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 No.220047[Last 50 Posts]

The last suicide general has hit the bump limit.
Previous thread:


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I'm looking to buy sodium nitrite but can't find any.. any indian bro wanna help a fren?


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How difficult is it to build a suicide helmet?


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Are there any newer versions of The Peaceful Pill Handbook that I can read for free? I tried to buy it, but they said that you have to be at least 60 years old or some bullshit like that. Here's an edition I found of it that's from 2018.



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I'm 18. I plan to escape using SN in 2-5 years, when I'll be living separately from my parents. I'm too braindead to figure out how to order SN, so my only option is buying from a local seller. Right now there are about 2 local chem suppliers in my city but I'm worried I won't be able to find them after a few years. What if they just disappear? Or if they find out people use SN to escape and stop selling it?

If I don't find SN, I'll have to rot in this fucking third world shithole for decades… this can't be true


Is SN really a good method? Why do so many anons try it? Last I heard SN is rather painful and takes you 15 min to pass out.


>If I don't find SN, I'll have to rot in this fucking third world shithole for decades… this can't be true
If you fail at getting SN, why not just use a different method? You can always just get some rope and hang yourself.


Is euthanasia just a meme only permitted under "extreme" circumstances i.e old people, disabled… ? Would you guys try to get euthanasied if your country's laws were really loose on the matter ? I live in one of these but i know i won't do anything about it as i'm too afraid of hurting my family and of the afterlife, even if i know for sure that i'd prefer not being alive.


you wont kill yourself nigger
hell, you could just hang yourself or throw yourself off a bridge
but you wont


I always want to say stuff like this but Ithink egging people on is illegal and I don't want to be implicated.

I miss 2000s /b/ you could say or post anything, but even now with a VPN I don't feel safe doing nefarious activities.


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I seldom post anything at all
I mostly lurk different imagebords, switching between tabs endlessly because I have nothing better to do with my time
I just felt like saying something
sorry I didn't want to particularly offend anyone
I just felt like saying this
that's all


I have a textfile of this book but I never bothered to read. I remember that old picture-collage from the days before webms, where it's discussing that some people have sex 3 times a day, some people have sex once a week, and some people have no sex at all.

Always wanted to get around to watching the movie but haven't bothered.


I didn't even know where this picture is from


this surprised me, i own the book and been planning to read it for some time now. I had no idea that they made a moving picture of it. how was the adaptation?


I haven't seen that pic in forever I wish I could find it without having to download the movie and ripping the scene myself.

I haven't seen the movie or read the book but I do know that the movie is "watered down" like most movie adaptations are and Rafael kills himself in the book but something else happens in the movie.


Can't help but blame circumstance for my misery.


I've tried everything:
>In my country it's very difficult to get a gun that can actually kill
>No access to tall buildings, hotels are too low
>Hanging is too difficult, I can't figure out what kind of rope to use, where tf is carotid artery, etc
I haven't thought of drowning yet though

>lol nigger
>lol you won't kill yourself
>I didn't want to offend anyone
Don't worry I forgive you c:


Dumb tiger post. SN can be bought off of Amazon JP easily. DOn't use Amazon NA because those are poor quality.


why do you even want to kill yourself?
because you are living in a 'fucking third world shithole'?
so it kinda fits the mood of this thread, I suppose


>why do you even want to kill yourself?
I don't want to get old


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>I don't want to get old
You might not have to get old if biotech advances to the point where longevity escape velocity is reached.


That’s unlikely to happen in his lifetime


And impossible to happen and be enjoyed from anyone is not from the 0.0001 top of the world. So 0 chances for wizards.

I feel comfortable knowing dead is the inevitable outcome.


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If I shoot myself, what's the best area to shoot? Should I shoot myself just above the ear, or is the mouth better?


I thought the temple would be best but then I saw the devyn holmes footage and apparently you can survive even that.


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Shooting the temple seems like it would only damage the frontal lobe. Above the ear seems like it would be a lot more centered, and would damage the limbic system and possibly the brain stem.


