No.270307
I've been violent for as long as I can remember, hitting, and breaking things every time I got angry. I grew up in a very violent environment, I'm not trying to justify myself, but it's ugly to know that over time one imitates that kind of behavior. Over time I became more authoritarian, and more violent, so I tried to make the arguments not affect me so much, so I went to a psychiatrist, in short, now I am taking an antiepileptic, and two antidepressant drugs.
I don't really feel sad, I don't feel guilty about what I did either, I know my hands are dirty, very dirty, but that's not why I hate myself, I don't feel that apathy characterized by depression either.
So I wanted to ask you, can antidepressants help against violence? I really want to stop taking them because they made me gain a lot of weight, and I feel like I can't cry anymore. If you also have anger problems, it would be good if you shared your experience.
No.270312
The meds industry is scamming you but you do not seem to be furious about that.
No.270316
no they only make it harder to feel sad
No.270318
>>270312I don't usually get very angry, but when I do get angry I get very violent. The antiepileptics worked great, but this new shrink I'm going to says I have major depressive disorder from being tired all the time.
From having a side effect of only a little stomach ache, to ejaculating less, not feeling emotions, and being fat
No.270325
>>270316At a cost beyond money, man.
No.270326
>>270325And you took antidepressants, they messed you up somehow
No.270333
I want to be free off meds too
No.270368
>>270325The citalopran makes me ejaculate less, it sucks, but I hope to stop it in these months. I stopped taking oralzapine a couple of weeks ago and I'm not so hungry anymore, from eating 5 meals a day to eating just one.
I attended 4 shrinks in total, but only this one told me about the antidepressants, so I highly doubt that I have depression, apart from that I don't feel sad.
No.270452
You might have pyroluria:
https://www.vitalityandwellness.com.au/blogs/health-matters/understanding-pyroluriaI've struggled with violent outbursts all my life (never on others) and have found that taking the supplements recommended for pyroluria helps a lot.
No.270453
>>270452The truth is interesting. I'm going to try a vitamin supplement to see how it goes, I read about people with anger problems that this also worked very well for them. But it's not that I'm angry with people, or with the world, in fact I'm quite calm, but when they insult me and disrespect me I can get violent. Curiously, I have been diagnosed with the only mental illness directly related to violence (IED).
Thanks for your input, it's really appreciated.
No.270461
if I called you a homo, would you break your screen
No.270463
>>270461You would have to disrespect me continuously, and in a very annoying way, something like yelling at me, and answering badly. But before I get angry I laugh a lot, and I make fun of the situation, sometimes I end up laughing out loud and that makes the person even more angry.
Besides, I can't take the internet seriously, the internet is a playground.
No.272563
By knowing what triggers you can only be solved, this riddle