School: Had some goals and decent grades; treated fairly by classmates… Overall an important step in developing some basic social skills and survivability in the conforming society.
Towards the end of high school was when I 1st felt romantically attracted to a 2D character. It helped me realize I don't want to waste my time chasing after 3D succubi, and that real life relationships just aren't all that worth it.
Higher education: I attended a private polytechnic university (2-3 hours per day, after working hours) with mostly men and succubi in their twenties. Some chads and stacys, but most of them were already quite matured and conservative (married, had children, christian, etc…) and it was a nice experience. Didn't talk much anyways. It was mostly come in, attend class, go home.
Not terrible I guess.
No one's gonna read all this shit, but fuck it, I want to put my English skills into practice.
>1st grade to 4th grade
Normie-ish but innocent boy. For some reason, I enjoyed making other students laugh. I think it's because people seemed to like me more because I was funny. Though deep within I've always felt lonely (And I also don't know why I felt and still feel that way, I think it's because prior to that I lived in isolation. I remember that when I was very little, I used to play alone because I was the only little kid in the neighborhood (it was a very isolated neighborhood and my mother thought that buying a lot of toys made up for my lack of friends)), I managed to be the center of attention in class. I was one the most popular kids in school, simply because I was funny.
Had to move to another school. The teenagers' school in a shady and poor neighborhood. First few days it was still okay, I was the funny guy but it didn't last long. I noticed that people weren't taking me seriously anymore. I was the class clown and that started to become a problem. The other kids were worried about succubi, relationships, sex. The cool kids were no longer the funny kids or the kids who knew how to draw and create stuff. The cool kids were the so-called "bad" guys, the ones who get succubi, the ones who defy authority and don't care about anything. Needless to say, I was bullied by those guys because I was too innocent. I didn't even know what masturbation was and didn't care about succubi before. I only started to get interested in the opposite sex because I was pressured by them. Everyone around me was obsessed with succubi and sex. Every joke revolved around sex. As I became interested in succubi, my self-esteem dropped. I knew nothing about this world, I had just found out what masturbation was. I couldn't fit in, so I found myself a niche of nerds and losers. I became friends with them and felt less out of place. The bullying, however, continued and wouldn't stop till the 8th grade.
I became a recluse due to bullying and low self-esteem. Became addicted to the internet and spent hours on it so I started skipping school to spend more time on the internet. I ended up repeating 8th grade due to absence.
>9th grade to 12th grade
I changed shifts because if you're a repeater, you can only study at night where I live.
I stopped skipping school but I wasn't interested in it. Kept going because I wanted to finish school once and for all. The bullying stopped along with my will to make friends. I was no longer the funny guy, I was the serious, reserved and mysterious guy and some people even admitted to being afraid of me (haha). Barely interacted with other students. Just did what I was supposed to do and then went home. I had just discovered 4chan and felt like I didn't need them or anyone in the real world.
So I finished school and after a few months got a job at a callcenter and kind of became traumatized and was afraid of making friends with other people, so I just tried to focus on my job but the pressure was too great, most of it came from my boss. She was a prick, insensitive, rude; she was a bully. I was committing many mistakes, so she started to berate me. Once she called me to have a conversation with her and she started asking questions about my personal life. Started questioning my sexuality, asked me if I had friends and etc, and I naturally fled. Next day I skipped work because I was just too embarrassed.
I had been interested in drugs way before this embarrassing event, so I just went to a very shady place and got some weed and started smoking it. It was magical. I was feeling so good that I forgot everything. I was in heaven. Next day I went to work stoned and started going stoned to work every single day. I just couldn't face reality anymore. After a few months, I was so care-free and sloppy that I started skipping work, but they just wouldn't fire me.
Fast-forward… went buy some weed as usual, but there wasn't any at that day. It was Christmas so they sold everything they had in a few hours, they said they only had cocaine and nothing else so I bought cocaine and went home. Even when I started smoking weed, I had sworn to myself that I would never touch any other drug, but I was so lost that I didn't care.
Fast-forward… became addicted to cocaine as well. Still kept going to work but skipping it almost every week. Finally got fired and spent all the money I got on drugs. I was so heavily addicted that I talked to my mother and ask her to send me to a rehab, but I only did that because I didn't have any more money and was afraid of what I could do to get it.
Fast-forward… I've recovered and spend most of my time reading books, studying something or shitposting on imageboards. I still crave drugs from time to time, but only in moments of despair. I don't think about drugs most of the time. I think about life and the meaning of it all. And to find an answer to it is even more difficult than to overcome any addiction.
basically got in alot of trouble then stopped going. been neet ever since.
first two replies ==> higher education, university
was bullied as far as I can remember
Just want to say that I read it.
