/dep/ - Depression

I've been feeling a lot of regret over being a 30yo NEET as the loop of consuming entertainment has gotten boring and unfulfilling and I got the desire to do something productive and creatively and intellectually challenging but the problem is that I am neither creative nor smart. I've been doing short internships in trade jobs and the simple mechanical work and the simple minded colleagues depressed the hell out of me. Obviously I also lack the social skills for networking to make up for lack of talents. So I'm feeling lost right now. Any kind of jobs I would like seems too high-pressure for me. I could just get a boring job and a creative hobby but then I fear I won't have any energy left for it after work.