I dissociate pretty much all day
I spend a lot of time getting lost in various fantasies, I have a recurring fantasy where I have a group of friends that understand me and we go on adventures like in anime
In a way I admire lunatics like that catholic dude you mentioned. They might be wrong yet they have a conviction which they truly believe in beyond the normalfag way of life. Lunatics like that that are ready to die for their cause - as long as they only hurt themselves or bad people - are extremely based imho.
i always think about that scene in O brother where art thou where the guys get the sin washed away in the mire and they come out redeemed and are stoked about it. i wish i could say in the confidence of my faith that i am saved and be truly confident about the fate of my eternal soul