I had a moment like this with Sekiro, relatively recently, after fighting, and eventually defeating, that damn flaming bull. Probably took me about 20-30 tries and, by the end of it, I just felt overtly fatigued & disappointed with myself. Followed swiftly by a comedy of errors in the proceeding area, which made it all even worse (missing counters again & again, falling for easily spottable traps, just fucking up in general, etc.), to the point that I haven't even been back to it in months.
Choking super hard in a game can be a very unpleasant experience. Played & finished killer7 for the first time a few weeks back and I'd literally find myself quitting out after dying (only happened twice, thankfully, but required the near repeat of an entire act as a result) sending me back to when I last saved, instead of collecting whoever it was with Garcian, because of the shame I felt and the need to punish myself as a result. I cut that out during my killer8 playthrough, for obvious reasons, but areas like Santa Domingo, were just so full of needless fuck-ups & blunders, where I had none the first time, (somersaulting Smiles are the worst) that it made me feel enormously bad with myself, when I should ideally be feeling anything, but that.
Gaming is all I've done for over 20 years now and, compared to most people, I can still be so utterly worthless at it. I haven't played a MP game in over half a decade (never anything 1vs1 or free for all based, given how humiliating & stressful that'd be) so you'd think I'd be spared from such feelings of inadequacy, but nope. Solo, or not, I still judge myself harshly, despite the obvious fact that nobody cares about this, but me. I've always thought of it, irrationally so, that if I were ever recording myself, how there would undoubtedly be loads of people who would mock me until the cow's came home, given all the stupid mistakes & blunders I make while playing, such as forgetting to quick save in a FPS then being sent back like 15-20 minutes when I die, while also being inefficient & lacking of skill or finesse in general (picking the wrong abilities in a build, using the wrong tactics against a boss, etc.)
Anyway, like the other guy said, the right charms in Hollow Knight can make all the difference against certain bosses. In my case, the dream version of the Grimm Troupe DLC boss was definitely the major one I can recall giving me the most trouble. Beat that shit by the skin of my teeth after about 30-40 attempts, with only one health pip remaining by the end of it. Then, as yourself, I see a guy getting through it with no damage, making it all seem easy as could be. I wish seeing such things didn't deflate me so much, but I can't help it. Gaming is all I have to validate myself with, so, in certain circumstances, dying too much/failing too much in a particular game, never fails to make me feel worthless & retarded. Seeing someone else preform far better than I can, just rubs salt in the wound, while also diminishing my own virtual accomplishments to the point where it doesn't even feel like I've truly won, given that I wasn't able to do it just as proficiently. I very often chastise myself for preforming badly in any genre (especially puzzle games) to the point of ruining any possible enjoyment I could have and I've always hated myself for it.>>46210
>and that's why I avoid multiplayer games.
I literally never used a mic when playing anything MP related and would only stick to team based modes where I could just blend into the chaos with everyone else. So long as I did moderately well, as in middle of the scoreboard, I felt like I pulled my weight. be that as it may, I actually trained myself to play without the sound on, because of how much I feared getting shit on by guys/kids with mics. Instead, I'd just listen to some music or a podcast with my headphones on & my laptop next to me. I did surprisingly well for the most part, believe it or not. Almost made me feel like a blindfolded guru or something, except not letting sound deceive me, instead of sight. No one ever sent me any nasty messages, aside from on very rare occasions, so my approach somewhat worked out for me. Ever since about 6 years ago however, I transitioned to mostly playing on PC & simply torrenting what I'm interested in. I literally have zero desire to engage in anything competitive, although co-op in some games would be nice, but I'm too anxious for that.