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 No.309064[Reply]

Discuss your substance related coping mechanisms and how it pertains to your depression here.
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 No.310084

>>309064
Let me do some math.

Most nights are 10 shots of Everclear and 10 shots of a liqueur. 1 shot to 1.5 ounce.
That's 15 + (15 x 0.25) Which is 15 + 3.75.
It all comes out to roughly 20 ounces of ethanol a night. I start mixing them stronger after I get loosened up.


I know it's all so miserable, but at least I can't feel it. Consequences, repercussions, the pain of a near-lethal dose.
It's just static at that point.

I won't say it feels good. But at least it doesn't hurt.
That's the most important part.
Not even the hangover. I learned how to get around those. I'm really good at avoiding pain. I wish that could be a marketable skill. I'd be just filthy rich if it was.

A wizard can dream. It's a shame that's about all we can do in this hellish place.

 No.310144

>>309064
i smoke 3-4 cigarettes a day. its one of the few things i look forward to. One before, during, and maybe 2 after work

 No.310189

My suicidal thoughts pretty much went away once I got my legal weed card and started using weed heavily. Sometimes when I don't smoke weed I find myself thinking about killing myself again. So basically I'm addicted to weed to not want to kill myself. An improvement from when I didn't have good access to weed and wanted to kill myself at least.

 No.310190

>>310084
Guys who do this all have a time limit until their bodies will rebel. Might be their kidneys or their liver or their pancreas. Something will go after a while of drinking like this and you will end up in the hospital with the choice to either stop drinking and get your shit together, or literally die.

 No.310195

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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.310194

>>310178
This must have taken so long, its really good.


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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.310169

I eat the same gabagool sandwich everyday, and i take a walk while eating because i can"t stand being with co workers talking about bullshit. I work in a sector that deals with a lot of NEETS. This year has been terrible for them. Brutal.Lots of them homeless.It's only gonna get worse, there's no sympathy for the unemployed. Some eldery neets made it though, they achieved pension age and laughed at the system. The last ones to make it. For us, those left behind , there's only misery until death.

 No.310179

>>310167
> eat bread with olives and pesto sauce
interesting, I've never had bread with pesto sauce but must be delicious
also that's an interesting choice for lunch
is that what you usually have? Nothing else?
>>310169
lol no way just a gabagool sandwich? is that to save time, still I think you should add some variety
I mean food is supposed to bring you some joy when I used to work I looked forward to lunch because it was a way to deal with the stress by indulging in it even if it was just for a short time. Im sure it can trigger the release of endorphines.

 No.310188

>>310169
>i take a walk while eating
I never understood why people leave or eat in their cars until now. We have a new guy that is socially starved and will put down his steamdeck and just talk for 20 minutes straight if any of us walk into the breakroom. I just want to stuff a sad sandwich in my face so I can get back to work, not discuss all of the posts on reddit front page with him. I've been taking breaks in the warehouse now and eat my sandwich at my desk.

 No.310191

>>310179
Yeah I just buy a small jar of pesto and some baked bread from the supermarket, slice it there, and eat it on my way back. Just dip and eat. Sometimes I buy canned pate and chug it all down with a bottle of kefir or get some cold cuts with canned pineapple.

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I'm pooched from a day of laboring that followed an all-nighter. I have more tar roofing to do tomorrow morning. I need to go buy Redbull and choco before my bank takes all of my money for various fees, but I am just too sleepy.


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 No.309794[Reply]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

Previous: >>308343

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 No.310182

>>310181
Oyster sauce

 No.310183

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>>310182
for beef and broccoli?

 No.310184

>>310183
This increases free radical testosterone in the bloodstream. It is a good meal for a wizard to eat every day.

 No.310186

>>310183
No, my mom resell them online at a mark up. Most people online just buy the lowest price available but you get some people here and there that decided to buy hers for some reason.

 No.310187

>>310186
smart.


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 No.302003[Reply]

My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.

I have had depression for my whole life adolescence onward, and I was afraid even 5-6 years ago of this day and thought it would be unsurvivable, and now it's here, and I do want to die. I dont want to live in a world where he isn't here with me. The initial shock has worn off and it's sinking in that my best friend is gone, and I'm not going to see him again. My mother is the only other positive presence in my life, because she knew how much I love him. She has stage 4 cancer and it's still unclear if she's going to survive it or not. She's essentially the only reason why I have not shot myself already. She was never abusive or cruel to me, so I couldn't do that to her even though I don't want to live anymore.