>She was a prick, insensitive, rude; she was a bully. I was committing many mistakes, so she started to berate me. Once she called me to have a conversation with her and she started asking questions about my personal life. Started questioning my sexuality, asked me if I had friends and etc, and I naturally fled.
Kind of sounds like she was trying to flirt with you.
>>158538>Kind of sounds like she was trying to flirt with you.
Nah, I could tell by her expression and demeanor that she did that out of pure malevolence. I was a nerd looking guy and she just wanted to tease me.
All I'll say is if guns were as easily accessible as in the US, my school would be the second Columbine.
i was homeschooled from the start of first grade onwards. my parents never bothered to force me to socialize in any other way, aside from sending me to church and some of the activities provided by it. but that wasn't often. school was always just boring really, just doing the few hours i really needed to do each day and then spending the rest of the time free to do whatever in my own little bubble at home. i never found much difficulty with schoolwork, and when i did it just made me feel stupid. it's not like i ever thought i was very smart anyway though.
i don't even remember much about the brief time i was in preschool/kindergarten. in kindergarten just remember doing my work faster than everyone else and feeling bored, and also finding it difficult to play with the other kids or even to want to do so. one of my teachers even figured i was autistic. i tried to socialize sometimes, but i don't think it ever worked out very well. i was just ignored. everyone left me alone, and i left them alone. that's all i really remember about that. i never liked going to school, so i didn't mind being taken out at all.
i think being homeschooled for basically my entire childhood is one of the biggest reasons why i ended up the way i am. in particular, why i'm so timid, childish, naive, and socially stunted/clueless. so i was never bullied or pressured to do well with my grades and whatnot, but the lack of anything close to that just sent me into the opposite direction, of being woefully unprepared for all the cruel and horrible and unfair things the "real world" will inevitably throw my way once i'm finally forced out of my safe little bubble i've known since i was a child. at least i could have that short time safe from the horrors of it all. everything my head has come up with in all that alone time over the years doesn't compare in the slightest to the fear i feel of what being around other people and having to deal with them will do to me in the end.
In elementary I played with other kids during recess.
After that I went through middle, high school and university without talking much but I was never bullied outside the ocasional "why are you so quiet" or "do you have any friends lol"
Hated every second of it, my mother stopped forcing me to go after middle school and I attended the bare minimum to pass.
Elementary: nothing interesting, everyone was a snotty dumb kid, including me.
Middle: boys start to find succubi interesting, succubi start to find drama interesting. Was kinda lucky that I sat next to a top-of-the-class guy, so I never had to study or do homework myself. All I can remember is dumb drama not involving me. Even when someone bullied me, they just stopped after 2-3 tries, there were far better victims for them to bully.
High: the smart guy stopped giving his homework to me, no idea why. I had no intention of chasing higher education, so I just kinda stopped studying. Started skipping classes a lot more frequently. None of the teachers gave a shit about me, there were 2-3 guys who were on the verge of dropping out, they stood out far more than me. High school was also the time when I stopped giving a shit what others think of me, best decision of my life. Out of all the school years, high school was the best.
I used to buy books with the made homework but it had no use during tests because teachers used different equations and such, not even close by analogy.
It was ok, most of my school life consistend of not standing out and hanging out with 2 or 3 guys I got along with.
Can't really think of anything of note, not even bullying since most of the bullying was among succubi.
My memory is shit and i don't remebember almost anything from school. Anyway, this is not important.
Primary school: Passable. Good because of comics, Captain Underpants, Harry Potter and me discovering my sexual attraction to succubi at only 10 years old, bad because of being an Aspie who was forced into normal school despite having to watch others during recess due to feeling alone, having to move to a different city, and discovering my sexual attraction to succubi at only 10 years old.
Secondary school: Good because I still made comics, Linkin Park, and when 7th grade was when there was no such thing as painful angst. Bad because succubi can be JUST bullies, grew out of Captain Underpants and characters in Harry Potter began getting killed.
High School: Good because I met a ton of good people, was passionate to a fault about comics, and had Obama. Bad because it was 90% in Mexico, the IB program (which was painfully strict) and I lost contact with a good friend from 4th grade.
I know what hell is like and with the exception of half of 6th grade, 8th grade and 10th grade, I'd say it was ALMOST like it.