This is freaking amazing


i want to build one to just have an easy way out just in case


sticking a shotgun in the mouth seems like the easiest way to me
failures with shotgun are mostly retards who somehow manage to blow their face of or something like that


Or they use birdshot or something


RIP every wizard who has been forced to leave this existence due to shitty life circumstances. If some of you can somehow read this post now in the afterlife, whether you're in heaven as a wizard angel, or in hell as a wizard demon for being a bad boy wizard, know that things here on earth are just as bad as when you left. We have this corona shit that's making normalfags kill themselves because they can't handle the isolation that comes with being quarantined, those same normalfags who once praised life and reproduction are going coo coo. Mmm what else, regarding Wizchan the imageboard were you used to post… it is probably just as shitty as it was when you were still alive and posting, seems like there's too many faggots and trannies, sorry if I offend some of you that were faggots or trannies, I'm sure you were of good repute despite your sexual orientation unlike the ones who populate wizchan now. Anyways, I hope afterlife isn't hard for you wizards, or that there's a method to really die for good, or maybe to finally find peace wherever you are. Perhaps nonexistence is just a dream we foolishly believe in. Maybe you reincarnated, I hope not into a normalshit, if that's the case, then there's no point in writing this post. But if you didn't, and you're reading this, I wish you're really in peace, even for those of you who are in hell, I hope Satan or whoever is at charge, lets you torture some normalshits or something. That's all I wanted to say to you my wizards, truest of wizards and above all, brave men. Thank you for reading, hope I didn't bother you.



Now and then I think about how many wizzies we lost to this day, it's such a crushing feeling to know life was so bad to them they had to end with themselves to TRY to find some peace. This reality is a fucking joke. RIP brave wizards


I have spent a few years now being obsessed with the Christian concept of "eternal security" and whether or not a believer who suicides still has salvation. It consumes my mind every day, it's the only real reason I haven't done it yet.


Do you know where I could find suicide comrades in France? Our internet has very little freedom of expression, sites like wizchan does not exist in my country


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You could try Sanctioned Suicide, wiz. Lots of Europeans post there. Here's their thread for suicide partners.


The modclique faggots at crabs.co and Looksmax.me also own this site


finally got an answer from a Nembutal seller I will get it as soon as I can order online again and keep it as main option SN isn't just worth trying knowing how shitty my stomach is


Came across a post in that thread. The last line really disturbed me.
>25/F/US Midwest (Michigan)
I have SN and exactly 30mg of meto, more than willing to split it if it comes down to that
No transportation :(
Would prefer to ctb in a hotel
I don't care what you do with my body afterwards


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why don't they just stick the fucking barrel in their mouth?
there is literally no chance to survive this, no matter which projectile or gauge or whatever



He would have died hadn't he called a friend beforehand to talk about it. Not only that, he waited until the police and medical staff was knocking at his door to pull the trigger.


but it would have been a pretty painful, bloody death


Also he shot himself under the chin when the right method is inside your mouth.


The longer I live, the more I come to terms with the inconvenient truth that death is the only escape from suffering.


The only reason he didn't die is because he used birdshot instead of buckshot or a slug. Jesus, what a retard.


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i thinking about detergent death, is not the best suicide method but is the most accessible tho.
is it worth it ? i mean in the peacefoul handbook there's a warning that tells you to use this method only in last cases, but i don't think is that bad.
also found this image with the ingredients unfortanally is only on portuguese :/


Try drowning instead. It's very painful but accessible and has near 100% success chance


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Have you guys heard about the re-spawn subliminal music?
apparently a music track that kills you in your sleep painlessly..it sounds far-fetched i know,but…what if it works?


Yea, still haven't dared to switch this bad boy on though.


You suiLARPers are hitting new power levels


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Is dying by starvation feasible?


How do you ctb by not breathing? Anyone tried it?


I tried, got down to 45 kilos but didn't die, they locked me up and forced refeeds. Maybe you'll have better luck idk.


Depends, if anyone who might intervene notices you're fucked. Plus it would be really miserable and probably require an extreme amount of willpower, not sure why you wouldn't just do it some other way.


>>>220373 (You)
>Try drowning instead. It's very painful but accessible and has near 100% success chance
seems worse than the DD


too slow and too hard, maybe dehydration ? is faster and have a more sucessful rate


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Just tried this, Ligature Aspphyxiation.

Almost lost conscioussness within 10 seconds.

On the fourth try i barely got back up on my feet at the fifth second.

Holy shit, there was no discmofort at all.

My only fear is waking up after pussying out with massive brain damage.


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Hanging > drowning. It's more likely to work and is less painful, and is almost as accessible as drowning. Use long drop hanging if you want to minimize pain.


