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 No.309393[Reply]

Is anyone else here being cyber-bullied? I have been cyberbullied by a colleague in my hobby for over 10 years; he has used his superior reputation to waylay, insult me and make me feel insignificant. It doesn't matter how many laps I would run around him, he only becomes more entrenched in his own sense of superiority. It used to be I just didn't have the catalog of works to "prove myself" to him. Now he is just being incalcitrant, dismissing that I have such works even now. The worst part is that my "envy" has moved from wanting a catalog like his, to having now, in my own estimation, attained that catalog to envying his pride and arrogance and self-assuredness. This is terrible to envy these things as a supposed Christian. And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone. But I will say, I could be a lot more happy if he completely lost his access to the internet.
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 No.310493

i was kinda cyberbullied as a depressed teenager.

they impersonated a succubus and tried to coerce me into killing myself over the course of months. I was already depressed/suicidal so it was more like encouraging/pushing me towards what was already manifesting in my own mind. ironically, the last thing they said was "do it for me" and that was a big part of what snapped me out of it mid-attempt (asphyxiation).

now ~20 years later, i still feel cursed by the demon who tormented me. it's a shitty life experience.

 No.310494

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I think I'm pro-cyberbullying these days

 No.310495

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>>310494
I have selective mutism so im like airlines fuel to assholes jerks that like to talk to much or have no problem to make suffering me bacause i fight little to them. In general i talk normal to normies and in hobby talks but when there're these attention whores its like they build a hierarchy to bully people thanks to their power, wealth, charisma, image or wathever
>Also
I never told anyone about this thing about selective mutism (just one nun and she was the most gentle and kind person i met in my life but she was more a nun than a succubi)
but i know these assholes know it by nature and they love ans enjoy torture me.
>And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone.
I a stupid agnostic but i read a lot of religions and philosophies of life and every year i turn more slowly into a Buddhist Daoist with some christian like mindset and ideas.
And yes this year i got that idea of "what if this asshole achieve the worst possible suffering experience in life and keeps living with this suffering for his entire damn existence without death peace" and yes, this is a contradiction of my ideas and ideals, these are like alien ideas to me.
You know, doing these practices of metta or love-kindness actually hurt me a lot knowning that i feel like this in response to suffering that these assholes cause me. Its like i slowly turn from a Jedi to a Sith.
The best to do is learn to ignore them and if they are too much annoying take it to the legal.

 No.310502

>>310494
it's ok, there's so many half breeds around that nobody is gonna be able to tell you apart

 No.310513

>>309393
Yes, I don't know who it is as I see it everywhere I go, multiple people, will probably do a Rodger if I don't find it


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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

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 No.310492

>>310491
english is not my first language and I don't use microphones, but if you want we can exchange texts over emails however I am not sure it is allowed to post personal details here

 No.310504

>>310486
>>310491
>>310492
i posted my mail here in the past without getting banned, but of course it was cock.li, not gmail. i don't think anyone particularly cares. have fun i guess, though i personally find it exceptionally hard to talk to strangers on the internet, there's normally just no common topics. it's especially bad when you're from different countries.

 No.310509

I seem to have contracted some form of the Flu. I do not think I have ever felt more sick than now. Terrible aches in my body, I feel both too hot and too cold, my throat is sore, sleeping is a challenge. Fuck having a human body.

 No.310511

I hate myself so much. I have UTTER and complete HATRED for myself. Why does all entertainment have to be going down the gutter. I wish I had the courage to kill myself right this instant.

 No.310512

>>310511


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 No.309621[Reply]

Does anyone else hate his own body? I hate mine so much, I feel uncomfortable in my own body the whole time, it doesn't matter what I'm doing, I feel dirty, sick, detqched from my body. I want to get out of my body.
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 No.310480

>>310477
Well it's just they were better looking than me. Like super model tier. Their skin colour was better than that of my race though of course we both are natives if the same place. She was taller than me. And looked so nice I just didn't wanted to get, I suppose mogged all the way up the lift. And I was just sweating bullets looking at them. So I just climbed all the way through stairs. Reminds me of the moment when me and my father walked into an expensive restaurant as poor people. People could tell we weren't of that class and both me and my father just wanted to get the hell out of there.

I suppose it's a feeling of "Yeah I don't belong here.". Sorry can't explain this weird kind of hollowness and discomfort in these kinds of situations.