So long ago,but what I do remember is always struggling with school work, well every one else was advancing even with basic shit I wasn't, I didn't start getting good grades till the end of highschool.
I dropped it when I started high school. Hard time. I even got ribs broken once in middle school.
Does anyone else have dreams of their school life?
Nothing in particular really, pretty standard experience.
Went from being a kind of a bully in elementary school to be kind of bullied in middle and first year of high school which the latter one I failed.
After failing went on to another school and got it through pretty fine since we're all like minded (male) people without any succubi in the entire school.
Kindergarten was homeschool. Grade 1 at nice single-room school. Grades 2-8 at modern large soulless public school. Had many close friends, we talked vidya and anime, had some adventures. School had bullies but I wasn't singled out. Was pretty comfy, albeit mind numbing. Had a teacher that gave me a slight hard time but it was kind of a mutual clash of lifestyles. Told the teachers in plain words I had no interest in school grades so I didn't do any assignments but was never caught causing trouble for anyone so I passed. Typical jolly fat kid who would gladly eat the part of your lunch you didn't want. I slept in class full-snore and the teachers would joke to me about it, but I think they wrongly believed there was some at-home trouble forcing me to sleep at school so they allowed it when really I was just up all night gaming. Kind of tried to go against the grain and get people to think I was hardcore but I ended up just giving some kids a fair laugh.
Grade 9 (Highschool) I became singled out by some kids who I didn't grow up with because I wasn't bro. All friends from gradeschool had developed own respective groups, wasn't in any of their classes so no contact. Discovered PC enthusiasm and dropped out with mother's permission. Took to online hobby forums for interaction, some of which I still use to talk to people whom I've known online under aliases for a decade now. Attempted to attend attentive learning which was really comfy too but my sister bullied me out of it, convincing me the teacher hated me (he was actually a really good guy). Moved to a new town before the end of the year and never regretted any of it. Sometimes I feel like I'd like to go back to a quiet regulated class-like environment where I can sit at a desk and draw, read, or just think, but I remember that's only because as a housecat NEET I'm subject to constant negative human interaction all day and just ache for any modicum of peace and quiet. A shady tree suffices.
Overall a godly experience compared to some of the stuff posted in this thread so far. I remember it felt magnitudes worse when I was out during the time when I should have still been enrolled, but I guess years of discomfort, loss, wageslavery, and finally re-neetdom has altered my perception and it all seems like a fantasy compared to adult life.
I went to a rural school that combined all grades from kindergarten to 12th grade into one facility. My class size was less than 70. From 1st grade up through like 8th grade I latched onto a clique of autists, medicated freaks and skittish weirdos.
I probably never held a conversation with more than half my graduating class through all those years. I didn't want anything to do with the succubi. I had almost no self awareness until I was in my early 20s so somehow I didn't clearly register at the time that people were trying to bully me when I stood out. In retrospect I was the butt of some gay jokes, nothing physical happened because in fourth grade I had punched a guy really hard just because he was in my face.
For the last four years I was disowned by most of the weird clique because I was just dislikeable and didn't give thought to anything and I was never interested in them only interests we shared. The only person who could stand me was this unstable guy who was obsessed with anime and goth culture, would compulsively commit minor crimes and cut himself then drink his own blood. He took all kinds of meds. When he was 17 he told me that he had had sex and I never spoke to him again. He ended up dropping out to raise his child.
I constantly did inappropriate things like print out grotesque things I found on the internet and turn them in instead of assignments, or hog the computer during study hall to play flash games. I also copied notes and cheated on tests if I could. I failed spanish completely and had a lower gpa than almost anyone. It's insane that I never got in trouble for things I did and I never got diagnosed with aspergers or recommended for a psychological evaluation.
Based my ads, faggot
my highschool experience was bitter sweet, I didn't have as much to worry about and shit in my life didn't really hit the fan yet. I was pretty miserable and lost often but I had more time and breathing space. Got bullied a bit but it was nothing compared to what my mother was like so it didn't effect me much. At the time I had a 360 and was able to fit in and blend in a bit by keeping up with gaming trends for a while but that temporary disguise of normality didn't last throughout it as I stayed there and everyone passed me by.
I never understood how one attemps suicide and not end up either a vegetable or dead.
it's because God has something in store for him.
Well for one if you slot your wrists and someone finds you fast enough, you’ll be fine. Also attempting to overdose on pharmaceuticals can often just be cured with a stomach pump and some rest. Really falling, hanging, and guns are the methods that will make you a vegetable if you fail.
