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$281 looks hi end

I admit I'm playing smash on very easy too anxious to do anything in other difficulties anyways

>>6608
so that means yes?

Yeah my ghost seems to have returned back here as well.

what is so bad and repulsive about me?

why couldn't one human being in the world just be nice to me?

Im not a crab begging for a gf. OK maybe I'm begging for a guy friend. Even many Wizchanners have that. Like why couldn't I find one guy int he world to just talk /hob/ stuff with. Thats all I wanted out of humanity.

I'm the Elliot Rodger to Elliot Rodger. He talks about male friends like they are nothing. The same way hes the niceguy Supreme Gentleman who doesn't understand why gfs go for chads who disgard them. Elliot makes new college friends and goes to the movies with them, effortlessly like its nothing. And he talks about what annoying nerds, who wont get him a gf they are. Asshole crab like Elliot picks up guyfriends like nothing. At 1st I thought most of his friends were just Warcraft buddies from his normie days K-8. But no, even alone in college, he effortlessly makes new male friends, without even wanting them.

Im not just a monolguer. Im a good listener. I let the homeless lady at the train station, and the schizoid conspiracy nut at the McDonalds make conversation with me. And I listen and I enage them. I'll talk about any topic, any interest. I'll listen I'll give feedback. I'll read up the wikipedia on whatever you're interest is, and try to give insight.

yeah yeah im such a perfect conversationalist. ready to listen and dialogue. talk about any of YOUR interests.

but I guess i just give off that Aspergers phermomee that makes me universally repulsive to all, even other losers, who I think should be grateful for my conversation.

U can walk into a crowded auditorium, and hold a crowd, make them laugh, make them cheer, engage them 1 on 1 and in a group. But u cant make a single friend.

And its not like I sat on my hands all these years.

ur a crab for malefriends. gfs u dont even bother with.

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so basically all ur watifs come down to the HSHT job now. Lets say for a moment that u tried it and it was a miserable failure. Certainly plausible. In an urban setting quite easily, we can see u being bullied by ur own students. And even in ur suburban AP Euro dream scenario, its easy to imagine u growing 2 hate ur students, despising them, dreading em, and hating being around em, and all ur intellectualizing about "getting paid to talk warcraft" or "Watching the live teen dramedy" wont cut it.

Certainly plausible scenarios.

Then what, then u truly are lost. I mean we shot down most other careers and the hobbying life. U see how empty ur human contact is. U have no motive or drive to live 4.

So if we cancel out the HSHT gig as a real possibility. Then there is not a single job ud want 2 do. and u truly are lost.

well then maybe my actual path makes sense. live in delusion as long as possible. and once that bubble bursts. research for suicide, while enjoying ur NEETopia hobbies.

yeah theres a logic to it.

i mean i still think all that intensity patton stuff was a waste. why not be a slacker from the start? take a chill pill, relax. dont take lifeshit so seriously.

yeah but that might not be ur 1st natural reaction 2 learning ur losershit doomed 2 fail.

severe suicide depression, seems more natural 2 ur type.

i mean this 2018 me, is a personality cut down from decades of endless failure. its not who i was in HS.

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I feel like we're everything and nothing at the same time. What most fucks with my mind is the duality omnipresent in the material world.

A sane person would refer to himself always talking in third person

you've had too many

Hello. I don't know how to say what I want but I will try my best, sorry if I don't make any sense or make any grammatical errors.
I want to work for those who are mega-rich and those who are mega-rich + very influential, I want to be very close to these people and be able to make them do or take things they would not take from a random person. I don't know which job would be best to be able to work for these people since they probably only take people who, not only are the very best, also know them or someone they know personally.
When I say I want to work for the rich, I mean all of them. Politicians, Oil barons, pharmaceutical business men, tech gurus, etc; I want to work for those involved in American politics+business as well as those involved in Chinese politics+business, EU politics+business, Russian politics+business, all of them.
I am studying for medical school since my parents want me to get into a medical related job, but I don't know which medical/medicine job to take when I am done. Due to wanting to be able to work with the rich and also be able to be very close to them in private without anyone else being with them, I am thinking of becoming a surgeon or anaesthetist as I would be super close to these people and be alone + do whatever I want to them, but I would need to be SUPER good and also be super lucky to even get close to these guys.
So what job would be the best for this purpose and what exactly would one need to do, what places would be best for meeting these people and have them hire me to do tasks for them?

please disable your vpn

Im sucker for supermarket sushi, would take as much as my arms could hold.
It always tastes funny,kinda bad but "sushi" nonetheless.

If they had none, I would take chewing gum. Easy to stuff your pockets with and would last ages.

>>6099
What in tarnation happened to Jonah Hill?

i can't wait

R.i.p.

Had (2litres/0.5 gallon) of vanilla milk.
Forgot that I have some sort of milk allergy.
My whole skin is red and itchy, also feeling my urinary tract getting inflamed.

I can consume milk products but in moderate amouny, wasnt paying attention to it
I hope I die lol

ass

We all die

was NEET for a while and just eventually got tired of it

you've got to wait a minute before you can delete. could be your issue

>>6138
no i browse incognito
and close the window
and forget the password
doh!

Delete system file 32 and install gentoo

First time I bought it I did it because I heard it was supposed to be relaxing and chill, I imagined like the couch locked weed state, and also because it was simply a convenient drug to acquire. This time I did it because I stumbled upon a Joe Rogan clip where they talked about it and I decided to give it a second try.

Still beats working 9 to 5.

There are no brakes on that ride.

It never ends

Chasing the first kratom high?
Why did you decide to buy it?
I'm curious what made you do it

>>2594
That's for sure.

Magicchan, please come back.

Arisuchan, please come back.

wizardchan please come back

Merlinchan please come back

I had a good dream now. A great dream, even. I was in a grocery store where I used to work, on a computer. I had gotten some groceries from another store already, so I had no real reason to be there. An associate over there was telling other associates why she decided to move to a different department in a store and how unhappy she was. She got negative feedback, but in the end, she was better off in that new department, stocking shelves. I had lost time and it was 15 minutes until closing time. An error appeared on the screen of the computer that needed to be fixed before logging off. I decided to take a look at it and then finally log off. I went to the front of the store where everyone was packing up and I had to ask where my cart of groceries was. I was directed to it and I got my groceries. Then, we all headed out and had to walk a ltitle bit to our cars, which was behind the store. Weird thing. We went out behind the store, but ended up having to go through a back parking lot to the front where there was a side walk to walk back to the front of the store and eventually to the back. No real rhyme or reason. The associate was there saying the same thing to someone walking near us. That person was apparently my aunt. Then, I realize that the associate and I were the same. I was looking at her like I am now look at myself before I decided to get a new job. I've been looking at her situation this entire time from my current situation looking back at my retail job. When I looked at my aunt as well, it reminded me how far I've come as well.

Honestly, really positive dream. We've both gotten to better places now. I'm no longer working that job any more and I've gotten better jobs.

Also yea, kinda Asperger I guess for the SM64 one. I don't many dreams about gaming though. I remember nightmares a lot more than regular dreams, which might be the case you have. I remember a few actual good and inspiring dreams, but that was in high school, which was years ago. It's been so long since I had an inspiring dream until now. This last one might be in my top three though.

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