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 No.250473

What has gone wrong for you recently?

Could be home related, finances related, family related (if you still live at parents).

I was supposed to receive insunrance money and now they said it's been delayed for 9 months. So I'm forced to become homeless as I have no more funds left.

 No.250486

i was forced to cook by my parents. the food burned obviously

 No.250627

>>250473
I break or damage every expensive item I own, I never learn from my mistakes either.

 No.250647

I can't handle the instability of housing in my preferred city, so I'm moving back home with my family to a town I don't like anywhere near as much.

I'm also mentally ill to the point where I'm going to need my family's support to deal with it.

 No.250648

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>>250473
recently learned that the man i thought was my father for damn near 20 years isnt actually my father. this was made worse by my schizophrenic mother trying to convince me that i was deceived out of fear of a motor cycle gang. its just fucking insulting.

 No.250651

>>250648
>dad wasn't really my dad

>mother tried to convince me that i was deceived out of fear of a motor cycle gang


Cheating moms can make up the weirdest excuses when they get caught.

Genetic testing will reveal a lot more of these families where she took seed from a chad and then married a cuck to provide money and housing.

I don't understand how I manage to tolerate this world day to day. It's just so disgusting and two-faced.

 No.250653

>>250648
Condolences, wiz.

 No.250655

>>250651
My mom denied it to my face even after I showed the test and it clearly showed my dad not being my real dad. She said there must be something wrong with the test.

Then a month later she admitted it, and now I'm in zero contact with her, I don't want to talk to her even over the phone.

 No.250657

>>250655
how is your dad taking all this?

 No.250659

>>250648
Sucks wiz, absolutely shit. How was your relationship with your parents before this? Did you ever suspect you weren't your dad's kid? Any inclination of your mom's true nature?

 No.250688

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>>250659
allegedly, i knew when i was a baby. would regularly throw tantrums until my mom would give me an old pic of my dad, but this is from my mom, so i have no idea if its true.
>>250651
indeed. ive done a little research into it, and it really seems that these disgusting actions and types of lies are common. i dont think i ever want to have children anymore. my mother doesnt deserve grandchildren.

 No.250689

>>250688
nearly every family has dark secrets. when my granny was dying I learned a lot of weird things.

So are you mad at your dad? I mean the dad who raised you not other man you dont know.

This must be so stressful for you wizzer..

 No.250691

>>250689
im sorry to hear about your grandmother, anon. i hope you enjoyed her company and she your.
>So are you mad at your dad? I mean the dad who raised you not other man you dont know.
i am. i have a whole family ive never met, brothers, a sister…im mad at the man who raised me because he knew this. he knew all about this. i have confirmation of this because of a letter he wrote me that i didnt have access to until the news broke.
>This must be so stressful for you wizzer..
surprisingly, not really. it hurts, but it is what it is. i wasnt close to my mother, so its easy to just…shut everything out

 No.250693

>>250691
was your dad a good person? maybe he withheld the information because it makes things harder. sounds like he got a bad deal out of this but at least he loved and raised you like his own son right.

 No.250694

>>250693
the man that raised me? no. he was a piece of shit from what i hear. once allegedly shot a family friend over a disagreement over the way he treated my mom, and once had my mom have sex with a friend of his for money. i heard this bit about sex for cash from the friend himself. it was "consensual" in the way that my mom couldve said no, but didnt. the shooting, however, i only heard from word-of-mouth, and im not sure whether to believe it or not.
he once also (allegedly) cheated on my mother, though i dont really know if i believe that or not. it would line up with his actions.
he did treat me as though i were his own, though. so i cant hate him for his actions towards me, but he did treat my mother questionably.

 No.250695

>>250694
You speal of him as if your only information is hearsay and you never were raised by him.

Your mom sounds like a whore so at least he treated you well. In no way is it consensual in the true sense of the word if a wife complies with her husbands suggestion to have sex with someone. This is prostitution AKA exploitation and it doesn't take a genius to see not all coercion is under direct physical threat.

 No.250697

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>>250695
>You speal of him as if your only information is hearsay and you never were raised by him.
thats because i really wasnt. he was dying with cancer by the time i was 5. for the last couple years, he was so far gone, he barely recognized us. i was mostly raised by my mother, with my father helping in his occasional bouts of lucidity. i also never knew much about him from himself, because i was too young for him to really talk in depth with. thats why almost everything i know is heresay, unfortunately. id have liked to know more about his life
>This is prostitution AKA exploitation and it doesn't take a genius to see not all coercion is under direct physical threat.
sure, but i dont have much sympathy for her. shes a lying sack of shit and i feel she got what she deserved. there is a distinct probability my father may have coerced her by violence, though, youre right. i am unfortunately (or fortunately, depending how you see it) naive too these things still, being only 21.

