/dep/ - Depression

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?

If you are hopelessly depressed and lonesome, you simply need a mu-opioid agonist to rectify this state of affairs and make you feel connected and whole.

Opioids are literally the chemical of social attachment, and this becomes evident shortly after you take one.

Obviously do not abuse them and take them at the lowest effective dose, and you can be like me and treat your depression for years without trouble.

Has anybody else here had experience with them?

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.

Lookism has become a public, popular topic lately on the internet and I believe that it affects wizards in very tangible ways.
Being a genetic dead end ugly loser myself I suffer for it even as a now "middle aged" man.
One would think such things are left behind in high school or something, but no.

You queue up for a service, government office for some paperwork, a cash register at a store, post office or hell even medical services.
You can tell the people before you were treated kindly. At worst processed in a neutral way.
Some even receive a cheerful response and the help they need, people go above and beyond for some.
Then it's your turn at the line.

A look of disdain follows immediately. Quiet. No "what can I help do for you" "what can I help you with" "what is the purpose of your visit".
Silence. Faces contort…
Sometimes a sigh, sometimes some snide remark. Clear hostility.

A shift in demeanor so noticeable, so obvious, so visceral… (yet to them likely natural) that even the thickest of autism wont help you stay oblivious to it.
You get mistreated, worse service, denied service you paid for, medical gaslighting, humiliation over and over again.
Networking is impossible for you, who by your mere acquaintance devalue their status.. and without connections, being treated like this, only having the "official route" as an option you soon realize you might not be able to get anything done.

After much pushing, repeated humiliations and humbling yourself, matching your demeanor to that expected of "your ilk" some old lady at the register might take pity and process your request, prescribe your medication, refer you to a proper doctor.
Sometimes the stars do align like that and you make a step towards a slightly less miserable state of being.

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I feel like the last few years have passed so quickly, every day I spend alone, isolated, but it's okay, every problem I face, fatigue, failure, sadness, and so on, I've been through every day, but hey, I'm still here until now and it seems like I've made peace with my mental problems, maybe I'm used to facing it alone without the help of others, I feel like depression is part of my routine and part of my personality, but I'm happy

I'm already in a bad position. I'm a 29 year old Zoomer. My parents are mid range boomers. Even if they were somewhat normal there would be so much of a divide that it would make any common ground unreasonable to expect. However they are mentally ill. That was the excecution shout after I was already on the ground cowering and blown to pieces.

My father: Total naive nimrod. He could be in the middle of a South American prison yard with everyone giving him death stares and sharpening their blades. He'd be smiling like an idiot and ask "Do you mexican fellas like tacos?" "I have a lot of money back at home, I like to buy nachos!". He leaves his car RUNNING and unlocked as he spends hours in the shopping centre. His car has been stolen atleast 10+ times. He's no longer able to be insured, yet he still does this. He's dropped an easy 150k+ in stolen cars that could have been idk, not wasted? I swear his awareness IQ is easily like 10~25. He gives everyone money but his own family.

MY mother: She's even worse, she has all the same qualities as my dad but she's also mumbling to herself non stop. She talks 24/7 and that isn't a joke. She will have an hour long rannt at me about checking the mail box "I checked the mail, or did i? I didn/t wait no i did but i dont remember or did i did i? there was no mail or was there? there is mail? when is mail?" Literally just that on repeat, if she isn't talking she is grumbling to herself NON FUCKING STOP!!!!!!!!! why cant she shut the fuck up

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

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I was so depressed that I was emotional and my hair was messy, making me bored and even more depressed, plus my parents' daily nagging, so today afternoon I went to the barber and asked the barber to cut my hair in a cyberpunk 2077 style and I was happy to see the results and they didn't disappoint. I was seen as strange by other people but I didn't care, I thought my hair was cool in this cyberpunk style, bald on the sides but the top hair and bangs were left long i like my new hair cyberpunk hair because im depressed but i like my new hair.

if only killing yourself would be easy. If only no one cared for me, if only I cared for no one. If only I didn't make nobody sad if I killed myself. I wish suicide did not arm anyone who cares for me, if only killing myself was releasing of the soul. The chains tied to this earth are linked to the people I don't want them to be sad because of my death. if it was this easy…I'd do it anytime soon, but halas, it's a painful and selfish act

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want