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 No.303736[Reply]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.303995

>>303861
my country recently made new laws making disabled people have to find jobs lol. unless you have no arms and legs you can't access aid. Let's say someone has paralyzed legs, he still must find a job somehow

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>>303995
He who does not work shall not eat

 No.303999

I need some advice from long term wage slaves, like 5 years plus. I'm in it for over 4 years myself now. One thing I really can't manage to do is to do something I enjoy or something that is productive after work. Like I have all these tasks or interests I want to pursue but instead all I do is either nothing, waste time with video games that I hate ( I like video games, but I play the most repetitive brain dead slob) or feel miserable and exhausted and dead inside. I want to break the cycle. Is it even possible? How did you do it?

 No.304000

>>303999
Here's what I would recommend. Get some productivity software. Treat productive hobbies like they are as serious as work. In fact it is more serious. One is working for someone else. The other is working for you to make your life better even if only in a subjective sense. But better and best are subjective anyway so that is the only kind of making life better.

Instead of treating life like an unused rounding error on the side of work, treat work like it is a temporary deviation from life.

I wish I could share the software I use but it's not very self explanatory. But there is other stuff out there. Sure none of it is as good IMO. At least not for what I want to do. But something is better than nothing.

When a business wants an outcome they use software. When you want an outcome for your life you should use software. Which is more important. A business getting the outcomes they want, or your life getting the outcomes you want?

If your life is more important, and it is, then it justifies more and better software than they have.

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 No.303254[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.
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 No.303990

Studied a business degree on a whim and two weeks before graduating I realized I don't want anything to do with business. Thought about a bit and I think I might like working at a library. But do I really want to go back to school *again* for a few years and spend another thousands for it? I wish I could just take a volunteer position to get a feel for it but the thing is, it's basically impossible to get one in my country unless someone can get your foot in the door for you. Of course, if I could just back in time I would, so I don't really know what I should do. I feel so stupid for wasting all that time and money on that stupid degree.

 No.303992

>>303990
>business degree
It was a waste of time before but it's even more useless now that people just use LLM for it. It's useless outside of making connections or providing formal qualification to get a job where the employer already likes you anyway.

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>>303362
Please refrain from performing this strange roleplay from now on. RCM has indicated that you might have forgotten to take your meds, and have played to many video games.

 No.303996

>>303992
>making connections
>just use LLM

Hmmmmmm…
"How to use LLM as a substitute to having an MBA myself?" would be quite a prompt.

 No.303998

>>303992
I felt that I had to study something as I was only working dead end jobs, and nothing else at the time really interested me, so I applied for it 2 weeks before the semester started. If I gave myself more time I never would have went for it. My only grace is that since library work consists of a lot of administrative work maybe the business degree might give me some sort of leverage. Maybe not I really don't know


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 No.302609[Reply]

The costs of lives burdens is meant for the backs of two so how does one prosper alone?
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 No.303908

>>302696
Just one look at r/schizoid will tell you that a lot of them (mostly succubi and man-whores who sleep around though) are sex-havers. Being schizoid doesn't mean you don't procreate. Hell, some of them even have children of their own.
Anyway, psychiatry is a fake science and words don't have any meaning anymore.

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>>302696
Sometimes I think i have AVPD (Avoidant personality disorder) but now, i dont know anymore.
Maybe it's just a anxiety problem or a anxiety disorder, you know the Avoidant part problems.
I dont think I have autism.
>Also
Sometimes i just feel out of place, like a alien lol.

 No.303917

Satan made solo life difficult; gotta defeat Satan to make it easy as can be.
God still needs to become God, via Satan's defeat, so you can have the two you need (yourself and God), once Satan is out of the picture.

Existence hasn't had a god or gods since always, and having God and gods would make it all it needs to be.
Omnipotence, omniscience, and omnipresence, would solve all problems and make it all easy for everyone and anyone, and for everything and anything.

This planet, and human society, forced a system of dependence, rather than of independence.

This planet doesn't really support independence at all.

 No.303991

The best and only truly good times in life are when I'm completely left alone and have no duties or responsibilities, no pressure to answer any form of communication. It's always been like that. It's the only freedom existing.



