>>223992You know this is something that I ponder about so much, I am over 18 and I stay with my parents but they've made my life an absolute living hell, from the outside it seems like a heaven as they provide me with food, wifi, roof, etc. But it has made my life miserable.
I want to move out but I can't because I don't live in the Western Hemisphere where I imagine most of the traffic of this website comes from. I have tried to earn online as well but have had 0 luck. They beat me a lot as a kid, my parents are unhappy with their own marriage, my mother doesn't have the guts or the financial capacity to leave my father.
My father regularly abuses everyone. My body literally starts to shake like I can feel my dick and brain. By dick I mean the gland in the kidney working overtime. It's like I am about to die. Sometimes I can't breathe either. It's as I said like I am about to pass out and collapse. I can literally feel my heart beating like hell. It's incredibly stressful to live with them.
And my father doesn't even provide financially we're just living off whatever little wealth my grandfather accumulated for us. He's literally of no use and he is hyper religious. But due to the nature of my community even the other people of my family know that he's a piece of shit but can't really see cause they love my father.
My life has been absolutely hell. While I am technically not a NEET, as I go to college, I am working my absolute ass off to get a job but I have had absolutely no luck, probably because of my shitty college, shitty grades, lack of understanding important concepts.
I know I should be grateful since they are keeping me after 18 years of age but just cause I am dependent upon them doesn't give them a right to abuse me and to "just leave" is not an option. My father literally terrorises me. Like what he is doing is literal terrorism, yes, I know it doesn't fit the political definition of terrorism, but in my eyes what he's doing to me is literally terrorism.
I kinda wanna let my pain out here on this forum but ultimately it's useless to do so. I just want escape from this. I want someone to look after me or provide me with money but that's not how the real world works, perhaps, I wouldn't do it for anybody else either. So it's hopeless. I will keep suffering until and unless I become a complete veget
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