Never worked for me. I'm probably cursed by God.


I often imagine wizards in afterlife gonna live in a big hotel suite with room for each filled with PC, laptop, 5G wifi, VR console. Inside bathroom, food and drinks guaranteed.


Try different size of rope.


there will be no sense in killing myself if i'm gonna just respawn in afterlife and live almost the same shit again


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Even taking that into account, death is the most powerful transformative agent of the contents of consciousness known to humanity. The state-space of qualia is so vast, with possible mind configurations radically different from our own. Even if you are reincarnated, your next life will likely be better than your current life. There's also a >0% chance that death is eternal nothingness as the normie-atheists claim, and nothingness is better than this existence.


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I am thinking of getting a gun to shoot myself with. What caliber should I get? I was originally planning on getting a .45 ACP or .45 Colt, but am now thinking of getting a .40 S&W. I heard that higher calibers are less accurate, and am afraid of flinching or the recoil causing the bullet to give me brain damage and surviving. I'm also inexperienced with guns, so this might be more of an issue for me. Or is this bullshit and should I go with a .45?


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I have tried partial, but i can't compress my carotids, i only feel my head exploding.

How much painful is full suspension in your opinion fellow wizards?


12 gauge shotgun. If pistol caliber it doesn't really matter much.




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The main problem with shotguns is that they're harder to hide. I'm still living with my parents, and the last thing I want is to be caught carrying up a shotgun to my bedroom. Revolvers/handguns are a lot easier to hide. The other problem is that shotguns are more awkward to fire if I shoot myself in the mouth. I might have to pull the trigger using my toe or something. Getting a bullpup shotgun like a KSG might solve these issues, but the gun store I was looking at didn't sell any bullpup shotguns.


When I was browsing /suicide/ they always said this type of rope shouldn't be your first choice and you should always rely on simpliest knots.
It's not painful, but it's uncomfortable. I've read somewhere to grease the rope with some oil or certain kind of soap, so you slip into your death easier. You may also put some scarf under your chin, so it won't feel so coarse, though I wouldn't recommend it, it can cause some troubles I think.


And the feeling is, as I said rather unpleasent. Your eyeballs feel like they're about to pop out of your head, the blood pressure feels like some really weird headache, you loose control over your limbs, they feel like they're not part of your body… But if it's done correct, it should last few seconds before eternal void.


The mossberg maverick 88 cruiser shot gun is only about 30 inches in length. its the one I am buying and goes for like 230 at Sportsmans warehouse. Out of stock right now though but if you look around other places probably have it.


You can always just buy a cheap long barrel shotgun and saw the barrel. Dont have to worry about the ATF knocking on your door if you are dead.


Buckshot or slug for suicide with shotgun?


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How do I go about sourcing heroin? I want to OD through heroin so I can make it look like an accidental death and not a suicide.

I've tried walking the streets at night looking for junkies, but I just can't find any. Where do they congregate?


If you get stabbed by a drug dealer in an alley at night it would also be a perfect accident.


darknet. Walking the streets is fucking retarded when you can just get it delivered


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Why not both?


Surely that can’t be legal, forcefeeding you. Should fuck them over


They force medical care on people all the time especially if they know you are trying to die. If I get in a car accident and tell the pigs I dont want healthcare because I am not paying for shit they will just force me anyway and then bill me. When I don't pay they will just garnish my bank account and tank the money. Would literally rather burn the money then give it some kike hospital in this country. Charge out the ass just to give a cut to investors fuck that shit.


I’ll never kill myself


Vanity of the living


You could get a double barrel shotgun and fire both at the same time, and load one of them with a slug and the other barrel with buckshot.


I have 30k in bank and three options:
Kill myself now.
Travel the world on foot and rope when I run out of cash.
Neet for 4 years until I run out and rope.
Help me decide oracles.


If you've got cash might as well spend it. As for deciding between NEETing or travel, that really depends on you. Is there anything you really wanted to see?


travel to a better place and NEET there (but for less time i guess)



Option 2 sounds best. Hell, maybe it’ll give you a new drive for living.


Hey guys, planning on killing myself very soon. Do you recommend I jump off a building or rope? Not sure which one would be easier. As I don’t have access to ropes so that will be a bit of a hassle and finding a building to jump off won’t be the easiest task either.


i imagine rope is easier to get than roof access to a large building.


