33yo wizard here, this whole Sexuality shit is the worst thing that ever happened to me. I remember when I was a kid and for the first time figured out what the Genitalia are used for, in that moment I knew this means just more trouble.
Eventually I got horny and started jerking off, at first it was fun and games but eventually I had realized that I had to jerk off every day or else my cock will torture me.
Cruel joke that my life is it turned out I have a very annoying very active sex drive. I dont jerk off for 2 days and cum starts leaking out and when I got a wet dream it was worse than pissing the bed. a comical amount of semen is produced by my balls everyday and I have to milk it out or else I will feel like shit, distracted and it feels like the horniness is shutting off my brain completely. I get horny for no reason, even if I dont look at any porn I still get horny.
My room smells like old dried semen, there is cumstains everywhere because its nearly impossible to contain it when it comes out. It ricochets off the tissue and ends up everywhere, on my keyboard, on my desk, on my screen thats far away on the floor and on my chair.
I thought in my 30s it would calm down but nope, it got worse and I cum more than ever before.
Its like a curse like I had the monkeypaw and wished to have a big dick shooting big loads and thats how the wish backfired.
I do have a big dick but it doesnt fit comfortably in any pants that I own, all the underwear is too tight and rubbing too much against my dick and compresses my balls too much or my balls and dick dont sit comfortably even if I have loose pants on. I‘m never comfortable with it.
I dont watch any pornography at all and avoid all porn sites. I never go outside so thankfully never have to see any roasties and yet despite this my dick still gets hard every day and needs to get milked. Its not even enjoyable it feels more like taking an urgent shit and then feeling relieved. Such a waste of my fucking time.
I even lost my job because I would randomly get extremely horny throughout the day, it would become too tight in my pants and my head would start spinning I wasnt able to focus on anything and as a result kept fucking up.
I wonder what the solution for this problem is, like castrating myself like some loon? Taking medications that make me sterile and lobotomize that part in the brain thats responsible for cock control?
Just sit it out another couple decades?
Being a Human is pure torture and if you read my post you probably think I‘m joking but I assure you I am not.