/dep/ - Depression

Buckshot and 1oz slugs are capable of dismembering a person from 10 yards away. On a pump-action with no moving autoloading mechanism, recoil impulse doesn't effect the barrel's direction until after the payload has left the bore. When pressed directly against the skull, there are three ways you will die for sure:

1. Bloodloss through the gaping wound left by the projectile

2. Rupturing of the brain. When any one of the projectiles hits the brain, the shockwave sends the brain outwards in all directions from the point of impact, quickly stretching it to the point where it perforates in millions of places.

3. Separation of the brain stem from the spinal cord. Even a knock on the back of the neck with a baseball bat can achieve this with instant lethality.

In most cases, you will experience full expulsion of the brain. In a point-blank scenario, even birdshot is lethal, due to much of the damage to the skull being attributed to the expanding gasses released at the muzzle. The skull is much like an egg in that it can withstand much force from the outside, but when force is exerted outwards from within, it falls apart relatively easily.

Do not shoot your chin. Do not shoot upwards at your top teeth towards your eyes. Do not shoot straight back to your spinal cord. All three have a fair chance to doom you to an eternity of suffering as a vegetable. The barrel must be pointed towards the brain cavity first and foremost. Bracing the gun against something solid, leaning your weight on to the barrel, using hotter loads, taking blood thinners, and being far from those who may wish to help, will all contribute to a successful death.

Pic related. Shuabiy had the gun to his forehead, and his entire face upwards of his nose blew off towards the back of his neck. The brain was liquefied. Vladislav's brain was split in two and sent serveral meters way. Islamic executioners shoot the back of the head. Not sure why but it works, the force of the shot splits the entire skull and even the jawbone in half.

This is your brain on buckshot

>>256356
You know of Vladislav Roslyakov? Awesome, dude. Check out this Eric Harris suicide photo. Thank you so much.

>>256360
Why was the picture taken from a 2002 cellphone?

>>256361
More like 1999, haha.

If you still live with your parents, it's a good idea to get a shotgun like pic related that can fold and fit in a backpack. You can order them online and have them shipped to an FFL. If your FFL asks any questions on why you bought it, you can say you bought it as a survivalism gun for a bugout bag. These types of shotguns are easy to hide, so you don't have to worry as much about your parents or other family members finding your gun and taking it away.

>>256578
To add to this, these types of single shot shotguns are also extremely cheap. Some places sell the ATI Nomad for around $99.

What position should the shotgun be in? Upside down or normal? Please help.

>>257004
It doesn't matter. Loads are packed symmetrically and barrels are machined straight. The recoil impulse will push the gun "up" mildly but only if you're using a gun with an autoloading mechanism, and even then the angle won't deviate more than a single degree and only after the load has left the barrel, which when point blank to the head will change nothing. If your magazine tube is flush with the bore you may have to put the gun in your mouth sideways so it fits but that's it.

>>256357
how does anybody survive this? there's a rare number of people who survive shotgun to the face and i just wonder how?
are they using 20ga bird shot for attention? do they move at the last second and only hit their facial tissue instead of the skull? how

>>257019
That's shotgun to the jaw, pointed up more towards the eyes. Imagine the shot getting between the face and the brain cavity, and pulling outwards.

Anyone here have a list of "things to do before I die"?
or some lingering wish,experiences they want to experience,etc, that makes you want to live at least 1,2 years more?
for me,its sticking around to see the ending of One Piece. I need to know the outcome of all the hypes/mysteries,the final battle with blackbeard and the admirals

>>260439
>a list of "things to do before I die"?
Suicide

>>260439
>>260440
in my case, I want to try the "dori" of buddhism esotericism: a dry fast and sleep deprivation at the same time.
supposedly after day 3 its life changing…life-threatening too,but if I survive i'll have superior insight

>>260442
i need to know more about this method please.

>>260453
>>260442

It's easier just buying a rope

LMAO

>>260439
I wanted to see Berserk end lmfao.

