awareness? I'm making stuff out of whole cloth, but I have kind of the same problem. I can talk excessively on dominate conversations, the more I did it the more I noticed a pattern in their disinterest. So, I try to keep this in mind whenever I have a conversation and hold myself back.
And to criticize my suggestion, I probably focus more on filtering myself then enjoying the conversation.
Nah you just don't belong in this (current) world. Embrace the loneliness or kys.
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Don't, go full Dirlewanger.
He doesn't belong here either, that twerp sounds like he's 16.
You'll either grow out of it, or learn to embrace being alone
I can tell you exactly why you behave this way and how to avoid it.
You subconsciously want social contact with people but you also want to be noticed and get attention, at the same time you have a lot of mental struggles and frustration.
You might join a voice chat with the idea of trying to actually talk with people but you end up behaving in a irritating and obnoxious way because you probably lack the personality to keep up an actual conversation or to say something that actually matters to people. You are "boring" and have no social skills as you already stated yourself which is a further indicator that you lack a personality.
The only way for you to be noticed by others is when you "talk shit" since it doesn't require a developed personality to do so and its often a sure and cheap way to get reactions and attention, that's why you resort to being irritating towards others in voice chats since its the only way you can get people to react to anything you say, at the same time you also carry a lot of frustration with you that you simply project at others in order to compensate.
If you want to stop doing this you need to work on yourself as in trying to stop protecting at others first and trying to show empathy towards other people. Join a voice call and try to be part of the conversation without trying to be in the center of attention, if it gets too uncomfortable just leave before you resort to being edgy, its a learning process. Of course the main problem is a lack of personality and thats a tough one to solve and I'm not sure if thats even possible but you being a edgelord can be solved.
can relate :(
One question: define "personality"?
A personality is your character etc. which gets shaped by things you do and experiences you have. A lack of social experiences while growing up will prevent you from shaping a stable personality which will lead to things such as personality disorders or being schizoid and so forth and this is exactly the cause of OP's concerns.
Try to fit in with healthy, socially sane people
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i dont know where else to post this but is there a thread on wizchan where i can discuss conspiracies without politicrabs threads that reek of edge? every reply is /pol/ tier and a "redpill"
Wizchan doesn't really have a lot of traffic so I guess you would have found a thread by now. Also its not possible to have a single thread without some salty, angry dumbass acting like an upset toddler because he has a different opinion