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The Fatigue Anonymage 04/02/25 (Wed) 15:20:19 No.299368 [Reply]

How do you guys deal with fatigue, if at all. Some days are better but just when you think you're beginning to get a grip again you just wake up and know exactly that you landed back at the bottom of the hole again. Everything is a herculean effort, even typing this out my eye lids are heavy despite being only late afternoon and me having slept for at least 8h last night. No matter what steps I take, sleeping properly, eating better, hell I even started doing some basic exercise every day to get the blood flowing a bit. None of it matters. All of this hard work and it's completely meaningless because I can't seem to get better in a consistent way that matters.
Yet I have to work to live and try my best to finally finish my degree, hopefully before I'm 30 or my university kicks me out. On days like this it's like I've lost 50IQ points and I'm barely functional. I have to keep my living space in a state of acceptable cleanliness. Do any of you guys have any tips on how to make it more bearable?

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Anonymage 08/10/25 (Sun) 08:35:32 No.302143

I read somewhere that it's just best to go with it yet not get too lazy.
There's a saying that has both a good and a bad meaning: a rolling stone gathers no moss.
Good because you're open minded and dont want to be one with nature (hence why you're rolling).
Bad because, in some cultures, moss is a sign of substanance and belonging with said nature (which you cant gather because tbe rolling wont let you settle down).
But it's all subjective in the end.
(As in I can feel bipolar irritants preparing their "contradictions" like they always do -_-)..

Anonymage 08/10/25 (Sun) 14:04:30 No.302145

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i was having a monster and a few cans of other soft drinks daily. i noticed when i get caffeine from these drinks they wake me up for about 10 minutes if only and then i crash. this didnt used to happen years ago, but i was also never quite this depressed. im gonna try quitting caffeine to see if things change but i doubt it.

ultimately its this: my life sucks and i feel shit, so im tired and cant do shit. i know what the source of my misery is but i cant solve it, ive been feeling this way on and off for 14 years, so basically over half my life, in that way its more me than me. who is me if not the constant self-destructive thoughts and general malaise thats defined my little free trial existence? maybe i should meditate and keep a gratitude journal X)

the only answer i can seem to come up with is i need to force myself to do something which might actually be good for me in a more real sense than just vague "this would be good" or "i should do this" but i dont know what. everything seems so pointless, even when i know doing anything is objectively less pointless than sitting around being miserable. it doesnt matter. the grief i feel about my life and situation is too hard for me to operate above. anyway my eyes are getting heavy again so im done. enjoy this waste of text.

Anonymage 08/10/25 (Sun) 15:26:41 No.302146

>>302145

>i was having a monster and a few cans of other soft drinks daily. i noticed when i get caffeine from these drinks they wake me up for about 10 minutes if only and then i crash. this didnt used to happen years ago, but i was also never quite this depressed

Relateable! Used to be the same for me, say, 3 years ago.

By the way… Quitting coffee at once, "cold turkey", is a bit risky, you may get a headache and such.

Taking 3-4 days of vacation to crash on a sofa, maybe watching funny cartoons from yer childhood without thinking, why they arent funny now…

….you your energy supply will improve

also
buy more real meat (liver also counts) to resupply your body's "unreplaceable" aminoacids reserves

also
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Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 20:15:24 No.304087

bump with a post about my fatigue from years ago

See, in my family, we hae thick old blankets out of real wool and little to no thin blankets. When we moved into a newer apartment… ok, so, 2-3 years ago, I bought a thin 100% cotton blanket and used it. FIRST COMFY SLEEP IN 16 years dammit! I am fat and tall, hence large, cannot radiate heat well, so, nowonder i had a very bay sleep evey day - it was just slightly too hot for me to sleep well even with my clothes off

>>299380

Anonymage 11/19/25 (Wed) 05:17:02 No.304090

>>302142
>pains in my arms and legs, brainfog and trouble thinking clealy, nightmares. doctors are useless unless you want to get fucked up on pills

>unless you want to get fucked up on pills

are you telling me you wont get "neetbux" aka disability pension? eeeeesh….

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Nobody's there anymore Anonymage 04/07/25 (Mon) 23:40:33 No.299518 [Reply]

I can't move on. Everyone already did but I can't. Nobody remembers me. Trying to reach them is pointless, they avoid me like the plague. My parents told me lots of anecdotes from when they were young. They had friends and an extended family, they went on adventures, they cried and laughted, they grew up with lots of friends. They don't see them much nowdays but if they see each other on the street they cheerfully greet them. Their friends are happy to see them. Mines aren't. I dream about them everyday. Some of them, the original duo from my late childhood, I haven't talked to them in almost 15 years. The others, more "recent", haven't seen them in 10. Time keeps marching on. I stay the same.
I wonder, if I kill myself, will they attend my funeral?