Did you ever have an animal that meant this much to you? People are cruel and petty and small. If an animal loves you it's genuine, they dont have ulterior motives or social performance.
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 No.308118

I have a cat. I love them, they are comfy animals. But I fucking hate normgroids, they are sadistic fucks that hate animals, trees and life in general There is a pregnant street cat in my neighbourhood I stop by to pet occasionally. I gave her food today and yesterday and my rude, bossy bitch of a neigboor scolded me for petting a cat that trampled something flowers or whatever, I didn't understood what the cat's fault was but she absolutely hates that cat. I put a bowl with food and water and I believe that bitch will throw it away. I wish I could help the cat out more but I already have a uncastrated male cat with kidney failure whom I must treat everyday and my budget can't handle more, especially with kittens.I can't even leave the house to give them away because of my situation. I can only leave food hoping that cat will eat it.

 No.308133

>>308118
Normalfags only keep animals as props. They don't actually value them as friendships, see all the parrots that people get rid of when they get married/have kids and "don't have time for them"

 No.308752

>>308133
I dunno. Apparently, by your logic, cats are non-normie pets then.

 No.310131

>>308752
there's no such thing as normie pets or non normie pets, using "normie" in the disparaging way. Normalfags generally view animals in a really shallow way, which is also how they view people now that I think about it

 No.310175

i had a cat die and as much as i loved him i felt close to nothing when he died, i guess i knew it was coming. i still see him in my dreams from time to time


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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.309422

>>309268
they don't prescribe it anymore
and besides the new "OP" pills produced by (((purdue))) are complete garbage

 No.309612

>>307628
If you're still around, I wish you a full recovery wiz.

 No.309958

I wish they prescribed OxyContin for depression

 No.309959

>>304646
It is important to understand that the SSRIs serve the same purpose as a lobotomy. It is just a nicer packaged means of numbing and zombifying people because shoving a sharp object up your nose and stabbing your brain looks mean

 No.310174

>>309959
Jews understand this.


 No.310113[Reply]

Just got fired from my dead end job and i noticed i have nothing going for my life. No real skills or anything that could make me enough money to go retire early to some third world shithole and live the pseudo neet life. Would military service be a good idea? i have no delusions about striking gold or doing some call of duty shenanigans. it's a recognizeable organization and people often hire vets just cause theyre vets from my experience
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 No.310127

>>310121
Being violent and disciplined is vital to any man's mental health.

 No.310132

>>310114
i can see the vision but i havent seen any openings near me on any site. they only want 3yrs min experience or journeymen outright. should i call nonetheless?

>>310115
i'm short :)
>>310117
i figured i could learn some sort of useful skill there? at the very least it is a job that actually hires. i am used to hard physical labor so long as its for a purpose. i stopped going to the gym because i had no real reason to continue and eating all that food was a drain on the wallet for no good reason
>>310118
yea
>>310121
>work hard
literally did nothing for me. im out of a job and dont really have any skills that would land me a professional job despite "working hard"

I am hitting mid 20s looking at my late 20s already thinking "is this it?" i have friends who are coasting and living comfortable lives while i have lived in the same abusive house my whole life and get no respite. if it werent for the fact i got fired i would be going strong a few years without any real rest days besides the very few times i actually got sick

 No.310133

I was thinking of studying through the military where Id get paid while studying something but not enough people were interested in the course, probably for the bet, supposedly you're required to take and oath and vaccines when you join them, I'd probably have told them to suck dicks on my way out anyhow

 No.310149

>>310127

Nice misogynistic cope, Andrew Tate.

 No.310173

BE AWARE WIZARDS:

Do not die in Jewish wars!
We are LONG overdue for another (((9/11))) style false flag. ZOG is blood-mad for more dead goyim!

By signing up to fill the ranks of armies managed by jewish governments, you are like a chicken swung by a schizo rabbi – nothing more than a sacrifice.

Remember this!

Also remember that Jews have achieved world-government. What this means is: all wars are managed, ie controlled by one mutual party despite outward appearances of antagonism.

Iran has been ruled by Jews since 1979. This current US/Iran war is indeed fake, but the coming false flag likely will not be. Be critical and awake wizards!


 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.309232

>>308555
I can't remember feeling ill after eating regular store-bought candies/snacks when I was young either but whenever I do now I feel very ill. It's like all the food has been poisoned.

 No.309233

>>309232
"Mexican mix" (carrots, potatoes, beans, some other vegetables)?

Carrots steamed with seasoning?

