Honestly, our lifestyles are pretty identical only that i am a lot younger than you but I want nothing in the world more than to live this kind of life until the day I die
regardless I can understand why staying at the home all the time every day can be a problem especially if you needed to secure an income. but you should seriously give up on the idea of seeing a *therapist* it is a big scam and will only waste the cash and time your only way is to somewhat get a job and be independent or learn to love your lifestyle more.
Until 2 years ago I was living the same lifestyle. My parents didn't bother me but my brother constantly antagonised me. I am currently attending online classes and I'd recommend you to do the same, just look up some online course that is practical more than anything.
I don't really have any hope of the therapy itself helping me but I want to get disability before I end up homeless living under a bridge and eating out of dumpsters. I enjoyed the lifestyle for a really long time but living with the toxic parent has grown really old and pisses me off more by the day.
This sucks man. At least you made one online friend who sent you something. Do you like toys?
Yeah they've definitely helped me a lot since I met them. I only have a couple toys but the few I have are pretty good. Nice change of pace from gaming 16 hours a day.
This is like me, except with my mother. Are you black?
Nah I'm white. He's just extremely racist and has been calling me nigger lover since Obama was first elected in 2008. Extra annoying considering I despise that Neoliberal.
Kill him. You may not be punished for it since he has abused you so brutally
You should see if you can still find anyone doing zoom meetings for stuff and get certified disabled by a doctor so you can get bux and then you can get an uber to the library.
I'd probably just plot his death or go live in the streets. At least there you'll get some maturity which will be useful for you to get the rails of your life.
Autismbux and subsidized housing. I can't believe you haven't even bothered to get either of those. Just think, if you had applied years earlier, you would be living on your own by now. Stop wasting time. First thing you should do is try to get on medicaid so you can see a doctor who will then certify you as mentally disabled. The rest is pretty self-explanatory.
Is there some way that you could earn some money over the Internet? I've never personally tried it before, but I know that there's websites that pay a little bit of money for doing transcription work. You'd only need to earn enough money to book a private appointment with a shrink to get diagnosed with autism or something. You could then use that diagnosis to apply for disability.
Unless you live in a rich country making money online is very difficult. This is simply due to the ammount of people willing to do it cheaper. If you want to make any real money you have to live somewhere were the average person would not fill out forms for 5 or 6 dollars an hour. I've experminented some with VPNs just because I wanna help wizbros out but I havent been able to make them work with surveys. I live in sweden and I lived a short while off of surveys. Calculated my average hourly wage to be about 6 dollars which is like less than half of standard menial labor salory. Still, it was paid in crypto and I could pay a food delivery in it so it was completely tax free. Other than that if you're in a poor country you simply have so much competition from indians that even as a mega-skilled programmer you wont be making much. I remember writing a how-to on filling out surveys on here like a year ago but that was before I found out it doesnt really work in poor countries so remember that.
This. Life just sucks unless you were born into a decent country like you were.
Making money online (real sums that can actually pay rent etc) is impossible wtihout considerable capital, and accumulating that capital in a 3rd world country is impossible.
>>245109>I can try and get some kind of help.
what do you mean "get some help" what wrong with you in the first places?
It seems like art is a fairly decent way to earn on the internet. People need logos and porn and shit drawn so if you get good enough you can sell your work. The problem with that is that obviously it's a skill so you need to build it up, but at least it's a possible route if you have no other options.
If you enjoy art it's all well and good but even as a good artist with no boundries you'll be making shit. Just go on fiverr and artists there are willing to paint fucking masterpieces for like 50 bucks. Unless you've dedicated your life to art beforehand the time it will take for you to get to such a skill level will not be paid.
Rent is expensive in most countries but it can be a great advantage if you have a large house you can rent most of your house when your parents die and NEET for the rest of your life. I live in a third-world country, but we have a big house that we rent as a school for a high cost along with other stores and workplaces.
Fuck renting living in rent is so fucked up
FBI-kun, why do you hate our website and want to get it shut down? :'(
Why would guys even think that? Im honestly not sure if people actually believe federal agents are infiltrating imageboards for whatever stupid reason it may be or not.
Well, allow me to point out the obvious train of thought:
1 - The feds have an incentive to goad people into committing crime. This has happened enough that it is illegal to do this and is known as 'entrapment.' Look up some cases of online entrapment to see that this isn't too farfetched.
2 - If you post anonymously on an imageboard, there's no to little proof of your entrapment (and if there is, it's often under a gray 'plausible deniability'). This creates an ideal incentive structure for feds to post to goad individuals into committing some sort of crime.