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Anonymage 10/01/25 (Wed) 08:24:50 No.303205

I hope no one remembers me, I was very cringy during my middle and high school years and those memories haunt me every single day. The one thing I can relate to is dreaming about those days every single night, literally all of my dreams involve classmates from high and middle school and they revolve around that setting too. They're usually nice dreams though, as bad as those days really were I have a bit of nostalgia and it's nice to interact with those people in a dream without having to do so in real life (which I would dread).

Anonymage 10/01/25 (Wed) 18:51:27 No.303219

>>299518
I guess you're going through the stage which I went through in middle school. Back when I was 14, I experienced profound isolation and realized that everyone around me were against me, hated me and wanted me to disappear. So I withdrew and became a hikikomori, and enjoyed it greatly, but got derailed from my life path due to abuse/mental illness/emotional distress, and for several years suffered by attempting to make the most of my life before I circled back to being a hikki, even more depressed and awful than before.

Before, I was only 14-15. Dropped out on the first term of my first year of HS. I had hopes, thought I'd make a name for myself by the time I reached adulthood. I never expected to fail so miserably and face such profound torment at the hands of this world.

It's harrowing, isn't it? The existential dread of being the only one, all alone, disappearing and fading among people you cannot connect with, who cannot connect with you. I am prepared to witness the end of the world, but I won't lie, it's extremely painful.

Anonymage 10/01/25 (Wed) 19:25:03 No.303220

>>303205
I can relate to that so much. im in my 30s but all my dreams are of HS or MS. Its not like I didn't do anything in college. but no one has ever voluntarily spent any time with me. so my only interactions are in school. and its just not the same in college, where you might have a class just once a week.

K-12 was the only time in life i interacted with the same cast daily, so my dreams still use it as my plots. and if i live to 90, it'll do the same

Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 20:05:48 No.304086

>>303200
funny shit is, I both used to be a lolcow-like derp and used to accidentally inspire people to make and spread memes.

Feels… "life achievement" tier when I remember the memes of my era

Anonymage 11/19/25 (Wed) 04:33:01 No.304089

>>303220
wtf
watch cartoons
watch 1994 movies

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Further degradation of life Anonymage 09/28/25 (Sun) 02:37:12 No.303134 [Reply]

Its been a while
Things are worse now then last year
Life continues to be a challenge
Chronic pain and issues continue to plague me more
I am starting to dread physical social interaction
It is getting hard to keep up energy to do anything

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Anonymage 09/28/25 (Sun) 07:17:59 No.303141

>>303140
It was a sign to avoid putting tension on the area immediately, otherwise you'd break something, get an infection or die.

When you had chronic pain in the past, you typically weren't far away from death.

Anonymage 09/28/25 (Sun) 07:30:29 No.303142

>>303141
Things break with pain or without pain, imagine an infection that has spread everywhere in your body, it makes no sense to give you pain everywhere because you will die anyway. Nature just plainly decided to torment consciousness.

Anonymage 09/28/25 (Sun) 08:34:19 No.303144

>>303143
Much of modern suffering is the result of bad medicine.

Anonymage 09/28/25 (Sun) 18:48:15 No.303149

my life is also slowly but surely getting worse, still foolishly hoping it'll eventually give me courage to rope. Every day feels more pointless than the last and overthinking on what's happened these last few years is hopeless. I wish I was in like some hospital confined there forever, society is not for me.

Anonymage 11/19/25 (Wed) 04:18:40 No.304088

>>303149
poor wizard
tell looney bin shriks - e.g. mental hospital doctors - you cant tell anymore if you're "you, yourself" or a doll. Seeing stuff others dont see like desribing cracks on the floor…

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Anonymage 11/07/25 (Fri) 16:20:07 No.303944 [Reply]

Mother woke up with a face stroke.
im a 34 year old neet/hikkie. But this is a sign i have to become an adult now.
Although it feels like im trapped in a cage, underwater, while screaming.

Anonymage 11/07/25 (Fri) 21:20:29 No.303947

Kind of similar situation with me. Mom has chronic, debilitating pain and balance issues so I have become a substitute mom basically. I have to do all the chores, yardwork and cooking now. If dad ever becomes disabled, I might as well rope because I don't know how to repair 20-year-old automobiles and shit.

Anonymage 11/08/25 (Sat) 06:17:51 No.303958

Ask social services to provide an affordable replacement of your mom

Anonymage 11/16/25 (Sun) 18:47:33 No.304054

It has to be done.
Over the last 5 years (a very short time span for me) I've learned to drive, take care of the house, take care of myself, even wagied for a bit.
There is no other way to survive. The minimal pledge for the mortal coil has to be paid. Most groids know this without even thinking about it, but we can't keep denying our place here.

