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To start with, I hate everyone, and I hate everything excluding fictional characters and fictional settings.
I used to have ambitions of creating my own fictional worlds, and it's hard to shake them away. I still sometimes have urges to write down my ideas and quotes I think sound fun.
But I stop myself because there is no reason to transcribe it. For what purpose should I materially manifest my artistic visions? So that Twitter freaks who clap their hands at babies being born blind and deaf, and 4chan manchildren who play Nintendo may pervert my ideas? People are pure evil retardation. I would derive zero enjoyment by amassing fame and acclaim from the seething retarded masses, or from having even one individual read any of my works. Their perceptions of my characters and concepts would be insulting and revolting. And, being that the ideas are already there in my own head, they have served me well and do not require any physicality beyond this. I see them fine, and the seething retarded masses are sustained by lesbian cartoons and video games for toddlers; they have no need for my additions to the media ecosystem.

When you look to fiction, we see layered and emotive personalities. Characters are articulate, passionate, sensitive creatures who go places and do amazing things.
Here in reality, even those who have the money to do anything they desire often lead lives not dissimilar to niggers living in squalor. Look towards the British Royal Family, Donald Trump, Bobby Kotick, Bill Gates. See how they do nothing but have sex and stare at the wall like a fucking retard, despite their wealth.
Regardless of class, place or race, the seething retarded masses have neither romance nor adventure in their lives. No glorious deaths or trials. No justice. No heroes. Just copes and lies. Many successful family men here in reality die and they've lived such an uneventful down's syndrome life that their own family members have nothing substantial to say about them during their funerals.

Any hope for a career for me is dead on arrival. My only interest in the material world is animals, and any work involving animals is befitting of a Satan imp. It has been this way, and will stay this way for eternity. Watch as everyone around you laughs at animal suffering. Watch the normalfag as he laughs himself to tears over "jokes" of hamsters being smashed with hammers. Detailed, morbid tales of mishaps during the butchering process at the farm are told through gasping laughter on podcasts that get millions of upvotes from the psychopaths I am forced to spend time with.

I am unable to leave the house in any capacity without being mentally tortured. Everywhere in all directions, the masses of seething retards are watching and waiting; hoping to either ambush you with down's syndrome humblebragging about the numerous ways they worship the black man, or to simply report you to the police for existing in their proximity. It is impossible to view any manmade place without being shoulder to shoulder with creepy ant people who vocally narrate to every stranger in the area about their latest bowel movement. I was lucky enough to visit Las Vegas at the peak of the COVID LARP when there were only maybe 20-40 people on the street in total, and the lack of down's syndrome has made it up to be one of the only happy memories in my lifetime.


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mister, who are these creepy ant people?


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No internal monologue, no hobbies, no interests, copypasted mannerisms and talking points from sitcoms and Twitter trending topics with zero comprehension of said topics. Live to work; get stressed out by forced vacation time and sick time. They'd prefer if they could sleep in the stockroom at work and never have to go home.


Wait it's that Thom Yorke on the right of your pic?


Why the Supreme Leader of North Korea on this fucking photo ?


>For what purpose should I materially manifest my artistic visions
For what purpose should you post on wizchan?


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This world is not created for autists like my self. I don't want to force my self to do something that I despise, meaning interacting with NPC's and working. The wounds that they have inflicted on my soul as a vulnerable child will never heal. The treatment that I have received for just being autistic is unfathomable. It's funny because I had a great childhood until I turned 9. The reason for why it was bad was because I wasn't used to being bullied. Originally I went to a special needs school for children with disabilities. A bit like from Katawa Shoujo but for children. The change of environment was one of the reasons for why I have mental health issues. I did have a friend group when I was in high school but when I think back about it I realize that I was just being harassed in the name of "friendship". I listened to my fathers words which said that I should be funny. The "friend group" wasn't laughing at my jokes, they were laughing at me. That is one reason why you shouldn't trust your parents. I wished that friendship was like how it is in the animes/visualnovels. I recently played this game called Rewrite and that game made be cry unlike things that happened to me in real life. Them characters in that game feel more real than anybody I have currently ever met in real life. I feel more emotion over fiction that reality. I want to live in a world where people love me again but that is never going to happen.



There are a plethora of aspie friendly jobs, you just have to take some effort looking for them.

I shill this a lot on here, but being a janny is one of them. You have your own van, you go between different sites, you get left alone, you can spend half your shift on your phone or reading a book. I can clock out early and go home as long as everything is clean. They charge out by the hour and if the customer doesn't give a fuck, the company doesn't give a fuck. Oftentimes I'll have everything cleaned in an hour, I'll write an hour on my timesheet and I'll just read in the van.

You have the option of nightshift (4pm to midnight) if you really want to avoid everyone.

