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 No.262962

I am returning to this board after a long period of abscence. Lots of things happened during that time, another suicide attempt, a 2 week stay in a psych ward, me sorting my shit and "succeeding" and I've significantly cut my substance abuse.

I am a wizard like all of you, and you are a wizard just like me. I discovered I could channel my hatred and misanthropy into whatever pursuit I have. You probably have the same hatred and untapped energy. I read the catalog and I just see docile, bitter men and a few wizards doing wizard things.

Think about this. You are already not part of society, you have nothing to let go off. Death is guaranteed. Nothing has value, not even your own life. You are completely free once you grasp these concepts. I will eventually offing myself, in the meanwhile I am building whatever pursuit, hobby or interest I want.

Be free, let go off your docile and bitter self. Build whatever you want to build, run over anyone that crosses your path. Make sure everyone surrounding you is scared of you, that way they cooperate to your pursuits or simply leave you alone. Fear far outweighs respect.

 No.262964

>>262962
My freedom is docility. I am not hateful anymore.

 No.262966

>>262964
There is no freedom in docility. Something or someone is bound to fuck with you.

Being an apex predator is different, nothing will dare to fuck with you, and you'd actually be free, in a literal sense.

 No.262967

>>262966
> Something or someone is bound to fuck with you.
Whatever. There's nothing they can do to me that matters.

 No.262974

>>262967
If there is no hate the feeling is genuine then. My approach is different though, different surroundings, people are more agressive.

 No.262978

>>262962
>another suicide attempt
You aren't suicidal. You are a norman attention whore, and you don't belong here.

 No.262979

>>262978
To be fair, crossbows are really hard to aim…

 No.262981

Yes, OP, I was 16 once too in my life, I know that feel.

Death is certain but you can experience great sufferings in life if you make hasty or retarded choices. Don't rush ahead into your doom that eagerly.

>>262978
Suicide isn't easy. Leave him alone. Not everyone can do it.

 No.262983

>>262978
>u normie xD
Got me pal, I am a normie, brb going to my normiewife and normiekids.

>>262981
That's exactly what I said, only I am past that point. I've deconstructed sufferinh through decades, I am not bitter about it, I appreciate some horrid stuff happened.

I am definitely older than you if the concept of "experiencing possible suffering" is still in your radar.

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>>262966
>Being an apex predator is different, nothing will dare to fuck with you, and you'd actually be free, in a literal sense.
How exactly can I do that when I'm surrounded by people stronger and more intimidating than I am?

 No.262989

>>262988
>How exactly can I do that when I'm surrounded by people stronger and more intimidating than I am?

Use your wizchad traits. We excel in the traits of the Dark Triad (machiavellism, psychopathy, narcissism). Train them, take your best traits to the next level. You can make huge threats and scare a fuckton of people without resorting to physical violence. Terrorize the people that fucks with you, start small, word spreads, no one fucks with you. Easy. You're probably a mentally ill autistic handsome, use that to your advantage.

 No.262994

whenever i solve philosophical questions for myself, for some reason i don't have this creepy cult faggot urge to go and spread it around to people.
i don't care what you do and i think it's creepy you push your failed normalfag propaganda on me. it's like this thread is all this site is anymore, is a bunch of snake oil salesmen who "figured it out".

i guess i'm also lacking whatever normalfag drive causes people to "build" or have "pursuits". i just play video games all day. if i die without creating any piece of art or dragging people into my cult piss like you, i couldn't give less of a fuck. i feel sorry for you that you get so stressed out over inactivity that you need to come and order people around.

 No.263001

>>262994
This is a board for wizards. I can say here whatever the fuck I want as long as I don't break any rules. I don't care if whatever I write makes you feel assblassted. Just hide the thead if your feefees are so delicate.

I do the opposite of inactivity and I am doing good. My point is, other wizards are fairly capable of doing the same or more. It's better to see life, experience life and then off yourself, than offing yourself directly haven't tried at all.

 No.263004

>>262983
You sound like a typical edgy depressed teenager to me. Well, enjoy ruining yourself in one of your manic periods. Unlike you, me for example has plenty to lose.

 No.263005

>>263004
>I have plenty to lose

Sounds like a very normie thing to say wouldn't you think? This forum is for wizards

 No.263006

>>263005
You implying that wizards are necessarily "losers"? Sounds like a very normie thing to imply wouldn't you think?

I like my life. I don't want to go to jail or get myself in some trouble because of some retarded choice I made. You should reconsider yourself this line of thinking too. Things can always get worse.

 No.263014

>>263006
>You implying that wizards are necessarily "losers"?
No, learn to read. I am telling you you're not a wizard.

