/dep/ - Depression

I have become increasingly depressed at the state of discourse about almost any subject. Look at the opinions of most people and discuss their reasoning with them; they do not really have reasons based on experience or logic. They are just saying things they think are normal to say. They imitate others. They understand the world through memes. Zero actual curiosity or critical thinking skills when it comes to discussion of politics/culture/history/science/art. Everyone just parrots what they think others think. They think in memes. Partly to fit in and achieve social acceptance and partly just monkey see monkey do like a child or animal.

Democracy is a failure because most people have no idea what they are voting for or what the consequences will be. They just follow the cultural memes. The internet has exacerbated this. Most people’s political views or views on the culture are just glorified SIX SEVEN repetitions - people have no good justification for any of the ideas they follow.

It might sound arrogant and supercilious to say these things. I worry that I am not that different and I just copy things sometimes by instinct. Makes me wonder if the self even fucking exists and we are just biological self replicating robots copying things.

Depressing. Enraging.

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.

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>>306157

I've seen this discussed in many threads so I made a thread for it. Many wizzies had had their life destroyed by psychiatric medication be it SSRI's, antipsychotics, benzodiazepines or others. A psych ward stay tends to leave you worse off. Some people get abused in psychiatric institutions. Mentioning you are sad and thinking about suicide to a doctor or nurse can get you forcefully restrained and tranquilised.
I'm suicidal but I avoid any medical help precisely for this reason.

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.

I am not even that horny, a lot of the days I force my self to do it while not even being in the mood for it, it's just the most effective way for me to cope, masturbation is free, gives you instant pleasure and can burn for you many hours at the time, there are times when i find my self touching myself just so I can use it as a way to distract my self for my anxieties and negative thought loops, as soon as i start touching myself all my anxiety and negative emotions start to dissolve as much as i hate and it hate how much i overdo it, i can't deny it makes getting through my days easier when i can just touch my self for many hours instead of just sitting there being miserable feeling hollow bored to tears and empty or anxious and overthinking at worse, my point here is that I believe the addiction for me is a mere sympotom, something I use to escape my negative feelings and the emptiness of my daily life, thanks for reading my blogpost

new internet of over 10 yrs now… is it me or there is nothing left to talk about?

Ok i gonna give you some advice around hypnosis and mind (the thread of magick tech have some info books and etc around this)
>how its works?
Just imagine a kid waking up by her mom/father/tutor in the morning yelling out him with insults while maybe hit the kid, this kid will have the day ruined maybe with bad humour and negative ideas (imagine this everyday, of the childhood) and it will feel like a total piece of shit, the other personal thing of this kid doesnt matter for now but get the outcome.
now compare this to a kid waking up by her mom/father/tutor with a warm -good day, today is a good day!- in a soft loving tone voice while try to maybe hurry the kid a little or help the kid to wake up (or even try to wake up the kid with more time to not hurry you too much)

These two kids in the waking up (even adults) are incredible suggestionable, just imagine who of the two will have a more good outcome in the day, and even in the next day if the first phrases they listen when wake up and enter in the mind are like
-Wake up little piece of useless meat-shit asshole fuc…! hit and yell the kid*-
and
-Good morning, honey, kiss in the forehead while some family touch* its a warm day, wake up you need to go to prepare for school!-
You get it?

>Mind Hygiene
Try to no listen to sad music, sad pop music etc (lana del rey, billie eilish and etc)
Try to no listen to sad music before bed/before sleep/when wake up
Try to no listen to music that trigger rumiation or bad sad ideas, even before bed
Try to no listen sad music when you just wake up (you still can listen happy energy music)
Try to no rumiate before sleep or have bad sad ideas bacause maybe you can wake up with that idea in mind in the wake up and this maybe can ruin your next day
Try to no watch sad or deppresive things in media, or get straight out of the media and ignore it
Try to listen to happy energy music in some activies to make a constant trigger for you when you need it (the same sad trigger of music can be made with a happy trigger of energy happy music)
Try to NO have negative ideas or rumiation when you just wake up (next tip explain it why and how to use this in a positive way around hypnosis) and if you got into it, try to use a reality check technique later i mention
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Buddhism just straight up ends the subject/object split and dependent co-origination makes the whole illusion of a permanent self or creator god look like the retarded cope it is while Christianity is still stuck LARPing with its sky daddy judging your jerkoff sessions and promising eternal torture for not believing in the magic carpenter. The eightfold path dissolves the whole mess without needing some jewish blood sacrifice ritual to "save" your immortal soul from original sin bullshit that never even happened. Every time some midwit starts yapping about how le based trad christianity built the west I just remember how their dualistic garbage keeps people chained to craving and aversion like retards chasing their own tail while the dharma lets you actually see through the aggregates. Fuck this gay earth and its endless rebirths of this same midwit argument.

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

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>>296511

I am really tired
How can I find happiness independant of other people?
I cant deny I feel the need for connection, but it always ends poorly for me