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 No.303032[Reply]

I believe if you are on here then like myself you believe yourself to be a deeply flawed person on such an advanced level that the idea of finding someone on a romantic level is not even in the realm of possibility, and friends are very temporary visitors in the world of adulthood. This is all well and good but I am looking at,at least 30 more years of this. How are the fellow wizzies coping without basically falling into a spiral of self pity and resentment? I would like to ideally just think "it is what it is.. some people are meant to be the outcasts" but I am having difficulty when looking at the stretch of time I am going to be feeling lonely in. How do other sorcerers and sages feel when confronted with this idea of a decades of loneliness ahead?
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 No.304717

>>303037
>I stopped wanting friends when I observed that I actually felt more miserable being around others, it's very hard to form true friendships past college when everyone is busy with life and most turn into uninteresting normalfags way before that anyway.
Brutal but true. The only time when I wasnt a loner was when I was 18/19. I went to a lot of house parties, met a lot of new people until I realised that these are only surface-level "friendships" and that I actually dont really have much in common with these people. This experience was both good and bad. Good because it made me appreciate the lifestyle of a loner much more. Bad because it basically destroyed any hope of a better and less lonely life.

 No.304718

>>304713
Don't need to turn down a whore. I have spells dude. Wards. She won't even notice I exist and she does, I will make her life a living hell.

 No.304719

>>304717
>went to house parties
Congrats you're a failed normie or a crab, doesn't matter which. The wizardly blood runs in the veins and manifests and the age of 4-6. Please go rediscover your social skills, get friends and be happy.

 No.304720

>and the age of
at

 No.304723

>>304719
My whole life ive been an autistic and depressed loner that couldnt really connect with normalfags. This one year, when I was around 18/19 was the only exception. But as i said before, I realised that I have little in common with these people and that it is not possible for me to establish a deep connection with them.. They probably also realised that and stopped inviting me at some point. So no, I wouldnt call myself a failed normie



 No.304425[Reply]

is there any job a retard like me can do? my life situation is fucked beyond any comprehension. generally speaking, i dropped out of society at 18 and now im 29, my education level is the lowest possible(i doubt 1% of ppl even have this low in my country) and even cleaner jobs require higher education than mine. But I desperately need money as everything is falling apart in my life because I have no money to fix it. The only thing I ever succeeded at was investing(not a joke) but I have no capital and I have infinite expenses and debts. I'm not from the US, just middle of the shithole of 3rd world country Poland. Locally, most jobs here are either 'customer advisor' or whatever u call them, where u work at some store and are supposed to be a salesman there. Or some backbreaking physical labor that there's no way I can do. Idk, i'm just barking at the moon here. I'm simply completely stuck in an insane situation, and I can't do anything, because I have no money and no way to make any. I'm really losing my mind over this. Soon I'll die because I can't afford healthcare while I have 99 diseases and social help doesn't exist here, or they will lock me up in a psych ward forever because I can't stand the pressure. Sorry if this post makes no sense but really, i'm just rambling everywhere I can because I just can't stand it anymore. My whole family is dying from their own diseases and their own decisions. I don't want to pointlessly talk about my life situation but it's more insane than anyone can imagine.
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 No.304691

I am from Belarus, its way more 3rd world than Poland, waaaay more.

 No.304693

>>304691
Is it true they tax NEETs in Belarus? lol Not enough they don't give you bux but they demand money from you if you don't work, sounds horrible if true.

 No.304698

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>>304693
They tried, but after the protests and the fact that this piece of crap paid 10% of Neet, they're now removing some "state benefits" I've never seen, like cheap household gas (I don't have gas at home, only electricity). They're also thinking about removing free healthcare, but almost everything here was paid for anyway. So, personally, it doesn't matter to me anymore; there's nothing to take away from me, because I have nothing and never had anything in this so-called life.