I recommend jumping off, best thing i ever tried, 10/10 very cool.


been watching lots of videos of foids hanging themselves. fucking sucks that foids are out there suicide mogging me.


How the fuck do you not have access to rope? You can literally just go on Amazon and buy a fucking rope.


There is a new video on Ricardo Lopez (Bjork stalker who committed suicide on camera) by a big YouTuber. I didn't really learn anything new, but it was a fairly well done video, I think.


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look at this beautiful face, this cute, innocent and shy thing… well, she's fuckin a NIGGER! Can you believe that? Yes. Fucking nigger. That's… unacceptable.


Years ago when his videos were first uploaded to YouTube I watched the entire 20+ hours of it, it's surprinsingly comfy and he doesn't talk that much about Bjork as you might think. It's also a 90s time capsule in many ways, he talks a lot about how he gathers information about celebrities and other stuff, he would have to go to libraries and buy magazines, shit that nowadays would take you 5 seconds to find out he would wait weeks to get printouts through physical mail.


>I watched the entire 20+ hours of it, it's surprinsingly comfy and he doesn't talk that much about Bjork as you might think.
Me too. I liked it.
>It's also a 90s time capsule in many ways
Definitely. I grew up in the '80s and '90s. I felt nostalgic about his trips to the library to research things and use the computers. I also liked hearing the television and radio he usually had on in the background.


After life is pure vanity of the living


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I managed to commit welfare fraud and scam the government out of $3,000 by claiming both unemployment and jacindabuxx. They caught me but I pulled the 'the welfare office was closed because of corona, I couldn't cancel my unemployment even if I wanted to' and the excuse flew, I didn't get charged and I just have to pay back the amount at $10 a week (heh).

I'm committing suicide via hypothermia up in the mountains this coming July, when the weather is coldest in New Zealand. But what should I do with the rest of my money between now and then? I was thinking of just hookers and drugs, but I'm open to other suggestions.


>hookers and drugs
Disgusting. For me would be food and a nice coat.


Food is an option, but I couldn't realistically burn through the whole amount in that time just through food. And I only really like eating out once or twice a week, I did just have a nice $20 pizza though.

I might get a nice suit, something fancy. I've never owned a nice suit, and it'd be good for my funeral too.


So much deterioration it's hard to believe I'm in the same dimension as 10+ years ago. Retarded and numb, isolated, fuck this shit.


Do you really want to kill yourself or is it just escapist fantasy?


I hope I'm serious. Don't really want to deal with more confusion and shame that is impossible to fix.


Nothing shameful about backing down from suicide. You shouldn't kill yourself if you need to suppress your doubts. Take time to think about it, you have all the time in the world to decide.


I mean, do i really have a choice? I live in extreme poverty, am scared to go outside and too anxious and lethargic to fix anything.


Hey guys, the other day I fell off a ladder while I was painting a house. My entire body is so fucked up and my entire life is fucking screwed - currently in the hospital with nothing to do, and it’s gonna be like this for the rest of my existence. Any ideas on how to kill myself?


Since you've got the hang of falling now why don't you just jump out the hospital window.
Did that ladder slide away or something?


Tried and failed. You will puke a lot and be in pain. Dehydration will kill you when you are too weak to walk. I was found 3 weeks after not eating and now I have permanent balance issues (brain damage) and other annoying shit. Roping is far better. Also MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT "SAVED"! You will suffer and they will want you to!


What's the easiest way to break a hospital window?


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The hospitals in this area have regular openable windows and would break from a normal kick but if bigger then I guess anything from some janitors tool to some large pot or sturdy piece of furniture could work. Safety glass is often weak to pointy objects


Hey folks, recommend I rope right now? Or NEET until the 28k in the bank runs out and then rope. Both of my parents have passed and I barely inherited any fucking money due to the multitude of my siblings. My life is so fucked currently, ideas?


Hey folks, recommend I rope right now? Or NEET until the 28k in the bank runs out and then rope. Both of my parents have passed and I barely inherited any fucking money due to the multitude of my siblings. My life is so fucked currently, ideas?


In what ways is your life fucked, wiz?


>wizchan 2020


>I recently stalked some egirl


whats even more pathetic is how much these bigots lack self awareness and are the biggest hypocrites around, love male attention and easy pick on thhe losers woomen can't feel love for men and everyone knows it true love is a lie and that scares them its like selling your self and soul to rub loins


It really gets worst every year



Just watched it. What a fucking trip. Genius.
I couldn't find a torrent but here's the full movie stream


Take a moment to write coherently so others understand what the fuck you're talking about.


