I think OP wants to be a High-Functioning Sociopath not a delusional depressive shizo. >>175519>The flock of sheep was only holding me back from becoming their shepherd
So you want to control & manipulate people.
I think the psychology of being a High-Functioning Sociopath & wizards are not compatible, some of the traits of being a wizard are the exact opposite of the personality traits required for being a cunning manipulative Sociopath.You need to be dominant,assertive, have inflated sense of self worth & you need to be charismatic & have very high social skills in order to be a successful Sociopath.Just look at any cult leader for inspiration.And you also have to master of human emotion & speech(rhetoric) to be a Psycho-shepherd because no one is going to follow an autistic wizard with no social skills.
The only psycho-wizards I can think of are Anton LaVey & Aleister Crowley both have some connection to intelligence agencies & military so they received training in psychological manipulation.I don't know of any self taught sociopaths so my recommendation to you is take acting classes & read about human psychology.And I hope you succeed in manipulating & exploiting normalfags