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 No.310204[Reply]

I have always suffered in silence. I never speak to others about my suffering—whether it’s my family or anyone else. I have always bottled up my emotional pain. Besides, no one wants me, so there is no point in reaching out to others to build the kind of trusting bond where I could open up. The last time I cried was five years ago; before that, I hadn't cried for six or seven years—or maybe even longer, I can't remember. I am tired of living; I can't take it anymore. I am not strong enough to hold on to life. I just can't manage it. In any case, there are so many people who can't cope and who give up on life—and yet people want to save them? My heart is too heavy; it’s crushing me.
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 No.310207

I'm very sorry to hear this, wiz. I'm not feeling the best today either.

> I never speak to others about my suffering—whether it’s my family or anyone else. I have always bottled up my emotional pain.


You are free to speak here. You'll be given a fair audience.

>Besides, no one wants me, so there is no point in reaching out to others to build the kind of trusting bond where I could open up.


Obviously, this cannot be certainly known. You can always try reaching out; it may go well and benefit you. You cannot know until you try.

>I am tired of living; I can't take it anymore


I spoke the same two sentences in my own mind earlier today.

I am going to shower and then lie down in my bed and try to sleep. Perhaps I'll feel better in the morning.

 No.310213

life is torture, anyone claiming that the purpose of being alive is to fight is a retard, whatever we do it always ends with death, the big issue is that this self-replicating dna molecule is widespread and will keep bringing new people to life so what we can do is to allieviate suffering as much as we can through cope while waiting for the universe to freeze

 No.310214

>>310207
>Perhaps I'll feel better in the morning.
do you feel better? because I don't. during the day, I stress because of my life and the night I'm sad and want to end it all. it's a real torture

 No.310215

>>310204
>I have always suffered in silence. I never speak to others about my suffering—whether it’s my family or anyone else

I feel related. I am in the same situation, so I don't know what to say to you and I don't have a good advise o anything worth it.

 No.310243

>>310204
Life is a one painful rape before death. There's nothing special. A nightmare that'll end, hopefully.



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 No.310238[Reply]

how do some people make it so long.

i dont get it. im always so close to killing myself .

i hate myself .

 No.310240

>>310238
you can spend a very long time close to killing yourself. that last 1% over the edge is a big push

 No.310241

>>310238
Find purpose outside of yourself. Veganism, intactivism, abortion abolitionism, effective altruism

 No.310242

>>310241
>Veganism
That's a great way to make life shorter, and also to cultivate cortisol so it feels worse.



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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

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 No.310227

>>310225
They didnt even work hard either, sratch the surface and you find they spent their entire 20s living like manchildren and then settled down around 30. Just stumbling into a 10 year mortgage. 10 years for a full house, imagine that.

The most subhuman and worthless generation to exist.

 No.310228

>>310225
>>310227
>>310212
>>310199

My dad was born in 1957, will turn 70 next year. When I was a baby he quit his career because some 15 year old brat wanted to troll him, putting my whole family in poverty. Then he abandoned his wife and kids to go abroad to work odd jobs, rather than pursue a career in his specialization (this was in 2005-2008). When he turned 60, suddenly he decided to become a buisnessman to do what he used to when his skills are administrative, not entrepreneurship. Fucking worthless boomer kike. He doesnt have much time but he's a fragile narcissist, he really thinks he's the same as how he eas at 40. Boomers really are all like this.

 No.310236

I wish I had someone to cheer me on, or someone to talk to. I always wish that but what really spurred it on today was my driving lessons. I was going to learn from an instructor, but it was 800 USD for 8 hours. My parent berated me for paying that much money so I refunded it and now, he's teaching me. But it sucks. I'm getting yelled at, treated like a retard – he makes it seem like it's my fault that I can't drive. But man, you never made any effort to teach me. You or my mother, I only learned as much as I have now due to my dearly departed aunt.

It's just so stressful. I went around and cried (whined) about it in other places and the response was just "Uh, shit sucks, get a teacher or deal with it. You're old (I'm 26)." I guess they have a point but it bites. I'm not saying I'm giving up on learning how to drive either, I can bite my tongue. I just wish I had someone to sympathize with me, is all. It's just lonely.

 No.310237

>>310236
In general though I just wish someone cared. I have to cheer myself on constantly. I have to convince myself that I matter and the things I'm doing matter even though it's basically nothing to those that are actually competent. I'm just so tired of having to do this. This makes me sound like a child, I know. But I dunno. I just wish the world could be kind to me instead of me constantly having to make concessions and grit my teeth and justify it.

 No.310239

>>310236
I learned how to drive in my later 20s too. It's more frustrating than most things because you can't legally do it alone, and lessons aren't sufficient by themselves. Most people need minimum a few dozen hours of practice to pass a driving test, the 8-10 you get from a school isn't close to enough even if you luck out and find one of the few schools that isn't a sleazy borderline scam.

