No.223089
git gud at daydreaming and escaping into fantasy. create a tulpa and get attached to her. play around with imagery until you can spontaneously initiate any emotional state and experience vivid sensations at will. at some point you'll stop caring about the "real" world and just spend all your time in your inner playground. be warned that it doesn't look pretty from the outside, you will stop caring about even the little things like showering and keeping up appearances since all your rewards come from within yourself.
No.223090
>>223088I've read those already, but thanks man.
>>223089Could work maybe, but I suppose some part of me still wants to at least "try" to make it while not feeling bad when I most likely end up failing.
No.223092
>>223082Three words
"Hold your cross"
Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.
Matthew 16:24
No.223097
>>223092Religiosity always seemed desirable to me, but I just can't get myself to believe in it. But I get that the feeling of knowing you'll be alright would be invaluable.
No.223098
>>223092The symbol of Jesus with the cross is not a symbol of renunciation but rather acceptance and the welcoming of ones suffering with open arms.
No.223104
>>223090>I've read those already, but thanks man.Why do you keep asking then? you don't agree with it?
No.223106
>>223097Yeah it's kinda hard to just spontaneously believe it in a vacuum sometimes. I would really suggest going to a religious service of whatever faith you're interested in. Today is Holy Thursday. I went to church tonight where there was the typical mass ceremony, but afterwards we walked down the streets behind the priest holding the cross and into another church down the street. It was lit with candles inside. There was silent meditation and gentle singing. Sitting in a candlelit church listening to soulful music at night is really just a beautiful way to spend time. I hope you find something like that if you're open to it. It kinda grows on you over time, like anything else.
No.223112
>>223104It's not that I don't agree with it, I just can't manage to control how I feel. You could compare it to someone with a phobia for example, logically they might know their phobia makes no sense but they can't control how they feel. Not saying I'm giving up trying my best to internalize those writings though, but I'm not there yet.
>>223106Would you say the ritualistic kind of meditation in church would be useful even if you didn't believe?
No.223162
>>223112I don't know anything about phobias because I've never had one. But I still want to share my interpretation of Stoicism because it has been useful to me.
The way you control emotions in Stoicism is through the reasons you have for feeling that way. I believe the emotions we feel are decisions made through reasoning.
So, whenever I feel an emotion I don't like, I think about the reasons I have to feel it. I try to change that reasoning by proving it wrong and comparing it with the Stoic principle that suffering over things you can't control is pointless.
I hope this works for you too—and for any other anon who is reading this.
No.223163
>>223162One life philosophy will never fit every person. I think your basic premise that emotions are based around reason alone wont really fit with the reality most people live.
You can definitely pick apart why you feel a certain way, and challenge yourself to change your outlook, but people tend to feel emotion first, then rationalize it with reasons after the fact.
I think Stoicism has a lot of valid principles, and struggling through adversity can make a person stronger. But it's also important for you to figure out your own philosophy and outlook on life instead of peddling someone else's.
>>223082I get how it feels anon, but apathy is a spiral that can catch you until you die. As I've gotten older, I've learned to appreciate variety and novelty, even when bad. Everything that happens in life can serve as context to better frame events in the future. Each bad outcome can help shape future choices, or help give you the experience to know you can survive it. Each good experience is sweeter for the suffering you've endured.
Ignoring your history and giving up these emotions leads to nothing but deeper and deeper despair. You won't care when bad things happen, and you won't be able to enjoy it when good things happen. The harsh impact of those negative emotions will be dulled, but the overwhelming anxiety of life closing in around you will eventually overcome you. Please don't give into thoughts of giving up.
No.223164
Can someone answer me: is Asuka a hapa actually?
No.223167
>>223082Don't listen to anyone telling you not to give up. Do it. Just throw in the towel.
Because what comes next is even better.
Liberation starts with apathy and self-repudiation, it only begins when 'you' aren't you, and have accepted your role in this world. Mine, most peoples, especially here, is that of trash and fodder, worthless nothings. It took awhile but I accepted it, to thereafter find sweet contentment.
You see, there's rejoice in being a piece of useless garbage who should've been aborted, a failure on all accounts contributing only to the ugliness in the world. We're all equally afforded happiness.
Ours is a happiness -a prerogative- of doing nothing, and thus doing 'something' within the maximum production levels afforded to us, for our self-neglection is a conscious step taken to purifying the world of filth.