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>>310476
>>310480
>Well it's just they were better looking than me.
It dosnt matter if its a succubi or a man or even a kid you know
I know about that feeling that too much beatiful people can cause when you see them, you just look to them and its like they crush you with their beauty.
Its similar when theres natural talent or skilled or people with something unique, even money or friends, healthy family, houses or routines or even a girlfriend (i dont crab anymore i talking in retrospective from i was young) its not about envy to me but more of admiration of material things we cant have now or maybe never will have, its literally destroy you.
>People could tell we weren't of that class and both me and my father just wanted to get the hell out of there.
The feeling of be a being out of place hurt so much
>I suppose it's a feeling of "Yeah I don't belong here.". Sorry can't explain this weird kind of hollowness and discomfort in these kinds of situations.
The woke and progresist of today speak a lot of inclusive things of people but in general all of them are very comfy in their ways of life and know nothing about this feeling of out of place, they just talk about empathy but they have little to no experience of it in their socially active and healthy circles. Sometimes i wonder if they just fake it to act or play like a hivemind but i know that maybe there's people with these experiences and do it at will and experience than based in attention-whoring acts.
Its kinda hard to live seing others sometimes, my Wizz bro.

 No.310499

>>309624
you are spiritually jewish, the kike views the body as a mere vehicle, nothing more

 No.310501

>>310499
you are spiritually nigger, the niggers view other people as a mere thingy to yap at, nothing more

 No.310510

I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I've always hated being so hairy. I remember being a child and looking at the few hairs on my arms with worry, thinking that I would end up as hairy as my father. That's one of the reasons why I've never tried anything with a succubus. I used to hope that one day I would live alone and be able to wax my whole body, but now I know that will never happen.


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 No.307723[Reply]

Very late 20s. Never been on a date, never been approached. Never had any friends, only acquaintances. Not even meme internet "friends". I always thought these things would naturally come to me at a later age, but they never did. With each passing year it gets worse. There is something profoundly wrong with me, it's like the part of my brain that's responsible for human contact was amputated at birth
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 No.310449

>>310448
yes, very cute

 No.310457

It's easier to have a friend than gf. My advice is to try to make one friend at least. Go out together, hangout with him. Both you and he will make other friends, and maybe meet some succubus through them, who knows.

 No.310468

>>307723
I just got my powers a few months ago. I've never had any friends of any kind, although I can't say I ever had any expectation that the friends were going to magically appear later.
I've been withdrawn as long as I can remember. In first grade I used to sit on the steps by myself at recess and daydream instead of playing with the other kids.
Never had a job either. I spent the years since high school alternating between NEETing and very slowly completing university classes.

I don't think anyone is born this way though, except maybe true autistics. I think withdrawal is almost always a failure of the adults in the early stages of life. Every little kid I've ever seen is naturally very outgoing and has almost no inhibition. Shyness and timidity are major red flags something has gone wrong.
If a parent or teacher or older guardian figure catches it quickly (and isn't the active source of the problem, which many parents are) you can pick the kid back up and push them back out into the world, but if you ignore it for any length of time it snowballs. They get too far behind their peers and too entrenched in bad emotional reflexes, and at that point they're permanently defective humans.

 No.310497

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>>307723
>There is something profoundly wrong with me, it's like the part of my brain that's responsible for human contact was amputated at birth
I know about the feeling
I dont want to put stupid ideas in my mind or your mind but i slowly started to believe that i have AvPD or some social or anxiety problem and i need help.
When i was more young i never had age related experiences so i like a out of place for a lot of people.

 No.310508

>>310497
It's very likely that we have some mental health issue, anon.
Today, I was thinking that maybe I feel under too much pressure and I just freeze. And this is why I feel like:
>it's like the part of my brain that's responsible for human contact was amputated at birth


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 No.310503[Reply]

Is it worth it getting into altruistic-minded test trials? does it actually help anyone in the future? is the extra pain and suffering, altruistically (utilitarian calculus) worth it?

 No.310506

"In the event that I am reincarnated, I would like to return as a deadly virus, to contribute something to solving overpopulation." -Prince Philip

 No.310507

>>310506
MFW Coronavirus was just this guy's isekai


 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.309613

>>304109
demiurge made it too difficult to leave this world

 No.310172

>>309613
I've always wondered how – if Plato and Plotinus and Porphyry, etc. – were so smart, why didn't they succeed in defeating the demiurge? Perhaps they weren't as smart as they imagined themselves to be?

 No.310291

bump

 No.310295

in truth practically every single person who attempts and fails regrets having ever done it. Life can get better wizzies, the more you spend looking into that dark mirror the worse things will seem to you

 No.310505

>>310295
>Life can get better wizzies

I hope so wiz.


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 No.307023[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.310300

Such a weird feeling; I don't care, but at the same time it also kind of saddens me. Or rather, it leaves a lasting impression on you mentally, so to speak. I remember I sometimes stumbled upon this guy's youtube
https://steamcommunity.com/id/Kunio_Kun

And now I see that he is dead, died last year or two years ago now.
I did not know the guy personally. But it's still sad. It is hard for me to digest that the person is no more; there's nothing.
Everything is impermanent, I guess; such is life.
Well, at least they're free of all the suffering.

