/dep/ - Depression

Some people are born intrinsically evil. Sins are passed down to reflect the ugliness of their lineage choices. Layers of selfishness, impulsivity, or lacking thoughtfulness produces others like it. Or in this case "cursing your son's and daughters." Being raised christian I often wonder why. Why he didn't wipe them out. Make the sinners pay, not those who haven't sinned yet. How there are miracles that some children are protected from this curse, from the outside world and prosper in purity. While the rest are subjected to evil and ugliness the world produces. There is choice, but how far gone is that individual when they realize and return back to self sabotaging or tainted by the curse they inhabited by their degenerate ancestors.

Been months where I became aware, years of degeneracy soiled me. Even at a young age id feel an odd sense of comfort when someone compared me to being close with Satan or some other evil figure. Not once can I recall a time where I wasn't evil. Thoughts of inslaving, manipulation, or even instigating others was held tightly in my behavior. Years of degeneracy after that rendered me to a pleasure seeking loser. Laying in their own filth that of a subhuman.

I try to now find hobbies but can't help but feel disgusted everytime I'm in the sight of beauty. Feel uncomfortable and reject it completely. This is where I got into ariosophy. Now, I'm referring myself infertile to end this curse of future generations. Maybe the Nazis were right, without the racial realism. There are people who are inferior and who lack a soul. A hierarchy is not man made, but natural.

Chaos turns itself into deterministic observable things by weeding out patterns or sequences that aren't suited to continue. Same works with humans. Every revolution still has people of superiority, intellect, and drive to lead a revolution with the false pretense of equality, or to liberate. Rest follow and cling onto the one with a sense of purpose and drive. In order to sustain their own survival through the other.

Same goes for the spirit or soul, which is why I'm not against the divine right of kings and population control.

Maybe this is blasphemy, I don't know anymore. I just wish to be wiped clean into nothing. Just hate that some people are created just to bare the sin of their lineage while others are chosen to be protected from the world.