A good 25% of janitors are autists. It's the perfect menial job for the ones that can't cut it in STEM.


is this the everybody is an npc but me thread?


is this the everyone is an npc except me thread?


i relate very hard. I have never cried over an IRL event even a single time, I only cry at fiction because I wish so desperately to live with those characters and live in a world of morals and love.


I had a great dream that I was surrounded by big cats and water bison, and i patted them and swam with them in a giant pool for hours.
wake up, look around me–shitty.


I hope i die soon


So in short: you are a polfag, you think you are morally better than everyone and you think everyone lives boring lives for some reason (projection).
Trump and others don't matter at all, wealth doesn't mean you will live an interesting life, in fact money only makes you a slave to it and in turn makes your life more boring because you will do everything to raise your wealth a little or to protect it. Truly interesting people do live and it is possible to live an exciting life but you don't hear about them on the news. If you seek adventure then I'm afraid you will have to leave your room and live dangerously.

There are tragedies in life, there are "heroes", there are "epic" moments in existence for sure. But you have to create those moments for yourself by actually living an active life. That is, if you really want adventure. If not, then continue watching anime and disregard what I said.


I take anti anime polcrab as a compliment
think about it wizzie, who else doubles down and attacks anime every chance they get and suggests manual labour?
after they "save you" they go back to discord, 4chan and soak in each others smirks and smugs


"actually, everything is good, because i said so" alright enthralling argument.
these heroes and epic moments are literally outlawed and red taped behind extremely layered hypocritical and slow burning bureaucracy. someone rapes a child, it gets thrown into a closet of thousands of cases awaiting trial and forgotten. if someone gets impatient and goes and kills that pedophile, the executor is the one who goes to prison.
your world is fucked and you don't even have any goalposts to move because it's so fucked. "it's just good bro" - no explanation.


>the world is fucked and terrible, I know this because I stay inside all day and don’t interact with it
>all my knowledge of the world comes from outrage bait articles and cherry picked news segments
Yeah enthralling argument yourself bud.


>the world is fucked and terrible, I know this because I stay inside all day and don’t interact with it

I stay inside all day BECAUSE the world is fucked and terribble.



Don’t fucking lie, you never even gave it a chance. I’m not saying you should or need to go outside, but your perception is just as colored as a normalfag’s.


you're psychic and know what anonymous guys have done or not done


If your idea of adventure is enacting vigilante justice on a pedophile I can safely guess you never step foot outside.


how bad is it out there that the work units have to come here and say "do manual labour bruh" "its the great outdoors bruh" lol you're not fooling anyone


>wealth doesn't mean you will live an interesting life
>cant even go outside without working full-time to afford a car if you live in a concrete cityscape


psychopaths will harass you the second you step outdoors, and will sometimes harass you and call the city over the contents or conditions of your yard. so even inside your house isn't too safe.

ideally i'd like to be completely alone forever in an empty pocket dimension where nothing exists excepting me and a computer with internet connection.


>"actually, everything is good, because i said so" alright enthralling argument.
I never said or implied anything like that. Learn to read.

I merely called out your delusional behavior and naive expectations concerning life. You sit in your room and browse image boards all day and then whine about life being boring and how there are no adventures. Do you see the contradiction in your lifestyle? You can't have both security and adventure. Decide what you want already. Either you want a comfy, secure lifestyle in which case continue to be a hermit without regrets. Or you want to have adventure and excitement in which case you should actually look for it.

But you betrayed that you don't actually want adventure when you used the excuse that you don't want to go to prison. An exciting life is exactly exciting because of risks, stress, fear and suffering. You don't want any of the bad parts that come with adventures really. What you have in mind when you mean adventure is probably playing the new CoD in your room. You are just another bored kid who whines about life being boring when in truth the option to live a dangerous life is there for you but you refuse it daily.

You, like the other guy, confuse an interesting life with the easy life. Interesting lives are never easy. Also, first world troubles.


oh youre that guy. ok i wont reply to you anymore after this.
"you just sit inside all day so you dont get to make any points", "you dont need to go anywhere to be interesting" in the same post back to back is a classic one. you should screencap it


This is a pretty good post, OP. I hate this website, but I'm glad I read your message.


>coming to this website to play fucking armchair therapist
Dude. Fucking off yourself at once. FAGGOT.


Nuspeak and dogwhistle for people who dare to not think like me and likeminded retards.
More or less modern spin on accusation of heresy.


There no adventure in bland world of confornity and normalcy.


So true. What a fucking gear head cog in the faggot machine.
>dude just get a beer and a gf lol it’s not that deep!!


>whining about whining
Nothing screams me insecure npc like this shit.
>life being boring
It is, vidya and movies with cartoons are imports from country of imagination.
>the option to live a nigger life is there for you but you refuse it daily.
I wonder why.
And since when conforming and actually growing up are synonyms?
So how about you shut up and go back.