 No.304702

>>304691
its objectively true with the giant gdp gap

 No.304722

>>304429
>looking for a warehouse worker job
I also trying to find a job right now, after being only at home for 5 years. My plan is to find a warehouse job because they dont require much knowledge and, as a social phobe, Im unable to work as a cashier or in similar roles. The main problem is that after 5 years nearly every day at home my stamina is basically zero and there are literally no muscles left in my arms. I dont know if Im even capable of working in a warehouse, but since Im a social phobe who is incredibly bad at maths, I dont really have many alternatives.



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 No.301325[Reply]

>Join discord server
>Too nervous to talk to anyone and make friends
>Become a lurker and feel sad when I see others make connections and friends
>end up leaving the server

Any tips to help stop this dilemma?
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 No.302846

>>301325
>Too nervous to talk to anyone
This is the dilemma. It has nothing to do with discord. You have to get over this first. Just do baptism by fire and go against all your instincts that tell you to be withdrawn. It's difficult but you gotta do it. Just as an example, my situation went like this:

>randomly playing tf2

>get a pm from someone who thought I had a funny username
>decide not to ignore him, larp as a normalnigger and make jokes I thought were unfunny but he liked them
>asks me to dm him on discord
>download discord and make account
>continue larping as a normalnigger, asking questions and being sincere even if I didn't really care at that point
>get invited to discord clan of like 5 people
>kinda nervous but fuck it can't back out now
>say hello, other guy introduces me to the group
>theyre all italian
>guy who introduced me has to leave, now alone with 4 strangers, very nervous now
>they are all very friendly and open, seem genuinely interested in meeting me
>ask them questions and shit too
>now they're all glad to talk to me when I appear
>no longer have to larp

It's just luck really, and I'll readily admit that I got lucky, but you have to take what life gives you. If I hadn't randomly decided to be outgoing and put in some effort I now wouldn't have 5 italians to yell at me whenever I tell them about my woes. Since you're desperate for normalfag things like friendship, you're gonna have to be a bit of a normalfag first. Fake it till you make it I guess?

 No.303759

Stop chasing normalretards and embrace the void. Friends are found, not made, what you see in them as "building" relationships is merely the display of already preset compatability between them. You must embrace the solitude and make it your home. Give no excuses, be weird and avoid whatever situation of stress you might fall into, do not try to keep up with them.

Do not chase. Go there, cause some havoc and get away with it. See them for what they are, a poison to you.

Or is it that you might take pleasure by what they say? Of course not, you just have this shithole "need" for fitting in. But that is not the way, no matter what logic says.

Rather get inside the server and judge the retarded words of some of them. Being critic boosted my mood highly better than any approval received by normies. Imagining such conversations as sand castles to be destroyed.

Or rather reject the whole situation. When something is meant for you, no effort is felt, no struggle nor anxiety for fulfulling roles you are not made to fulfill. Learn where you really belong and avoid everything else.

Stop selling yourself around like a retard. No excuses.

My lvl is 32 btw.

 No.304714

>>302454
>>302834
>I can already see a world of rogue AIs roaming the Net

True, that would've been hilarious - people cannot bulli, but some random E.I.R.I.Neural can

 No.304716

I'm not sure how to break past this point really, if you don't know what to say you just sit there in dead air which is a painful negative feedback loop that's hard to break. I've been in a few discord game communities the past few years and it's been the same experience. I try integrating but things do not click, always have an empty mind so nothing to say. After a while of trying I end up drifting apart because the pain of vc outweighs the fun I get from playing together. Before discord you could comfortably have text-only internet friends but now everybody you meet will escalate to vc at some point. I haven't met anyone else online and have just been in isolation for a while.

So yes I am also stuck with this, I suspect its because I could be currently retarded and need to find ways to train myself linguistically

 No.304721

>>302838
There are some giga wizards using discord but none of them that I know of use any discord servers.



