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Yes, another suicide thread.
You think that putting my head in the rail it will kill me? like beheading, is the only solution that is painless and fast and reliable. When i am thinking in suicide my tummy hurts, feels like vomiting but not vomiting. I live in Spain, and these are the type of trains, if the guards/police will stop me, i dont know what to do.
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Antihistamines or diphenhydramine will kill you


It's so hard to jump from this bridge. I don't think I will be able to kms today…


Considered it. You need to be weighted down and I would suggest some kind of drug to numb the pain. Beyond that I like the concept of gently drifting away into the darkness and unknown.


At what dose? I've taken 900mg of dph without dying for fun due to lack of access to datura




idk, I was thinking 2500 mg.
You can get a bottle of 100 25mg tablets, so probably just down the whole bottle with your alcoholic beverage of choice.


It also depends on how much you weigh.


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What are the most EXTREME ways to gather as much money as humanly possible before I ded?
Some ideas:
>sell everything I own
>how do I sell life insurance\insurances\mortage stuff?
>can I ,somehow,give up citizeship?
>how to become legally ded\fake my dedness
>use PSI\ESP\psychotronic powers to mind-control my parents unto giving me my inheritance while alive
>wait until parents pass on and then sell the house + live on a couple of dollars a day +agressive investments for some years


Kill your parents. High risk, high leverage investments - you can gamble on crypto with 100x leverage such that every 1% gain becomes 100% gain, but 1% drop is 100% loss. High risk drug deals and thefts. Kidnapping people for ransom. Robbing a bank, store or cash transport truck.

I mean, you said Extreme


>I mean,
I hate anyone and everyone who says this.


you cant justify that


We already know you mean it. you don need to clarify.
its asinine and gross.


I mean redundancy in language is good


It is a language device with obvious uses: https://english.stackexchange.com/a/3065


>I mean


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seriously tho…I was serious. treat this seriously.


I mean, you're a bit of a twizzler dick anyway, so fuck your hatred.


>fuck your
HMMPH? is that your Adress?
why not embrace? ye, EMBRACE HATRED


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im incredibly fanatical about donating money.
I might even live on food-bank food and public park water supplying to donate-maxx
I will take loans just to donate them


i knew for 10 years that i have to jump under a train. but i didn't do it. i regret it. people are supposed to fix their mistakes, isn't it what they say?


For a grammar Nazi, you sure suck at grammar.

Fuck your hatred, as in fuck the hatred that is possessed by you.
I know all the subtleties of English may confuse you. Maybe if you study real hard, you could be a competent grammar Nazi instead of just an "eh" grammar Nazi.


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have you tried jumping on a train?


Same. The thing is, life hasn't got worse, but I still feel absolutely nothing. No happiness. Only the very least comfort to not end it the next moment.


I'm curious how they measure the agony part


To you depressed anons, don't get baited by the kiwifarms psychos. You're broken and vulnerable, even if you're a 40 year old pervert you can still change.
There are predators and succubi that get off on making you commit suicide. I pity them because a lot of them were severely abused and they want to kill you to take it out on someone.
The posters giving advice on how to commit suicide come from crystal cafe and related sites, they discuss methods for abusing wizards and share their 'scores' when they destroy one of you. Don't let it happen bros. If you're a teen you're especially at risk. Don't trust people that talk to you on discord, don't listen to blackpill advice, and if you want to hurt yourself reply to this message and detail some of the reasons that you're hurting.


To all my suicidal bros, you should take a good hard look at yourself and be honest with yourself, do you actually have the balls to go through with it? If not suicide is just a destructive fantasy that will lead you to start neglecting things that will eventually fuck you over and make your life materially worse. I know you're thinking, well that's a good thing because it will make me finally kill myself, but it won't if you fundamentally don't have the courage to do it, it will only make you worse off, so you should just try to tamp it down ignore it and start dealing with your real life no matter how difficult, tedious and depressing that may be.


