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 No.234474

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread

 No.234475

How do you deal with self pity and the feeling of missing out?
Like no matter how bad I want to escape there's a part of me that feels sad because it simply can't accept that it's over. I try to assess my situation objectively but my reason gets paralyzed by strong emotions and I resolve to crying and pitying myself over my wasted life. I know there is nothing left for me but a miserable drag, but the thought of leaving makes me so unconsolably sad. Please help me anons.

 No.234476

>>234475
Try anti-depressants if you haven't. I started them a while ago and they've been working far better than I thought they would.

 No.234480

>>234475
>How do you deal with self pity and the feeling of missing out?

You just don't, you can only control it to some extent. Everybody has self pity, expect for serial killers and maniacs of course. Some hide their self pity to appear strong, some tell others how that doesn't affect them. Some just refuse to accept that they have self pity out of shame and dumb down. But it will always be there. Everyone who appears to be completely chill has self pity too. It's just that they tend to suffer from it less often than you.

>Like no matter how bad I want to escape there's a part of me that feels sad because it simply can't accept that it's over.


Nobody does, not entirely. All of us feel what you feel, it's just about the intensity and frequency that's different in all of us.

>I try to assess my situation objectively but my reason gets paralyzed by strong emotions and I resolve to crying and pitying myself over my wasted life.


Maybe because you actually are overthinking it because everyone around you appears to be so perfect. So you're just loathing yourself expecting to assure yourself that you're punishing yourself or you think that continuously blaming and hating yourself may change your behaviour

I know there is nothing left for me but a miserable drag, but the thought of leaving makes me so unconsolably sad. Please help me anons.

 No.234481

>>234474
I don't want to live. I have a tense strong feeling of just not wanting to live at all. The fact I can't change my major because the college staff is always so fucking shit and take years to do anything so i'm stuck with my shit classes that I don't want to do. The fact I have to work at some shit job part time next week and my parents are screaming at me to get a job. I don't want to live, nothing brings me joy anymore, everything is stressful, I stopped having fun years ago. I just don't want to wake up anymore.

 No.234482

>>234481
I know my words are probably just meaningless platitude to you, but I will try anyway. As someone who switched majors in college, and switched programs in grad school, just know it's not too late. Your only goal right now should be independence. Whether that's achieved through school or wageslavery or your choice, but take solace in knowing there will come a point when you don't have to take your parent's shit anymore. Even if you have to drop out, it wasn't wasted time as those credits, at least some of them, are transferable if you ever want to go back. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and there will be a day when your life is your own.

 No.234483

>>234482
Thanks wizzie, i'm just trying to get this shitty wageslave job so I can make money and move out. That's my main plan, I hope I can change my major in the summer or go to another competent fucking college without braindead staff.

 No.234484

Very bizarre to know that I will probably be homeless this year. I feel sort of ambivalent about it even though I should be terrified.

 No.234486

>>234484
I think that's the right feeling to have. You'll be okay, you'll just need some time to get back on your feet.

 No.234489

>>234486
I was on my feet once?

 No.234490

>>234489
If you weren't before, you still can.

 No.234491

Used to have nothing to live for. That was okay. Now that I long for something meaningful again it's all the more painful waking up and looking in the mirror at someone who can't attain it.

 No.234498

So I have this thought of going outside to ride my bike. Let me act on it. The thought is stupid…..

 No.234505

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I'm not depressed, I've just given up.

 No.234513

>>234508
gonna leave this website for a long time, maybe you'll leave and i'll come back when you leave.

 No.234521

>>234508
on dep no less

 No.234526

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jerking off is a great consolation, by means of it one gets through many a dark night.

 No.234527

are you guys diagnosed with anything? if so what is it? do you take medication? I have severe anxiety

 No.234535

i am so jealous of people with successful careers

 No.234539

I'm gay and my dick is small

 No.234541

I want to kill my dog. My mother forced this creature on me and refuses to take care of it or walk it. I begged her not to get a pet but she did it anyway. She just lies in bed all day while the dog whines and chews everything.

Please just fucking die you stupid creature

 No.234542

>>234541
If you take care of it it will love you. And make your mother seethe with envy.