 No.263017

>>263014
>>263005
you're just telling everyone that you have a mysterious personal definition of 'wizard'
so what? anyone else reading these messages gains nothing from you and has no idea what point youre making

 No.263027

>>263014
You are implying that only those people can be wizards who hate life and has nothing to lose therefore. I say that is bullshit. So what is your response to that?

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>>263014
OP, are you saging your own thread?

 No.263030

>>263028
he is trying to "save" wizards, then his next task is to convince you to do manual labor. don't know how many threads/posts like that he's made

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>>263017
>>263027
>>263030
If you have "lots of things to lose" you're still attached to desire. You're a normie or a robot at best. I've never said in any single post in this thread that wizards are losers that have to be saved. I don't consider myself a loser at all. Bad stuff happens to everyone, including us, maybe more bad stuff happens to us. If it wasn't for bad stuff like this, we wouldn't be wizchads.

The point of this thread is we're all mostly wizards here, by being a wizard you have tremendous potential, I'm saying it makes me sad knowing most people here don't realize that and aren't willing to try.

You do your life, not my problem. Be docile and someone's else bitch, that's you being comfortable with that. I can't personally live like that.

>>263028
Yeah, slow board. It doesn't matter whether I sage all my posts. Someone is bound to reply either friendly or aggressively. Like normie dude here samefagging himself.

 No.263034

>>263033
Yes, I still have desires and I don't intend to give them up. You don't have to think of big things but basic things like a place to live or a laptop with internet connection or food to eat are my desires. Without these things I would feel shit. I don't want to feel good all the time. That implies you would be fine with living a literal shit life. Being attached to things and having desires means basically that you give a shit about your own life.

I said it already but you are going through a manic high most likely. If you calm down I'm sure you can realize what you can lose too and what you should be grateful for.

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>>263034
>but you are going through a manic high most likely
Interesting, how did you get to that conclusion?

 No.263146

>>263051
Not that hard to understand. You are ready to go out in flames and actively seek out your own destruction. Plus you feel like you can do anything. This is how people who experience manic highs think like, supposedly.

 No.263153

>>262989
>We excel in the traits of the Dark Triad (machiavellism, psychopathy, narcissism).
I was with you until you said this.
I'm nothing like that at all. I don't want to hurt people even though they're different than me, because I know what it's like to be hurt for no reason other than someone else' personal amusement, to be a punching bag all throughout life. You need to stop preaching this garbage, especially if you have any concern for anybody here. You honestly thing normalfaggots won't kick someone's ass for as much as some social media hierarchy bullshit, you're sorely mistaken.

 No.263258

>>263153
I had snapped when I wrote that.

Read it again though, I am not advocating for unprovoked violence, specially physical violence.

If you are provoked and you're willing to be docile then go ahead. Personally, returning agression is way more fun. You can achieve a lot just by knowing the name of the person. You can eventually get phone numbers of your agressor, workplace, family, heck, even address. Starting is easy, breaking windows, slashing tires, whatever comes to your imagination. Don't overdo it though, unless it is necessary.

Personally I am in a stage where I rarely have to "prove" my actions, people simply know me, my past and cooperate with whatever I say most of the time out of anxiety or fear.

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>>263258
>Read it again though, I am not advocating for unprovoked violence, specially physical violence.
What you're advocating for is wizards acknowledging that they're all broken, evil sociopaths (your little entry-level pop psychology reference to 'Le Dark Triad') who need to physically aggress against people who provoke them, who will also likely beat their brains out or potentially kill them, just for some Tiktok views or to brag to some whores about how they kicked some outcast's ass.

You want people from a position of disadvantage to start messing with people who trade in social capital, who dominate the social sphere, who can easily lead others against malignant people working against them, who can easily physically impose upon them and have no conscious about doing so, and that there are going to be no consequences for this? None of this?
That's what you're doing.

I wager you're even salivating at the thought of someone endangering their well-being here to follow your advice. You'd love nothing more than that, because it sounds like you're just an agent provocateur because you're suggesting something that will be extremely hazardous to people who just want to be left alone when they already have a difficult time getting away from people and their own malicious, victimizing behavior.

I reiterate: if you're not a malicious actor, you'll think twice about posting rubbish like that.

 No.263285

>>263281
Don't project yourself on the rest of the board. Just because you're a weak lil pussy it doesn't mean all wizards are weak lil pussies.

>your little entry-level pop psychology reference to 'Le Dark Triad

Actually this has a high correlation with mental illness and my specific diagnoses. It's far from being pop psychology, because of its complexity and many variables you can't just crunch data into a "meme" and parrot it. The same concept is used in law and criminology.

>b-but I'm not evil.


Bullshit, take this test and see your own score.

https://openpsychometrics.org/tests/SD3/

 No.263286

>>263285
>Don't project yourself on the rest of the board.
>Bullshit, take this test and see your own score.
Cool, so I can ignore you. You'd have done better just posting a Wojak or whatever, honest to God.