I think going for anything else other than clean methods like hanging, jumping, train, shotgun is just a cry for help and not a serious attempt.
But none of the methods you just listed are clean in any sense of the word.
Was homeschooled till I was 17, then went to high school for 2 years then college.
There was a lot of work, but not a whole lot of bullying for me. I don't know if it was because I came in late so no one could really know me. Plus I avoided a lot of the below A level classes where most of the problem kids would get kicked down to by junior year. But I was still terrified about going to school before then because I was worried about being bullied.
College was not much different, just living away from my parents different. But thank god my college had single dorms, I don't think I could tolerate a normie as a roommate.
what do you mean by clean?
He was perfectly clear in his post, those methods are lethal and the % of failing them is low.
You opted for the roastie methods and failed. I believe like that poster, that you were only asking for help not actually ttrying to kill yourself.
Clean, as in without mess. Falling, trains, and guns, tend to create mess.
Dumb hicks always kicking the shit out of eachother.
A few entitled chip on their shoulders having niggers (or at least one).
Dumb fuck teachers that blamed us students for their lack of sound teaching ability instead of themselves where the blame actually belonged.
Dumb whores constantly getting STD's and unwanted pregnancies from their Chad.
Mean little viscious Mexcrement exchange student from Mexifornia that I remember and am telling you all about now as this little turd just stuck in my memory for some reason. He was a short little fucker who may of been gang affiliated while in Mexifornia and always had an ugly scowl on his tiny burrito sucking face. He was shorter than a manlet too. Fucker couldn't of been above 5'0 yet carried himself like he was a 7ft tall swole as fuck prison nigger that did not fear anybody. Anyway I'm sure this little dirtbag is probably dead now. No, he never did anything bad to me nor did we as far as I remember ever speak one word to eachother but I always found the little fucker to be somehow fascinating in the same sense a scientist studies chimps and other animals and is probably fascinated by them so as to get involved in that line of work.
Anyway I digress.
School was shit and I dropped out in 10th grade, became NEET and never looked back.
Fuck the ZOG public edJEWcation shitstem.
This reads like satire.
At least it's nice to realize the people who spout "manlet" don't have two bracrabs to rub together.
What was the point of your story? A short mexican dude dominated you?
brain/cel becomes braincrab
Realized very early on that I could also just not go and then I did exactly that. Regardless of the consequences for my future I think the peace that that decision gave me has been so incredibly worth it.
You mean bracrab?bracrab[/o]
It was shit, but I was still young, had hobbies I enjoyed and my future didn't seem so grim. I can't imagine trying go to to uni or something like that at my age now, seems like hell.
Never liked it too much. I got good grades early on and it was suggested I skip a grade because my reading level was very advanced (I read a lot at home), but soon the work became demanding and I showed no interest in applying myself to it. Barely graduated high school barely ever doing assignments and often sleeping in class, then did a few years of community college at my parents request (one of the most depressing times of my life) and then dropped out never to return
I was very good at school at first but fell off because I got bullied and became depressed. I stopped trying and would skip class and pretend to be sick so my parents would let me stay home. Eventually I beat most of the dudes picking on me but the damage was already done, I hated school and social interaction and only want to stay in my room playing video games.
I felt like killing myself almost every day in college…
College was hell. Not because it was hard, it was because of the teamwork. I can't do teamwork, I'm too much of an autist
Elementary school wasn't bad. I was one of the better students in the class. Middle school (Grade 6-8) was hell as there were a bunch of slavic gangs around that bullied me and other people. The police had to actually step in before they stopped. High school was alright but nothing special.
This, fuck "teamwork" and lazy teachers that don't want to review one asignment per student
I was always picked on but it wasn't too bad, I had a small group of friends when I was real young just through association but by high school they all drifted away and never really liked me in the first place cause I seemed to only get invited to what they were doing when someone made them do so. High school was when I started to become completely invisible and had some fleeting associations with people. It was pretty tame overall, shit didn't really hit the fan in my life completely until 2012-2014 a year after a graduated.
(Mod fuck you, you deleted my reply)
Saved because off topic but if anyone knows about the artist, I'm curious why is that succ making that face and the pigs seems to have weird reaction faces as well.
It’s part of an image set of her shooting up her school
I know and i really liked those images. This one seems different though and out of character.
I obtained multiple degrees and postgrad degrees, dropped out several times, debated suicide, was humiliated, always by myself, would be laughed at if I tried to reach out to people, and never was invited to even entire school program parties where everyone else was. Even my teachers would purposely humiliate me, and advisors would stop helping me and not answer communications. It was magic. Humans are amazing and wonderful.
