No.236747
You wouldn't be that way if you were staring death in the face every day. It's basic human psychology to be severely depressed when you're doing nothing productive.
No.236750
Token anhedonia thread, yet again.
>>236747It isn't about productivity at all. It is about having desires and passions and following them and living them out as much as one has the power to do it. OP is another wizkid who lacks goals and interests, probably just a phase that will pass when he will get bored of being miserable.
No.236755
It's easy. You've realized that your earnest desires can't be fulfilled so you turn to escapism. Imagine a bird locked forever in a golden cage.
No.236757
I just go through the motions, I'm not really sure why anymore. I don't even have very grandiose ideas anymore. I just want to not suffer like I did in the past
No.236758
weed
No.236759
>>236747I have a job. My anhedonia is amplified when I'm wageslaving away.
No.236762
Anhedonia is either a product of a lack of exposure to new activities and people, which is common for people with restrictive lifestyles like shut-ins and NEETs.
Or, more subtly, a lack of ability to perceive potential rewards and/or lack of confidence in your ability to earn those rewards. For example, you can't imagine that some activity might pay off, to be able to anticipate the reward, or if you can, you aren't confident that you will manage to earn it, hence why demotivation makes sense.
Personally, I don't have general anhedonia, but I do have "social" anhedonia which makes me unable to enjoy socializing. From observing my own subjective experience, I simply lack this anticipatory feeling and imagination that I get with regular activities. I literally cannot imagine a social situation that would be enjoyable to me or any practical way to realize it, hence the complete social demotivation.
No.236764
Just go back where you came from, underaged crab.
No.236765
>>236763This is only appealing if you're into that kind of intellectual posturing. What exactly do I gain by outwitting some random normalfuck? I would only be showcasing my own ignorance at how to play the social game and would be labeled as "that guy" in any group setting. But then, trying to play the actual game also doesn't seem appealing in any way because there is no anticipation of a reward. Do I want them to laugh at my jokes? Do I want their attention as I share intricate details of my life? Do I hope to gain something from befriending them? I can imagine that this is what motivates people, but for me personally, I just cannot perceive any potential from interacting with another person, at least outside of imageboards.
No.236766
>>236765Socrates was basically king of the warlocks. I personally am jealous of the man.
No.236769
>>236750>>236764This is /dep/ you dumb fucks
No.236770
>>236769although there is another anhedonia thread so I agree
No.236785
>>236766He was nothing like a warlock, he was an ultra-normal who attended parties and enjoyed courting young noble boys. Plus his pretentious and hypocrite way of thinking managed to plague Europe for more than a thousand years.
>>236769Still no excuse for posting low-quality threads.
No.236787
You gotta try and force youself to do things you used to enjoy, and don't have any expectations. You'll most likely feel like shit the first few times you do it but eventually you should start enjoying that particular activity again.
No.236789
>>236785You're calling the one man who managed to piss off every aristocrat in his society an "ultra-normal"? Socrates was a fucking warlock that questioned the reputations of those in power and unveiled how unworthy they were of that power. How is that normal?
No.236839
I wake up, do the menial tasks I have to do, see if any of the channels I'm subscribed to uploaded anything, sometimes gather information on how to commit suicide, then read boards and listen to music in the background until I fall asleep.
No.236846
i don't, i just have no instinctual need to do anything aside from the instincts that have the strongest hold over me and everyone else, for eg. hunger, i cannot even extract pleasure from playing games, enjoying anime or other forms of art, or going out, or anything really, i spend most of my time browsing imageboards
No.239185
I'm thinking about becoming an alcoholic
Maybe it will make me numb, and numbness is infinitely better than this
No.240575
>>239185you can be numb without subjecting yourself to poison, just practice mindlessness
No.240578
suicide
No.240583
Drugs help nothing joyful so sleeps nice. Lucid dreams are good
No.240606
>>240576Looks like contrived normgroid shit to me
No.241402
>>236746a routine of distractions that im convinced are making me a better person, even if i know its not going to help me in life. also, i masturbate.
No.241412
>>240606It is normie shit I have tried everything even going no tech to try that dopamine fasting and it didn othing but waste my time. The novelty of online, games, etc is fresh again all for maybe 8 hours after not using any technology for months it is honestly a huge waste of time unless you are a normalfag who is addicted to face book.
No.241415
>>241412it's supposed to be a lifestyle change rather than something you do once and expect everything to be cured
No.241420
>>241419If you are implying drugs I am well aquainted with psychedelics and some of the other drugs there and found they do not fix anything although I am grateful for the help they provide. Drugs do not just solve everything they won't even give you the lessons needed to solve anything in every case.
No.241421
>>241415How is it menat to manifest into a lifestyle change when nothing changed? I was not able to concentrate more it is random with my mind and I am talking serious problems here not your every day /dep/ poster issues that may be helped by no fap and no tech or whatever improvbrah normalfags spout.
Is it not enough I tried? not enough I gavce it a good shot?
No.241422
>>241421sounds,you probably gave it a half-assed attempt to have an excuse not to actually do it
you are in fact the prototypical dep user
No.241423
>>241422I was Tedfagging for months and nothing changed. It is not fair to claim anyone who did not benefit from your acetism is not doing it right.
No.241424
'just stop using your computer bro' said the spamming improvetard on an imageboard
No.241425
>>241420You haven't gotten to Phenibut and Amphetamines yet then.
If you keep your doses in check they are great for accomplishing projects LONG-TERM and improving your mood on days when you have to interact with normies.
A few doses helped me study much harder and the artificially increased motivation for that particular project has kept with me for a year now.
Psychedelics are cool, but they are for contemplation instead of direct action.
>>241422Improve niggers have to go.