 No.234544

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>>234541
dogs are always hassle and you get nothing in return unless you are a succubi who needs emotional support or dumb enough to care that a dog "loves" you like this succubus >>234542 who thinks is so smart
"my dog loves me and I love my dog!" Delusional.

 No.234545

>>234544
I bet you like cats. I stomp on them and hit them with my car. Does this trigger you, faggot?

 No.234546

>>234544
I like dogs because they are cute, tubby, and do not fall prey to the limitless greed and vice that Man is prone to in his selfish pursuit of raw material power.

 No.234547

>have day off
>spend it hearing my parents yelling about the same bullshit they always do
Is it sad that I'd rather be wageslaving? At least then I'd be getting paid to feel uncomfortable.

 No.234548

>>234547
Use that wagecuck money to buy some good, comfortable, noise-reducing headphones.

 No.234549

>>234548
I'm thinking about it, actually. Have any recommendations?

 No.234550

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>>234546
>i like dogs cause they're cute
literally succ reasoning for almost everything
>and do not fall prey to the limitless greed and vice that Man is prone
what does men morality has to do here with anything? Bullshit made up reason. Just say you like dogs cause their cute, and that's beyond the point here, you can like something and accept they're a hassle.

 No.234551

>>234527
I got diagnosed with persistent depressive disorder.

It was a fucking scam, though. I was sad because my life was shit. My depression magically went away last year because the COVID lockdowns allowed me to finally work from home alone.

 No.234552

>>234526

It sounds as if there was something you still wanted to do in this world.

Whatever it is: don't lie to thyself.

>How do you deal with self pity and the feeling of missing out?


I drinked my own tears once, since heard it was therapeutical. The "missing out" things I accepted them as parasite viruses in my mind: they were never worth it neither really available. Juts ghosts put there to torture me with illusions.

>I try to assess my situation objectively but my reason gets paralyzed by strong emotions and I resolve to crying


Assuming what our fate is usually most relieving. I insist you should try drinking own tears.

>>234484
Sometimes the path of warp waning comes to us in a forceful way.

>>234526
>Self-destruction

>>234541
Is it yours or hers? I'd sell it if mine.

 No.234564

>>234474
I've become entirely hopeless, no longer understand even basic things or why people do them, nothing enjoyable at all anymore. I am like a bag in the wind, totally alienated from every aspect of my own life and only existing because it has become the path of least resistance. If i didn't have any family members who still tried to keep contact with me i would kill myself without hesitation

 No.234565

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>>234564
Well put, wiz.

 No.234566

>>234549
No, but in the meantime you can get some earbuds and over-the-ear protection for cheap. I use this when working on machinery all day, listening to audiobooks.

 No.234574

I never hurted anyone why is everyone in real life so fucking cruel to me

 No.234586

>>234574
Yup, another victim of the just world hypothesis.

 No.234593

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Constantly being on my own is making me depressed. All the things I do feel invalid when there's no one to perceive them. I feel like I'm in some sort of limbo waiting for things to happen or pick up again. For someone to pull me out of this. But I know it won't happen. Also I'm glad the rona happened so I'm not the only sad fuck who didn't see friends on new years. Fuck you bitches now you can be lonely too.

 No.234595

>>234565
It's hard to write anything coherent nowadays, it took me a lot of time to think that small post through and make it readable. I wish i wasn't afraid of the pain before death and what my family might think so i could just kill myself now, but alas i am far too mentally weak for it at the moment

 No.234606

just because I'm fucking anxious and get a nervous tick of biting my tongue doesn't mean I'm retarded fuck you familyu

 No.234608

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCK FUCK FUCK WHY IS ALCOHOL ALLOWED EVYERHWERE BUT WEED IS ILLEGAL FUCK THESE STUPID NIGGER CATTLE NORMALFAGS WEED MAKES ME HAPPY AND CALM LIQUOR JUST MAKES ME FUCKING ANGRTY AND SAD I CAN'T ENJOY SHIT WHILE DRUNK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

 No.234609

Ranting about my health a bit-
Been addicted to opiates a long time so they masked a lot of pain. Sober finally 5 weeks. Testicles have hurt entire time, figured it was a quirk of withdrawal but the pain didn't stop. I went to a clinic finally that's overrun with anxious parents wanting to make sure their 5 year old precious gem doesn't have COVID. I get in last, nurse checks my testicles. Says it's epididymitis. Says most common cause is from STDs. I explain to her this is impossible as I've never had sex. She still makes me take an STD test and gives me antibiotics, surprise the antibiotics don't work and I also don't have a urinary tract infection. I really don't want to lose my testicles.