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That's good advice. I think spending too much time on the internet in those communities can't be healthy for you as well. If you're suicidal, it's best to stay away or limit your exposure to the whole blackpill parts of the internet, as they'll only fill you with negative thoughts. I'm not going to go on a whole anti-suicide preach here since I believe each individual ultimately has free will over their own life or death, but for any suicidal wizzies reading, I personally think no matter what's going in your life, no matter what bad things keep happening to you, you have to continue to struggle, you have to continue to fight, and you have to continue to live.

Yea for many people on this planet life is harsh, life is difficult, many people live in abject poverty or deal with loss of their loved ones through war/diseases/etc. bad shit keeps happening to them over and over but they continue to struggle and push forward and I think sometimes that's the only thing you can do. That struggle is what will build character & resilience. It'll make you a survivor. I mean just think about how many famous, young, rich people & celebrities have killed themselves over the years. They had all this wealth and power and money and yet they couldn't save themselves. The way I see it, you can kill yourself or you can become a survivor. Survive despite all the shit that life throws at you.


How do I mix ammonia and bleach without putting others in the house at risk?


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Tried roping this morning. I tied the rope to a tree and then tried to hang myself, but since I didn't know how to tie a proper noose, I got out of it when it started hurting.

Hanging is painful. Like someone said before, if you don't have a gun, forget about it.


"idk how to hang myself" is the same as saying you aren't suicidal. people have hung themselves since Before Christ. you should go beg for attention on Discord instead of pretending to be suicidal here.


He means it's too painful. He can mechanically do it.
Besides, if he doesn't have the constitution to withstand the pain, he may come out with brain damage, a fate worse than death.


>almost to hunt your own meat and being a wanderer in nature is also illegal 99% of the time
WHAT for real?


Why do you think Kaczynski felt the need to wage war on industrial society? If it was possible to guarantee a life outside of it, he wouldn't have wasted his life.


You're supposed to drop yourself from an appropriate height to break the neck. The knot you tie plays a role in that. If you fuck that part up, yes you will be in for a painful strangulation, but you will lose consciousness after about 5 seconds, so the pain will only last for 5 seconds.


yeah thats why theyve been kicking chairs out from under them at a height since Before Christ so that there's no way to pussy out. "hanging myself is too painful" is the same as saying you aren't suicidal. i recommend Discord a lot of them have #vent channels where people such as yourselves pretend to come up with convoluted suicide methods to avoid doing the real thing for attention.


Swallow a lot of Benadryl, good as dead.


Damn, I weirdly feel the same. My mother is why I don't want to commit sui yet and if she was gone, I'd end myself within thirty days. I'd enjoy the final weeks of this terrible earth without any harness.


People who claim they wont kill themselves because another person are really just saying "I am really miserable and think about a solution like death".

This is a cope and only ever will be a cope.


Plenty of people kill themselves after their last remaining relationships end man. Your perspective doesn't reflect reality at all.


Here is how to Actually Reach Japan and become Japanese through Buddhism.

This is as easy as it gets.


Here is what happens when you die. You get judged by the various kings of Buddhist Hell. Of interest here is Great King Enma and King Henjo, both of which are key to actually reaching Japan.

From King Henjo's trial

>After 42 days, the souls which have made it this far now face the judgment of King Henjō (whose true form is Miroku Bosatsu, or Maitreya). Henjō decides the location of each soul’s rebirth based on the reports from Enma’s mirror and Gokan’s scale.

You have to manipulate Enma's mirror and Gokan's scale to Actually Reach Japan.

You'll also want to be reborn in the realm of humans. The guide says this is the role of Great King Enma, but actually, if you become Chinese Buddhist, this is the role of Emperor Dongyue.


Emperor Dongyue can tell you, while you're still alive, what realm of Samsara you will be reborn into.

There you go. It's as simple as it gets. Three Deities of Buddhism get you into Japan.


0Why Shinto?