My parents would tell me over and over that I needed more practice, but the only way I could get either of them in the car with me was to bait-and-switch them by asking them to take me somewhere and then waiting until we were right outside the car to say I actually wanted to drive there. If I asked them to take me out they'd say not right now, or If I asked them to schedule a time they'd agree but without fail they'd "forget" and go somewhere else 10 minutes before we agreed to leave. And after all the hassle they'd sit in silence and only talk about food the whole drive.

My parents never taught me any of the things that functional parents normally teach their kids. I had to learn to tie my shoes by myself, and it took me so long the other kids at school started making fun of me for being a retard because I was the last one still wearing velcro shoes. I still can't ride a bicycle.


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 No.310116[Reply]

Why there no reason to exist but if you point to it and ask society(any people) why you shouldn't kill yourself, they just ignore you, make fun of you, and exclude you from society ?
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 No.310151

I get why people say that suicide is not an option and people considering it are 'gay and retarded' as second poster put it. I also get why people suicide and why it can be rational. I've been on both sides at different points in my life. I think about it rather as a situational necessity than a decision based action. As such it can't be evaluated as bad or good, weak or strong, legitimate or illegitimate way of ending ones life. It's more of an observable phenomenon that has to be recognised in the same way as the need to sneeze - you try to hold it back as much as you can in specific situations, but when the hard biological process kicks in you can't stop it no matter what. Suicide is as much of a decision as the need to sneeze in situations where sneezing is absolutely not welcome and where you really try to hold it back until you just can't.

 No.310159

>>310120
>There are infinite reasons to exist. Find yours.

And an infinite number of gods to believe in. And boundless possibilities in life. But that doesn’t mean you can believe or do whatever you want, especially if you don’t really want anything and feel apathetic

>Because suicide is gay and retarded. People who stake the idea that suicide is logical should be mocked relentlessly.


Exactly what OP saying about society throwing out anyone who dares to question methods of coping with life or its necessity at all. Even here, people like you hate suicidal people or those questioning the meaning of life. You can't even logically prove that life is necessary you just bully someone who doubts it

 No.310160

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>>310159
>You can't even logically prove that life is necessary you just bully someone who doubts it
Naturally they can't because it's impossible to prove.
This aversion to suicide seems to predicate from some assumption that dying is bad, which is entirely unsubstituted. Either consciousness continues in some form, in which case we cannot know which form that will be, or it ceases to exist. And in the second case there can be no person for whom suicide is a problem. Contrariwise, there can also be no person who benefits from suicide, which is why suicide is a completely neutral act.
Or to put it another way, we can't apply the worlds logic to the concept of nonexistence, which exists outside it's limits.

 No.310171

Because we all have that in our superior intelligence that is above the logic and words. If anyone cannot catch them it's cuz he/she is dumb human being. And we all will make fun of you.

 No.310235

>>310171
You can literally apply that "reasoning" to any opinion or view imaginable and thus so can those who disagree with you. Thus it's contradictory and makes no sense.



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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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>>310185
Please do your art verts!

 No.310226

>>310216
me on the left

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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.310219

>>310205
Maybe. I just keep it simple, 2 or 3 things at once, more is just pig food… implying it's not what supermarkets sell us.

 No.310220

>>310219
don't you get bored of eating the same thing everyday

 No.310229

>>310166
During break? Slimjims and protein bars
Lunch is usually frozen meals or noodles

 No.310231

>>310167
I had to step down from being a supervisor because i couldn't stand having to constantly be vigilant for other people's fuck ups; anticipating them and heading them off before they happened. Between that and dealing with my extremely insufferable boss, who punished me with more work when i did what he asked, i just had to step down.
>>310166
free snacks and sodas ^__^
>>310208
my job is to clock in, do nothing for 7.5 hours,run a short"passdown" from the prior shift through chatGPT, alter it, then hit paste.

 No.310232

AI to free us

Free us Ai

Free Us!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



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 No.302164[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.309389

>>309345
Caffeine is poison, but sugar is the body's optimal energy source. You should respect your body's desire for sugar.

 No.309397

>>309389
This is only like 10% true. Careful with sugar.

 No.309704

>>309354
The craves went away after a few weeks (I would argue the soda/caffeine might have even helped in the quitting process) and now things are back to normal.

Next step is to cut out all processed and empty carbs.

 No.309954

alcohol taketh away more than it giveth. a beer or two in the afternoon is fine but the hangxiety from heavy drinking sucks, don't ever let it go that far.

 No.310230

There is no easy way to quit. But like you said eventually it will fuck you up and you will realize enough is enough.


