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 No.248819[View All]

Discuss the ways out of our eternal suffering in this thread. Good death to everyone!
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 No.250185

>>250180
I think you've described the entire imageboard.

 No.250325

>>249617
Where did you get your SN?

 No.250360

I had 10 Norco I got when I got my tooth pulled, but I used them to get high. I could have taken them all with some booze and just drifted off. I fuck up everything. I hate myself.

 No.250362

>>250168
It's funny because I remember wanting to die when I was only a child. The feeling progressed severely when I was a teenager but it was always this edgy actively shitty feeling of despair and anger. Now that I'm older I still feel the same, however it's different. The edginess is no longer there, but instead there is a distinct dullness. I'm tired. I'm tired of life and its demands. I'm tired of being a loser and a reject, and I am 100% aware of my limitations.

The superman bravado of youth has worn off. The hopeful feeling of a possibly future has faded away. I have a better understanding of how the world works, and I know that I have no place in it. That edgy teen feeling of wanting to die has matured into a matter of fact destination. I no longer fear the end, because the reasons to stay around on this mortal plane are flickering out…one by one.

 No.250409

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I've already chosen a date to kill myself, one that has meaning to me, so I want to stick to it. Still, every day is just too much, and even though I'm already at my lowest point, life always finds a way to push me deeper, I'm breaking down, I can't stand feeling so sad all of the time, I can't even distract myself anymore, nothing works, I just feel so miserable.

How do you all cope? Does anyone have any advice on how to make my days more bearable before the date of my suicide finally comes to free me from all of this torment? I need something, anything.

 No.250414

>>250409
>How do you all cope? Does anyone have any advice on how to make my days more bearable before the date of my suicide
abuse alcohol and drugs because what else is there to do?

 No.250436

>>250409
Don't kill yourself try reaching out for help find someone, a close family, relative, hotline,aqquaintance anything that can stop you from feeling all depressed and suicidal. In the UK we have Samaritans, SANeline, national suicide prevention helpline, CALM (campaign against living miserably)
The Mix, switchboard if you identifty as gay or lgbt.

There are some lifelines in America,
Here is a link:

https://www.apa.org/topics/crisis-hotlines

Alternatively you can use google to find one situtated in your own country such as canada or denmark

 No.250437

I also forgot to mention what is the underlying reason causing you to feel depressed?

 No.250441

>>250436
Don't listen to this faggot, do what you have to do.
>>250437
The reason is always the same.

 No.250443

>>248945
I think it is the best method as well. I know many people who died of Heroin OD and it doesn't seem painful. They just drift off into sleep.

 No.250453

>>250414
I have very limited access to these things because I live with my parents and they have little regard for my privacy, so if I try to sneak these things in they could come into my room without knocking and it'd be a pain to deal with that. I've managed to sneak alcohol in a few times, but I have a hard time drinking it, my resistance to its taste is very small, though it's also hard for me to get drunk, it's just not reliable sadly. Still, I appreciate the advice, anon.

>>250436
>>250437
I could write a book about everything that makes me depressed, in a way I already do, because I write a lot of my thoughts in my diary, which is also my main source of venting, because I feel bad when venting to other people, because I know everyone has their problems and I don't want to bother anyone, also I usually just feel worse when venting with others for some reason, so I won't get into detail.

The reason I made that first post is because the last few days in particular feel like a sick joke, I already wake up everyday feeling miserable by default, and my day to day life is insufferable to me, but Friday, Saturday and Today all had specific events, which I won't detail due to it being very personal, that managed to make it all even worse, and with all of it happening in succession I'm genuinely breaking down.

Every day, even though I try to have a little bit of hope that something good will happen, that it won't be unbearable, that maybe something will happen that will make me reconsider my decision to kill myself, every single day does the exact opposite, and has something happen to make me feel even worse, it's like a prank, a sick joke, and the only plus side is that it leaves me no doubt, I'm certain that I'm doing the right thing by ending my life.

 No.250460

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>>250436
I don't quite know why, but "saviors" like this kind of piss me off. It just eminates this holier-than-thou self-righteousness combined with this incredible arrogance of "of course NOBODY would ever have a legitimate reason to commit suicide."

 No.250461

>>250453
You should talk to a professional there are many people willing to help. By keeping yourself caged up all by yourself will leave you lonely and confused.

 No.250462

I am too afraid to fail, how to overcome and actually fucking do something about it?

 No.250468

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>>248819
Is it better to use a slug or 00 buckshot to blow your brains out? Does it even matter?