Were you able to secure a good job with your degrees, wiz?
Of course not.
How would that ever happen?
Of course not. No idea how that would ever happen. Now I can't even post correctly so it doesn't matter anymore.
I didn’t care for it so I dropped out.
Dropped out to play DAoC all day when I was 12 or 13, and never went back because WoW came out 3 years later. I'm 32 now, family is rich so I will never be forced to get a regular job; as a matter of fact I'm going to administrate my dad finances when he gets too old for that shit. Dropped videogames as well some years ago, nowadays I just travel to remote places where life is cheap and get royally fucked up with a vast assortment of mind altering substances. Let's see how it goes
Had to switch to online schooling. Nobody ever said anything directly to me, but all my friends stopped talking to me, and I couldn't handle the public isolation. I felt like a sole animal at a fucking circus. Online schooling let me switch my socialization online, for better or for worse, and helped me pull myself out of depression.
I got in fights with teachers and students a lot, sometimes verbal, sometimes physical. I got kicked out of schools several times and flip flopped from homeschool to public school off and on. Eventually I dropped out altogether at the middle of my 3rd year of highschool, and never looked back. I remember the moment when I was sitting at my computer and I felt myself break free from the remaining fragments of a desire to be valued by anyone else in any way shape or form. It was weird, and I was scared at first thinking that I would no longer be able ti go back even if I wanted to, but I was never really more than halfway part of their world in the first place. It was a natural step. Almost a decade later and I don't feel any regret. I've been homeless more than once, but it's better than being employed.
>bullied by classmates
>bullied by teachers
>hardly ever went due to bullying and isolation
>never attended graduation because fuck them
>haven't spoke with anyone from there since graduating
>two classmates of mine have already died, one due to car accident and one by suicide
>i get happy when I find out one of my classmates have died
I would have happily killed everyone there and I still fantasize about killing my old teachers. Now I work as a security guard for 2 days out of the week, which I fairly enjoy. All I do all day is shit post on chans and play video games. Probably going to suicide in the future at some point.
Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like to have had an innocent fun childhood. It seems like a decent amount maybe a majority of Wizards look at it as the calm before the storm. While for me it was the worst period of my life, and everything later was relatively better.
You never know with succubi.
Agreed. Desire inherently suck, i was always bored when i was a wizfant and time was 10x slower.
"hey you're weird"
Up to elementary school I had a pretty normal school life. I actually had a lot of friends back then. More friends than I've ever had in my life.
At the end of elementary school though, we made a huge move for my dad's work. I couldn't really recover socially, and instead of coping, learning to socialize, and make new friends, I just talked to my old friends on the phone and played Runescape with them. I kinda sorta made one friend but he was super distant and didnt really care about me. The schools in this area were super dumpy and easy so grades weren't a problem thus far.
In the middle of middle school though, we made another move. Not as big, but still to a city about an hour away. Not that it mattered I didnt really have friends any more anyway. However the new middle school I went to was much nicer, and the classes were way harder. First time I ever started getting Fs and Ds, literally started crying in front of my teacher and mom during a parent teacher conference. Still didnt have any social skills so… not really any friends, basically stuck to some online forums.
High school was similar. Not bullied, just ignored, and again I haven't recovered in terms of grade from middle school, so I didnt do well at high school either. I didnt know how to make friends or talk to strangers so I just played Pokemon and talked in online chatrooms.
My parents, of course, were utter retards and pushed for me to goto community college anyway despite my doing dogshit in high school up until the very end. Went to a local community college and flunked out after 2 years of bullshit (pretty uneventful college life. went to a local community college, and learned how to socialize a little better i guess). NEET'd it up for maybe 6~ months after, then started working for 4-5 years, and now I'm giving college another shot though its not going well.
Kindergarten, was homeschooled.
After that I went to a private Catholic school for elementary and middle which was kind of awkward because my parents are both atheists, but I guess it was better than other schools in the area. Also we had to go to church at least once a week - more when it was a holiday - which was pretty boring.
Elementary school I was the quiet kid but still social enough to participate in playground games. Teachers fed me some bullshit about putting me in an advanced class because I was really good at reading for my age but I don't think that ever happened, I just got to read harder books than everyone else when we had reading time or whatever. There were a few succubi interested in me, one succubus randomly mailed me her picture and another put a note on some valentine saying she wanted to kiss me. I was oblivious to that stuff at that age though so I was baffled by the first thing and kind of disgusted by the second.