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 No.303398[Reply]

The sole purpose of this post is to share the techniques and books I have accumulated over time to achieve relaxation and other things.
I have read about meditation, magic, ceremonial magic, chaotic and postmodern magic, anxiety therapies, and relaxation techniques. This thread is not a cure for all problems. I don't want to turn this into a blogspot, so feel free to ask whatever you want.
>Also
Remember that you can also search for the techniques I mention on the internet, on YouTube, or on WikiHow, where you can find help on how to perform these techniques and more tips.
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 No.303696

>>303693
I follow Tai chi videos instead. But focusing on a candle in a dark room for 5 minutes might work in your case (low investment of time so hopefully won't fall asleep).

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>>303693
>>303696
>Tai chi videos instead
Somatic exercizes in a way are similar or same (without belief of subtle energy body or use of visualizations) with more focus on the idea of vagus nerve and body trauma liberation tension >>303404
>focusing on a candle in a dark room for 5 minutes
Same as Tatrak, Kasina or wall gazing, Cloud Gazing or variations of same technique >>303400 >>303403
Metta can be a meditation if you get used to it >>303401 same as breath-work box breath >>303399
These techniques can make you be more aware of your body and relax the tension than turn you too much relaxed (and sometimes can turn some tension if you do it bad)
>Meditation posture
you dont need to do any of these lie down or on a Dyana, Burmese, Zen or any pose of meditation, you can do it stand or sit in a chair like westerns.

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>>303467
Well, did any of you try some of the techniques or read any of the e-books here and learn something?
>Also
May you have a peaceful and happy week.

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>>303800
Try
>Nerve Flossing
>Somatic exercises
>Somatic relief exercises (similar to yoga or grounding practices)
In some somatic exercises they simulate tremors (this is used in a pseudoscience alternative therapy TRE-trauma release therapy) and simulate tremors can be very relaxing bacause turn your muscles into fatigue and release anxiety, its like a Stim maybe.



 No.301895[Reply]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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>>303982
You can train humans to be anything because they are endowed with intellect, humans are not simply animals. Nazism is a sad ideology comparable with bestiality.

 No.303984

>>303983
I agree, man. Democrats are fucking animals. They were in favor of slavery, segregation, literacy tests and eugenics and now they are in favor of antisemitism and (white) genocide. Real monsters they are.

 No.303985

>>303984
Sure bro, say that to Roosevelt

 No.303986

>>303985
Which one, though?

 No.303988

>>303636
I'm 33, it never really gets better. You just learn how to deal with pain and emptiness better over time. But then again, the pain and emptiness grows over time as well. Being alive is just one long distraction from death but not all distractions are bad, sometimes distraction is great.



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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.303921

I have digitalis and amitriptyline, but here is the kicker: it's in form of injections. Do you think it would work if I ingest them?
Also, what should I take to knock myself out? I was thinking about taking a whole pack of benzoes and over the counter sleep aids.
It would work as a poor man's heart switch, but without morphine. I can't acess other drugs like that. Although, I have oxyotocine, but I dunno how it would interact with other drugs.
I was thinking about adding beta blockers to lower my blood pressure even further.

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>>303921
>digitalis and amitriptyline
Don't its neutralize each other effects?

 No.303937

>>303931
Thank you for this image
*side walk*

 No.303961

>>303734
same but I just ended up with the crisis team, I'm thankful I didn't get sectioned in hindsight tbh

 No.303969

Ideally I’d like to go out in a very violent, painful but also fairly quick way, any suggestions wizards?


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 No.303847[Reply]

I feel like I have a big black hole instead of my heart. it happens when I'm sad. It 100% comes from my depression for sure. it hurts because it's like someone stabbed you and you can feel the hole and it hurts even more and I get more depressed and I feel like the hole is growing bigger and heavier. it hurts so much when it happens. no hobby can satisfy me to fill the hole. the hole acts like a black hole and absorbs every positive thinking or things.
anyone felt/feels that and how did you overcome it?
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 No.303953

>>303952
I get very mild auditory hallucinations that might actually just be due to an undiagnosed sleep disorder. My only major symptoms that I can identify are ideas of reference and paranoid delusions but only rarely because the antipsychotics actually work most of the time. The side effects kind of suck but they are manageable. I struggled with the condition for years but it's not as bad now. I don't have the focus or motivation that I used to but it might just be me getting old and jaded. My cousin has it bad and has spent decades homeless or in jail.

What is your experience with the condition?