Trying to get into my old doctor I saw 15 months ago but he's disappeared off of the face of the earth so I guess I gotta find a new doctor. IBS constantly, maybe chron's disease, my intestines hurts all the time when under stress. My intestines and left ball throb all the time in pain. I want so bad to go back on opiates but I know they're the shit that got me here in the 1st place and the pain is a reminder to stay clean. So it sucks, going to try to get into another doctor tomorrow but I think it'll be some 1-3 months wait bullshit to see a new GP. Just overall extremely frustrated that my health is shit. Trying to walk more, usually do 30 minutes a day but sometimes I'm so tired and my pain is so intense that I have to stop after 15 minutes and go lie down. Both my intestinal and testicular pain get worse when I'm under worse stress. Also have to go to the bathroom in the mornings like 3 times an hour for several hours even if I don't drink coffee. My health is so beyond fucked because I've been addicted to high quantities of various drugs for 7 years. And also was addicted to drugs before that. But I guess the good news is that I'm able to stay sober for now and it's the longest stretch of sobriety I've had.

 No.234610

>>234609
Good for you wiz. These fucking retards that constantly demand covid tests are so annoying, good luck to you and your sobriety.

 No.234618

Do wizards here that also have mental illness get treated like a baby/mentally retarded person in real life? Whenever I have to do something where I'm talking with people like at a doctor, the bank, in the classroom, or just about anything like that, people think I am mentally retarded and will talk to me like I am a child, I look pretty young for a 24 year old so maybe it's not that weird but I don't understand what I'm doing wrong, people never even call me 'sir' they will call me buddy or pal and generally talk in a really soft way to me.

 No.234620

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>>234618
Happens to me, too. On the bright side, they won't subject you to any mind games or social "roughhousing" like they do with people they consider to be their equals/inferiors.

 No.234622

>>234608
honestly THE dumbest thing (((mankind))) is still doing, its is understandable though to have the cattle drunk to keep them fucking killing and what not, but holy shit….. you are born without anything making sense and after a while you discover a plant growing in the wild that would give you something to wake up for in the morning and you find out there are things called "legal issues" fucking you up the ass I mean wow…

 No.234623

Started taking anti-depressants and they are working extremely well at suppressing human emotions and bringing out the rationality in the back of everyone's mind.

 No.234624

>>234608
>>234622
You have to be 18 to post here.

 No.234625

>>234624
Do not submit low quality, inflammatory or off-topic posts.

 No.234627

>>234625
Drugs aren't wizardly and will lead to homelessness and imprisonment in excess.

 No.234628

>He who despises himself still respects himself as one who despises
Nietzsche

 No.234632

>>234628
Interesting

 No.234636

I realized I've spent my whole life by myself.

So now it's no wonder that things aren't going according to plan.

Curious what I am supposed to do from here. I am built to be by myself. I am not even a worker. I am just a guy who sits by myself in my room. That is what I have done since I can remember.

 No.234639

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Despite all efforts I guess my nature is to be lazy and have no self-control. Cool I guess.

 No.234655

I intended to, and perhaps still do, wish to commit suicide in the future. Because of this i have disregarded everything in my life and it has in effect become unlivable, my house is squalor, i do not care about my job and work so little (part time) that i am at a net deficit of money every month. However, i have realised that i likely don't have the will or strength to commit suicide and i don't know if i ever will.
Now i am stuck in this unlivable life with no ways to better it and no exit.

 No.234664

>>234639
Same here, wizzie

 No.234717

Why is everyone on the internet disciplined and hard working? I feel like I'm the only person who truly does nothing all day but wasting time away.