For real dude, I have actual brain damage and even I can keep relatively coherent.


Know any other movies/series that have a similar feel or would be good if you liked this?


Feedback appreciated wizbros, I give unnecessary input out of context to vent I guess, kill niggers.


I dont want to be alive. The act of suicide terrifies me and I hope one day I have the courage to go through with it. I also feel a lot of shame when thinking about going through with it.


Realistically it's not going to matter. There is so much force coming out the barrel you are dead either way. 00 Buck weighs a total of 1.12 oz while slugs are 1 oz. There is no real spread for buck at point blank range so either way you have a ball of lead moving through your head. Flip a coin.

Just dont be one of those retards that tries to kill themselves with bird shot.


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Would boosting my testosterone levels be an effective way to increase my level of courage so that I have the balls to kill myself? If so, what's the most effective way to boost my testosterone levels? Does anyone here have experience with SARMs?


How do buckshot/slugs compare to a high caliber hollow point in terms of deadliness?


You can use a bullet energy calculator to get a general idea of deadliness of each round. For example, 45 ACP hollowpoint has 351 ft/lb of muzzle energy and a 1oz deer slug has 2971 ft/lb of energy. Use the most powerful round you have access to.



Thanks wizbro. Although this calculator doesn't take the type of bullet into account. I would expect a hollow point to do more damage than a full metal jacket if the same weight and velocity.


Same. To be honest, I have pain aversion so I wouldn't say it's an escapist fantasy. I'm significantly worse off the longer I put off doing it. I'm uglier now, I have no prospects, and I can only get health issues. I'd rather be dead than being a fucking bum in a tent, so I know I have to do it. There isn't a future for me and getting middle aged is more painful.


Yes it will do more damage. The fact that you can get 3000 foot pounds of energy in a shotgun vs 300 in a handgun makes it a no brainer though. Also, shotguns are some of the cheapest and least regulated firearms you can buy. Also the most effective method by highest percentage and least amount of pain according to lostallhope.com


It's pointless to do it
We will just carry our troubles in spirit form, made worse by the act
We have to deal with it

Watch Nosso Lar it opened my eyes. Sorry fellow cowards I also sold my .357 mag


least my fucking spirit doesn't have to worry about eating or paying rent or keeping the heat on. Even if I lived a natural life it wouldn't matter if there is any sort of punishment for being bad I am sure I will get it.


1g of caffeine every day until you die. testosterone doesn't do shit, my beard grows fast as hell and im a complete pussy, probably the biggest coward to ever live. Alcohol doesn't work for courage ive found.


>and least regulated firearms you can buy
Do you or does anyone else here have any experience buying guns? If you're trying to buy a handgun as opposed to a shotgun at a gun store, do you have to do anything additional during the buying process? Also, do shotguns and handguns typically come with a case?


Depends what country you live in. In Canada were I live, shotguns are unrestricted firearms and pistols are restricted. Also, you can get a brand new maverick 88 for like 200 canadian.

I assume it is even easier in the USA as you have 2nd amendmant rights.


I'm American


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Caffeine can cause anxiety and cognitive dysphoria according to Psychonaut Wiki. What's your experience like with taking high doses of caffeine?


Caffeine overdose is torture


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Does anyone here know of any currently available double barrel shotguns that allow you to fire both both barrels at the same time? Most of the double barrel shotguns I can find only have a single trigger, and a mechanism that lets you choose a single barrel to fire. Firing 2 barrels at the same time would maximize the chance of death.


I don't think they sell shotguns that fire 2 barrels at once. You would probably have to modify it somehow. Pointless overkill anyway.


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isn't that the whole point


The ones with double triggers can fire both at once, just use two fingers.


i have aids and wanna die


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Does anyone know if the DeBreather is legit? It supposedly kills you by using a lithium chamber that filters out the CO2 from your breath, which prevents the feeling of suffocation. You breathe for a few minutes until you run out of oxygen, and only nitrogen is left. It got an entry in The Peaceful Pill Handbook.