Shinto is the primary religion of Japan. For one reason or another, someone might want to become Shinto. I became Shinto so I could be reborn in Japan. If you're interested in Japan, or want to become Japanese, I would highly reccomend looking into Shinto

>How to become Shinto

Here's how to become Shinto for less than $5.

>The Kojiki

Here's the Kojiki, the sacred text of Shinto.


Free of charge. Use this to research Shinto for free, look up your favorite kami, and put the pieces together.

>Shinto Norito


Here's the Shinto Norito. You can obtain this ebook for only $2.99. Get it on kindle or physical (your choice), and open it up

Go to daily prayer section of the ebook. There's your daily prayer, do it once a day.

There is also an Inari prayer for people interested in Inari

>Kamidana, Ofuda

Now you can obtain Kamidana and Ofuda.

>What is Kamidana?

Kamidana is a home shrine. You worship it at home. It gets its spiritual power from the Ofuda contained within.

>What's Ofuda?

Shinto Talismans. There's Ofuda for Kami. According to my shinto shrine priest, they're good for 1 year before you have to renew them and get another. They have spiritual powers and help connect you to the kami.

>I need a shinto shrine priest

Have you considered joining a shinto shrine? There's one in America, Here's some reading you can do from Tsubaki Grand Shrine for free, no charge to you.



Organs need to be harvested right after you die. You cant just put organs into a fridge for days. This is a little secret lots of ppl dont know but organs get cut out of you as soon you are considered dead so if you are in not dead organs will be carved out of your body will you are still alive


*so if you are considered dead


I feel like such a high dosage is too risky if you were to survive it, because if you happen to survive it, you are going to have dementía or schizophrenic psychosis and are fucked for life.


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I have extreme fear of dying and death. The fear, combined with my survival instinct, is what keeps me alive.

Any way to get over it?


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how does Eternal Oblivion "work"?
if time is in the mind, how can a second -suicide- at the same time destroy perception of time AND cause a "no-time" ;an eternity of non-being…whats known as eternal oblivion.
how can I prove to myself I will ,indeed, be heading towards the eternal or time-less Void and not getting stuck in some quantum samsara ruse?


Intellectually nothing simpler than nonbeing. but on a personal level it is hard to fully comprehend the complete blankness of death. even if not a silly theistic heaven, there is a part that sneaks in some consciousness to be the observer of the nonbeing.

existing is a mystery, who knows what is before the Big Bang


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What's the best streaming platform to show my own death and decay on?

I live in an apartment alone and never have guests or anyone in touch with me, so it's likely to be several days before I'm discovered. I want all the footage of those days to be seen live and recorded publicly, as a social statement on loneliness, and "for science", as the kids used to say. For my method, I have a poison that acts reliably and painlessly (endorsed by PPH). The stream thumbnail won't appear gory until quite a long time has passed, but I would still need somewhere relatively resistant to moderator takedowns even after word of my demise spreads.

I intend to make a throwaway online identity for this, and the number of internet people who could recognize both my face and home address is in the single digits. I'm not scared of getting caught before expiring, but I want to succeed at this, unlike everything else I've done in my life.


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I decided Im going to live my life "in reverse".
I wont live each day seeking what will come (in the future). I will make a long, neat, list of everything I want to see and do in this life ; and start ticking squares.
When the list is over…we'll see.I might even impose pre-set limits to my worldly activity: total amount of money I'll ever earn, or spend, total KMs I'll ever travel.
This probably sounds like a massive case of CDG or plain ole' autismo.


Another related concept I invented is the "absolute yes or not" logic-decision challenge.
If I ask myself "will I EVER do X or Y?" the answer has to be yes or no. When I say "will I ever" I mean if I will factually do it, not if I intend to do it.
this should be used to set moral boundaries, and set goals, push myself for stuff etc
>Will I,OP, ever kill an innocent person" NO. this way, I assure that -as long as I live- the answer to this absolute challenge is NO
>Will I, OP, ever do 100 pushups in 60 seconds? If I want the answer to be yes. I must force myself and push myself until the answer is YES at least one time in my life

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