3 - The feds view 'crabs' as a 'major domestic terror threat.' C.f. https://www.dps.texas.gov/sites/default/files/documents/director_staff/media_and_communications/2020/txterrorthreatassessment.pdf
. I can find a shitton of news articles and reports reinforcing this thought. These reports and articles are the main reason for the paranoia.
4 - This further enhances the incentive of operatives to entrap crabs. If they write such a report, then with each passing day that there are _no_ domestic terror threats or criminal activities of crabs, then their authority and capability is called into question. This ratchets the pressure on the organization to at first "investigate" "crab groups." Then, under such intense scrutiny and use of public funds, it would be understandable if such pressure were to escalate into outright entrapment of such groups. Especially if the risk is so low given the anonymous nature of imageboards.
>>245534> "investigate" "crab groups."
How…how is that even viable? Are they eventually gonna go round and ask every dude if they're a virgin and put them the slammer if they are?
I think it's more likely that they'd investigate crab groups on the internet.
And I don't think that they see us as separate from crabs.
they are "watching" us like they do with leftist sites too but "infiltrating"? not really. see, le edgy people on the internet are no realistic danger to the government.
>>245582>link to twitter
no karen, we wont give your newest edgy post no like, try it harder lol.
literally me, been trying to find a job for 2 years but keep getting denied. i think having your own money source will pull me out of this shit
>>245908>keep getting denied
i wonder why though, are you male,
around 20-35 and caucasian by any chance?
He's not a female. Don't be naive. >>245109
Your life is on par with mine but I'm in my early 30s. That's the main difference, though I stand up for myself and walk around at night even though he bitches and moans. I know better anyway, he'll bitch no matter what happens. I've been rejected from getting ssi three times also in contrast to you.
>>246083>walk around at night
staying in your comfortzone and avoiding normies will do nothing to you but more power to you anon friend:)
i was thinking about the train lately, about putting my head down on the train tracks. getting a rope, doing the knot and also finding a safe place(how do you climb an high enough tree though?) is alot work you know.
how does train even work? I have seen the videos but really how would you do a train because I have thought about this a lot myself. The trains I see have some anti head chopping shovel looking barrier at the front and if you put your head down or jump infront and risk only hurting yourself? The logistics seem troublesome.
All trains are designed to be capable of mowing through anything that might stand on the track without even being felt by the passengers. Trees, cows, transport trucks, OTHER TRAINS. Many trains speed along faster than the human body will fall when jumping from a 200 storey building. Being impacted by any pat of it will mulch your insides and sever all chunks of your central nervous system. The deflector grille that keeps things away from wheels is a solid chunk of hard steel. Imagine getting hit in the head with a 3000-ton hammer going 80mph. If you lay lengthwise on the track and your body has nowhere to bounce off to, you'll be shredded in to pieces instantly.
The issue is having a bit of track out of the way on a straight then and also the tracks are raised above the ground level mostly. Would planting your head against a single rail? I have read lostallhope.com.
Would simply jumping in front of the train kill you? can't you bounce off with your body broken still alive.
Op mines like yours except I actually want to leave everyday and if I'm not out and away from my psycho mom every second still stuck at home I'm fucking miserable. The library is the only clean drama free place I can play PC games. I have a laptop but the library pcs are really good and a good monitor. I even have to feed myself with food stamps. Still have to be home by 5 if I want dinner tho.
Op mines like yours except I actually want to leave everyday and if I'm not out and away from my psycho mom every second still stuck at home I'm fucking miserable. The library is the only clean drama free place I can play PC games. I have a laptop but the library pcs are really good and a good monitor. I even have to feed myself with food stamps. Still have to be home by 5 if I want dinner tho.>>245109>>245109
There are people my age (28) who are barely scraping by with a degree, connections, normal mental health and financial support.
How the hell am I supposed to make it then as a drop out NEET who is mentally fucked? Yeah right. You just have to give up
I've realized how much of a child I am a couple of weeks ago. Don't get me wrong, to me it's always been clear that I'm a child, but this one even made it even more clear, and made me even more ashamed too.
I was waiting for my class to start, in college, and some colleagues and I were talking, small talk as a way to spend our time I guess, and suddently the topic of weekends came in, and out of curiosity they asked me "What do you do on your weekends, anon?" I replied with the truth, that I mostly stay in bed, or do something that I find relaxing, like playing videogames, watching movies/shows/anime, reading books/manga, etc.
They all looked at me like I was a freak. They were laughing a bit, and while laughing they asked "So you don't do anything all weekend, anon?". So trying to rest after 5 days of misery by doing only things I find relaxing is doing nothing apparently. Then they went on about how much they love weekends, not because it allows them to rest, but because it's an opportunity to work on all of their personal projects and get up to date on their responsibilities.
