/dep/ - Depression

Bro shes 80, she will likely die soon, get dementia or lose all energy to fight. What are you worried about?

You really must have problems if you dont have patience for a literal 80 year old. This is like being mad at a toddler.

this sounds like a very unpleasant situation

@OP
I say ride it out. The numbers are sound, savings are worth the BS.

>>309430
Can't count on it, mine is 91 and still around lol

>>309430

Mine lived to 105.
The length doctors go to keeping the miserable and hopeless alive is astounding, truly. It's like they feed off suffering. Imagine if doctors put half that effort into patients who have lives ahead of them.

>>309395
How does it not make sense? Its literally the plot of Amadeus.

some people just are insufferable and only live to torment others
can't you just block him or filter him or something?

>>309393
>The worst part is that my "envy" has moved from wanting a catalog like his, to having now, in my own estimation, attained that catalog
You mean to say that his demeaning behavior may have contrubted to you succeeding in your goals? Perhaps that's why he does it. He wants to see you shine, and as a man, he goes about pushing you down the right path through keyboard combat. He knows that you know what he can do and he aims to show you how confident and vivacious you too could be once you reach his height.
>to envying his pride and arrogance and self-assuredness.
If you have achieved your goals, then you ought to feel pride. You by all means should self-assure yourself that you are able to do what you put your mind to.
>…as a supposed Christian
>As a Christian I shouldn't…
Stop shackling your healthy male emotions "as a Christian" and instead embrace your them as a tool with which to grow.

There is no shame in envy. To want what others have only becomes a sin when you seek to take it from them. To use your envy as a tool for growth and advancement towards your greater goals, then envy is good.

Not in a hobby but I was the joke at work. The supervisor signed me up for insulting mailing lists for junkmail to my house, sent strange emails from other employee's open computers so I looked like a freak trying to respond to them (people I respected and thought they were having an off day)… I had to quit finally, they guy was unfireable and I wasn't going to stick around for that. I recommend finding another circle of hobbyists: keep the hobby but find another crew.

>>309434
Yeah I used to be bullied by my coworker too. It sucks when you have to go in day after day being called a retard.

>>309370
I am the eldest child within both my immediate, and extended family. As such, I have never had a close relationship with any of my cousins. Still being children, they lack the cognitive powers to place me mentally within the broader social hierarchy, or to single out behaviors and mannerisms that I display that depart from the norm. In some way I do fear the prospect of their ascension into adulthood. Family gatherings are uncomfortable enough as it is at this current moment without being surrounded not only be grown adults but adolescent youths. Oh well, there is still another ten or so years left until they will be there.

I have cousins but I never see them since 7-9 years ago maybe. They used to visit my family when i was a kid, we always had a good relation but they stopped visiting us and we grew apart. I really don't care, I neither miss them.

>>309370
>belittle
I lashed out at them once, they cut all contact with me after that.

Our entire breed is subhumans somehow, so we're comfy right here together!

>>309412
>Our entire breed is subhumans somehow
What do you mean?

>>309237
Just stop taking them.

>>309238
I need to wait until I live by myself. My parents will snitch to my doctor if they know I don't take them anymore. And I suck at lying.

>>309245
>My parents will snitch to my doctor
SO
FUCKING
WHAT?!?

>>301262
just take oxy and u will thank me

>>309268
they don't prescribe it anymore
and besides the new "OP" pills produced by (((purdue))) are complete garbage

>>309403
How often do you go the the gym and get sun?

>>309404
I don't go to gym or go out in sun(I take vitamin D supplements). Part of me thinks that it's too late to go to gym. I have skinny body which makes me look young. But I'm losing my hairs and my skin looks like shit and I have no energy to do anything.

>>309406
>I don't go out in sun
>my skin looks like shit

>I don't go to gym
>I have skinny body

It sounds as if you're purposely trying to make yourself ugly. Not living an active solar lifestyle is the #1 way to make your skin sag and your hair vanish.

>>309408
How much copium did you consume to start believing that sun can save you from balding?

I'm jealous of and resent everybody because I'm a useless piece of junk unable to get anything done.

>>309284
You and me both, wiz. I have a fascination with intellectual topics and a respect for truly great minds, but the last time I tried to sit down and read a book on philosophy I got humbled almost immediately. I'm too smart for normalfags but too stupid to fully break away from them, a niche and acute kind of suffering.

>>309362
What did you read and what humbled you exactly, I've read a few writings supposedly attributed to ancient philosophers but it wasn't anything profound to me tbh

I feel quite smart in some areas but very stupid in others. I can't do maps or directions at all

>>309363
in all probability he tried to read something like Heidegger or Wittgenstein. ancient philosophy is quite a bit easier to understand.