 No.250698

>>250697
>being only 21

 No.250699

>>250698
Plenty old to miss out on learning and reach the point of no return. Probably can still play catch up and learn some things, but if youre blessed with shit will its over IMO.
Never too young to have poor health btw.

23 passing thu

 No.250700

>>250699
What's up with these wizkids? They all think they're smart

 No.250705

>>250700
noone said anything about being smart

 No.250706

>>250697
this is frustrating. when I use the word dad I do not mean your bio dad I mean your dad who raised you. if your dad who raised you was hardly involved in your life this is hardly as big of an issue as if he was.

my brain is braking what the fuck.
>>250699
21yos are still like babbies

 No.250707

>>250699
>early 20s
>plenty old

You children don't know anything.

 No.250708

I have had every single job posting rejected, despite having a good CV that matches the positions. I really don't fucking understand. I'm not even getting called for interviews.

Also some of my longstanding health problems that were gone are back at nearly full force, and I think I might be going deaf from one ear. I have multiple chronic health issues, each one of which has driven people to suicide individually. I join online support groups to try and get solace only to find people killing themselves for 1 problem while I have lived the past 10 years with 5.

Everyone. EVERY FUCKING ONE, around me, gets rewarded by life no matter how much they fuck around. Even someone that was not actively looking for a job is suddenly called for a high paying one. Eveyrone is having children in beautiful marriages. Everyone is getting new jobs abroad. My neighbor, making this extremely loud construction work that is probably destroying my ears, seems to have enough money to be doing this kind of thing i nthe middle of the pandemic, and the construction work has been going on for months.

Life is literal torture, I have to convince myself that god and curses don't exist because otherwise it's too glaringly obvious I have one over my head, and I can't imagine leaving my quality of life in the hands of a universe full of demonic selfish deities and paranormal powers.

Yet even if I convince myself they don't exist, it's not much solace. I know that just by chance many animals will suffer bad demises. They'll live terrible lives and die and no one will ever give a fuck. I just happen to be one of those animals, but in the human species. I'm not the dog that lived a happy life with a nice owner and got sick and put down with all my family around me, I'm a fucking bird that was born defective, thrown off the nest by my parents, and eaten alive, while screeching, by a band of raccoons after they toyed with my body enough.

I cannot fathom what goes on through the minds of people who have children. I truly don't even want to think how retarded you have to be to do something like that.

 No.250709

>>250708
and to think we may just be on layer one of this infinite consciousness torturing machine.

Death may not even end this hell.

 No.250713

>>250707
Is knowing experience/suffering or purely age based?

 No.250719

>>250713
I'm 42 and I've met people age 20-25 who have seen, gotten, lost and experienced more than some sheltered 50 year pussies.

Our souls ages aren't tied to our physical age.

Take for example a war orphan from Syria who has seen two different wars, experienced famine, seen thousands of different fates on refugee camps from dozens of different countries, traveled halfway across the planet on foot over several years.
They have 100x more life experience at age 20 than some random 40 year old idiot office worker whose life has only ever consisted of browsing the internet, eating food, studying for some exam and sleeping.

All the interesting people I've met in life were young people who had tons of life experiences.

Though my favorite people are the ones who are 80, 90+ years old and have gone through hell and back (lived very unconventionally).
I wish I could listen to them all day, they are just so nice to be around.

 No.250739

>>250705
Yet you're offering dollar store knowledge

 No.250740

>>250739
i havent offered any knowledge. im openly admitting i dont have very much to begin with in >>250697.

 No.250741

>>250708
im sorry to hear these things are happening to you anon. you deserve better than the hand youve been dealt

 No.250754

>>250740
I'm openly admitting that no one cares about the random ramblings of a wizkid

 No.250758

>>250708
>I have had every single job posting rejected, despite having a good CV that matches the positions. I really don't fucking understand. I'm not even getting called for interviews.

its normal for a job search these days

 No.250767

>>250754
and thats supposed to affect me, how?

 No.250769

>>250767
How it affects you doesn't matter. You are a detriment to wizkind, so fuck off

 No.250775

>>250774
Doesn't matter. Fuck off, succubus

 No.250780

>>250774
Ironic coming from a Wizkid who spent most of the thread bitching and moaning

 No.250781

>>250708
>Everyone. EVERY FUCKING ONE, around me, gets rewarded by life no matter how much they fuck around.
>Eveyrone is having children in beautiful marriages.
How wizardly



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