Aw, thats already 6 years now
advice for a neet that has a shared PO box with family and no income (200 in private savings) or transportation to die fast? no guns either sadly here
>>275129>What's heroin overdose like? Anyone got any experience with it?
Not sure how close to an overdose, but back when I abused RC opioids one time my mom knocked on my door because I was breathing strangely in my sleep (I would usually pass out drowsy af after 30min to an hour). I would not breathe for a while then take a big gasp of air apparently. I felt fine.
What is "RC opioids"?
RC = research chemical
Basically gray market drugs you can buy online. They're technically legal to sell if you don't market them for human consumption. So while LSD is federally illegal in the US, for example, 1P-LSD isn't and the effects are nearly identical.
RC = royal crown
Basically blue market colas you can buy online. They're tastefully easy to sell if you don't market them to nonwizard gaywads. So while Diet RC is fantastically dietary in the wizard's body, for example, Double-sugar Diet RC isn't and the taste is nearly identical.
Nick Fuentes plugged RC cola as well fam…
Isn't that full of inflammatory artificial sugars like every other coke?
its part of his scheme to be King of the Crabs
isnt fentanyl best to od on? ppl accidentally do it all the time, and just from laced pills. i have no idea how to do that though
is there a chan/forum more suited to actual suicide advice? On here it's more about discussion depression and how it affects one.
Thing is, I've come across a highly effective suicide method and don't want to give some 19 yo with a whole life ahead the wrong idea.
so, this charcoal burning/CO intoxication painless or not?
yuck, ms windows.
Degenerates who perform autoerotic asphyxiation are often found strung up by the very belt they undid in order to drop their pants.
Warning: Intentional sleep deprivation can cause chronic insomnia.
If he's looking at them while fading away, then he'll technically be looking at them for every second of the rest of his life. Such an achievement
You would die instantly, and if a breaker wasn't tripped, the arcing would saw you in half. Thousands of metroids would be late for work or home.
A video can be observed of a human laying, torso on the roof and neck on a small power line. After some seconds of sparks and spatter, his head plummits to the ground
Arc welders make molten steel in milliseconds, imagine the many small pockets of water, blood, and fat within flesh heating up so rapidly as to burst.
I was just wondering because it seems like the most available method for people living in the USA who are near big cities in blue states. I live near NYC and I have never seen any news about someone who killed them selves this way. Maybe it’s because they can clean them up really quick, or they don’t ever mention it. The idea that news organizations wouldn’t pick this up is just ridiculous so I don’t think Americans really use this method that much.
That's some scary but fascinating shit, wizzie. Good post.
I'm reading on it, voltage might not be that high (750 volts DC, which I mean it's high but a taser gun can do 20k volts), but the amperage is up to 150 amps, that is insane, a current of .2 amps can already kill a person, 150 amps + 750v? You'd be fried instantly.
What’s the hotkey for quest journal?
Lobotomize all geniuses in the name of equity.
Having a high IQ should be made illegal, because more intelligent people lead parasitic lifestyles and hoard wealth. REDUCE THEIR INTELLIGENCE, EITHER VOLUNTARILY OR AGAINST THEIR WILL. Heil Equity
sounds like malarkey.
Buddhists are pedos now, it's sad to realize even Buddhism is a sham nowadays. Nothing is real anymore.
All centralized religions are nothing but bullshit. Plus there wasn't any dalai lama in Buddhas teachings, he was pretty specific when he said if you ever meet a Buddha - kill him, meaning no worshipping individuals, ever. If you are retarded and ignore what the founder for your religion says clearly and specifically, you get pedo dalai lamas, gods, devils, heavens and hells, and other shit that is later additions of degenerates incapable of true understanding.
thats not in the pali cannon, you are a Zen shill
Zen, mahayana, theravada, it is all mental trash. There is nothing to be attached to, nothing to identify as, nothing to pursue, no one to worship. That is all Buddhism is.
At this point, observing the world and religion. Thinking for myself etc, I just can’t take religion seriously, its all just bunch of looney schizo for people who can’t cope in a world full of suffering. I don’t blame them but i’m never gonna take this shit face value, philosophy seems way more interesting and realistic.