By remaining a NEET locked in my room like the vermin I am, I'll surely die with no accomplishment, and surely will make Gaia happy by killing the world of the shit that is me, ensuring it never multiplies.
To me, that's enough. Making the heavens happy is enough. They've reciprocated by allowing me to idle away, and play games before I'm food for worms.
Just accept it.
There's no need to fight.
You're losing anyway.
You'll be humiliated anyway.
No.223168
>>223167This user is a troll who lurks /dep/ for threads about guys trying to find happiness, just se he can tell them that it's impossible to achieve. That all efforts towards not being in despair are futile. That anyone who suggest that depression isn't permanent are liars. This poster should be tarred and feathered and have his computer license revoked.
No.223170
>>223168>>223169then who is troll ????
No.223172
>>223082Just smoke some weed bruv. It fixes all the anxiety.
No.223184
>>223082Embrace the things that bring you pain (within reason). I was uncontrollably upset and feeling almost sick the first time I heard neighbors having sex through the wall. I forced myself to listen to it intensely for every subsequent event until I was desensitized to it.
No.223192
>>223184THIS, it's called exposure therapy, i fixed my severe noise sensitivity thanks to it.
No.223203
>>223162I understand, but doing that is extremely difficult for me.
>>223163What about planning for the future? Even if you accept everything, how do you not get paralyzed making decisions if you're attached to the feelings the little things you have give you?
>>223184Did that work for other things too?
No.223204
>>223203>I understand, but doing that is extremely difficult for me.what part of it do you find difficult?
No.223208
IS ASUKA HAPA OR NOT?????
No.223227
>>223209She's too white looking for a Hapa from mix white asian background.
No.223254
Disillusionment led to not having the capacity to care. Now there's only apathy.
No.223255
>>223208>>223227shes a freak, canonically hapa but popped out looking german, with superior looks and high iq.
No.223313
>>223162Phobias are more like involuntary motor responses than emotions you can stoic your way through
If you know it's coming you can brace and avoid jumping but if the stimulus surprises you you've already bolted and nearly had a heart attack before your conscious brain has registered what you're looking at, it happens in a split second.
No.223387
>>223227>>223255She's more likely a quapa since her father is American presumed to be white. I've met an American who was a quarter Japanese, and you wouldn't be able to tell.
No.223388
>>223387i've seen lots of examples of asian succubi giving birth to white kids
No.223394
>>223388My classmate is a quarter Kenyan and he looks whiter than some of the guys who are 100% german. Even his skin is about half a shade whiter than mine. You can only tell by the fact his hair is a bit curlier, though still straight and dark blond.
Which makes me think ethnicity is very fluid and can dilute or strengthen based on the number of recent ancestors.
No.223396
>>223394peoples understanding of heredity is mostly myth and like superstitious tea leaf reading. fact of the matter is up until recently there wasn't many examples of this phenomenon. Nowadays its more common.
Bleaching is a real thing, theres a whole bunch of american celebrities that look completely white with negroid patentage.
No.223401
>>223394White genes being recessive leads to some shocks several generations down the line when those recessive genes start lining up again. You literally have African Americans having white looking children because several of those recessive traits from mixing generations ago just happened to line up.
No.223484
Idk, I want to turn my brain off and live on autopilot like an NPC. I want to stop caring too. Seems like it's getting to that point for me, albeit slowly.
No.223485
>>223401Will probably happen to Obamas grandkids or great-grandkids etc. as well if they marry within the US because his mom is a pale as ghost irish.
No.223486
>>223396The pasty white main character from Prison Break (played by Wentworth Miller), his dad in real life is black. They have the same facial features but opposite skin colors.
The US gene pool is so mixed all kinds of stuff happens even generation-to-generation.
No.225839
>>223082try drinking as little coffee as possible
No.225841
Asuka is a Hapa?
No.225844
>>225841½ Deutschland ½ Nippon
No.225847
>>225844Then she's a hapa through and through
No.226007
>>223082>How do you genuinely just stop caring about everything shitty in your life?eh, you wish
>>223089yeah sure
No.226634
Are Hapa succubi the master race? the beauty of white succubi and the high IQ mind of east asian?(user was warned for this post)
No.226646
>>226634It's an unstable cocktail.
No.226649
>>226634No, because they still have a chance of making hapa males like me who will be shunned since age 7.
No.226651
kys simp fucking niggers fuck off to niggerchan
fuck zoomers
No.226657
>>226648true
in Japan, different hair colors used to mean different kind of non-people (as in yokai/oni/etc.)