Towards the end of elementary and into middle school I started becoming more asocial. At recess rather than playing I would pace around making up stories in my imagination - usually extensions or alternate versions of games I was playing at the time or a book I had read, occasionally something original, or some omnipotent fantasies about mass killing. Also stopped believing in god, I had pretty much always thought of him as 'magical sky man who grants wishes if you pray hard enough' as a kid but even then I think I was pretty aware that all the stories they fed people were bullshit.
Last few months of my final year in middle school I did something that kind of made people hate me by skipping when I was supposed to play some role in a play. I didn't really give a shit at that point though. I remember standing at the gay little graduation ceremony they held and accepting some medal for highest grades while thinking about how much I couldn't wait to go home and play games (I had just gotten a computer that week).
High school, I went to a public school in another state. Was pretty asocial although beginning of freshman year there were a few kids who were trying to be friendly with me (looking back I suspect a few of them were gay) and I kind of got dragged along with them. At lunch I sat with them and watched 2 nerds play chess every other day. I only had 2 classes with these guys though and our lunch times were different depending on the day so most of the time I was alone.
At one point I got called to some succubus's office and she basically told me she was a suicide prevention counselor or something like that. I'm guessing they called me in because I was kind of aloof and looked tired all the time (after school every day I'd immediately go into playing video games and then stay up late watching anime or fapping, I usually slept less than 6 hours). She gave me some flyer for a youth group which I just took and then left. I never got called to her office again but she me in the hallway once later that year and questioned me on how things were going. At the end she asked me something like "Are you happy?" which I just said yes to because I wanted her to fuck off.
After freshman year I was completely alone, pretty much just did what I had to in classes, worked with people if necessary but never tried to or allowed them to get closer than that. Sitting alone at lunch, there were these security guards who were always around campus patrolling, one or two would always be in the lunchroom and they'd try to strike up conversation with me sometimes, just small talk. I don't if they felt bad for me or if they thought I was a potential school shooter. Maybe both. Outside of school I pissed all my time away on games, anime, or imageboards. Towards the latter half of senior year I started programming and learning Japanese.
Uni, nothing worthy to note other than that it's been a waste of time and money. Most years I skipped just about every class session to teach myself the material and only showed up for midterms and the final.
I was bullied in every school.
After years I hate myself for my passivness. That I didnt try to change school for better one, or to fight back with aggresion.
But bullying in high school could easile be avoided. If only I wouldnt listen to my mother… She choosen class for me with some radical normies and extroverts
Mine was hell on earth. I could argue that the normswine live through an extended version of highschool.
High school for me was actually amazing. We were in a relatively small and close community, so I actually did have some friends there and did have fun being an outcast with them.
College was a living hell right from the start. I left my bubble and got destroyed.
Dropped out in senior year.
Towards the end of my time there I would skip entire school days by sitting in a bathroom stall or just walk out of the building and walk several miles back home if it wasn't too hot out.
It's been almost a decade since I left school and I still get triggered by back to school ads. God I just want to remove mandatory schooling.
Who destroyed you?
school was alright till I got suspended for being in a nazi group chat
English is not my first language, so sorry for the shitty writing. I just want to get things out.>Junior high
The same class, same people through 4 grades. Have 1 close friend from elementary in class (let's call him Mark). 6th grade pass normally.
For the remaining time, start from 7th grade, the class divided to 3 groups: the big brains, the bad boys/succubi, the rich kids. Me and my dude doesn't belong in any group. Tried to fit in but no avail.
Mark got mentally bullied so naturally I got ignored too. Did got into fight and win so no one physically bully me and my friend.
Start being into anime/manga in 8th grade, so I had something to cope with being an outcast, while Mark was heavily affected by it.
My mother died in this time period.
I fucking hate my school and my class with a passion.
Same class with the same people throughout 3 grades (that how school is where I live). I was lazy and stupid so got ranked the second worst student in class, and the worst one is someone with actual brain problem.
Managed to befriend with 1 dude (not Mark), being a "dirty pair" with our sex joke and bullshit we take from the internet, plus my knowledge in obscure ecchi anmime and hentai.
Got into fights a lot. The most ridiculous one is a bad boy from another class mistook me for someone who stole his girlfriend. It was a fucking big fight, still don't know how I got out of it with only 1 cut above the eye.
I don't hate this time period, just feels empty.
Got into a private university. Being fucking lazy and stupid, I lost 6 years of my life to graduate from this shit hole.