 No.310301

>>310293
>succubus
>cute

 No.310351

So guys, I'm wondering how viable is the plastic bag method?

Video related https://youtu.be/KuIMmL4cq5c?t=192

At 3:14 in this scene where the dude drops the plastic bag over the guy's head and then zipties it, could it work if one tried to do it to themselves???

 No.310384

>>310351
You would do everything in your power to get it off.

 No.310500

Is suicide by cop a meme? Are there any OTC drugs that actually would kill me? I am in a lot of physical pain and considering my options. Also, do you think there would be anyone willing enough to help me kill myself/do it for me if these aren't feasible options? I know about laying your head on traintracks but for some reason the possibility of it going wrong horrifies me, even though I know that is unlikely. I think it was some story I read a long time ago that put that in my head.


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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.310353

>>310352
Sorry to double post. I also have a very loyal character. I don't care about normies or succubi, at work if you are good you are good. I would care too much about it. I've already warlocked a few people for abusing my staff. I tell them to talk to me like you talk to that 16 year old succubus. With the assitance of one of those good guards of course lol. But still, I hate them.

 No.310369

>>310352
i stepped down from being a supervisor because i was tired of babysitting retards for an extra $100 dollars a week after taxes. now i just do "nothing" overnight as i write this very merry post on the clock :)

 No.310451

>current job pays 27 hourly
>non profit org so i can maybe, maybe expect a raise of 1 dollar and 50 cents like last year
>been here for 2 years
>have a pension (haven't looked into it yet though)
>no leverage; i just manage our braindead easy in house database system (i got a cs degree for this)
>want a new job but my skills have degraded
>want a new job but tech jobs i feel like i wouldn't crash at pay fucking less than my glorified spreadsheet email job (23 bucks) and i absolutely can't eat a salary decrease
what the fuck do i even do
i feel so goddamn trapped and all i want is out. i'm scared of turning 30 in this job

 No.310455

>>310451
full time with benefits, a pension, and 27 an hour is good

 No.310498

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>>310451
Bruh it sound good to me actually but maybe not a happy or fun job to you.
How much free time you get at that place? You can have more benefits? You can learn things or have time to read books or hobbies?
>Also
I know a retard without university study with a high pay job in a industry working with control of robotics hands, the job had a lot of benefits and the retard just quited the job after a lot of years with lots of benefits bacause a stupid succubi whispered to him ear and in a way got tired of job bureacracy to ask for some useful things like new rooms etc but thats bacause the new boss, son of the old kind all lovable boss that died, its a bitch crab with kike behaviour.
Now he's poor and do temporal jobs with no future or benefits. At his job they liked him and even pushed to help him to not quit or have more time to manage problems or anxiety, a damn stupid retard.


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 No.306437[Reply]

Does anyone else voluntarily exile themselves from society?

I'm tired of socializing, drama, human interests, social demands, social everything.

I wish I was a machine instead of a talking ape. I actually hate being an animal.
I don't even hate people, I just don't want to be in any contact with them. I even hate my own body for forcing me to eat and wash in order to not completely dysfunction.
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 No.309907

>>309906
>you'll be relentlessly harassed or endlessly scrutinized by elderly crabs or middle aged people that all grew up together from birth and are impossible to interact with
It's more likely that the problem is you, and that the guy you're dissuading will have a different experience.

 No.309911

>>309907
who do you think you're talking to? If you're a socially adjusted groid who can get along with anyone you wouldn't be considering throwing everything away to live in a dead end town where you don't know anybody and keep to yourself. Normal people don't become isolated hermits for no reason, nor do they even wish for that kind of thing

 No.309955

>>306437
I take satisfaction in not attending the events that everyone expects you to attend. Weddings, work Christmas party, funerals/wakes, any sort of work thing like a cookout (even if it’s during work hours and it’s outside, I just stay at my desk and enjoy the spite), cousin invited me to a wedding and I even RSVP’d and then didn’t go just to maximize my lack of etiquette and attendance. It feels good. I remember I first felt this when my high school had its prom and then graduation. It just felt so good to disrespect these normalcunt milestones by not attending

 No.309956

>>309955
My sister got mad because I didn’t show up for class photos and didn’t submit a yearbook photo so I’m not in the yearbook. Her anger satisfied me a lot

 No.310489

>>306437
Yeah, most of the time I do it feeling that I'm mainly the problem, and things would get better if I take myself out of their equation, depends on context and if they are people I deeply care about
I cut myself off from my immediate family, still talk to grandparents, but ultimately, I would probably cut them off too if I find reason that its the best thing to do between me and them
Cut myself off from practically all of my friends, but thinking back I'm not even sure if they were actually friends, or people who made themselves to believe they were something else
Ironically, I've felt more at peace at my lonesome than I was going on discord everyday to play PUBG


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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.310345

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i have an obsession

 No.310362

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