/dep/ - Depression

>>293394

Also, weirdly enough I'm very grateful that I found this community, it looks like I fit here, even if it sounds contradictory I'm glad that there is a board dedicated to depression

>>293395
I tried to stab my heart with a key 3-4 years ago. it was during my depression era and when I was under delirium and sorrow when also I contract my schizophrenia.

>community
I don't like this word

>>293397

I'm very sorry to hear this, are you better now?

I guess I said "community" in the sense of a uh, like we're closer together in the embeddings cluster, I also think people from this board must be extremely heterogeneous

>>293398
yeah I feel better now, thank you.
>heterogeneous
I like this word

>>293400

So like, are you taking any medication? Do you have any mantras that are helping you? Also, what good habits have you cultivated?

>>293401
>So like, are you taking any medication?
yes I do
>Do you have any mantras that are helping you?
no
>Also, what good habits have you cultivated?
no
sorry

>>293402

So like, what do you like doing? Can you tell me about you?

>>293403
I play elden ring or I browse imageboards and youtube.
what about you?

>>293405

I've been playing shadow of the erdtree lately, but my game corrupted (not the save tho) and I haven't been really motivated to fix it since I think it's a toxic way to escape reality

I adore coding, artificial intelligence research, physics etc, but I'm nowhere good at any of those things, I will never really achieve anything particularly meaningful in those fields, it gives me a lot of anxiety that I'm not a valid candidate for a phd program or something like that, I'm not really smart even if some people think that sometimes

>>293406

I guess I also like helping others but I'm a bit burned out and I don't really know what to do with my life anymore, I've been in pain for a long time and I don't really want to be in pain anymore

>>293406
>I've been playing shadow of the erdtree lately, but my game corrupted (not the save tho) and I haven't been really motivated to fix it since I think it's a toxic way to escape reality
I too play shadow of the erdtree but it is hard all ennemies deal lot of damage.
>I'm not motivated to fix it
when I was really depressed years ago, I couldn't even play video game. I went 3 years without playing a video game. I started to play again this year after hearing about the dlc coming up

>I adore coding, artificial intelligence research, physics etc, but I'm nowhere good at any of those things, I will never really achieve anything particularly meaningful in those fields, it gives me a lot of anxiety that I'm not a valid candidate for a phd program or something like that, I'm not really smart even if some people think that sometimes
I also like computers and coding and the alike but I have 0 knowledges about them at all haha. I also feel dumb, I've never done a IQ test but if I did one I'd have a score of 85 fof sure

>I guess I also like helping others but I'm a bit burned out and I don't really know what to do with my life anymore, I've been in pain for a long time and I don't really want to be in pain anymore
same as you. I'm a NEET right now. but I want to work this fall-winter

>>293408

I'm very sorry about the NEET thing, I've been there and it's extremely painful… I hope you're managing that in a reasonable way

I'm sorry about your depression tho, could you elaborate on how you've been getting out of it?

>>293409
I've been a NEET for 3-4 years. don't worry it feels good to do whatever you want without thinking about work.
I've been out of my depression by going 2 days per week at the hospital and taking medication. then I would go there everyday for 3-4 months. time also help healing

>>293410

When you say "time also helps healing", did any particular event happened in the past that triggered your depression? If you're comfortable talking about it it's okay but don't feel forced to reply to that question

>>293411
no, with time passing by, you're mind and body forget about the depression and feel neutral after being depressed and then after the depressed state and nzutral state you go back to your normal state

>>293413

alright, can I ask how's your social life going?

>>293414
I have only two friends, they live far away. I don't talk with them that much, maybe 2-3 per year. I wish I had no friends tho. I don't care about my social life. the only time I socilize is when I go see family or they come to see us

>>293415

Would you say you have trouble connecting with normies?

>>293416
I don't care about them,don't like them, they made your life worse

>>293417

Contrary from what I suspect most posters from this imageboard must think, I don't personally hate normies, I think my problems come from my own, I respect that they have their own lives even if I don't really fit with them

>>293418
ok, thats your point of vue

>>293394
There is a page called "LostAllHope" or something like that. They have stats on most methods, although I ve never checked their sources.

Best you can do is shotgun to the head. If not possible, jumping off a 20+ story building.
>>293397
>I don't like this word
Online Congregation of Alleged Human Entities.

Las drogas psiquiatricas funcionan bien para hacerlo, te tomas un par por dia y te convertis en un muerto en vida que no sentira dolor. Mata el espiritu pero no mata el cuerpo.

Como alternativa te tomas la hierba san juan o "hiperico" que es un antidepresivo, te pegas un baño de agua caliente, de ahi vas a la verduleria y a la panaderia a comprar las cosas para cocinar tu comida, cuando terminas de comer terminas de lavar todo, y de ahi para que no estes al pedo vas y te pones a leer autores como seneca, diogenes, aristoteles, entre otros, y para que no te hinchen las bola podes ir a leer al bosque o al parque, asi de paso bajas un poco la comida, despues de ahi repetis lo mismo, podes tomar otro te de hiperico pero le metes un par de gotitas de valeriana. Eso lo podes tomar ahi nomas en el bosque o ir a tu casa, te pegas otro baño, lavas la ropa, te clavas una paja y te vas a dormir viendo alguna pelicula o algo que te agrade.
No es un metodo infalible ni mucho menos, pero en conjunto cosas como las duchas, sumado mas actividades como cocinar, la lectura, y la caminata, sumado al hiperico, vas a poder ir dejando la miseria de lado. Tambien aunque no lo mencione, el tener un diario personal en donde escribir tus sentimientos ayudaran inmensamente.

>>293423
Hi S.

>>293423
che boludo no les aconsejes hacerse la paja, el crash de dopamina que te da luego del acto te deja en la lona el 9\10 de las veces.

>>293436
La paja es para que pueda dormir, tampoco es para que se ande clavando 5 por dia.

>>293442
Es un conjunto de cosas, entre la actividad, la ducha, la hierba san juan, la valeriana, y por ultimo la paja. Asi si vas a dormir bien.

Life is sacred and good since everything God made is good. Reach out to God to help you in your time of need, he hears you and is there for you

Either get drunk and jump in the river (in winter) or get drunk and jump from somewhere high…