No.280657
>>280655Unfortunately parents can't give you confidence to smack your bully in face. You must be born with it. They could buy martial art lessons though. It helps.
No.280658
>>278478Why do you think you felt disgust at your mother in that moment?
No.281052
I was around 6 or 7 when this happened, my family worked in a 3rd world country. We had two native male workers who helped keep up the property. One day I was at the property we owned alone no one but the two workers and me. I was outside of the house and both them started chasing me, grabbing me, carrying me around, cornering me. I remember all the times they would let me break free from their grip as to make me a sport again as they chased me over and over. They always made sure I never got close to the door of the house knowing I could lock them out. They topped it off with tying my hands to a pole and they went over to the barrel that was used for burning things, they started the fire up, grabbed a a metal pole and warmed it up and made their way towards me. During the whole time they were at the fire I was yanking and pulling my wrists were bleeding due to how hard I was trying to break free. Broke free but my wrists were bleeding badly, they mocked me as I ran, letting me go finally. Never did I tell my parents.
No.281057
>>281052That sounds awful, damn
No.281060
>>280657>parents can't give you confidence to smack your bully in facei totally disagree. if parents let kids talk back a little; it teaches them to stand up for themselves.
many boomer parents bullied their kids themselves with the muh roof muh rules and muh way or muh highway bullshit.
those are kids that never learned to fight back
No.281105
>>267760I never recovered from the intense bullying I received at school. From 13-18 I had to put up with it every single day. Both physical and mental abuse. Teachers did nothing and I couldn't tell my parents, even though I'm sure they knew with how often I'd come home with mud on my school trousers. I still have scars on my cheeks and hands where I was cut with the blades of pencil sharpeners. The trauma from such intense bullying basically turned me into a shut in. I didn't know how to talk to people. I went from fantastic grades to total ambivalence towards education. After all, the establishment failed me and I was in no place to learn. I became a shut-in, more interested in games and escapism than anything else. I found things like Gaia online, anime, 4chan and so on. On my very final day of school I was chased away and pelted with tomatos to the laughter of everyone in my year. I didn't care though since I was just glad it was over. I went to university as it was expected but even there I failed and graduated with a worthless degree of low score. Years of NEETdom followed before I landed a dead-end job I hate with all of my soul. All of this combined basically fucked me over for the next near two decades.
I'm 30 and only now is it really all becoming abundantly clear how fucked up I am. Even though years ago I told myself I wouldn't care. I do care though. I haven't been happy since I was a child. My life has been such a fucking waste. I still dream about school constantly. I remember their faces, their names, even though I know they've long since forgotten me. I hate them. I fucking hate all of them.
No.281215
>>281105I'm sorry those things happened to you, my wizard friend. No one deserves such treatment.
Who knows what the future holds for any of us but I hope you can find some peace.
No.281217
>>281105Ridiculous how fuckton of people think this only happens in anime. It's a fucking joke. These bullies should be killed on the stop with no remorse and yet they're so fucking many. And then they ask why this world is fucked. Goddamn I hate psychopaths so much.
No.281275
>>281105>I still dream about school constantly.Same for me, also in my 30s. The school system is pureposely designed to break outliers
No.281322
dealing with the white man and his owner was the main difficulty i faced in my life
No.282885
>>280490>This threadThis board*
This side of the internet**
This country***
No.282887
>>282884Sorry but Apu is a Pepe and Pepe is banned as of 2016, mods might delete
No.282894
>>282893tell her it was just a funny youtube prank
> It climaxed asking my sister with the disclaimer that I didn't mean it to have sex with me, while she and my mom were talking in the laundry room. I mean laundry room? It just fits
No.282896
>>282893I fully lacked self awareness when I was young, I came in contact with hentai and told everyone I was drawing this rape comic book, which I did, but the characters kind looked like South Park and the story was about a masked serial rapist that in the end is revealed to be a tranny (you see, that was the big surprise, people reading would assume she was set in to be one of the victims, it was actually a dude and the perpetrator), and I watched this Ecchi anime called Aika, and began drawing succubi showing panties everywhere, including tests at school. I was not even sexually aware despite being 12-13, I just thought it all was cool, and only years later I realized what I was doing. I'm so thankful for the Internet not being as big back then, Chris-chan might have been me.
No.282897
>>282896similar story in nip-tuck
where the rapist was using a dildo
No.282898
>>282897https://villains.fandom.com/wiki/The_Carver_(Nip/Tuck)The Carver is ultimately revealed to be Dr. Quentin Costa, with his sister and lover Kit McGraw as his accomplice.
No.282899
>>282897>>282898Fuckers stole my idea. Is that worth watching?
No.282900
>>282898can succubi tell if its a dildo or dick going into them?