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 No.300505[Reply]

have you ever been told you had no personality? I was told that when I was a kid. it hurts. one day, I asked the psychologist I was told that and if it was true, she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said. I believed her but now I'm thinking I don't have a personality and people without personality exist and she was wrong (she maybe just said that to make me happier about myself).
I noticed I was a contrarian and thats my whole personality:being contrarian. but everybody can be contrarian therefore it's not a real personality, and so I have no personality. damn it suck being a NPC (I hate that buzzword).
I'm not telling you how to get a personality because it would be fake and it will show, I don't know maybe I just want to know your reactions over this. maybe you too was told you had no personality and can relate to this post and feel like a NPC too.
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 No.303838

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>>303823
My best guess is, I have facial features of a boxer despite my actual build of coach potato lazy bum. Therefore, te cool dude kinda tried to tell me its remarkable how a large fella ended up being so humble

 No.304674

>have you ever been told you had no personality?
>she said that's not true because some people do that just to put you down, she said.

1. true, that's what trolling is
2. Extroverts vs introverts, I suppose.

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>>300509
cool quote

i sit from his memoires or from some of his novels?

 No.304686

Yep. By losers who had no personality themselves. Just looked down on them and went back to my tower of sorcery.

 No.304709

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>>304686
mukyu to that
based and wizpilled



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 No.299518[Reply]

I can't move on. Everyone already did but I can't. Nobody remembers me. Trying to reach them is pointless, they avoid me like the plague. My parents told me lots of anecdotes from when they were young. They had friends and an extended family, they went on adventures, they cried and laughted, they grew up with lots of friends. They don't see them much nowdays but if they see each other on the street they cheerfully greet them. Their friends are happy to see them. Mines aren't. I dream about them everyday. Some of them, the original duo from my late childhood, I haven't talked to them in almost 15 years. The others, more "recent", haven't seen them in 10. Time keeps marching on. I stay the same.
I wonder, if I kill myself, will they attend my funeral?
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 No.303220

>>303205
I can relate to that so much. im in my 30s but all my dreams are of HS or MS. Its not like I didn't do anything in college. but no one has ever voluntarily spent any time with me. so my only interactions are in school. and its just not the same in college, where you might have a class just once a week.

K-12 was the only time in life i interacted with the same cast daily, so my dreams still use it as my plots. and if i live to 90, it'll do the same

 No.304086

>>303200
funny shit is, I both used to be a lolcow-like derp and used to accidentally inspire people to make and spread memes.

Feels… "life achievement" tier when I remember the memes of my era

 No.304089

>>303220
wtf
watch cartoons
watch 1994 movies

 No.304658

>>299520
> I'm so afraid of living.
Me too, sometimes I feel the same :(
I don't know exactly what will happen to me. I don't know anything. I am afraid of thinking about how i'm going to end up

 No.304704

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in my country we have a saying "i would cutt of my arm if it hurt me" just like the story of the boy who had a flood in his village and his foot got stuck and the water level kept rising and rising but no one could save him , well that's because he couldn't sacrifice his foot , you should give up your foot too ,these whack losers that were merely a part of your memory chose to cut off their arms, you should do the same too . sad thing is i am experiencing what you are expericing altho i am prolly 20/15 years younger then you , i can allready tell i won't be having a life time friendship or atleast a 5 year friendship sorry for bad spelling



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 No.304361[Reply]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.304692

>>304689
You can only signalfag if your values are shared by the majority. If you represent fringe values then you can't "signal" anything. Virtue signalling is about trying to cater to herd morality and getting positive feedback from the herd because you tried to stand up for the herd's values.
"Vice signalling" as you put it doesn't work because you don't get approval, maybe from some similar-thinking guys but that's a tiny minority and most of the time you end up arguing with others.

I just call what I'm doing devilposting/satanposting instead. 666, create more misery and chaos and the world will be more interesting. Fuck peace and happiness.

>>304687
Now THAT's just pure evil, actually. If there is something I don't tolerate then it's sadism towards animals. Those kids and their blackmailers deserve to get skinned alive.