This uni is fucking greedy I tell you. The students from my year had to riot against their scummy business practice. I got blacklisted for being in and failed many many subjects because of this. Still stay until the end because I need a degree for my family (I'm Asian btw).
Got into fight with an exchange nigger, but didn't fight back because this scummy uni would expel me instead of the nigger to save face.
Currently jobless. Don't know what to do with a hollow degree, I might be a blue collar worker in the near future.
high school was horrendous but uni was ok
This has been a terrible revelation for me. This one guy in high school would threaten to beat me up if I didn't ditch classes with him. I would get so nervous walking past the gates at lunch time. But soon I began doing it on my own as an easy coping mechanism for the stresses of being surrounded by normalfags and their social jungle circle-jerking that I had grown to hate. Eventually my parents would drop me off at school and I would immediately walk straight home and sleep on the porch until they arrived to let me in and play World of Warcraft. Then in community college, I would start going for a few weeks but eventually, the same behavior happened. College was NO different than high school because it was full of animals and trash who loudly bragged about hating classes, having sex, and they even smoked marijuana on campus secretly.
I would find a quiet corner of the school and just sleep there, waiting for my mom to pick me up, and soon was dropped from my classes. I have attempted to go back over 6 times and I can't do it. I end up sleeping or walking to the back alley of a 711 for some peace from the noise. I wish I never developed awareness of just "walking away" because I really want a college degree. I want it just to say I have one and I know that is irrational but it is how I feel. I have always been irrational and made dumb decisions I can't really explain. You aren't supposed to walk away from obligations; you're supposed to finish them, good or bad, and evaluate what you do from there. But I can't do that. I can't progress. And being a NEET is great but at the same time, I'd rather be a NEET with a degree.
>>159034>Realized very early on that I could also just not go
I had a 23% attendance rate my first year of highschool because I would only show up to class on thursday/friday to take tests. The rest of the time I spent playing WoW until the principal got wind of what I was doing.
I only had 1 failing grade and it wasn't even my fault. I signed up for spanish 1 which was suppose to be for people with NO EXPERIENCE speaking spanish but instead the class was ALL MEXICAN AMERICANS except for just me. If I had a dollar for everytime the teacher had to stop a student because they were pronouncing words in spanglish and not proper spanish I could have bought a gun to shoot myself with. Needless to say that class moved so quickly that I gave up entirely in the first two weeks.
Anyways I remember the day that I got called to the main office to have a sit down with the principal. He gave me two options, start showing up to class or drop out, there was no need to even think about my answer. A week later my parents enrolled me in a high school homeschooling program that was all correspondence based through mail.
i still cant really wrap my head around the fact that my country doesnt have free speech. canada
Primary and middle school was ok, I had no friends but people left me alone and were respectful. In high school I was "bullied", but I didn't care as it was mostly verbal/non-physical. I dropped out of school before year 10.
i was a delinquent that was "popular" at school for being willing to get sent to the principal's office/get suspended. i hated school even more than i hated being at home with my abusive father, so i took any opportunity to get out. i even physically assaulted a few kids i didn't have a problem with just to get out of school. (this was in elementary/junior high. i stopped getting physical with people when high school begun because they start calling 911 on you then.)
i also liked to tear down school banners and advertisements for book fairs and stuff and crumple them up and piss on them. i would wipe my butt and throw it on the ceiling in the bathroom where it would harden up there so often that the ceiling was more dirty toilet paper than wood. i would get in a stall next to someone taking a shit and pee on their pants and then run away before they can get out to see who did it. my favorite pass time was throwing stuff from my backpack at a certain targeted individual over and over and over and over for hours until they eventually snap and start crying. (my targets were at complete random so don't think i'm some normalfag picking on wizkids. i was raised on jewish television and i was completely blind to people's differences until i was 20 years old.) if i was successful enough at it, i would enter school with a full backpack and leave with it completely empty. like throw every single piece of paper out of a notebook at someone. if the teacher was negligent enough, the classroom floor would be filled with garbage after my work was done.
it was quite fun when i reflect on it. the chaos.
but note that i put "popular" in quotations. it's because while the schoolchildren do find this chaos amusing and wish to witness it, they knew hanging out with me would be trouble. so they would often get traitorous and snitch on me happily when the chance arose, none of them ever had real conversations with me, not a single person ever hung out with me outside of school (apart from birthday parties in which you were required by the school board to invite every person in the class or else you aren't allowed to have a party), etc.