No.282908
Parents caught me on video masturbating with a hidden camera and showed it to my siblings
Its a wonder I even still associate with them
No.282910
i was raped at school when i was 11
No.282920
I feel like every time I make a post in a thread even for ones that are innocuous they grind to a halt or the post quality drops. Did I signal the death of the thread with my arrival and post that pales in comparison to everyone else's? Is what I posted not good enough and a joke? Not to insult or put down others in this thread but sorry I didn't post a good enough experience. It's like there's IP gangstalkers following me where ever I go mocking me so I'm always unsatisfied and alienated.
No.282940
>>267760>Share your various traumatic experiences that still haunts you to this very day.Not sure what to pick. I mean, even though I've been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, social anxiety disorder, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, delusional disorder, psychotic disorder not otherwise specified, and post-traumatic stress disorder… often times when I've tried complaining about traumatic experiences; I tend to get responses like, "get over it," and, "you're weak." So I feel as if I can't really pick which of my experiences in life were the ones that traumatized me. But, well, nobody else really seems to remember what I remember. And my mental health care providers wouldn't really listen what I had to tell them. So what ended up happening is that two of my mental health care providers (a psychiatrist and a psychologist) that diagnosed me with five out of seven of those disorders ended up threatening to place restraining orders on me for pestering them, and one therapist actually did place a restraining order on me.
So I often think to myself, "what purpose does my diagnosis serve? Why did I blow through over $10,000 over the course of 10 years just to end up worse than I started?"
And to think that before I received my official diagnosis; I was concerned with having narcissistic personality disorder and antisocial personality disorder… (I was actually tested for these and was told that I don't have them–a DNA test even revealed that I have no genetic predisposition to psychopathy–a $100 DNA test that nobody gives fuck all about)
No.282941
Where do I begin with this? How about…
>Be me
>Be in high school where I'm only one of 3 minorities
>Be bullied by every single white sister fucker in the entire godforsaken school for being both a minority and being autistic
>Mom gets job at same school
>The bullying gets worse
>End up having lunch out of my mom's office every single goddamn day.
>School life becomes so bad want to unalive self
>Parents somehow talk me out of it
>Bullying continues to get worse
>Get threatened with potential murder
>Mom FINALLY hits the eject button and transfers me to different school
>Think I'm safe
>Take bus to school
>Bullying continues but now it's from ghetto folks
At this point I can't stand the neurotypical general public and I try to avoid them as much as possible, much to the dismay of my parents.
No.283499
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No.283552
>>282941They're demonic. You either let them brainwash you into becoming a stupid normie or they abuse you psychologically and physically.
No.283560
>>267760well when i was around 6 or 5, i was crying in a corner because my cousins had been bullying me, and then my dad grabbed me by the throat and choked me all the way up to my room, but i've forgotten what happened then, because he choked me so hard i lost consciousness on by the time we got to the staircase.
No.283565
>>283560you can do the same to him when he's old
No.283567
At this point the best way I can describe it as is AEDS: Acquired Emotional Deficiency Syndrome.
I've certainly learned to live with it rather than make it more painfully convoluted than it already was.
No.283569
>>283567I'm stuck wondering whether I'm just an autistic sociopath and this is my normal state or if I was once normal but something just bleached the emotions out of me.
No.284525
I posted here before years ago but I remember being in kindergarten and having the other kids force me to be buried about chest deep into the sand pit. It was tight, I couldn't even move my fingers lol. It was probably the scariest moment of my life, even a dumb 4 year old like me who thought he was literally a dragon decided to stop being retarded and realise i'm in serious danger. The teachers took their sweet time helping me out.
No.284607
>>275094A few days after I got into a fight with another kid at middle school his mom and brother pulled up in their green and black muscle car while waiting to get picked up, and questioned me if there was going to be any problems with me and their family again. Why would she do this, to intimidate me, get me beaten up again? What the fuck would I do about it, I lost the fight anyway because I'm a big pussy, even my mom said I don't know how to defend myself. My dad saw it happened and he got pissed and said not to ever talk in a situation like that again, he was pissed in general at me around this time in my life. Sorry for blogposting.
No.284659
>>267760>Be 9 or 10>Brother is 13 or so >Brother and i start wrestling>It turns into almost a sexual thing he pins me down and we act like are kissing>After that stopped laughingI also have some vague memory of when he put his dick in my mouth or my face.
>Be around 10-11>Play with neighborhood kids (The houses where very close together)>Always getting bullied by the succubi, etc >Hit and made me feel horrible about myself>SH because i was a retarded kid. I don't remember anything else and my memory isn't very good.
No.285969
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No.286010
Typing all this out was really therapeutic. I sometimes forget that I have simply not been blessed with the support systems and parents other people have. I am building everything up from ground 0. I have been hurt in serious ways, and I must heal. It's fine to take it slow, but I must be sure I am taking it. Now then:
>Got excited about a hand bells course in middle school (I know, but I'd hoped to make friends) in middle school, and a group of guys within lured me into false camaraderie; eventually after a week of pretending we were best pals, they locked me in the equipment room for several hours after school. I still don't know what I did wrong. After that, we continued being "friends", but I'm old enough now (24) to look back on our "friendship" and realize I was just the dog they kept around to kick. I wish I'd joined band or orchestra…high-school proved the former group was full of nerdy and kind types and the latter was mostly rich kids who would leave me alone. Hand bells was full of kids who HAD to take a music course but didn't want to put forth effort anywhere else. I was there because I was shy. If I could go back I'd seriously avoid those guys, they put me through so much awful bullshit growing up.
