want to go to sleep and never wake up.
Drinking straight gin for this shit.
Is it bad that I take large amounts of vodka with xanax? Hopefully, I won't wake up from it some day.
You probably won't wake up because that combo is deadly
My brain (I think) is damaged enough to treat it that way. I don't want to develop any serious disease which leaves me disabled when older.