No.241426
>>241424>'just stop using your computer bro' said the spamming improvetard on an imageboardFucking this kek
>>241425>You haven't gotten to Phenibut and Amphetamines yet then.I have not used phenibut but I have used amphetamines and no it does not help neither does becoming powerful physically.
Not all of us have problems that can be fixed with your personal cure.
>Psychedelics are cool, but they are for contemplation instead of direct action.I disagree because hat point is there setting sail without a map? you take some DMT and realize where you need to go and it actually alleviated some of the feelings of depression for some days after.
No.241445
I just dont get how all of these people in the world have all of this energy to do things. I see these people on discord with their profile pcitures, and they're developers for this gam,e that game, they wen t to this convention, they worked here, they studied there, they've done all of these things. I can barely muster up the energy to create a discord account in the first place (by the way I made an account tojoin a group for a game called SiteKick, an old YTV game from the early 2000s incase anyone has heard of it? Its pretty cool).
Im in my late 20s and just yesterday applied to university because I cant seem t oget a job and having a degree should be immensely helpful (because there's no other way for people to think im capable given I have no body to vouch for me). But today when i checked the application i realized i applied for the wrong damn degree type. I meant to apply for a 4 year, but instead applied for a three year. so that's just another thing ive fucked up in my stupid pointless loser life. meanwhile these zoomers who are way younger than me have all of these contacts and job/volunteer history and i can barely manage to create a f-ing discord account.
No.241446
>>241445also let me quickly add to my post that i only joined the discord server as a way to play the game, its in beta testing right now and you need a discord account to apply to be a beta tester
No.241683
>>241445same. i can't put effort into any job and panick and run at the slightest challenge. i am a broken man uninterested in doing things that require the minimum ammount effort
No.241735
>>241683Same I’m 30 and I have zero urgency to do anything. Haven’t worked for 3 years, and I honestly don’t see the point. Every second of every job has been a horrible experience for me
No.241782
real anhedonia is the most legitimate reason to kill yourself.
No.241784
>>241425I used phenibut several times since last year october, both daily for weeks at first and later for single times with breaks. In retrospect I have to say it's a bad supplement. Yes, it can decrease anxiety, it can increase motivation and enjoyment of things, but it's highly unreliable (the effect kicks in after several hours for me and then can stay for 24 hours) and most of all it creates a weird sense of aloofness. Not the dissociation kind, but the one where the world loses its grasp to your perception, you don't feel a certain richness of details. Also it does not help with cognitive functions and memory if anything those get worse. It's really only help with very low doses and only to alleviate a bit of anxiety. The hedonistic use is terrible especially when using daily, not worth the withdrawals.
No.241787
>>236758Do you live in a state/country where weed is legal? If not, how do you get weed as a socially inept autist?
No.241788
>>241787Not him but I’ve had the good fortune of it being legal where I live, and when I moved away my sister was kind enough to mail some to me occasionally. Also some wizards talk of getting it over mail through darkweb vendors. I haven’t the slightest clue how to get a dealer though.
No.241794
>>241784Use, 2 times a week, spaced out at 3 days, at the MAX. It was a great supplement for my manual labor warehouse job, never tried to apply it to thinking intensive tasks or learning. I always took a dose(1.2g) which teeters on euphoria, so I knew that it definitely works when it starts. Any more than that and you risk drooling and passing out.
>>241787Weed (smoked) is the single most boring thing I've ever done and I've been in the military. It just makes you dumb and slow, yet your motivation stays at the same level, effectively cockblocking you from doing anything other than laying down.
No.241798
>>241794> effectively cockblocking you from doing anything other than laying down.Weed is for when that’s all you wanna do. It’s for relaxing, not motivation.
No.241822
>>2417941.2 g would knock me out. Although when I took it daily and built up tolerance I could take up to 2 g a day.
No.241825
>>241824There are MANY wageslaves with wives that are depressed and just drink alcohol every chance to try to enjoy the weekend. It is certainly not the fault of being neet
No.241826
>>241825Yeah because they're trapped, just like the NEET is trapped.
No.241868
>>241826so what are we supposed to do?
>if you wageslave you're trapped>if you are a NEET you're trappedwhat the fuck should we do?
No.241882
>>241868Don't listen to that guy, he is a liar. Anhedonia can appear in any kind of life, whether you work or NEET. Actually, wageslaving drains your vitality even more, that is why normals always keep those motivational trainings for wageslaves.
Anhedonia is a sign that you don't know what you want, what you need and what you enjoy. Know thyself, like the greeks said. Step out from your bubble and try new things.
No.242030
>>241882>Anhedonia can appear in any kind of life, whether you work or NEETIsn't that exactly what the posters before you said?
No.242112
Nothing can be done about it I think. Wagies just never have enough time to get bored with their hobbies but everyone would if they pursued them every day for hours.
No.242114
>>241868Live life on your own terms I guess.
t. other wiz
No.242115
I've just resigned myself to never having anything positive in my life. Why hope for the impossible? I will live for a little while and then blink out of existence. A good for nothing life.
No.242119
>>242115>and then blink out of existenceIf only, if only it was so simple, so easy,,.
No.242122
>>242119It is that easy. Death is coming for all of us sooner or later.
No.242124
>>242119You think something comes after? Please, do tell.
No.242125
>>242124Given how shitty life is I suspect it will be just as bad.
No.242151
>>242125Well that's just what you imagine and it doesn't make any sense. I guess that, if you think like that in the first place, it's because you probably haven't truly been in suffering. The thought of this void after death is probably the last coping mechanism people like us have, it's all we hope for. When i see people here arguing that it's not the case and what not, it feels like they're either whiny normalfags or just wizards with relatively comfortable existences