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 No.307023[Reply]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.310162

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i don't have the guts to kms

 No.310164

>>310106
it's nearly impossible to steal narcotics. pharmacies are aware that those drugs are very high theft risks so they're kept in a special safe which has a mandatory timer on it before it opens
if you want opioids so badly you have the balls to fucking rob a store you surely have the balls to just go downtown for 10 minutes and buy some fent

 No.310197

>>310162
I do and I almost attempted last month.
I hope I don't fail my coming attempt.

 No.310209

>>307702
im happy for you that you are this good at running away from the simple things
don't let it backfire

 No.310210

>>307285
going for this too, all information i found suggests a boatload of hangings succeed and it doesnt require much setup
the most fatal type of stroke, the brainstem one, comes from carotid artery blockage and they seem to only really measure the fatality rate through blockages caused by internal complications + medical care and its still up there
to me this suggests that as long as you got a spot you wont be found for a while (personally gonna aim for 24+ hours) there is basically no survival chance
the pain sounds sucky (still worthwhile to read up on and do minor chokes so you dont get caught off guard on what its like) but ofc its real threat is the panic it might induce to save yourself and the chaos that could bring in doesn't sit well with me, i'm still thinking the rest out cuz i'm playing for keeps here



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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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 No.308402

>>308003


I ask a chatbot (cheap DeepSeek, nothing fancy) to be a decent time-managing coach for me and tell DS some tasks off my head… get a timetable… tell DS some more… get a bigger timetable - bam! Now I have a three hour time-table for tomorrow :)

 No.308432

>>308402
Update: it's done and many more

 No.309043

>>303176
I have bought a vial of synthetic vitamind D, diluted in water, thanks to a hint from >>305097

I feel less anxious and not as doomed as before. I think half of my depression is gone.

 No.309197

As a soy/lentils eater, I decided to start eating B12 without even getting tested.

>>307661
Cool. Which brands I should ask my AI assistant? I am going to get something similar.

 No.310202

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Most supplements do not contain what they state are in the bottle, and most are contaminated with heavy metals:

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC7606431/

Even massively popular and common things like protein powders are contaminated:

https://www.consumerreports.org/lead/protein-powders-and-shakes-contain-high-levels-of-lead-a4206364640/

Anything that is powdered or in oil form are subject to being cut with various substances for increased profit margins:

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10570429/

There are endless amounts of studies that look into this — as best as possible, avoid supplements. Get your nutrients from the foods you are suppose to be eating, stop the pizza and refined products, and start eating single ingredient foods in the most whole form possible. Instead of white bread, eat brown rice; instead of protein bars, eat some lentils. This idea is simple, and best of all: cheap.

This is the one area in life where the rich and good fortuned have no advantage over you, in fact they are likely eating very unhealthy themselves despite all their wealth and resources. There are specific diets that are best, but your first and most important step of all is to just begin to eat actual food; single ingredient food, not products, not fast food, not frozen dinners, not packaged goods, not supplements, not oils, not powders, but actual food.



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 No.302003[Reply]

My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.

I have had depression for my whole life adolescence onward, and I was afraid even 5-6 years ago of this day and thought it would be unsurvivable, and now it's here, and I do want to die. I dont want to live in a world where he isn't here with me. The initial shock has worn off and it's sinking in that my best friend is gone, and I'm not going to see him again. My mother is the only other positive presence in my life, because she knew how much I love him. She has stage 4 cancer and it's still unclear if she's going to survive it or not. She's essentially the only reason why I have not shot myself already. She was never abusive or cruel to me, so I couldn't do that to her even though I don't want to live anymore.

Did you ever have an animal that meant this much to you? People are cruel and petty and small. If an animal loves you it's genuine, they dont have ulterior motives or social performance.
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 No.308133

>>308118
Normalfags only keep animals as props. They don't actually value them as friendships, see all the parrots that people get rid of when they get married/have kids and "don't have time for them"

 No.308752

>>308133
I dunno. Apparently, by your logic, cats are non-normie pets then.

 No.310131

>>308752
there's no such thing as normie pets or non normie pets, using "normie" in the disparaging way. Normalfags generally view animals in a really shallow way, which is also how they view people now that I think about it

 No.310175

i had a cat die and as much as i loved him i felt close to nothing when he died, i guess i knew it was coming. i still see him in my dreams from time to time

 No.310201

My cat is that to me. My mom felt sad I have no friends so she got me a kitten. Poor thing had been abused, so her face was mangled. She still has an eye, her ears, and she can eat fine but it took 3k to get her to this point. Worth it. This little creature's kept me alive at my lowest. She waits by the door for me to come home, and either cuddles or brings a toy to play fetch with. She's very good, never eats human food and never gets up on the counter. She wakes me when I have nightmares. She's indoor-only but she's a good mouser, I had to get a dustpan just for her gifts. I appreciate the gesture but I like to leave them outside for some critter that could use an easy meal.



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