 No.234718

>>234717
> Why is everyone on the internet disciplined and hard working?
I cannot fathom how you came to that conclusion

 No.234721

>>234717
I don't know why you would think that but if it makes you feel any better I also do nothing other than "wasting" time.

 No.234727

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>>234474
Man, parents got hooked up in the patriot youtuber/Qboomer train. Have to hear them both listen to all that cult like parroting all day and it's taking its toll on my mind.

>>234717
People lie/exaggerate, at times even unconsciously, to make themselves look better than what they really are. It's a way to protect the ego.

 No.234730

I really, really reset the younger version of me for not brushing my teeth. Even though I take care of my teeth now, they're still slowly getting worse and the pain gets a little harder to deal with each year. Can't even enjoy the basic pleasures of eating and sleeping.

 No.234731

>>234718
>>234721
>>234727
I'm just tired of reading improvebra posts. One of those ruins my whole day. I can't stand it. It reminds me of my defeatism every time. There is a special place in hell for those people.

 No.234733

Has anyone else fucked their life to the point they have accepted in and wonder if you are still depressed and then you remember you still cut yourself and are unable to enjoy life whilst thinking of killing yourself all the time?
I just feel so far gone and glad I accepted life is fucked and honestly there is nothing I would want from it but a friend yet it is sad I am such trash better off dead and too bitch to kms.

Wizzies I wish I did not have mental issues I wish I was not entirely numb.

 No.234746

>>234731
I don't like them either, but I guess it has a worst effect on you, I usually just ignore them

 No.234769

>>234481
ah, I don't even want to do anything anymore. I picked my major not based on what I liked the most but rather what I disliked the least. I don't care about living or dying at this point; I just want to be freed from all obligations

 No.234773

Got really angry a couple of hours ago and I still haven't calmed down. I'm a big emotional baby :)

 No.234774

>>234769
<get rid of all obligations

Became NEET for a year after finishing my master and it was by far the best year of my life. So I agree, having no obligation at all is truly healing. It was the first time in my life where I had really time for myself and I never understood before how much I needed that. Just doing nothing while doing nothing is completely fine because there is no pressure. This must end soon as I need to earn money, but I can't stress enough how important it is to just have a time where you are actually free.

 No.234776

>>234769
What's your major?

 No.234785

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I don't want to go back to work, I just want bux forever. DID YOU HEAR THAT BIDEN? I'M NOT GETTING BACK IN THE FUCKING CAGE, YOU OLD FAGGOT.

 No.234791

I fucking hate the normalscum attitude of "things can always get better!". This vapid and ignorant platitude is all the more cruel when in reality the total inverse is true, things almost never get better and always can get worse, as i'm sure many of you know.
Whenever i hear my family tell me this i want to attack them, it is nothing more than a cruel joke directed at me.

 No.234797

>>234785
Never liked joker posting it screams frog poster
>>234791
I guess one thing I can be thankful for is that my family thinks my life wil get worse and secretly hopes I kill myself.

 No.234798

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF FIRST WORLDERS SAYING THAT LIFE SUCKS! THAT THINGS WONT GET BETTER! THAT LIFE IS UNFAIR! THAT THEY ARE MENTALLY SICK! THAT THEY ARE ALONE! FUCK EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THOSE FUCKERS! The only suffering acceptable is when you dont have running water and access to food and heart. Everything else is a show. Everyrthing else is not real. Everything else is bullshit.

 No.234806

>>234798
imagine thinking only turd worlders can be miserable more like 1st worlders are more miserable

 No.234807

>>234798
These words have truth to them. Stay warm and full wizard friend.

 No.234808

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>>234798
first worlders and their succubi tier problems are literally cancer, funniest part is they really believe they're going through a lot even when they have a lot and more of what is needed to survive. Any complaint by them regarding life or "struggle" is like hearing a succubus crying for not having a boyfriend. Guess they are the niggers who think money won't make you happy.

