/dep/ - Depression

>>270056
Being alive, no matter how bad it gets, is stil preferrable to being dead.
You have the rest of eternity to experience the nothingness of death, but your existance on this planet is time-limited.
This place is not through with you yet.

>>270056
Anon, death is ready and willing for you any time you need it. That thought usually helps me bear the hard times.

Took the words right out of my mouth. don’t have the will to post on the internet really, haven’t for years. just want this to end. especially the chronic back pain. Whatever you decide to do, I wish you success.

>I'm sick of the severe bullying that I went through in school and the fact that noone stopped it or cared


you are pre-enlightenment

the enlightenment being that you need to stand up to bullies yourself

>>270059
Depends on how bad it gets. I would definitely choose instant death over even 1 month, no, 1 week of continuous torture in a russian or north korean PoW cell.

Who cares about being dead for an eternity after that, your psyche will be ruined and reduced to an animal state after such an experience anyway, you will also deeply hate human beings and life itself if you ever manage to escape alive.

also the fact of life how the manipulators (psychopaths and the evil like) tend to be good looking and charming, probably because natural selection weeds out the ugly looking ones. so people will naturally like these evil people all because they look good. this fact bugs me a lot. evil should be easily identifiable so people can avoid it

You eventually learn to cope or you end up roping. So get busy coping or get busy roping.

>>270083
>Get busy coping or get busy roping.
Unironically, this is going to end up being my motto. Holy shit. Gg anon.

>>270082
But it's the opposite? It's well established that psychopaths are on average of low intelligence and poor health/looks.

>>270088
don't think so, that sounds more like the "criminals are dumb and ugly" thing, the smart attractive ones just get away with it and no one calls them psychopaths or criminals.

>>270090
>the smart attractive ones just get away with it and no one calls them psychopaths or criminals.

Schrodinger's unnoticed high functioning sociopath. Sociopaths are all noticed during their youth because all of them have delinquency back then. People don't miss that aspect.

Criminals typically are dumb and ugly. It's a stereotype for a reason.

>>270097
Doesn’t matter if they’re noticed. The smart ones (like my evil neighbour) manipulate their kids into becoming cops, that way the have the police on their side. He also makes himself appear older to appear innocent and harmless. This is just an example, but so you’re aware, he’s gotten away with raping his own daughter, stealing from us, harassing us, snooping on us through city agencies. He also may be responsible for an old unsolved murder as he matches all of the criteria posted. How’s that for dumb and ugly?

>>270090
The really blameworthy ones are those amongst the normies who allow them to carry out their stuff. Don't forget this.

>>270071
>hate human beings
Normalfags are not human, they posses no humanity, they are literally cheap imitation of real thing.

>>270059
> experience the nothingness of death

what? how can you experience anything by not existing?

>>270356
That's classified. Only true wizards know.

>>270356
as a memory, have you ever been knocked unconscious? you won't remember your own death unless you get reborn after death which according to medical science, you wont.

>>270353
Can confirm this.

>>270059
Actually, no. Death is preferable to existence whenever you feel like it. There is no use forcing yourself to live a shit life just to spite normals or to 'show them'. I'm alive now because I don't mind living like I do now. But if I had it much worse? I'd probably kill myself in some way.

Living is cool as long as you enjoy it. Once you stop enjoying it and see no possible solution to your situation then suicide is the best thing. Even the stoics acknowledged this, despite the fact they taught that man can bear any shit if he tries hard enough.

>>270513
>There is no use forcing yourself to live a shit life just to spite normals or to 'show them'
What about living a shit life so that it may cease being shit in the future?

>>270514
>>There is no use forcing yourself to live a shit life just to spite normals or to 'show them'
>What about living a shit life so that it may cease being shit in the future?
see what they said originally
>Once you stop enjoying it and see no possible solution to your situation then suicide is the best thing.
>see no possible solution to your situation then suicide is the best thing.

>>270513
What would you define as a "no possible solution" type of situation? And I mean in the realistic "NEET that is depressed and hates life", which is the usual archetype of posters on this board. Not the "being tortured by russians or north koreans", which is an extremely rare outlier case that probably would never apply to a wizard that never leaves his house.

>>270528
It's not about material conditions its about perspective.

>>270529
perspective is fickle, temporary, and above all else subjective. Why would you end your life for something like that?

I am also unsuccessful, unskilled, and unaccomplished. I also cry almost every day.
Everything I've tried has ended in failure and the future looks bleak. I feel like I've been digging a hole my entire life and now I'm in so deep the only way out is to kill myself.
I don't have any advice for you, anon. Being alive is pain and the rare instances of joy you can eek out from existence is like some kind of sick consolation prize.
Maybe things will be better in the next life.

>>270532
because life sucks is a perspective sage for obvious fact

>>270514
>>270528
>>270532
It's subjective, like everything else. How should I know how much is your tolerance towards things and what misfortunes you have to put up with? You have to decide for yourself when to quit, like everything else in your life.

A "no possible solution" type of situation for me would be going homeless, getting cancer or some other painful illness that can't be cured or simply having to wageslave a horrible job for most of my free time just to stay alive for another wretched day. For me, again. I'm afraid you'll have to trust your own perspective. You'll know when to quit. You wouldn't ask me this question if you were already in such a situation. When living is such an extreme hell for you that you can't enjoy anything, then yeah, it's time to switch trains. Your negative emotions, anhedonia, depression, anger, frustrations…are all signs telling you that something is wrong and you need change asap. So try to change. If you can't, sudoku. Clinging to some foolish optimistic hope about things suddenly getting better or changing for the better all of a sudden will just bring you more suffering.

Do not compete openly. Also be aware, the want for accomplishments is not driving you anywhere, so… drop it.

>>270056
Why not try something new before kicking the chair?

You literally have nothing to lose.

>>272632
Because trying new things usually makes me feel worse by highlighting that I'm shit.