Not that i praise la resistance, but what you wrote is stupid.
Just so you don't feel as if you're shouting into the void, and that you aren't alone with this plague of a world, I am leaving a reply.
Never wanted anything either. Just always want "out" instead.
I wonder how it must be to feel a progression. A narrative.
well, you posted an anime ost so I guess you still enjoy anime? I stopped enjoying shit like 3 yrs ago, the only thing that kinda makes me happy is vidya
Does he has a YT channel? It's really hard to find cozy, loner yt channels by using the search bar alone.
I have an honest question as this seems to be where I'm heading as well: How do you survive day to day life for so long? I feel all this inaction is pure torment, there is not a single moment where I feel at peace, I feel like in constant panic and discomfort.
it's your special case
most people who choose inaction find peace in it
Guess I'm doomed then.
How do I stop overthinking everything?
I have negative experiences with "therapy", but that's all that free healthcare will get. Anybody worth a damn has a private practice and selectively chooses patients on whims charging hundred or more an hour. It's a funny thing, the people who could actually help you are all out of the price range of where people end up when they need the people who could actually help
. Hilarious rib m8.
That could apply to anything to life, for example succubi who could help the crabs are out of their league
make friends with death
chose the best example of that "anything"
The title of "therapist" is someone there specifically meant to help you yet are ineffective; succubi aren't failing and doing a shitty job when they just don't fuck some people, not really equivalent. But, I get what you are trying to say.
Even in these cases, you are still called a hypocrit, pretentious or something idiotic like a buzz kill.
Why do you care what people say?
>>222457>Yes, you can create art
I've had numerous nights without any sleep or just 1-2 hours in the last couple of weeks.
To be honest I have slept poorly for years, mostly not enough time and waking up many times during the night.
I know it's bad for my health but there seems to be nothing I can do about it. Some things help for a couple of days but then stop.
I hit rock bottom. I spent 2 entire days doing porno videos in a well known mod friendly western rpg but the arousal i experienced in the process made me unable to focus so the creations were nowhere close to what i wanted, it all just resulted in me touching my penis for 10 hours straight for 2 days. I uninstalled everything after realizing what a degenerate i've become.
You'll come back to it or find some other degeneracy to edge too. I know because I am also a porn addict.
I feel like I'm an NPC incapable of critical thought
Why do they make them colored like that?
So the earwax stains are less noticed?
Hopefully the crossbow works out, wiz.
Dehydration is though
I work nights. As such, my sleep schedule has been screwed up since I started this job about three years ago. My dad woke me up shortly after I got to sleep, because the hospital phoned about rescheduling some appointment I had booked but was rescheduled because of covid. He then gave me shit for "looking bewildered."
I wasn't expecting the call today. No shit I was bewildered
Thank you wiz,I think I remember you,you are the lithuanian wiz that used to post the same anme picture every time? the one that gave you comfort or something,some years ago you said that you were going to kill yourself,I'm glad you're still around.
All that I'm living for are those five minutes of peace before falling asleep. The day is nothing but a bleak passage I have to endure.
My God, we have a light walker among us! https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cotard_delusion
I don't feel any peace at all, not even before going to sleep.
I just broke down and cried in front of my mom like a little fucking succubus
i dont know myself.
im a complete retard. not the worst type of person on earth because im below that, on a category of my own.
is there a practical text guide to life for complete retards? i need to learn very basic stuff like personal finance, health, nutrition, even hygiene. how long does it take to turn life around? i estimate that i wont feel less anxious or that i have the time for videogames before im 40.
how long does it take to go through all the /sci/ and /g/ book lists? to become proficient in half a dozen languages?
should i go to an university right away? or should i wait until im confident?
how is the world going to look like in 20 years? will ordinary people still work ordinary jobs?
do ordinary people even exist? isnt everyone secretly an evil genius? even here on wizchan, im probably the only unironic retard. as in downs syndrome stupid.
im trying to study hard but my eyes kind of hurt. ive tried messing with redshift and my monitors settings but migraines and stuff remain a problem. im thinking of getting a projector asap and using my walls as a monitor.
also my room is hot, i cant think as clearly here as i can when im in the living room or the hallway or the kitchen. i cant realistically move my computer elsewhere. my windows have to remain shut because theres too much light, noise and pollution outside. theres a fan right next to me 24/7 and i can drink water but thats about it.
is there a way a subhuman like me can make it out of this world? will there ever be a meaning to my life? is there a right way to live? there isnt a divine, non-man-made secret i should be looking for? i dont like being like this. i want to be good, whatever that is. is living and thinking for myself wrong?
right now the most i can realistically shoot for is living in my own little wicked world, far away from tech and everyone else. ill die completely ignorant. i could spend my life reading a textbook after the other and i still wouldnt know some of the most elementary things. i owe most of what i know to imageboards like this and it was pure luck that i found them. how can people know and do so much? i cant imagine there not being something practically magical involved, like injecting knowledge directly to the brain through chips or whatever. is reading the web the only way to find new things that i never imagined existing?
i probably will never amount to more than a grocery store cashier. is that all that there is? i dont want to accept it, maybe i never fully will but i dont see the alternative. i dont understand anything. i cant shake the feeling its not supposed to be like this and that i should be different.
this time ill try to stop shitposting for good. i think interacting with others makes me weak. and there has never been anyone that has not been tormented by the mere concept of my existence or the sight of my posts.
I don't believe in God or the supernatural but on some days I just can't help but think that I am cursed.
The number of people I know who do mundane jobs and are incredibly intelligent (either in terms of conversations with them, or in terms of their credentials) is staggering. The misuse of the incredible intelligence of each and every one of us is a fundamental characteristic of modern civilization, it seems to me.
Anyways, are you seeking proficiency? Is your goal here for someone else to say, "Ah, that anon, he's really good at X."?
wasn't sure where to post this but i was skipping around this vid randomly and came across this parthttps://youtu.be/Xk8Wxlqc_7w?t=2303
people live their whole lives believing in spooks
If you need someone to talk with or ask questions I could potentially provide this
Just pick a medium of communication
There is absolutely nothing wrong with being a grocery store cashier for your entire life. As long as you make your own goals and accept yourself for who you are that is ok. It doesn't matter one bit what other people are doing.
>go to do something
>dad picks it apart
>call him out on it
>goes on for ages about how he is always rational and never picks me apart, while finding new ways to pick me apart
No sleep again for me last night. This is the norm now. Only high doses of sleeping pills can get me anything and then it's usually just a couple hours tops. I don't even know how I'm alive right now to be honest with you. I wonder if I'm dying.
For me it's the opposite. I always sleep too much and then feel miserable and drained the whole day. And no kind of alarm gets me to stay up earlier, even when I have to stand up to make it stop I just rush to bed again and fall asleep sooner or later.