Excessive religiosity should be cured through brain surgery. A cure is within view, but society denies the clear truth : Many brain diseases are solvable through strategically damaging neural structures - especially if nipped in the bud during childhood or infancy.
ok normalfag. not everyone has a prominent chin, y'know
Stop being faggots and face life as it is. I know that this world is hell on earth for the average wizard, but you need to find a way to cope with life. Avoid drugs, alcohol and all the other normalcattle copes. Find weird hobbies. Become someone interesting. The world needs more weirdos like us.
Hmmmm… my one creative hobby will never be interesting to anyone but myself. Should I respec into beekeeping or gun collecting?
what is your hobby
go into the deepest wilderness and become someone who eats the meat of cryptids (using the guns you collect)
anything i should know about charcoal burning? i have a cat that i definitely don't want to kill, so I'll open up windows and put a wet towel at the bedroom door, tape the keyhole shut.
what is your solution for a dead-man switch? right now i'm planning to use the "send later" feature to delay sending an email for 12 hours or something
The only thing preventing me from killing myself is that I have a lot of stuff in my room and I don't want anyone to have to deal with removing it after i'm dead.
Worst excuse I've ever read on this website.
I was ready to hang myself, had cleaned apartment, did all that annoying clear-the-devices things, had starved for 4 days, but playing with head in knot and trying to slowly shut down consciousness is so wierd and creepy… And now Im rotting again in my bed for some days. All I want is just a gun and one bullet, why is this privilege? Hate this world without easy exit.
It's not gonna matter dude. Seconds will become eons, time will cease to matter after you lose your consciousness.
>>275706>The only thing preventing me from killing myself is that I have a lot of stuff in my room
Same, but not because I don't want anyone to deal with it, but because it's nice to look at.
I only buy very expensive objects that cost 2k+ each. As a result I also had to get a good security system for my place.
I need to save up for a few months for each object, but soon I've filled up my place with all sorts of goodies.
The only reason I do that is to wake up surrounded by beautiful things I like.
It's one of the few things keeping me alive.
A natural antidepressant of sorts.
ordered SN yesterday, today my order was canceled bc the company doesnt ship internationally. i cant find any other suppliers who sell for personal use + ship to my country. guess im doomed. i just wish there was an easy and available way to exit peacefully
i have the same problem. i found a source but it wont ship to my country. im getting desperate
just get heroin, why bother with worse stuff thats 100x harder to get?
OP here, I have about 0.5g of some White China heroin that I've already tested to be authentic. Would this kill me? I'm pretty skinny and heroin sounds romantic to go out with anyway.
I've done a little bit of research into fentanyl recently, and it sounds like a nice way to go. Supposedly it can be obtained in pill form, which I think would be my preferred method. However, I know absolutely nothing about obtaining illegal substances. I know sometimes people suggest the darknet black market, but I honestly don't know how that works. Does anyone here know how to find a dealer? Also what do I do to ensure a smooth purchase and avoid getting mugged in the ghetto?
P.S. If I sound a bit retarded in this post it's because I essentially am retarded when it comes to drugs and illegal activity.
It is absurdly difficult to kill oneself. I've had everything prepared for 2 weeks now, every night I say I'm going to do it. I can semi-hang myself for by leaning into the noose, enough that I see stars and give myself a headache for a few hours afterwards, but I physically cannot jump off the chair.
I will be homeless (again) at the end of the month, so hopefully the increasing direness of my situation will grant me the resolve to actually go through with this.
I think its relatively rare but not unheard of. In the city I live in I can recall maybe 2 occasions of the train being delayed due to suicides on the railway. In both cases I only knew because it personally delayed me. There wasnt much reporting on it, just a small paragraph or 2 in local news websites. So maybe it does happen and just not widely reported on
The world is a dystopia that forces me to submit to it. The feeling of having no escape is what makes me want to kill myself the most. It was okay when I was just doing escapism in my room with no pressure to conform, but eventually that comes to an end and I'm right back to wanting to KMS.
Suicide happens constantly but it is almost never reported. They purposely hide it for obvious reasons
>>275454>The idea that news organizations wouldn’t pick this up is just ridiculous
You're a retard. One person dies by suicide in USA every 11 minutes (source: CDC). It's a daily normal occurrence that reveals how broken society is, and apparently leads to suicide contagion, so of course they dont report on it.
