we just need a little push again
I don't think I ever got an actual chance to kill myself. Unless you're talking about jumping in front of a train or something…
The only way I'd be comfortable going with is shotgun to the head, and I live in a country with very strict gun laws.
>Why we keep procrastinating suicide in hope for a better future when we know damn too good nothing has changed and never will ?
I guess it's just human nature. Our biological drive to survive and keep living
For "chance" I mean a moment back in the past were you were 100% sure you were going to do it but didn't for whatever reason
I should of waited.
In like, 6 months I would have been 18; thus able to purchase a gun and do it clean&easy
but instead I tried a very inefficient method, and now I can't obtain a gun.
oh and as a result of that attempt, basically every aspect of my life was downgraded. Had to make payments to my """heroic saviours""", parents got paranoid of losing their spawn, probation therapy etc. I wanted to kms because life sucked and as a result life started sucking more.
Sometimes I look back at my life and think that it would have been better if I died 10, 15 years ago. I have nothing, I'm at the lowest point in my life, my depression&anxiety make every day hell, and I don't have the strength to go on. Good thing my anxiety attacks taught me that suicide is just a matter of personal motivation. One of these days soon I'm not gonna be able to take it anymore and attempt it.
most people me included no longer want to be alive because of whatever reason but cannot commit suicide. suicide is very very hard to do and scary i would never do it, but i would rather be dead my life is garbage.
Good post. Suicide is the definition of “easier said than done”.