>All those moments in my life where my mother treated me as if I was playing Serious, Real mind games with her, and I believed it growing up. Now I'm older and I think how the FUCK did a 40+ year old succubus believe her 6 - 16 year old son was a master manipulator? Why did she never think "Well hey, why does my young son feel the urge to lie to me?" and why did she insist I was lying when I was very obviously telling the truth? Sometimes I record our arguments now and it's just her hearing shit I did not say or forgetting things she herself promised. Gave me so many confidence, anxiety, etc. issues that I am only now starting to unravel.
>My father making me walk out to the woods to select the switches he would then beat me with so the welts tore up my legs. Then he would make me walk down the street to show them off to my grandpa. I now think anyone who harms a child should be shot.
>My mother getting so pissed off at me in kindergarten for wanting to speak to another kid at her job (she was around her work friends) that she made me eat my dinner off the floor like a dog. She'd often use me as a punching bag. Just yelling all the time. Talking all the time. Used to strangle me for fun, but she now denies it.
>Lunch in highschool senior year. One of the guys got tired of me and told everyone a lie so they'd avoid me. I ended up skipping it every day to go read in the library, and I had to deal with the kindly old librarian telling me what a good kid I was. My grades were trash however. But it was such a lonely period of my life. Whole rooms going quiet whenever I walked in. People wholesale ignoring the things I said.
>Getting my head slammed into the bus seat. First act of violence done upon me (outside of my parents). I really don't know why they did that. I'm scared I got brain damage from it, because it happened up until….third grade? I told a school counselor I wanted to kill myself at some point and she mocked me for it later.
>Playing basketball with a succubus and she, at one point, told me I'd never amount to shit. We were in elementary school. Every day alive I fear she cursed me (though I logically know it was just childish bullying), because I'm typing this from my childhood home. Nothing to be happy about. The afterglow from earning my degree has long since worn off; I have returned to the state of a useless adult. I pray this interview tomorrow works out well.
No.286071
i am going through a stage where i think violence can only be answered with violence. humanity exists in a state of perpetual war/conflict for a reason. it is impossible to explain them shit. you can only kill them, they will try to kill you in response and here we go forever.
No.286080
>>286010I applaud your strength. Being born to evil parents has caused me to doubt god. Not to mention being forced to be around stupid brutal schoolchildren through all of childhood. Why did our souls suffer such injuries? There is no reason for any of it. You're an excellent writer with a heart too kind and a mind too smart to ever fall into any mental traps set by your abusers. Just keep going. I am doing the same but it is very hard.
No.286417
>>286010Horrible. Sorry man.
No.288286
Nothing bad enough like much of this thread happened to me. My life is a slow burn of many moderate misfortunes that were never enough to set me over the edge but allowed me to mentally adapt to stoicism and ambivalence. So I just have to settle here, as a dog.
I'd definitely suicide if something pushed me enough. I've called this hypothetical the "Catalyst" if it ever comes.
No.290514
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No.290521
>>286071I agree. And even if a peace is built, it can only last in a highly intelligent society where every member is aware of the facts at all times.
The stupider and more easily manipulated the members of said society, the quicker it devolves into anarchy, then arbitrary violence and then groups killing other groups.
There is a reason why fake news are impossible to spread and gain zero acceptance in certain countries, and why they routinely start conflicts and wars in others.
The vast majority of nations consist of utter primitives who can barely read and write. They are literal bonobos and chimpanzees in mental function who just have homo sapiens bodies. It's very stupifying to think of it, but the US is closer to those ape nations than it is to a place like Iceland or Japan.
No.290531
>>290521https://www.usnews.com/news/best-countries/articles/2023-01-27/finland-most-resistant-to-fake-news-report-findsThe most resilient country against fake news is Finland, followed by Norway and Denmark.
The most susceptible countries towards fake news are Kosovo, North Macedonia and Georgia, all very low income and low literacy countries. So it appears you're right.
The US ranks in the lower third of all countries measured. The US is full of retards.
No.290532
>>290531>The US is full of retards.From Mexico and Africa.
No.290534
>>290532its a taboo to say, but the average iq in the states is rapidly dropping due to migrants from low intelligence countries.
you have like 0,1% coming in as programmers or doctors on h1b-visas and 99,9% coming in as green card menial labor types
we arent getting a bunch of highly educated critically thinking people from finland, japan or india's elite.
we are getting people from weird shitholes like malawi, burundi and south american failed states where people can just about scribble their name on a piece of paper
No.291410
>>290534Op here, shameless self bump.