Here's the retailer that sells it:

Here's a video on how it works:


i don't see see anything particularly wrong with it. if a reliable source like the peaceful pill handbook mentioned it, i'd say it's trustworthy. that being said, it does seems like you have to be very careful not mess up any of the steps, or else it will compromise the whole system.

is it wrong that i found the video extremely funny? something about a janky blender animation calming kill himself to professional narration is so comedic


There are no reviews for it, that's a good sign.


You're not alone i also laughed the shit out of meself while looking at it.
Hopefully this product will be available again soon.


Hopefully there won't be any age restrictions in order to buy it. They said that you have to be at least 50 years old when I tried to buy The Peaceful Pill Handbook.


from what ive seen goldie doesnt seem that bad of a guy


the way he spazzed out when presenting his art in class felt relatable


Anyone else think about it literally every fucking day? I do. Have for years. Multiple times a day, sometimes for hours. At this point im afraid that these thoughts have permanently rewired my brain, to the point of no return. Some days I wake up thinking about it, and I fall asleep thinking about it. I used to keep on going because I figured I was at rock bottom, that things HAD to get better, but life just gets worse and worse. Now the only thing holding me back is fear. And something else, apathy maybe? Regardless, im afraid my destiny is around the corner.


Tried thay just after highschool. Did like 7 baggies of it at once and chugged a bottle of beefeater gin. Passed out in the yard and woke up in bed the next day. In hindsight I should have injected maybe.


Yeah, you wish you could be Goldie, that's why that crab stalker offed humself, couldn't take the injustice.
> I watched the entire 20+ hours of it
To which video series do you refer?


Thanks wizbro, looks like a comfy watch


Well at least my mother will not be there in the spirit world i can finally be free


Same. To be honest, I've thought about it for most of my life. I just get a lot of false hope which derails it for a while. The fact that I could NEET/hiki contributes to it too. If I was on my own, I'd probably have done it by now. This can only last for so long and it gets more pathetic by the year. On wizchan, the typical idea is if you don't do it right away, then you were just full of shit, but to be quite honest, I never wanted to get old. I was just trying to see how far I could get it. I have no real interest in being some ugly 50 year old Moe Syzlak type of character.


I just have never wanted to "grow up" and be some middle aged or higher person. Even being 29 is bad enough for me. It's gross to imagine myself as some wrinkly fuck.


>Moe Syzlak type of character
Sadly I truly suspect that if I don't do it eventually, thats exactly what I'll become. An ugly, sour old man, alone and miserable, poor and sulking in the shadows. Essentially what I am now, just not old. I don't want to live my life like that.
Its shocking how ones life can turn upside down. This time last year I had hopes of getting my own apartment. Now I'm neeting at home, and can't even provide my own food. Ive become so hopelessly dependent. At this point I wish I could take the leap (literally) and stop being such a burden.


I feel you. Im only 23 and im already feeling disgusted by myself. Probably because ive put on a bit of weight the past few years. I was always pretty ugly, a face only a mother could love, but combined with getting fat and old its unbearable. Ive tried to exercise and take care of myself but to no avail, its like trying to make a turd look pretty. Ain't gonna happen.



Every day climate change collapse will come sooner.


>unironically thinking fucking climate change is going to cause the collapse instead of superintelligent AI


Our house is on fire.


Couldn't have worded it better myself. I don't even remember what it felt like to not be suicidal, I don't think I've gone a day without thinking about it at least a couple times within the last 6 years, and at this point its pretty much constant. If I'm not distracted by something my brain jumps to it within like 10 seconds. I feel like I'm too much of a pussy to do it, but at the same time I don't see my life ending any other way. I just hope I can work up the courage soon.


Why would you link an image instead of just posting it? We're on an imageboard.


Why not both? :)


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>'Murder by proxy’: Bill imposing stiffer penalty on those convicted of guiding suicide passes Pa. House
State lawmakers are moving a bill that would impose a harsher penalty for those convicted of causing or aiding suicide of a minor or anyone with autism or an intellectual disability.

The measure won passage by a 188-14 vote in the Pennsylvania House of Representatives on Wednesday.
The bill now goes to the Senate for consideration. It is named “Shawn’s Law” in memory of 25-year-old Shawn Shatto, who committed suicide a year ago in her parents’ Newberry Township home in York County after receiving guidance to do so from an online chat forum.

…The current penalty for causing or aiding suicide is graded as a second-degree felony, punishable with up to 10 years in prison and a $25,000 fine, or a second-degree misdemeanor, punishable with up to two years in prison and a $5,000 fine, depending on the circumstances, according to the York County District Attorney’s office.