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op here, turned out it wasnt a stroke, it was bells palsy.
Back to being a neet for me :DDD

Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 09:53:44 No.304084

>>304083
ebin
iks de de de de de

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Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 06:15:51 No.304061 [Reply]

I'm tired, boss. Tired of being on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. I'm tired of never having me a buddy to be with to tell me where we're going to, coming from, or why. Mostly, I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world… every day. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head… all the time. Can you understand?

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 14:02:06 No.304066

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>>304061
>I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world… every day. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head… all the time. Can you understand?
Camaraderie and friendship still exist. You're always going to end up with weird, problematic, shy, avoidant, or very inadequate friends anyone is perfect. And more than one person just wants validation and acceptance, even with their problems.
You can be better than this every day by being exemplary, but exemplary means setting an example, not just being perfect.
>Also
I'm tired of being tired and defeatist.
Read Prometheus rising. Do the exercises thank me later.
Exercise, get some sun before 10 a.m., drink water, sleep well, stop listening to trashy indie sad pop music, and listen to adrenaline-pumping music or old cheerful music, and don't pay attention to the shit news.
>the thing
If you think there's a Machiavellian plan to exterminate humanity, just think that the group conspiring against them are your friends, and that's the mindset of a winner.
And dont be a asshole, become an unstoppable and immovable force of nature, kindness and humanity.
every day, in every form you will become great and more great at everything. And this is the way to a humanizing process ,called life, and some people now believe that life is a rush race and die fast, take it slowly, repeat every day, make it often.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7BByo2V-HA&list=RDZ7BByo2V-HA&start_radio=1&pp=ygUqV0FSTklORyAtIE1DIE9SU0VOIChTUEVFRCBVUCkgRVhURU5ERUQgTUlYoAcB

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Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 14:23:40 No.304067

The logical end for humanity is extinction.

Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 06:46:58 No.304081

I used to feel like this
now I just want to die
I feel like I just wanted to be left alone but the normies are hellbent on making everything as miserable as possible
personal failure exists but this isn't how my life went
tbh when I read other posts here some people cope by ascribing their misery on personal failure and not the intentional harm others did to them
I plan on hanging myself soon

Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 07:16:55 No.304082

>>304081
Don't do it anon. Please. stay for somebody you love, or atleast stay for me. i'll talk to you if you want and drop the @.

I've been like you and yearning love and approval. which lead me to many desolate places most of you will not enter without a gun. Yet im still here. ive been plagued by addictions since childhood yet im still working on it. Ive been ghosted by 10+ friends over the years yet im still out in the field. Best you can do is see the cards lying ahead of you and bide your time before you draw.

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put your feeling in a drawing Anonymage 09/13/25 (Sat) 21:56:18 No.302844 [Reply]

And say something about it if you want. I'm scared of my dad so I'm drawing a monster (him?)
I didn't know we could draw. Why isn't this done more often?

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Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 16:55:17 No.304074

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Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 23:25:07 No.304077

>>304073
cute

Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 01:10:52 No.304078

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>>304073
"Humans are such easy prey."
"She's got skin like glass."

Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 01:43:58 No.304079

>>302844
I can't even draw

Anonymage 11/18/25 (Tue) 02:02:15 No.304080

>>304079
Yes you can

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Depression Crawl Thread LXXI Anonymage 10/02/25 (Thu) 23:04:00 No.303254 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.

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Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 13:33:55 No.304064

I slept for almost a continuous ~18 hours, only getting up to pee a few times.
Dreamed about a childhood friend. Last time we'd have played together would be some ~25 years ago. Why do these memories stick so much stronger than anything more recent? Do our souls just die around age 12-16?

Being awake just doesn't offer much. Back to bed.

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 15:01:31 No.304068

>>304064
>18 hours
I love that kind of slumber. I drank four beers yesterday and took a sleeping pill, slept for 20 hours straight. Had a lot of dreams. Mostly weird shit about my relatives hating on me. But sleep is the last refuge I have. Wish I could sleep forever.
Sometimes I have weird feelings non-existent in real life. Some are comfy, some feel like chewing razors. But all dreams better than what lies outside of them.

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 16:36:55 No.304071

>>304068
>I drank four beers yesterday and took a sleeping pill,
You are brave.
I once drank one (1) beer because I forgot that I took my sleeping pill, and I basically skipped from a pleasant buzz stage straight to the "drank two liters of vodka" hangover.

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 16:38:09 No.304072

>>304060
See you tomorrow.

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 19:45:58 No.304076

>>303254
I'm so fucking mediocre at everything, I hate this fucking shit. >>303254

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Suicide general Anonymage 12/07/24 (Sat) 20:38:05 No.296511 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.