 No.263297

>>263286
>get told
>I w-will just ignore you

Spoken like a true crab. This board is not for pussy ass crabs. Just leave.

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>>263285

i took it, here’s my wiz score

 No.263324

>>263298
Good whitewiz. You can probably heal too.

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>>263297
No, you were rightfully rebuffed because you're a committed hypocrite.
>No don't speak for the board also we're ALL evil including YOU!
Not to mention, your inability to understand this is what also makes you stupid and means you lack introspection, which means you are literally too stupid to have any conversation whatsoever.

"This board is not for," there you go doing it again, speaking for the board. Fortunately, you don't decide anything here and never will, so take your "brave lol I am so crazy and not a pussay xD" act and fuck off with it and please, do keep "fucking with people" (that is if you even are), so when someone sticks a gun in your face you'll be rightfully shot (which is what you're probably aiming for, seeing as you're a cowardly retard that provokes people since you can't pull the trigger or even afford a gun or chemicals to do the deed yourself).

The irony.

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>>263285
Not that anon, and I took your test.
I believe the Machiavellianism axis at the very least is strongly geared towards the assumption that whoever is taking the test is either socially normal or a social mastermind/mastermind-wannabe. The questions that I believe shot my score up to the average of the online testtakers (and far above the average US population for Machiavellianism) were things like "payback should be immediate and harsh," which is a simple truth that is obscured when shielded behind the social protection of others but which becomes laid bare if one spent, say, half a decade of one's formative years being bullied. I would expect the psychopathy axis to be equally vulnerable to social circumstances. If, for instance, I had spent my teenage years being black and as a social isolate with an atypical gait and posture had occasionally suffered from police harassment (and you all know this happens, female bullies usually become nurses and teachers but male bullies become cops) then I would have repeatedly gotten in trouble with the law, would have had much higher psychological and social needs to lash out and antagonize society, and so even with the same exact brain form and neurochemistry I would have landed a much higher psychopathy score.
And nobody here is sexually attractive enough to get anywhere with the questions that would reflect narcissism, even if they had the brain forms of pathological narcissists.

Overall I rate your test as a 3.2 out of a possible 10, an attempt was made but not one suitable for the inhabitants of this site.

 No.264855

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>>263285
here is mine kek

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>>263285
Got a lot of the top one

 No.264858

Machiavellianism
3.1
Narcissism
1.2
Psychopathy
2.4

 No.264861

>>264856
>strongly geared towards the assumption that whoever is taking the test is either socially normal
The test is geared towards the assumption that you are a normal person. You know, like most other people out there.

>"payback should be immediate and harsh," which is a simple truth

>which is a simple truth
It's not. You're a blackwiz. Nothing wrong with that.


>>263365
>>264855
>>263365
You all have a very strong aptitude towards manipulation, which isn't inherently bad. Whether you want to see it or not, I don't care, I'm telling you it's there. You don't have to fancy yourself as an "evil mastermind", truth is most people are dumb and dumb people are easy to manipulate.

Manipulation is an extremely efficient way to keeping yourself safe without getting physical. Through manipulation you can terrorize a big group of people that's fucking with you. Heck, I once convinced a normie that was bothering me into giving me $500 bucks.

 No.264862

>>264861
I think a lot of these prompts are either poorly worded or simply irrelevant for what this test is trying to judge. I don't see how I can answer a prompt like "most people are easily manipulated" without strong agreement. However, that doesn't mean that I actively try to manipulate everyone or that I think it is necessarily a good practice. Prompts dealing with what I think broader reality looks like shouldn't factor into my score.

 No.264864

>I just came back to humble brag about my success and offer paternalistic and meaningless advice to all of you using the same old shit about "If I did it you can too"

 No.264866

>>263285
Cool quiz, wizzo. My results:
Machiavellianism 4.1
Narcissism 1.8
Psychopathy 1.1

So I guess I have low narcissism and psychopathy traits but high Machiavellianism? Which means what? "personality trait of being unprincipled and manipulative, cynical and an acceptance of "by whatever means necessary".

Sadly I wouldn't really call the way I am 'manipulative.' If you decide to trust anyone these days they will use it to take whatever they can from you. The ones who are 'unprincipled' and immoral or the people who prey on those who they think are weak or easy marks. If you have mental illness, autism, etc, that means you. People are fucked.

By the way: I have no clue what you're even talking about, OP. I very much doubt you'll get anyone to fear you. The closest you might come is making some normalfag think that you're so unhinged you're willing to continue to pursue them at great cost. But to be perceived that insane would require more effort than it's worth.

 No.264884

>>264862
The test is specifically about the Dark Triad, a concept used in psychology, criminology and law. It's a random internet quiz, a real life assessment is obviously more detailed.



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