 No.250469

>>250462
You could try getting drunk or taking an anti-anxiety medication like benzos before you do it. What method were you planning on using?

 No.250470

>>250462
Carefully prepare and setup your method until it has low enough probability of failure

 No.250471

>>250054
The 1.7 minutes probably comes from the fact that some people are retards that do retarded shit like use birdshot or shoot themselves in the chin and blow their face off instead of blowing their brains out.

 No.250493

>>248819
I have a retarded question, but I'm not sure where else to ask it.
Would a crossbow work for quitting? I'd assume you need a really high-power one or heavy one, but if you did it shotgun-style (in the mouth) would the odds be in your favor to quit? I know fuck all about bows in general, but know they're not regulated like guns are.

 No.250499

>>250493
please dont try to crossbow yourself in the head wiz. I can see much going wrong with this

 No.250500

>>250499
I'm honestly unsure if the bolt would manage to even pierce the skull fully. I've seen a single report of someone doing it successfully, which is why I asked.

 No.250501

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If I put a strong firecracker over a carotid artery by making a hole in a neck warmer and I detonate it would that make me bleed to death and kill me?

 No.250502

>>250501
dont ask stupid questions.
>>250500
I have read of this also and it does not seem like an ideal way of ending ones life.

 No.250503

>>250502
It isn't a stupid question. This method seems like it has a high likelihood of working to me, but I could find very few cases of people that killed themselves using firecrackers or by cutting their carotid artery. That's why I asked.

 No.250504

>>250493
Somebody asks this almost exact question every other thread. Crossbows are lethal, but you need to put distance between the bow and yourself to allow the bolt to build up inertia. Put the tip of the bolt up to a wall and pull the trigger and you'll have minimal penetration even if the bow was held stationary. Shoot the same wall from a few feet back and it could go right through. Think of the difference between punching a face and pushing on a face.

Crossbows kill animals by hindering movement of whatever vital organ the bolt penetrates, such as lungs or the heart. bolts aren't meant to bleed the animal out like a bullet would. There are niche tips and bolts that do allow blood the drain (for tracking game), but a healthy human blood will coagulate before enough drained. You'd bleed more from slitting your wrists.

Humans routinely survive large blades, nails, and wreckage lodged in their brain. You're a lot more likely to walk away in serious pain and with permanent brain damage if you shot yourself with a bow. You'd have to kill yourself he same way you'd kill game, by basically stapling your lungs together with the bolt so you couldn't breath. Unlike game though, humans are much less likely to die from pain shock, so your instincts could easily overpower your will and allow you to breath against the pain of the bolt. This is how cats, dogs, and raccoons can live fore weeks pieced by bolts.

>>250503
an M80 is a quarter stick of dynamite, something designed to break mountains. There's a lot of power in one but you need to focus it properly. Having the cracker resting against your body without containing the blast energy from escaping outward will leave you with some burns and bruises. Even if you did get ahold of a powerful bomb and contained the blast on to one artery, the wound would be messy and singed, reducing bleeding.

If you want to explode your neck and can buy reloading equipment, an empty camp stove tank filled with black or smokeless powder could decapitate you.

 No.250505

>>250504
I've heard many stories of people losing fingers because of firecrackers. If they can blow people's fingers off they can definitely cut an artery.

 No.250508

Almost all of the photos of hanged victims are barefooted, why is that, does it help or something

 No.250510

>>250508
why would you put shoes on before killing yourself?

 No.250561

>>250508
Are they Japanese?

 No.250574

>>250510
In some weird cultures like USA they keep shoes on while inside and bring inside all the grime and dirt.

 No.250576

>>250574
>In some weird cultures like USA they keep shoes on while inside and bring inside all the grime and dirt.
I grew up in America (parents are from overseas) and this still confuses the ever-loving shit out of me. We still use toilet paper, by the way, instead of the more sanitary and, IMO, comfortable bidet.

 No.250578

>>250574
>>250576
I thought this was only a thing on TV, because it's more convenient for them to keep their shoes on or not to be in socks or bare footed or whatever. I refuse to believe that any real person would do that.

 No.250579


 No.250595

>>250578
I am american and we never wore shoes in the house unless people were over, then it felt like it would be kind of rude to ask them to remove their shoes so they just leave them on and my parents leave them on too, we dont have any place to remove shoes either so you have to bend over or sit on the floor while you take them off

 No.250597

how do you get the motivation to an hero.