I tried partial suspension hanging when I was 17. I actually fainted, which is what is supposed to happen if you close the carotid artery, but woke up and clawed at my neck to remove the rope. I haven't been able to try seriously since. I wish it worked. Lifetime of misery.
It probably won't. It took a surprising amount of things I never thought about going in to it to finally get to the point pulling the trigger with what I thought was finally set up right. The first try was so silly, like>gee I smell bad I should take a shower>oh wait it's dark out I don't have a flashlight and I don't remember how to assemble the gun>ah okay, well, hrm, actually, I forgot how to aim it>oh wait this is a bad spot because too many people will see>shit shit shit there's a work crew across the street that starts up at 4am? reee
And then when I was finally ready it just went *click* because it was dark and raining and everything was in bags to keep it from getting wet and I think in the panic I either put the bolt carrier on wrong or forgot it has to load from the magazine and then I had to bail because the security guard showed up just as I hustled back to my car to double-check the process.
So I'm not saying you should kill yourself, but it can be instructive to actually try to work through the process rather than fantasize about it being as easy as you'd like to think.
What country are you in? Generally, you can't buy Fentanyl on the deep web as it's considered a chemical weapon. In the U.S, Fent is everywhere as a cheaper alternative to Heroin but it's not used to euthanasia
I'm in the U.S.>Fent is everywhere as a cheaper alternative to Heroin but it's not used to euthanasia
My thought is that I could, if necessary, make several purchases of fentanyl over time, basically until I'm certain I have enough to kill me. I doubt it would take much either, since I'm not used to any drugs stronger than simple ibuprofen, so my body likely can't handle much fentanyl. I could then hide it in my room somewhere until 'the day' when I will drive to whatever comfy suicide spot I have planned and take it all at once. This is also why I would prefer a pill-form: not only is it easy to conceal and carry, but I can take them all easily and wash them down with whatever kind of drink I choose.
You could very easily find it in most of the U.S. I've got some Heroin I'm planning to IV when 'the day' comes, but until then I've got some decent copes to keep me preoccupied with the gargantuan urge to kill myself; one of those copes is Heroin itself kek. What spot have you chosen? I'm probably just going to do it in my room instead of a hotel like I previously wanted to.
>>275952>for faggots who can't face reality
Made me laugh for some reason
From a logical point of view, it is stupid to commit suicide, since the suicide does not seek to commit suicide to meet God or something like that, no, the suicide commits suicide to end his suffering. But the longer you live, the more attempts you can make, which exponentially increases your chances of success. The problem is that suicides do not want to solve their problems, their will is broken, they do not even have enough will to shoot themselves, however simple this may be in practical terms.
A real man does not do things because he wants to or does not want to do them, he does them because it is his duty, that is what you lack, will.
Another retard who got a whiff of energy shitting in others trying to cling to it
Oh no suffer or else you’re a faggot, nonman, etc etc
You’re not saying anything with meaningful content
How do I ensure that when I hang myself I don't end up brain damaged or braindead instead of dead?
I'm sure there are a number of dealers around me, I just don't know how to find them or how to make transactions.>What spot have you chosen?
I don't have a specific spot in mind yet, but I do live just a few hours away from some nice natural views. I figured I would just take a personal day off work without telling my parents. This way they'll think I'm at work and wont know anything is amiss until it's too late.
This game was so comfy, with a great soundtrack and overall narrative;
it's a shame that the game itself was so shit because it has a comfy-childhood-blanket vibe.
I'm also very tired and depressed and will probably kill myself in a few months or definitely by the end of the year, either way, it doesn't really matter and nobody gives a shit anyway.
I'm 20, I have no idea how people manage to stay alive for decades after this point when everything just gets worse.
Everything is boring and depressing and retarded and pointless; everyone is so fucking stupid and phony. I can actually feel my cognitive decline measured out as the years go by. I would say I wasted my life -
but I never really lived anyway.
How much aspirin would i have to take to overdose ?