>>260479
I read that mirua's team will finish the manga based on notes about the ending

>>260484
They should have left it alone to respect the man.

I used to be a "devout" catholic(I prayed the rosary frequently..never read much the bible,tho)but now I think im a maltheist.
if a creator deity exists,I dont know how im supposed to gather its benevolent,based on my own life experience.
maybe im being a prideful brat but im serious.

>>260504
Is it nice to be religious? I tried very hard at one point but I just can't, too many plot holes. I mentioned this to a religious wiz some time ago in some thread and he quoted a few biblical passages that basically says faith is a gift from God. So I guess this particular gift was not in store for me.

Still, I'm very curious how it feels. It must be like the feeling I have with a game or an anime where I manage to escape for a little while but if you are religious it's like you're living life on perpetual escapism and the immersion last as long as your faith does.

4 Americans committed suicide in Japan in 2021

>>256350
How do you stop yourself from flinching before you pull the trigger?

why do I still care so much about my health?
I keep having healthy habits like sleeping a good night's sleep or limiting my energy drink usage.
i should be overdosing on all drugs by now, smh

>>260547
But do you have deeper knowledge? Like about alcaline/acid good, ayurveda tips, naturalist techniques and likely

>>260550
I do, I do.
caffeine is a big no-no in ayurveda..but they also reccomend drinknig cow pee so I dont buy all of it

>>260513
I wonder if byuu is one of them.

Im stil shocked that I stopped being a christian/catholic. I used to believe god would fix my shit if i prayed enough but no god will appear for me.
Ive been dealt a bad hand and I want to flip over the poker table.

Is there anyone else here who wants to OD on benzodiazepines?

I have to say, it's a method I didn't even think much about before, since I preferred other methods to it, but now that I see how simple it is to get them, at least where I live, especially Clonazepam, since doctors seem to give it to anyone that dares mention having anxiety attacks or anything like that, I'm feeling like it's the way to go, at least it's now on my radar, an option I might be able to count with… however I'm not too familiar with benzodiazepine OD's at all.

Does anyone have any knowledge on what dosages of Clonazepam I'd need?
Are there any good resources online specifically about this sort of OD for suicide?
I've heard of a lot of people who OD on them and still lived, does it mean it's an unreliable method?

Just OD on heroin.

All you have to do is order it off the darknet (dark.fail for links). Get a syringe needle, distilled water, a cigarette filter, a spoon and a lighter.

Since it's your first time, OD'ing on heroin is quite easy. Put distilled water onto the spoon, then add your heroin. Heat up and stir the mixture until the heroin is fully dissolved in the distilled water.

Next you put the disassembled (the part of the filter that looks like white cotton) cigarette filter in the middle of the spoon, then you fill up the syringe by placing the needle in the middle of the filter and sucking up all of the mixture. Next you make sure there isn't any air in the syringe by slightly squirting some of the heroin out.

What you do next is apply a tourniquet around your upper arm to make your veins bulge out. Once you find a suitable vein, insert the needle carefully until you think it's fully inside of a vein. To make sure it's in a vein, you can pull on the syringe pump to withdraw some blood from your vein. If there's no blood, that means you're not in a vein.

So that's how you successfully shoot up heroin and possibly OD if you choose. People have described OD'ing on heroin as one of their most pleasurable moments of their life up until they're unconscious. They describe losing consciousness as "going to sleep", just like you would go to sleep at night, but in one last euphoric haze.