>>308744
The problem of all religion and cultures is tribalism, bitch attention whore behaviour and absolute self importance with late victimism.
All of these things lead to shit nationalism or destruction of self identity or individual identity into the power of political power like "them" against "us"
There's no more "you" just Us.
This allow tribalism and identity identification without reasoning.
Thing like Jew or Nazi or gay or lesbian or Kekguy or Wiz or Crab lead to absolute total acceptante and reduction of Human condition to a artificial tag like these mask or identity or tribals structure, absolute destroying individuality and Human condition.
A mere simulation of ideal forms that never achieve a psychalystic form in the world of matter.
This is the pure manifestation of eucledian logic in modern world, an antinatural thing that lead of destruction of human condition if it got into power or even in the condition of democracy or totalitarian scheme. Its not about diversity, race, racism, inclussion or pride. Its not about nationalism, religion or political ideas. Its about power in the costume of identities.
There's no middle or "no" or "maybe" just the "this is this and its all".
Non-eucledian logic can turn you into a more human and healthy behaviour against this new artificial robot existence of retarded monkey trowing shit against each others based in stupid identities or "i that thing or" "i good and you bad".
When you achieve non-eucledian logic mindset, you achieve a shield against extreme stupid ideas and can get a big panorama of the real existence from matter world.
That the big "Maybe" in the power of human side, this maybe is the ego-death and dual mind in favor of human side against the robots of the future.
Bacause life and human is a process and not a rigid line of tribal and social machinery.

>>308678
why even care what happens with your stuff

I don't think it's absolutely necessary, it depends if you want them to know about something or not. It can be useful if you want them to do something specific after you die, like cremating your dead body, or not sharing the cause of your death to anyone. It's also a good way to say what you were afraid of telling others when you were alive, maybe telling everything you hate about someone or how your parents failed at raising you, etc.
>>308675
Based.

I always felt like suicide note is illogical. The whole point of choosing the way out is that you don't want to deal with life's bullshit and/or impact it in anyway. Why give orientations to a world that hates you? Just leave and say nothing is the non-soy way.

It depends on whether or not you care about the people you're leaving behind. If I ever were to kill myself I'd leave a note just so that I can give my parents some form of closure.
>Most of my family thinks I am useless or lazy.
>they have no introspection on that they are the ones who raised me.
If you dislike them I think killing yourself without saying anything is far more impactful than leaving some note whining about how awful they were to you. Your actions would speak far louder than anything you could write.

>>307765
>normals
aren't people.

>>307804
the blackpill/i-ncel cult is jewish social engineering to force hopelessness in the young male population, which if embraced leads down to two ends:

1. transgenderism (which is ultimately population reduction)
2. suicide (which is ultimately population reduction)

I've noticed this in myself the few times I have interacted with pretty succubi. I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them. I imagine everywhere they go they get the same reactions from people and the world they live in must be so wildly different than the one a loner like me inhabits. I'm not that ugly but I'm depressed enough that my grooming is completely shit and I look like shit so I get a taste of the negative side of it from society, and I also get a taste of it going away when I groom and dress well.

It really drives home the point that humans are just shallow monkeys. You can use that knowledge to your advantage to manipulate people like some politician or CEO, but personally I just find it depressing and want nothing to do with it.

>>309010
It's just the halo effect. How many jimiko anime succubi are drawn versus the generic standard where everything is flawless?

>>309010
>I feel an instinctive urge to just be nice to them.

This is weakness that you should not be suffering from. W/omen aren't even human.

>>308693
I've often wondered what my life would have been like if I had grown up without eating wheat.

>>308779
probably very few people have ever done this.

>>308555
I can't remember feeling ill after eating regular store-bought candies/snacks when I was young either but whenever I do now I feel very ill. It's like all the food has been poisoned.

>>309232
"Mexican mix" (carrots, potatoes, beans, some other vegetables)?

Carrots steamed with seasoning?

Eggs with seasoning?

Bananas?

>>309233
Do you have any good recipes you want to share?

>>309349
How is it God's fault and not your own? You better at least have a debilitating genetic disease to be leveraging such complaints against the almighty.

>>309364
This entire planet, everything on it, is God's "fault".

>>309365
so you deny any responsibility for anything that you do?

>>309364
Every single life, even the most wonderful and happy ones, will result in murder and death, because that's how this world works. So the creator of this reality, if there is any, is to blame for all the torture and pain that happens in the universe. And I would say, he probably enjoys to see us suffer.