Samefagging this much. :^)

All right, continue to expect some miracle to happen and to just undergo some exciting adventure without leaving your room. I'm sure it will happen any day now.
Or rather just realize already that you don't want adventures but a comfy and secure life. You have no right to complain about life being boring if you refuse to seek adventures for yourself.


sorry not interested in doing anything here with the retards and wagies. wanna live in a cool Mad Max fanfiction and throw fish nets at people.


Maybe water world will become real in a few decades and you can do that then.


this belongs in the porn board


>passive agressive tone
There no adventure.
I don't live in world of dnd or shit like that.
And your baiting skills will not improve themselves, worthless faggot.


I think there are way too much adventures in life, if anything. That is why you or me for that matter live the hermit life, barely leaving our houses. The world is full of dangers and adventures, honestly I'd like it if the world was more boring and peaceful.


lol yeah whole lot of adventure at the Walmart cart pushing job, lots of adventure at the college dorm party that moves into the strip club. Big things going down sitting in front of the computer. Maybe tomorrow, my mom will make this world just a little crazier and ask me to help paint a bed frame.
You are fucked up.


Well you need to start somewhere wizard, some ones got an advantage, but you can complain here or start looking for that adventure


nobody does jack shit, not even billionaires. shut the fuck up. the ukraine war even is a LARP, nothing cool or interesting has happened for almost a century.


more importantly though, even if there were some international event of epic proportions that i could participate in, i would be hesitant to because everyone involved would be a disgusting retard with the wrong motivations.
just about everything there is to do in life outside of computer browsing involves engagement with dozens-hundreds of brainless normalfags who will ruin your time. even if they aren't directly malicious to me, just being in the presence of unthinking nigger lovers makes me consider suicide. i'm healthier and happier alone due to the degree of retardation that the everyman displays.

i think you're missing the part of the OP about fiction being superior. it's not about wanting to hang out with disgusting fucks IRL. it's about there being nobody around worth doing anything with, while SIMULTANEOUSLY there is nothing happening to anybody anyway. life sucks shit for everybody and the retarded masses just make the conditions even worse by existing.


Those aren't the only aspects of life and you know it too. You could do a thousand things if you really wanted some adventure but alas you just want to whine about nothing.

Interesting things keep happening all the time, even if you lived in the past you would rather read a book in some cell in a monastery and whine about how boring things are instead of going on adventures yourself. The problem isn't with our age or culture, it is with you. You keep demanding for adventure but you refuse any sort of risks, dangers or inconvenient stuff that would come with it.

There is nothing wrong with living in your room and enjoying fiction. But then stop whining about "no adventures" and real life being shit.


plenty of politicians and normalfags out there that deserve to be 'deleted', would be exciting and adventurous to go out like that imo



>the world is boring because I can’t go murder people


the world is good because I said so


Is truth that there are adventures in this world, just not in my city, and for wizards there is a lower chance to get to participate on one.


ok, where and what


You can join a war, do sports, get lost in the trees, fight people in one of those knight competitions where they get in armors, i can't think of something else, i shouldn't really answer this question you know…


I unironically feel like this sometimes


die for jews, throw balls like a little kid, walk around outside alone purposelessly, the knight one is actually kewl that's a good answer . i've been trying to get into the adult toy collecting community and comic books which i'd say is similar. basically you're just agreeing with me that fiction is superior by offering that suggestion. escapism is all there is in this world.


also just as an aside: in my trying to find comic book communities, i've found they no longer exist due to the films. i join a chat room for x-men fans and the admin himself told me he's never read a comic book in his entire life.
retards outnumber us by several billion and you've won the lottery if you manage to find a single person with an IQ over 90 who isn't addicted to wageslaving, meth or funko pops. the retards make this world and its contents unusable.


perhaps you should avoid platforms used by normalfags, fiction is just an surrogate activity just like any other mentioned by me previously, except the war and the knight one. Anything that doesnt feature danger of losing bodypieces or one's life and is made to entertain people is just a surrogate activity.
I supposed that that wizard didn't care about the world and would join a war just for the excitement.
By the way, what do you do with those sex toys?


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oops lol, i don't mean sex toys. i mean stuff like this. adult collectables.


Good for you


You may as well develop your creativity and share it without falling into the pit of interacting with people. I respect artists who maintain distance from the rest of humanity, because it shows they actually care about their works more than gaining reputation/money.

In reality, things seem tragically unremarkable even for people of means; all they seem to do is use their wealth to obtain things that society values and meddle in politics/society for no good reason other than they can. Being a remarkable person is simple and takes little resources - pen and paper is as simple as it gets to share what is son your mind. The trick is to remove distractions from life so that you can commit to the pursuits of the mind.


The people who actually does cool things are a minority in every area, some politician might be funding niche projects somewhere in the world and we have no idea because is a secret.



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>some politician might be funding niche projects somewhere in the world
Respect the robot


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Same energy

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