Every once in a while when checking social media I see my colleagues post about how they wrote an article for a magazine, how a research they've been working on has gotten released and/or was praised, or a clip of them presenting some project on a conference and getting praised by the professionals there, things like that.
I don't get it, it all seems so dull to me, and yet even though they're all tired all of the time they seem excited and happy about it, accomplished, doing boring task after boring task, pursuing boring goal after boring goal, I guess this is what grown ups do, and I'm a stupid kid, which is why I find it boring, because I'm a kid who never grew up.
I don;t think that is childish at all anon.
You value relaxing and keeping to yourself and even if you do enjoy others company you probably find it hard to enjoy normies company at all. There is no reason to be ashamed and it is mature to embrace who you are especially concerning vocations.
They are all busy playing social games and presenting an image which they strive for and you want to relax. There is nothing wrong with what they do nor is there anything wrong with what you do.
Even if we don't really enjoy ourselves being alone it is better than being near others
I can relate, I'm 32 and my parents still treat me like a child. I've been a neet for years, the main reason is because I have a skin disease that makes my face hideous to look at. No one wants to hire someone that looks like a burn victim. The few times I've managed to land a job I usually don't last long, not because I don't want to work, but because the bullying from my coworkers became so unbearable that I was becoming suicidal. I also live in a thirdworld shithole so autismbux or housing are out of the question. My mom keeps threating me that if I ever get a job and leave her house, she would sue me for "parent support" (in this shithole your parents can actually sue you if you don't financially support them and they get something similar to child support), so I'm basically her slave. My dad doesn't live with me, but we talk on the phone almost everyday. He also calls me a faggot, but I'm the only person that he talks to because no one else in the family can stand him. I love them both, but I hate them for everything they have done to me.
this is peak wizard post right here.
What do you mean by skin disease? can you name it or link an image of someone else with it so I can understand the situation better. Does your mom want you to stay with her or something because I know what this is like where lonely mother will try jeopardize you so you cannot succeed but at the same time abuse you for not succeeding.
interesting post Anon thanks.>>246568
you dont have to look for train tracks out in the open Anon, dont you have fast transit trains, that dont stop at your station but drive through fast? wait for one in the dark and jump down from the platform and put your neck on one of the rails, right before the fast train passes your station. sure you can always look for rails in the open, maybe you will even find rails in a tunnel, this would be perfect, but this requires searching time again you know. just DONT jump infront of a train becuze the air will blow your body away, before it will hit the train.
i just noticed, a railroad crossing could be nice too because people would see you suiciding hehe and you would made their day:) i probably will even check out this solution because we have some of them in the near. trains just have to be fast enough and you get what you want becuze there is no way of getting back alive from decapitating:)
but in the end, hanging with handcuffs on seems to be nice too becuze falling from high enough will do the job too becuze there is a chance for your head to chop off, if you do some research on a good knot.
I am a social infant. It's not uncommon for my family members to speak at me for an hour without me saying a single word. When I see teens or kids on my walks I can see myself getting socially outclassed by literal children. I somehow got a remote job last month and it is mostly the same. Every meeting I am totally silent unless directly asked to speak, and even then, I barely manage to speak a complete sentence. I think everyone understands not to comment on my retardation and just ignore me though. Since there are people out there who've connected with their environment their entire life and still struggle, then I am beyond fucked.
You have a remote job, how are you beyond fucked?
>>246734>It's not uncommon for my family members to speak at me for an hour without me saying a single word.
This isnt good at all Anon, debating with family is basically an important learning experience, they wanna prepare you for "the real outside world", just talk back, and tell them YOUR view on things.>>246734>I somehow got a remote job last month and it is mostly the same. Every meeting I am totally silent unless directly asked to speak, and even then, I barely manage to speak a complete sentence.
they will use you like a condom if you keep on doing this. there are no friends at work, remember this.
but like >>246740
said, you are NOT in the situation to complain bud.
I can relate as that were my reasons for quitting most of my jobs or getting fired, for me it's one of the hardest things in my life to talk whenever there are more than 2 people in the room and nobody seems to get that, it's like some force prevents me to think clearly/form sentences and the more I try the more I get stuck in my head and was called out a few times already for saying nothing, or people talk behind my back about how weird I seem.
And I think that also impacts my intelligence, if I get stuck even the easiest things are impossible to do for me, it's like getting too nervous before an exam so I fail at every answer I studied for. People think, well everybody gets nervous, that's purely from their own perspective though, many can push through it and they don't get that it's not as easy for everbody.