 No.250606

>>250579
I do the Mr.Rogers thing

 No.250623

>>250595
Whenever I've had to go to someone's house, I asked if they wanted me to take my shoes off at the door and I recall most saying yes.

 No.250634

>>250595
I'm Canadian. We never wear shoes inside, outside of slippers. Or if I'm helping family move.

 No.250658

>>250623
always took my shoes off. No one wants people with shoes on walking around in their house.

 No.250660

>>250574
I seriously don't understand this. It's such a small preventative thing that will help keep your place clean without having to clean every single week. Take off your goddamn shoes and don't bring food into your bed for fuck's sake.

 No.250663

>>250660
>don't bring food into your bed for fuck's sake.
The benefits of eating in my bed versus not do not align. I am eating in my bed now.

 No.250666

>>250663
Are you eating pizza?

 No.250667

>>250666
Eating KFC satan. I use a big rectangle tub to eat out of to avoid leaving crumbs on the bed.

 No.250668

>>250576
Bidets sound so unsanitary. So everyone has to grab the bidet with their shitty dirty hands to use it? that means the bidet needs to be sanitized a lot. thats just gross i'd rather use TP.

 No.250669

>>250668
you should shower after you do your business.
filthy

 No.250753

I've been thinking about killing myself lately, unfortunately even though I don't even feel like a human being most of the time I still have the very human feel of fearing death, I don't think I feel death by itself (after all how can you fear something that involves your own non existence?) but I feel the process of dying, pulling the trigger, using the rope, jumping out of some building or in front of traffic, etc, I fear pain, I fear the thoughts and so.

Yet the logical part of my brain says "What if the process of killing yourself hurts? being alive will hurt so much more and for more time in the future, the spark of very intense pain during my death will actually save you more pain down the line".

I wish killing myself was a much simpler process, if I don't want to be here why I can't just get out in peace with some medicine? Why we can't take our own lives when we feel that it's not worth living anymore? This makes me sad but angry too, this isn't how it should be, I should have the right to end myself in a peaceful, dignified way.

Just some random thoughts, feel free to disregard all the shit I write.

 No.250757

>>250753
No, there is nothing to disregard. That was a good post.

Everything you said is why I want euthanasia to be a legal choice.
Too bad my sadistic country would rather keep me alive for a century than allow me to escape this torture.

It's not that I'm even depressed. It's simply the fact the world is created for neurotypicals.

I have zero in common with their reality TV, artificial music, their loudmouth bragging, their compulsive obsession over the slightest wealth or mundane objects, their constant judging, racism, intolerance, hostility.

I just don't belong in that species. I only have the necessary human bodily functions to stay alive, but I have absolutely and utterly nothing in common with any of those humans.

It's torture to be alive for a century or longer in this state. It will always be 100% impossible to connect to anyone because they are simply not on the same wavelength mentally.
It's like trying to converse with a dog or pig who has some semblance of sentience and tries to put together simple words and sentences. It's a futile effort. They only "get" each other.

No matter how nice, considerate or fair I am to them, they treat me like an absolute alien.

Why can't doctors or pharmaceutical companies acknowledge this and allow us to escape, or at least spend considerable resources on medicines that allow us to completely turn off the part of our primitive brain that requires connection or interaction with others?

 No.250766

>>250753
https://www.healthline.com/health-news/why-people-with-autism-die-at-younger-age

The main cause of death in autistic people unlike any other people in society is suicide.

Depending on the country the average lifespan of autistic people (note - men, not succubi) is 16 to 30 years lower than the general population, with most of those suicides happening between the ages of 27 to 35, and another spike at 50+.

People refuse to regard it as a lethal condition and just keep making fun of them. Imagine if people were making fun of cripples the same way, they would be ostracized.
But it's completely ok to do the same towards non-NT's. This is the species we live in.

It is lethal specifically because NT's hate non-NT's and exclude them from friendships, partnerships, jobs, everything. It is genocidal, hateful, spiteful behavior towards a group of people.

 No.250776

>>250766
There's no social stigma against hate or violence against non neurotypicals because hate towards them is ingrained in the human psyche.

We are instinctively hated by people

 No.250794

>>250436
Of course there's always this guy. I tried "reaching out for help" once and all I got were useless pills and a set of behavioural strategies to attempt to become a good wageslave and I was sent nack into the pit of despair. Thinking back, it really does confirm that modern society is full of robotic actors who only care about extending machinic culture. I can't find anyone who will support my dreams and I am too weak and uneducated - a fine gift I recieved from the public school institution and my commoner parents.

Sage for drunken rambling


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