 No.304694

>>304692
>I just call what I'm doing devilposting/satanposting instead. 666, create more misery and chaos and the world will be more interesting. Fuck peace and happiness.

Not him but I'll only believe and respect you if you pull an Elliot Rodger.

 No.304695

I am horny, tired and manic at the same time, my dick hurts because I already jerked off multiple times. This is a pretty wild sensation ngl

 No.304696

>>304694
My Twisted World was one of the best reads of my life, ever, like it's one of my favorite books. The guy should have lived and written more books. He really had something going, I'm saying this without irony. But no, he just went ahead and killed some people in the most boring way and ended up killing himself. Wasted potential.

Back to his writing, I could relate to him in lot of ways but obviously the guy was kind of an asshole too, planning to kill his little bro just because he'd be better looking than him. (Actually, Elliot wasn't bad looking either. He was also functional in the sense that he wasn't a complete autist, he went to uni or college and drove a car, etc. He could have gotten a gf easily if he just went to some succubus and asked her for a date or something but he was too retarded and thought life was some anime where you are the male mc and all the succubi flow to you automatically.)

If I am ever to imitate criminals then I would try to imitate serial killers tho, picking off normalfags and succubi one by one stealthily is more fun than just going Rambo against the world and getting shot in an hour or so. (Of course I'm a law-abiding citizen so I'd never do anything like that, FBI guys if you are reading this I was just joking, haha.)

 No.304697

>>304696
Yes his fame rests more on his book than his actual killings, and its main success was in drawing attention to his book. More successful but lesser known killers have been crab followers of his, citing his book.

Unlike Mitchel Heisman, who killed himself, but no victims, to draw attention to his academic philosophical footnoted Suicide Note, which got very little attention.

But ER's book is best enjoyed when read in the nasally, cartoony, whiney, dopey voice of Mumkey Jones.



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 No.302609[Reply]

The costs of lives burdens is meant for the backs of two so how does one prosper alone?
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 No.304665

sounds like some cheesy love song title

 No.304667

You have at least one other dude in your head. God has foreseen it all. Go meditate.

 No.304668

>>304667
funny thing is, there is a theory each hemisphere of human's brain actually has 2 consciousness, not just one (they used to "treat" seizures by cutting up a part of brain. Bam! 2 different personalities in charge of 2 halves of body, limbs and such)

 No.304681

sure, alone we crumble.

 No.304683

>>304681
I have only been growing stronger. Cope harder.



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 No.303889[Reply]

>Were you emotionally neglected as a child?
I wonder if this led me to become who I am now, at least in social settings.
I have no idea if I suffered from this, although I remember times when I was told not to cry, or I got used to not crying over silly things that perhaps maybe weren't silly for a child.
I read those internet ads about caring for parents and children, and they recommended hugs, affection, and not denying children's pain and suffering, and that the best thing is to get it off the emotions of their chest or body.
but if this doesn't happen, then they build up a shell, armor, or something like that because they mask or hide these emotions automatically out of pure habit and training. and later they will have trouble releasing their emotions from their bodies. Babies and toddlers do this naturally when they cry.
>Also
I can't remember the last time I cried with all my might or something like that.
I wonder if this led me to be the way I am now, at least in a social way. I wonder if I can treat it. I read from an anon that some of these things can only be treated with love. But the truth is confusing.
Maybe my brain is already like this, although I read that the brain can change, as can one's habits and feelings.
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 No.304673

>>304672
>They are only helpful to better choose the appropriate behavior for a social setting
Please elaborate. Especially if you have an MD on a related field (srsly lol)

 No.304675

>>303889
>>304666
>Refrigerator mother theory
<ItS aLl In Dee aNN Ayy

ugh


This article is a bit too one-sided, claiming autism is mostly a DNA problem, e.g. "genetical" according to "modern consensus".

This article fails to elaborate on the idea how experiencing stress from living among conflicting parents can "install" autism-like behaviour patters of the quiet kit type of school student by overloading a kiddo's head with conflicting information: dad this, mom that, thn they [[Fatherlessness|break up]] - oh, DNA problem, obviously.