Based warlock. I hope you continue to go out with a bang if it's your time.
what a edgy fucking chad
Come to think of it you don't really see many people who aren't uncomfortable with this sort of personality even on anti-social internet forums. I didn't go quite as far as you but it was more or less similar with me starting shit with everyone imaginable, in fact I actually preferred being in school simply because there was so much rigidity to use as a foil for my anti-social feelings. So kids sort of thought I was entertaining and liked watching me do stupid shit but they also avoided being friends with me. I still don't know whether they were laughing with me or at me. I haven't changed a bit but because I don't interact with society anymore, I don't do much.
Why are you a wizard and not vying for resources (food and pussay) with all the other normalfags?
I see you've mistaken a desire to destroy and mock social existence with a desire to compete and struggle within social existence. Causing inconvenience for normalfags is its own reward. What's wrong? Certainly you don't feel threatened by harm done to society?
i was diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder.
tl;dr i have good social skills and can fit in fine, but i choose not to because everyone is boring and retarded and i'd rather hang out in my weird fantasy universes.
whenever i talk about schhizoid, it sounds pompous and like i'm trying to be a badass and i feel embarrassed. but it's true.
also after high school, my mom let me be unemployed for four years, and the isolation gave me agoraphobia. even if i wanted to reenter society, i'm too fucked in the head now. i can still converse with people when i have to and they think i'm normal, but then i go home and crash and have stomach pain from the stress for two weeks type of thing.
I forgot if I posted in this thread already, all post again anyway, I wish I was still in grade school, the freedom was awesome, all I had to do was spend a little time at school then I got to come home and play video games all night without a care in the world, parents didn't expect me to get a job or anything either, they would ask me how I did at school and I'd say good and that's all they needed from me
I got my GED. I was relentlessly bullied and I never really even learned anything in school. I learned more being homeless than I ever learned in school.
Elementary school was mostly fun. 6th grade was not and I got expelled for threatening to shoot a kid. Best decision of my life, was homeschooled after.
started state university at 18. dropped out after 3 semesters. returned multiple times for a semester at a time sometimes finishing, sometimes not. finally got medicated, stopped abusing street drugs and a senior finishing my bs in finance.
Another medicated wiz here, unfortunately I'm still a neet. What do you take?
Elementary: Alright, the only regret i have was constantly wearing pants instead of jeans. My own cousins had to get me to be active. The worthless male of my dad didn't give a shit.
Middle School: The cracks of not being raised healthy start to show.I was a clown character in school but I still got by being somewhat respected. I am no longer active.
Junior High: It cracks I am peak waste-man, everything wrong with me is shown. A huge revelation came upon me, showing me that these friends I had could give a shit less about me. I had to realize that the world was run by Use. I tried my best to convince my parents to relocate, I wanted to come back with a bad ass redemption. I was ignored and given the excuse that we're poor, despite the fact that my uncle would have accepted me.
High School: I am a husk.This thing breathing is not me. This sentient flesh and skin is the work of my parents. I of course hoping my parents could change, started to spout ideas to release my creativity. they did not help. I was left on my own, and since I had a record of not putting effort my ideas never came to fruition. As a matter of fact I don't know what I even like since I wan't allowed to explore my self. I ended up graduating prematurely as a junior at a special ed class. I could have graduated normally if my parents allowed me to transfer. The special ed class was bullshit, I am mentally sane.
After graduation I just stuck to being a shut in. Even if I wanted to move out, my parents would just tell me to get a job even though they know I have social anxiety because of them. It's like they're taunting me, re affirming that I am their slave.
I honestly could care less what others think of me, they can call me obese smelly loser and they would be right. I am those things. I just have been conditioned to not improve. I still have some hope that I could get out of this state and live life as a comfy shutin.
Anyone else sit in the stalls during lunch? I did for a years and a half
Yep, there was a small bathroom in an out of the way area of my school that was seldom used, I was able to go there and be completely alone most of the time.
I was lucky enough to attend a school that was in the countryside so while everyone was doing whatever they did I just sat by the window and stared at the trees and birds
I did it during my freshman year of high school. I sat in stalls when the library was closed for whatever reason. Could stand being in the cafeteria.
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i was locked in a closet for lunch, and for all of the school day for that matter, in 6th grade. that's all i remember of lunch.
it was like a super detention because i was delinquent and got straight F's.
maybe i will try to file a lawsuit against that school. Playa Del Rey Elementary. i wasn't the only one who was locked in there, some special ed kids they didn't want to deal with were, too. i can't even discuss it more than that because it's too traumatic.