That's extremely painful as it will dissolve your liver and attack your organs without making you dizzy
When you take so many pain-stop pills that a new pain-start's.. heh, ironic, oxy-moronic even..
do you know that feeling when you don't want to go to bed alone, like every time you do it you die a little bit more inside
Sort of. Not just alone, but just in a sad mood.
The days are always too short. I just feel like staying up and trying to improve my mood.
Really shit feeling to end a day on such a low point, and there isn't any escape from it even when sleeping.
Shit affects dreams, and stays there all the time until you wake up.
Really persistent. Feels like dreams at least should be an escape.
nope, never felt anything like that, ever. i would tell you to kill yourself for being a worthless failed normalfaggot but considering the thread were in it looks like youre way ahead of me.
Big news. Yesterday Vermont opened up their assisted suicide program to out-of-state residents.
I have a box cutter and I'm drunk as shit and wanna slash my arteries. Is this a painful death?
you're gonna slash yourself up and end up with a bunch of embarassing scars, I've done it before, don't make bad decisions just cause you're drunk
I don't know about you guys but shotgun to the head is how I wanna go
how the fuck do i obtain a firearm after involuntary hospitalization in the US?
you have to get one off the street from some shady nig
In a very few states, if you can prove residency, you can get guns legally a few years after the hospitalization. I'm going to buy a smith and wesson 686
I feel like everyone searching for the perfect "painless" suicide doesnt actually want to go through with it.
I understand waiting for an opportunity to do it in a specific way, but if you really wanted to just die you could do it right now and be dead within the hour just by slitting your wrists.
Though personally I think suicide is a waste in most cases
OK I have come up with an (excuse me if I say-so myself) super brilliant, hardcore, hot-blooded idea.
I will do anything and everything I wanted to do in life—but in an hyper-vivid "mental VR chamber" ie; lucid dream. Extreme sports, fights, etc…all under the astral sun I want to do, all travelling, etc.
but then! I will cease sleeping - and thus, cease to dream-. I will give up, "trade" my Ability to dream. im a religious person and seek to be a religious ascetic ,catholicism.
I dont know if any real Order or Seminary would accept a neet like me but this is my way of both enjoying life's boon and then dying to myself while on earth.
I plan this to be a 300-day thing
I will master lucid dreaming, maximize all its glory…then fast from sleep
I ll probably "sleep "standing up 1 hour a week so my brain doesnt totally die. but i wont be dreaming at all
The way I feel about life is the same feeling I've gotten before when I beat a game and do all the side content and than there is a total lack of anything left to do.
The magic is gone. All that is left to do is stop playing. Is this it? Is existence really all this? But my perspective is mine alone and the world is seen by many eyes, I will shut mine on my own accord someday soon.
I'm gonna jump into a river and end it soon. I can't swim. I'll be gone in 5 minutes.
Why do you want to look like a farm animal and develop congestive heart failure? If you want to dedicate yourself to your body do something better like calisthenics or swimming. Anything is better than becoming deformed cattle.
Well it doesn't seem to be doing much good to the cattle over there being manhandled by an indian guy 1/5 of its size and wearing flipflops. Maybe going for a bigger brain instead is better, but that's just me.
Please don't do this, wiz. If you have never swam before, I take this to mean you have never felt the sensation of needing to come up for air. It is horribly painful and your body WILL fight to survive once it realizes you are actually drowning. DO NOT DO THIS. I care about you and ask that you take some time to just calm your mind in whatever way you can. Sit down to a healthy, organic meal; get a good night's sleep in a quiet room; cry and scream if you have to, in order to let out the frustration that you feel. I actually do care about you though we will never meet.
You're Jewish, so you're too inbred to put on muscle.
You're literally talking about becoming a cow of lol-proportions and are now calling us "Chuds", a term used to discredit young White men. You are a Jew. If you didn't want this information to sway others opinions about you when you asked for them, then don't inject your racial and religious identity in your post in a way that seeks to offend those who recognize God.Jews aren't allowed to spell or say God because they only recognize Bael and Moloch as Gods
Please read some of the suicide advice posted in this thread.
it was a joke
and im Celibate so you may mind your Adress
How are exit bags? Anything I should know about them before I give them a try? Is it true that they mix oxygen into the helium tanks?
have you tried it?