 No.304676

>>304673
If your emotions are sad make a sad face so that the normalfag doesn't waste his life calling you a psychopath.

 No.304678

>>304672
>"nah" followed by a bunch of 'wrong on purpose' low-effort trolling
Still? After all of these years?

 No.304679

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>>304676

EDITED
Makes some sense, m8

Makes some sense.. "Normies" hate what confuses them and what they don't seem to understand. Something something herd mentality.

>>304678
point taken, but this one has "a troll being itself" vibe: Comrade Troll decided to tell us controlling own emotions = good (as long as it can help us gain some control over our lives)



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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.304649

I’ve tried a lot of anti depressants and not one of them helped me except amisul pride at 200mg. Amisul pride makes your brain retain more dopamine at low doses kinda like giving you a bigger battery. The other meds just brought my lows up and highs down and squashed me into a monotonous bore.

 No.304651

>>304646
A jew is shitting in front of my door every week. I want to kill myself because of this. If I caught hum I'd fucking crush his neck, but he's too smart. Fuck jews.

 No.304661

>>304619
Well, could be your problem is unrelated to the meds, Idk. Male impotence can be caused by psychological things too, just low self-esteem or shitty moods. I can talk by experience, when I have periods during which I feel powerless/weak/a loser then my dick is softer and it's harder for me to get an erection but when I experience some success in some form in life I can get hard-ons that last for hours and can cum like a volcano. Your self-image counts A LOT when it comes to sexuality as a male.

Anyway, if you are sure it's the meds that caused this then sue them, get that money. Money is always good, especially if you didn't work for it, trust me, youngwiz.

>>304646
>pornography, abortionism, lgbt, contraceptives
These aren't necessarily evil though you are right jews push these things or use them for their own ends or to earn more money.

Enjoying sexuality in some way, whether it's masturbation/watching porn or another way and discovering new things isn't bad, it's a natural thing to enjoy life as much as you can. But when people start to assume identities like lgbt ones and make them their central core identity then it will end up with less white children. There is nothing wrong with porn itself or enjoying gay porn, only if you adopt some shitty stereotype that comes with this.

Abortion and contraceptives can be useful if the people in question have some diseases that could be inherited by their children or if we are talking about non-whites then by all means these things are good.

 No.304670

>>301262
>It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.


vent your apartment
go to sleep early
wake up early

 No.304671

>>304651


r u sure its not some Jordan with some Afghan Borzoi doggo pet?
set up a cam



 No.297753[Reply]

How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?
I basically don't feel pleasure from anything except food, maybe. Stories, games, art don't really touch me at all and it sucks because I remember how much I loved escapism before and how it brought excitement, joy, sadness etc. Now it's all blank. I want to bring emotions back, want to bring excitement, joy, even sweet sadness would do honestly, I miss being profoundly sad.

Have any of you managed to revert to your older non-anhedonic self?
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 No.302012

>>297753
I have found out eating 5-htp sometimes + consuming tyrosine-rich foods (kasha, bananas) helps me.


Context: seronotin is made of 5-htp in body

dopamine is made of

 No.302015

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>>297753
Amphetamines and cold showers

 No.302030

>>302012
>>302012
>dopamine is made of
tyrosine


also, I asked PerPLX AI to rework my text in "Crowdon Londoner" style:
Bruv, you know there’s bare tyrosine in bananas and buckwheat, innit? And listen — buckwheat porridge, slap a bit o’ gravy on, that hits different. Proper jokes though, ‘cause it’s like the stuff don’t even wanna be porridge in the first place!

 No.303369

>>297753
I tried drinking fuckton of coffee ever since. Did NOT work properly. Allows me to function in some half-hearted/half-assed way (aka posting stuff on Wizardchan instead of doing my work… bak to werk methinks…)

 No.304656

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>>303369
found psychoactive substance abuser



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