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Anonymage 11/07/25 (Fri) 00:36:19 No.303931

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>>303921
>digitalis and amitriptyline
Don't its neutralize each other effects?

Anonymage 11/07/25 (Fri) 05:45:29 No.303937

>>303931
Thank you for this image
*side walk*

Anonymage 11/08/25 (Sat) 09:20:45 No.303961

>>303734
same but I just ended up with the crisis team, I'm thankful I didn't get sectioned in hindsight tbh

Anonymage 11/09/25 (Sun) 00:28:02 No.303969

Ideally I’d like to go out in a very violent, painful but also fairly quick way, any suggestions wizards?

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 17:14:03 No.304075

Is it really possible for me to kill myself by inserting a fork into the socket on the wall, or is this just a meme?

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Wageslave General Anonymage 10/26/25 (Sun) 18:31:53 No.303736 [Reply]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811

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Anonymage 11/14/25 (Fri) 23:01:09 No.304038

>>304000
Your answer is very much appreciated.

>Treat productive hobbies like they are as serious as work. In fact it is more serious. One is working for someone else. The other is working for you to make your life better even if only in a subjective sense.

This is so obvious that I think I've forgotten about this when the grinding started. I was always thinking and worried that there is no way I would ever be able to have a job and keep it for a longer because I'm too broken, but I think it's pretty stable right now and I have a secured position and I shouldn't worry about this anymore and can finally start to care about myself again when work time's over.

>Instead of treating life like an unused rounding error on the side of work, treat work like it is a temporary deviation from life.

Very well put and I'm stuck at the first version of this sentence. In fact my private life feels just like waiting for work again. That's not bearable for many more decades.

>Get some productivity software.
>I wish I could share the software I use but it's not very self explanatory.

The way you make it mysterious makes me wonder what exactly you mean. This year I bought a DAW for music composition and mixing but I haven't even used it for 5 minutes. That's what I would start with, I guess that's one option what you meant when talking about productivity software.

Anonymage 11/15/25 (Sat) 15:38:05 No.304044

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>>304035
cardboard? cool.
I have an idea: put "inner" side of the cardboard towards the street and "outer" - the one with the writings - towards the room

why: looks less obnoxious

Frankly, I never realized I could simply cardBOARD my wndows rather than splurge $$$ on blackout curtains. In 2022, however, I got cheap yet efficient blackouties from an online marketplace and not IKEA. They still do the job.

Anonymage 11/16/25 (Sun) 19:17:37 No.304056

Keep getting headaches at work. I hope it gets so bad that I get a stroke so I can claim benefits, or it just fucking kills me.

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 07:22:35 No.304062

>>304056
Make sure to avoid paracetamol tablets overdosing as paracetamol may poison your liver up.

Thats an unironically good reason for you to see a state-paid doctor or start asking Grok/DeepThink for possible causes of your headaches - what if you have a *generalized* headache caused by caffeine overdosing and ruined sleep hygiene? That'll help your employer to brush your "claim" off.

Anonymage 11/17/25 (Mon) 07:23:48 No.304063

>>304056
>>304062
>Make sure to avoid paracetamol tablets overdosing as paracetamol may poison your liver up.

I mean, it's /dep/, yes, but even that "claim" "benefts" part may fall apart due to judge taking parace'-poisoned liver into consideration.

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Neurotypicals said I'm too quiet and want to fire me Anonymage 08/04/25 (Mon) 22:56:29 No.302042 [Reply]

I literally got top employee performance of the year two times in a row for exemplary performanceby corporate (not to mention I do unpaid overtime)

And yet because I don't participate in their coffee room gossip and office bullshit (mind you these people are about 20% as productive as me) they want me to lose my job because I don't "match the energy of the community".

Do I just have to suck it up and kms, before I become homeless? Since without a salary that's going to be within 12 months.

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Anonymage 09/28/25 (Sun) 02:06:28 No.303129

>>303128
so much for southern hospitality

Anonymage 09/29/25 (Mon) 10:45:08 No.303159

>>303128
Sounds like Tennessee people are "blokes", still holding to that settler mentality of trusting people from their "family" and treating people outside of the "family" in crew's disposable way.

Anonymage 10/27/25 (Mon) 13:56:01 No.303757

Let them do it. Do not suck the dick of mental exhaustion.

You might break all the same, they might hate you even more for your cowardice, remember they are irrational beasts

Anonymage 11/16/25 (Sun) 19:04:08 No.304055

As a wildlife researcher lives around and studies wild animals, so should you, fellow wiz. Why do the most insane thing of being around beasts and not learning their culture and customs?

Anonymage 11/16/25 (Sun) 19:22:39 No.304057

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>>304055
talking to norpers is draining and depressing

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