I also quit a relatively laidback remotejob (during covid, I had to get back in the office sooner or later) because I couldn't handle three silent meetings a day and felt too stupid to actually do work. I don't regret quitting for now and it was possible to neet, but now I can't complain when my next job can only get worse.
I also haven't figured out what to do next, but maybe you are able to push yourself more than I did and can learn from it, as talking on phone is at least easier than talking in person for me, if you can do the job they tell you at least then stay as long as you possible think you can, as it will look better on your resume if you care about it, good luck!
interesting. yea i was called out by people too in the past, even at jobs, mostly for "not laughing back" at them. see, imo, socializing is all about PRACTICE.
if you grow up having a lot of people around you, of course you will be good at it. but i grew up alone, infront of my videogames and my first time in mental hospital was at 12yo.
now im still neet but atleast not obese or even shy anymore.
life in general got easier when i was ready to accept myself, to look in the mirrow and to say YES to my current person. and reading into buddhism helped too, to get a chill mindset can be a big step
my living situation is exactly the same as yours.
i don't really have any insight or experiences to add to this. i just wanted to let you know it's happening to me also. im 26.
i guess i'll say a new one is my mom has been pretending to be poorer than she actually is. i don't know her finances all too well, but i know there's been zero changes to it for a decade. so why are we impoverished all of a sudden?
the reason is because i was showing interest in things. of course now that i get hired at a call center and want to volunteer at an animal shelter, suddenly you can't drive me.
i've attempted to drive before but i had a panic attack each time i was learning to and one led to me crashing the car.
i'm trapped here penniless. retarded, starving, my housemates are retarded also. my mom is so dedicated to pretending to be poor that she's been starving herself, too. really she just doesn't want to drive me anywhere so she pretends she doesn't have the gas or the money to buy food. I know for a fact this isn't the case. it wasn't for years and it isn't now. we used to even spend $100 on a single dinner together just a year ago. she just wants me trapped here and dependent.
yep every fucking word, every letter in this post, every FUCKING thought describes me as a 20 year old right now. welcome to hell buddy.
try work on your anxiety kids because if you think that is bad then.. well.. you will see
>>247139>whoever opresses as he is being opressed is not to be reprimanded
or so someone said
>>247139>I'm 20>people often think I'm a kid
you are a kid though
How does that relate to the post you're replying to?
this. 20yos are pretty much kids you only mature as an individual later.
Treated like kid with the responsibilities of a functioning adult.
It was pretty sobering to go from a grad student where everyone who’s not a professor is some 18 year old child to getting a real job where everyone is 20+ years older than you and thinks you are a child again.
You are, go back to 4chad.
you dont need a diagnosis. a diagnosis won't get you anywhere. to start you need a job or to go to trade school.
>>246700>"So you don't do anything all weekend, anon?"
At that point I usually turn my back on them like I'd do towards a pile of rubbish.
>I don't get it, it all seems so dull to me, and yet even though they're all tired all of the time they seem excited and happy about it, accomplished, doing boring task after boring task, pursuing boring goal after boring goal, I guess this is what grown ups do, and I'm a stupid kid, which is why I find it boring, because I'm a kid who never grew up.
To me, It's much simpler: they are unhappy and liars. How are falling so easy, anon?>>246734
But are their speeches worth being attended to?>>247139
I'd say your biggest problem is not being ready to treat the world as they treat you. To pull them off the pedestals they've built in your mind and occupy them.
Not sure if we're getting more 4chan rapefugees or if someone is purposefully putting cope in all his posts.
Ugh, anyway, diagnosis won't mean anything without it being a mental plus physical diagnosis combined with jail/institutionalized time period added to that and also a promise to take pills that have terrible side effects and are costly.
Unless you're [insert normalfaggot type that is pitied more than cis white male].
t. a usa perspective of a neet>>247941
The younger lingo includes words such as cope used wrong and larp used wrong and other words used wrong. They're not even trying to be obnoxious all of the time with it but don't realize that's how the words took off.
Eh, LARP has always been used wrong because any time you're on the internet, it's not really live action. But that's a nitpick.
I need you to get a job so I can believe in myself as a 32 year old of nearly the same tier of life. Though I can drive I have no car, though I can go outside at night there is nowhere to go, though I had went to the library they were disrespectful to me, small differences really. No options with no checks.
>storage of boxes
Oh no that's oddly me too but I preferred it just to get their pack rat shit out of the way that they refuse to let go of.
My father doesn't call me a faggot but cannot help talking about toxic things like the news and the sheriff being overbearing and things when he knows I hate it then laughs hysterically if I start to lose it and rant about society, contradicting me randomly parroting propaganda all the while.
