I have never felt this "happiness" and no longer consider it a value worth pursuing. Yet, I see so many people who are better than me, whose lives are miserable, and they know they're miserable. Simply by avoiding that, I'm "happier" in a way. Mostly I have asked since I was a child why the people let themselves be like this, when we could just… not. There's nothing to gain, nothing to work for. The money is all fake, tokens of your suffering. The children will never be yours. They belong to the state and "society", now, always defined as something alien to your existence. The only people who are happy with this are sadists who love torturing others, and that's the world they want to make for us. For all of us.
Then again, I'm not ugly in the face, and that does me some favors. You should remember that probably a third of humanity, most of it male, gets absolutely nothing and has been used to this. The difference now is that we live under the threat of new torture and death if we fail to meet this eugenic guideline, whereas in the past, if you were useful enough as labor or fodder, it was possible to live - maybe. In the past the chief eugenic function was war and that old favorite, ritual sacrifice. What they don't tell you is that a lot of infant mortality in the ancient world was pure eugenics or parents getting rid of unwanted sons. Fathers are always sadists - it is mandated by the human race, a failed and Satanic race. If they show any decency, it is only temporary or a naive sense that is abused and mocked. Humans are incapable of any goodness and are irredeemable. Only the world required them to do good things, for a time, and they always shirked things that would have been basic, even if only done out of self-interest. Humans love to torture things too much.
Sure, fathers tell themselves they're going to be different, that they won't repeat the cycle - but when it's their turn, they learn the hard way that there are forces in humanity that will not allow you to refuse. That's what humans are, that is the world they build, the representation of the human spirit. It is torture. The only difference now is that what used to stop it in the past no longer stops its expression, and it has been perfected with technology. Now, humanity will freeze in place as the Satanic race it always was, and history will end. This is what it was all for. It's really sad and pointless.
Maybe something will happen in the future - I expect
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