Whole bottles of Diazepam and Clonazepam. Felt nothing. Didn't even fall asleep.
i can't bring myself to order suicide equipment.
apparently im a massive jew and can't stand thought of having wasted 140€ when i decide against going through with it
Depends on your credit score. If you have a credit card and are in good standing go to the bank and ask them how much credit you can get for them as a signature loan. Depending on your income, usually you can get $40-50k within a week. If you have a good job and good credit, you can probably get up to $100k depending on your income. The better way would be to ask their mortgage dept and ask them for a mortgage, which will give you over $700k to play with but hiding it's real purpose from them is much harder.
>>277527>Depending on your income, usually you can get $40-50k within a week.
Holy hell no. What boomer told you that?
Without owning any property to sign off on so the banks can take his house when he fails to pay, he'd be very lucky to qualify for a $500 payday loan.
I confirm that banks are not that stupid to let the suicidal wizards have fun off their pockets.
Typical car loan is $20-35k. With good credit you can get up to $50-60k just for an automobile. I've done this for $50,000, despite having $50k cash I setup a second account for the loan to automatically draw from. In this way I get all the benefits of taking a $50k car loan but I don't have to worry about the monthly payment because I already have the money. Because I do this, the bank will give me up to ~$550k cash for a fixed rate home mortgage, and up to $900k if I agree to an adjustable-rate mortgage.
>Without owning any property to sign off on so the banks can take his house when he fails to pay, he'd be very lucky to qualify for a $500 payday loan.
All depends on your income + credit history. If you have no possessions but make $100k/yr as a truck driver, and have been doing that for three years, you have $300,000 as collateral. For most banks, they can provide you with up to a million with such money and perhaps more if you have an LLC or other business (like a trucking business..) for business loans. If you make $30k/yr as a Mcdonalds cashier for three years, you have about $100k accessible depending on how much rent you pay. Most people will fall between those areas.
Banks have no problem giving you money, because it is debt. It's paying them back that is the problem. But banks will almost always issue people new credit because the interest on it is so profitable. This is why banks are dangerous. This problem is irrelevant to a truly suicidal person who just wants a nice, comfortable and quiet hotel to kill themselves in.
One of the truest facts about reality is that banks will ALWAYS give you more money and will ALWAYS be extremely polite when giving you more money, because is is debt. succubi act like this too especially if the debt is being obtained on their behalf. This is how banks, and succubi, entrap men and destroy them. Getting more money is never a problem. Paying it back is.
Any US-born citizen can go out now and get a million dollar credit line in a year if they really work. But the bank will destroy them during the repayment period. This is how chads buy big mcmansions at 25 and are ruined by 35 as the bank, their ex-wife, and society grinds them down to pay for it.
i really want to kill myself. Being alive is bad. Being dead would be a lot better. Its disgusting having flesh its despicable having to keep desperately gasping for breath over and over. The feeling of having a body is a horror i can not describe. The drugs dont help anymore to supress this feeling. Every second alive is a torment i cant endure any more. I need to escape this asap
I know how you feel.
>>277589>i really want to kill myself. Being alive is bad. Being dead would be a lot better. Its disgusting having flesh its despicable having to keep desperately gasping for breath over and over. The feeling of having a body is a horror i can not describe
THEN DO IT AND STOP CRYING like A BITCH!
Well, if one believes in 'the other side' there might be an advantage to having one's affairs in order and settled fairly - in this world to the next.
Seriously, does anyone even understand how we got here to begin with? We must be the subject of an experiment of some kind – god or the "gods" looking down upon an absolutely crazy tapestry of causes all intertwined and affecting each other in ways that are beyond the grasping power of our brains.
Wow surely you must be so important that God himself cursed you. So delusional some of you are.
Is god real? Serious question its important for me to know this. I feel like god is real. I think only damnation awaits me. I think that i really truly do
Thoughts on aerosol death? Apparently it can kill instantly and has a surprisingly high prevalence. https://youtu.be/RpZKdnOvNBo
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How do you encourage yourself to do it?
I'm a fucking failure of a human being, I should've killed myself a long time ago, but I never do it because I'm not motivated enough.