Sometimes gets delusional and projects abuse though and that's the worse times during witch he goes on for all day and often for days over literally nothing going on but still being upset and imagining problems that are not really there.
There is no real help available from my experience though. So I need you to get a job so I can believe it possible and I need you to be in the USA please…. are you there? If I don't think it's possible with my hindrance I'll end up killing my father and going insane in the heat outside and then going to prison, eventually.
I'd be mildly okay with my scenario if he'd fucking stop his shit but he won't and only slowly got worse over time during my neet stay here. Before that was the weird one in foster care for ages, didn't help having that happen, though it did make me more outgoing than you so I can bitch at him and disobey at least.
But yeah, if you do it I can OP….>>245139
Funny story, though not the OP, my mother was being abused and they charged her during the foster care bit of my life drama, she's the nicest person ever but he felon so he gets pity due to the way he's retarded and has a moon face and is short. First time he spanked me he broke my finger, but even so he looks 'safe' and used to work at Disney and has a pleasant smile. I'm taller and seem more dark looking so they'd send me to the pokey at the drop of a hat while giving the guy that deserves the felony charges free money for being 'mentally ill'. He's just a dickhead and retarded and self centered. Maybe a bit disturbed but mostly just stupid and not sympathetic enough and inflexible due to it. You can call these things mentally ill if you want but I think if he's abusing people you shouldn't give him the checks, but he get them. So does the mother with the felon on top of the joke? Me? Never charged? no work history either? No checks! So logical a society. Surely they'd not throw the book at me! He's not even at first when he dropped out of society on SSI, he got early retirement for chimping out at Disney. >>245287>min wage job>no work history
Unemployable is a thing, at least in the USA, though I concur, though it be unlikely a thing. >>246712>t. federal agent
I knew it was fishy that people liked wrestling too much here!>>247946
Larp used to mean cosplay and you should know this. Cosplay wasn't even a well known word though so they don't realize what it meant, normalfaggots that use larp wrong.
It being new lingo is a symptom of non-dweebs being online insulting people all day that they cringe at. Obviously. It's thus a red flag word due to how it's being used as is cope and cuck and seethe and dial 8 and etc. Normalfaggots get censored on reddit for being rude so they go to imageboards to get the wild nigger out of their system and that is who made it a tendency.
Or am I way off base?
>>247952>Larp used to mean cosplay and you should know this
No, it never did. Cosplay is just dressing up as a character. LARPing is basically when you go outside to play DnD. You are roleplaying your character in real life, hence, live action role play.> Normalfaggots get censored on reddit for being rude so they go to imageboards to get the wild nigger out of their system and that is who made it a tendency.
Nah that seems about correct. Or at least that's how it is now.
>>247955>someone posts on the Internet>live action>always used this way
Plz. They'd have to be on video. Role playing live action is role playing live action, no difference in cosplaying and larping. The exact same thing and neither are in most dictionaries.
This is why social groups, getting gf's and having sex is an important milestone, it moves you onto the next level of adulthood where relationships and other people become your primary focus. Then you can move onto buying houses together and settling down, some of the stuff posted in this thread would seem like distant juvenile memories to most normies.
We wizards never advanced past the teenage stage.
Agreed. I'm 27 and live at home still and just don't give a fuck about anything normies do. At least I have money saved from wagecucking.
>>248416>This is why social groups, getting gf's and having sex is an important milestone, it moves you onto the next level of adulthood where relationships and other people become your primary focus.
What If I'm schizoid and don't care about any of those things
Same except I never wagecucked, just neet and grandma left me lots of money to blow on copes. All my cousins have already spent their share toward houses, bills and kids whilst I'm still effectively buying toys and starting useless side projects.
What do your parents say about you still living there?>>248419
I don't think it matters if you care about them or not, It's a normie world and you've got to play their by their rules to progress.
Where do you see yourself in 30 years?
Christ how rich was granny?
Pretty loaded when you consider she used to say things like "I can't afford that", always bought the budget options or went without, drove an old banger and lived in a small house. It was a total shock when she died and we found out how much she'd left the family.
There was roughly around $600k which got shared out between us.
>>246704>(in this shithole your parents can actually sue you if you don't financially support them and they get something similar to child support)
Horrible just horrible
They feel like distant juvenile memories NOW. Something's wrong, it feels like being a wizard a decade or two back would be easier than it is now.
By warp waning
>fasting>may be some starchless diet>enema>temazcalli>repeat for a long long time, several times
Driving a car isn't that hard but go take online classes.