Search YouTube for "Ricardo Lopez tapes." The Bjork stalker uploaded some twenty or so hours of himself talking about his life and preparing his booby trapped package for the singer.
>There are no reviews for it, that's a good sign.
Very funny!


They won't even let us die.


I'm trying to think of things that make me happy when I get suicidal thoughts. It kind of helps. I don't know what to do anymore. Even if I have moments of happiness in life how can I truly be happy when there is so much evil and suffering in the world? It is like life is one big joke or a suffering simulation.


>implying the government isn't incompetent at everything


For me, it's like "damn this seems hard to pull off" with suicide. I may have to scout locations to see where I can jump off from a high enough height since I'm too pussy to do it in a more proactive way. The Golden Gate Bridge getting a barrier fucked up my plans from before.


What if you went skydiving and didn't open your parachute?


They won't let you dive off of alone without training. Not sure how much it costs and how long I'd have to do it.


I was wondering a little while ago, and again just now, who exactly the first person to have ever committed suicide might've been. The history of suicide page on wikipedia says that:

>The first recorded person to commit suicide was Empedocles. One of his beliefs was that Death was a transformation. It is possible this idea influenced his suicide. Empedocles died by throwing himself into the Sicilian volcano, Mount Etna.

Still though, I'm sure there was probably someone else before that point. It's kind of surreal to think of someone actually being the first to have ever committed suicide. I wonder what exactly their reason might've been for doing so. Perhaps a depressed caveman banished from their tribe wanting to end it all, or something? Could a willing participant to human sacrifice be seen as a suicide? It's not really the same thing, though. I guess I just wonder just how far back that impulse to end one's life truly goes. Maybe it could even be seen as part of the first true signs of some kind intelligence for a species to exhibit, what with being able to willfully terminate their own existence, whether it be from their own beliefs, or just from not being able to bear the weight of their painful thoughts or of what they feel any longer.


That didn't actually happen though. idk how it's on the suicide page when the empedocles page is clear that it's apocryphal.


suicide can be a reaction to social defeat so the caveman thing would make sense. it would also be feasible that a starving early human would prefer to end it.


How would they enforce that though? Couldn't someone just undo their harness midair or right before the jump?


They only let you do tandem skydiving first meaning you're not in control of the harness. Trying some shit mid-air when you're dealing with an experienced professional isn't very likely to work out.


It's probably as old as humanity itself, but clearly living in society has made it much more common. Nothing has the potential to bring as much misery as a bunch of other people.


I really want to die so much, but I'm such a fucking coward and I don't want my mother to suffer because of my death. I'm so fucking sick of being a slave to other people's whims, I can't pull myself together even to end it all.


>One night in long bygone times, man awoke and saw himself.

>He saw that he was naked under cosmos, homeless in his own body. All things dissolved before his testing thought, wonder above wonder, horror above horror unfolded in his mind.

>Then succubus too awoke and said it was time to go and slay. And he fetched his bow and arrow, a fruit of the marriage of spirit and hand, and went outside beneath the stars. But as the beasts arrived at their waterholes where he expected them of habit, he felt no more the tiger’s bound in his blood, but a great psalm about the brotherhood of suffering between everything alive.

>That day he did not return with prey, and when they found him by the next new moon, he was sitting dead by the waterhole

I like to think that's the first and last suicide all in one.



Glad more people are reading Zapffe since it's such a good and short essay.


This is really the last essay that needed to be written about anything
Until we as humans can overcome the paradox of causing suffering in order to prolong our own suffering in order to procreate and create more suffering, we will forever be caught in this loop


The first person to commit suicide was God


That got me thinking about the first person to ever commit suicide. Must be a pretty amazing realization that you can kill yourself. Imagine making that discovery and going through with it. Wonder his name was.



is it worth it leave a suicide note explaining the "why's" for my family ?



I’m stuck in a mental hospital and want to kill myself but can’t. I’ve been here 6 months


If they let you access the Internet and wizchan in particular then it’s an above average ward.


They took my phone away for 5 months and most Chan’s are blocked, I have a vpn



that's very very long, my last stay was only one month and a half and that was 8 years ago. Good luck wizard.


What did you do to end up getting thrown in a mental hospital?


Redpill me on what mental hospitals are like in more detail

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