 No.234809

>>234808
Maybe to someone getting torture right now or having a cluster headache you're the one that is not "really suffering and being a crybaby". What I mean to say is suffering is extremely subjective for someone and depends on many factors. So even a trillionaire can suffer. Maybe you dont want to believe it because you cant fathom his experience but that doesnt mean it isnt occuring. Anyway, all life is suffering no need to have a competition on who has it worst…

 No.234824

>>234808
>>234798
pain is subjective, you can have debilitating mental illness anywhere

 No.234825


 No.234826

>>234808
Niggers are the ones who think money makes you happy such as this one you quoted >>234798 idiot

 No.234827

I'm so fucking tired of normalfags who shame NEETs because they aren't wage slaves like them. It isn't easy to get a job anymore. Welcome to 2021.
>just apply
>it's so easy to get a job
>they'll hire anyone with a pulse
Yeah it was easy for you to find a slave master, you stupid sheep. Doesn't mean it's easy for me too.

 No.234828

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i hate the fact that i live in unbearable physical pain every day and my doctors dont care about me and my parents would rather ignore the problem than deal with the uncomfortable fact that nothing is being done for me and i have suffered for years and that i have to use mind altering in order to just cope with each waking minute and i would really rather not be alive ive told them so many times i am saving my money to go to another country to be seen by doctors in one last ditch attempt of saving my life… its all there is left to do….. if nothing else i am going to be roping at the end of this year that is my new years resolution. finally peace i want to be dead i want to be in the ground no more physical pain no more mental anguish that i wont ever be able to do the things that make a person a real human because i am truly disabled not like most welfare rats i have real true problems and i would rather work at mcdonalds today and be healthy than sit in a bsement collecting neetbux. this is it 12/31/21 my last day alive unless some shit changes real soon. ill post here on 12/31/21 if i got some relief from my problem or if i end it and fuck off im not livestreaming i want my suicide to be just one peaceful and private moment that no other son of a bitch can ever take from me. fuck my fucking piece of shit human body for taking every chance i ever had at having a fulfilling life. its truly not fair people rot in prison who are perfectly healthy but retarded shit they did. i was always a kind polite and respectful person and i did everything my family and society and the textbooks told me to do and here i am. fuck life. mainlander was right

 No.234829

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 No.234832

>>234829
what's the source of this? Is it a jav? I've seen it too many times and I think I read it was a jav on 4chan many years ago.

 No.234836

>>234827
Right? Only jobs I can find and literally work are warehouses. Even Mc donalds where I live isn't hiring and has too many people. How the fuck are you supposed to get a job if no one will hire?

 No.234839

>>234808
This relativistic view of pain and suffering is terrible. Somewhere there is someone even poorer and worse off than you, guaranteed. That doesn't lessen your suffering.

 No.234843

>>234544
dogs are really the only animals that are known to try to rescue or help their owners with very few and rare exceptions\\

so dogs are alright with me. a dog will love you more than a succubus ever will

 No.234844

>>234843
>a dog will love you more than a succubus ever will

of course they will, you could be a serial rapist and murdered, and your dog will still be happy to see you and love you
I bet many wizard's bullies got lots of love from their dogs :)

 No.234852

>>234844
true. but the wizards dogs also loved the bullied wizards. dogs are pretty indifferent to human problems. enlightened or stupid, it must be a good life for them

 No.234855

>>234474
ill be honest i kind of hate pic related, anon.
the characters represented here all represent happy moments in my childhood. its a decent thread, though. no disrespect.
my childhood is a sacred memory for me, man. the only time i was really happy…….

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 No.234865

>have job interview tomorrow
I want to die

 No.234866

>>234855
Imagine ever being happy in life like a normalfag. seriously though thats nice wizzie

 No.234867

Been beaten down by crippling depression/anxiety/OCD for the last few years. I cannot stand this existence. I want to sleep forever. I hate waking up.

 No.234870

>>234866
i think its possible to be happy without succubi bro. its lifes other problems that bother me more honestly.

 No.234878

>>234865
Just b urself

 No.234887

Oh fuck I wrote this when I was drunk two nights ago and I'm embarrassed. What a stupid assertion.

 No.234888

>>234887
Was meant for >>234798. Suffering is subjective. I'd still say there's some truth to it though. It's important to remember that being comfy, having heaters and food etc. is worth a lot. We forget that too easily as first worlders. But none of that helps when the mind and body is sick.

 No.234918

>>234490
thank you, wizard



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