>>260507
ideally you feel constant happiness for what is the supreme good, this happiness is not like a spike you would get from a drug, it is closer to being content despite the chores and the bad events that comes here and there. at some points, mainly when im being lazy, i get bummed out for not being in heaven united with God, sometimes shedding a tear, sometimes it feels like plain work.
catholicism is pretty normie in its tenets in the sense that you can't be religious without being social, so considering that im here, you can already guess where im falling short. why the social aspect is important? because while God is one, there are three different Persons yet all of Them are God, so if God lives in a "society" and we have been created by Him in His image, and that God is the source of all creation, then it is in our nature to be social also, which is why every religious order requires one to live well in a communitarian life.

i have issue with that because that requires living in commitment with humans (failed beings), then again He is willing to keep a commitment with us, which requires me to do the same… man if im unable then i hope im spared from purgatory

>>260667
>if im unable then i hope im spared from purgatory
is purgatory a very bad place? I know it's not heaven, but I'm also not christian so I don't know how bad it could be.

>>260662
It is very unreliable obviously. Despite how easy to acquire them is I've never heard of anyone even trying it seriously as a suicide method. Only suitable for a female's 'cry for help' suicide attempt.

You would need a very large amount probably more than a first-time 'panic attack :(' prescription, to combine with a lot of alcohol and antiemetics

>>260663
thank you

>>260663
Stop shilling this crappy unreliable method. You'll just OD and become a vegetable

>>260663
excellent method, consider adding a benzo for a more guaranteed death, also there is no reason to not do an insane dose (like 100mg+ for someone with no tolerance)
it's really easy for wizards to get their hands on drugs, dark net markets are very safe as long as you use the most basic opsec (pgp messaging is pretty much all you need) and try to order from your own country (no customs)

What will I experience the moment I pull the trigger?

I kinda want to do a version of that shitty blue whale challenge to de-sentitize myself and be able to actually CTB

>>260679
Is cease to breathe the new suicide by starvation/thirst/exposure/sleep deprivation thing? Just stop pretending you will ever go through with it, you are only after 'kool ascetic monk' credibility points. This is embarassing for all of us.

>>260677
The end

>>260677
You might hear a loud noise for an instant then you'll wake up in the anime world

>>260670
well you get to suffer but it is significantly less bad than living because all doubts vanishes, you go through punishments worse than the cross but that is mostly because the soul is ridiculously resistant, you are also sure that you will be saved, although that will take a little while to happen, i don't remember if you are deprived of the sight of God but i know you can see the saints, you suffer yeah, you lament that you didn't get in heaven but you experience joy in the midst of the suffering.
you don't have that kind of hope and consolation in hell, only a crushing despair and total absence of freedom.

>>260680
why sage,tho?
it seems as tho you Take issue with my post.

im terrified of the one-second transition between sentience/existing and eternal/timeless oblivion.
Like after a deep,dreamless sleep,when I wake up and realize a large time passed by where I was absoutely non-sentient

Im starting to see my suicide as a moral duty rather than just a personal choice.
dunno whats going on within my mind,but im feeling a sense of categorical imperative, a la kant

>>260675
>>260663
Is it really that easy, can I actually become a vegetable? Is there an easier way to take it than shooting it into my veins? it is gnarly

It feels so surreal knowing Im going to die…I'll be dead forever,but not yet. its an obvious fact,but it still boggles my mind!
it feels just so…fictional,my own mortality,that is

>>260873
It truly is crazy. One moment there is an entire universe of perceptions, thoughts and memories. A living sentient being. The next there is nothing but goo.
Just going from sentience to non sentience, to not be able to perceive my non existence is mind boggling.
That there won’t be a “me” to note that I’m not there, that “I” simply will be like I am sleeping a dreamless sleep and never waking up. Not for a thousand years, not for a billion, not for a billion billion. Never.
Fuck it’s hard to put into words.
I heard you don’t even feel the hammer fall as your brain is destroyed before the nerves can transmit it.

There are days where I really want to end everything, but something keeps me going. I'm not sure if it is fear or hope what keeps me here. I'm planning to get a gun permit under the pretext of me working as a security guard, having a gun at hand could be useful if shit really hits the fan one day. Most of you are still in your 20s, you're still young to change things around. I let depression consume my youth and I sabotaged myself. I really fucked up and suicide is almost my only option at this point.