Eggs with seasoning?

Bananas?

 No.309410

>>309233
Do you have any good recipes you want to share?

 No.309613

>>304109
demiurge made it too difficult to leave this world

 No.310172

>>309613
I've always wondered how – if Plato and Plotinus and Porphyry, etc. – were so smart, why didn't they succeed in defeating the demiurge? Perhaps they weren't as smart as they imagined themselves to be?


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 No.310116[Reply]

Why there no reason to exist but if you point to it and ask society(any people) why you shouldn't kill yourself, they just ignore you, make fun of you, and exclude you from society ?
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 No.310147

>>310134
Commit suicide right now. It's easy!

 No.310151

I get why people say that suicide is not an option and people considering it are 'gay and retarded' as second poster put it. I also get why people suicide and why it can be rational. I've been on both sides at different points in my life. I think about it rather as a situational necessity than a decision based action. As such it can't be evaluated as bad or good, weak or strong, legitimate or illegitimate way of ending ones life. It's more of an observable phenomenon that has to be recognised in the same way as the need to sneeze - you try to hold it back as much as you can in specific situations, but when the hard biological process kicks in you can't stop it no matter what. Suicide is as much of a decision as the need to sneeze in situations where sneezing is absolutely not welcome and where you really try to hold it back until you just can't.

 No.310159

>>310120
>There are infinite reasons to exist. Find yours.

And an infinite number of gods to believe in. And boundless possibilities in life. But that doesn’t mean you can believe or do whatever you want, especially if you don’t really want anything and feel apathetic

>Because suicide is gay and retarded. People who stake the idea that suicide is logical should be mocked relentlessly.

Exactly what OP saying about society throwing out anyone who dares to question methods of coping with life or its necessity at all. Even here, people like you hate suicidal people or those questioning the meaning of life. You can't even logically prove that life is necessary you just bully someone who doubts it

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>>310159
>You can't even logically prove that life is necessary you just bully someone who doubts it
Naturally they can't because it's impossible to prove.
This aversion to suicide seems to predicate from some assumption that dying is bad, which is entirely unsubstituted. Either consciousness continues in some form, in which case we cannot know which form that will be, or it ceases to exist. And in the second case there can be no person for whom suicide is a problem. Contrariwise, there can also be no person who benefits from suicide, which is why suicide is a completely neutral act.
Or to put it another way, we can't apply the worlds logic to the concept of nonexistence, which exists outside it's limits.

 No.310171

Because we all have that in our superior intelligence that is above the logic and words. If anyone cannot catch them it's cuz he/she is dumb human being. And we all will make fun of you.


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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

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>>296511
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 No.310110

>>309327
most common solution is a hotel room. when somebody fails to check out the next day and doesn't answer the door they'll do a wellness check

 No.310152

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>>310001
I'm going tomorrow. Haven't left my house in years so I am terrified, but hoping it will get the ball rolling for me to at least leave my house again. I don't have high expectations for it to fix my issue. Sorry I didn't ask earlier but, do you remember what it was exactly that fixed it for you, as in how did they go about removing the wax? I have had non-stop ringing making it incredibly difficult to even get any sleep and I'm scared of the doctor making it worse. Please respond soon if you can. I didn't realize how good I had it until this demonic bullshit overcame me.

 No.310161

>>310152

I have fucked up ear canals, here's some advice.
Once the build-up gets to a certain point you need to go get it extracted by a professional. Call an ENT specialist, explain your predicament then request a vacuum ear-cleaning with your appointment. It's the least physically unpleasant way to have big chunks taken out.
You could also go to one of those small walk-in clinics, explain your problem, and have them flush out your ears with a water pick. It's intense and might leave your ears sore, but goddamn is it worth it. I prefer the vacuum thing, but normally only ENTs have it.
Afterward look into debrox, ask the doctor how often to use it and do it. Sounds like with your level of build-up debrox alone won't help the older, harder bits.
Sorry, Anon. Ear problems are bullshit, hope you find a decent doctor. DO NOT try to extract it yourself at this point, you could puncture your ear drum by shoving the wax plug into it, trust me when I say you really want to avoid that.

 No.310162

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i don't have the guts to kms

 No.310164

>>310106
it's nearly impossible to steal narcotics. pharmacies are aware that those drugs are very high theft risks so they're kept in a special safe which has a mandatory timer on it before it opens
if you want opioids so badly you have the balls to fucking rob a store you surely have the balls to just go downtown for 10 minutes and buy some fent


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