 No.303954

>>303953
>What is your experience with the condition?
it all started in 2018 or 2019 I don't remmber. schizophrenia striked me out of nowhere. I had delirium and had to quit my job at the factory. went 4 week to psychicyard and after coming home I had lot of delirium (I thought my neighbors hacked our devices and where mocking us because of what we do or watch on our devices. these delirium stayes for years. nowdays I feel neutral/a normal state of mind because of years of meds and resting (didn't do anything these years, just resting at home/a NEET another words).
here's my story so far

 No.303955

>>303954
>didn't do anything these years, just resting at home/a NEET another words).

That's kind of what I did. I used it as an excuse to take up a bunch of hobbies and just try to learn any skill. I managed to code a few simple video games during that time. At this point, the ship has sailed on trying to make a career for myself due to AI and the worsening job market but I had fun at least.

 No.303956

>>303955
waoh you made a game,im impressed.
for me, I learned no skills in these resting years. I couldn't do anything, I was too depressed and crying like everyday. i was in a bad mood and the delirium because of schizophrenia. so yeah I developped 0 skills

 No.303959

>>303955
Wiz, don't beat yourself down over AI. The people who care about games would rather play an authentic game made by YOU rather than some quickly made AI game with stolen assests. Same thing with art: people who CARE about art pick a real drawing every time.
Give coding one more try, you have nothing to lose, aren't you? Who knows, maybe in a few years you will develop your skill so well that you would be able to solve complex problems where AI stumbles.



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 No.303944[Reply]

Mother woke up with a face stroke.
im a 34 year old neet/hikkie. But this is a sign i have to become an adult now.
Although it feels like im trapped in a cage, underwater, while screaming.

 No.303947

Kind of similar situation with me. Mom has chronic, debilitating pain and balance issues so I have become a substitute mom basically. I have to do all the chores, yardwork and cooking now. If dad ever becomes disabled, I might as well rope because I don't know how to repair 20-year-old automobiles and shit.

 No.303958

Ask social services to provide an affordable replacement of your mom



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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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 No.303658

>>303564
>Lately I tried a depot that has all amino acids
Care to share what exactly? I'd love to try stuff that works.

 No.303659

>>303658
Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:

L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.

You can put this into an llm to get explanations..

I've been doing this for 13 days and there is a slight difference… but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided, so it surprises absolutely nobody

 No.303660

>>303659
Thanks. I might find something similar in a DM store or something.

>but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided

Same reason I'm thinking basic vitamins worked a bit for me initially. I guess I was so deprived that anything, even low quality stuff helped.
I'm trying an iron pill now, it has 14mg iron 10mg zinc, 1mg copper(?) 1,4mg B6 some B12 and a bit of folic acid.

Doctor wasn't worried, but my blood iron is constantly on the low end so I decided to take this anyways.
Hope for something notable and that they don't mess with my BP meds.
Was drinking 2-3 energy drinks a day for a decade before and was forced to quit… That had B6 B12 too. Maybe this is the key to salvation.

 No.303661

>>303632
Depending on what you mean by "libido problems" pelvic floor exercises could go a long a way.
That was my issue. Now I can jerk it to doujins all day again if I wanted to.
The desire is lower now that I'm past 30 though. Probably natural + dopamine fatigue.

 No.303941

>>303180
what if i'll buy one too…

>>303659
>Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:
>L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.
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 No.303053[Reply]

Today, I learned about a funny mental disorder that is not autism, not retardation, not SCH yet it's a real issue for people who strive for careers and education.

"Adaptation disorder" in some sources, "adjustment disorder" in many other, such as Wikipedia.


>Unlike major depressive disorder, adjustment disorder is caused by an outside stressor and generally resolves once the individual is able to adapt to the situation.


You know, given me mum was so good at torturing me verbally I am not surprised I *may* have suffered from this very thing. I mean, I hold my job, buuuuuuuuut…



>Signs of adjustment disorder include sadness, hopelessness, lack of enjoyment, crying spells, nervousness, anxiety, desperation, feeling overwhelmed and thoughts of suicide, performing poorly in school or work, among others.[12]

>([12]=mayo clinic)

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/adjustment-disorders/symptoms-causes/syc-20355224

I wonder if lenting exaggerates this condition, because it… kida matches. I never had this cool "speaking with entities" perk of a *skit*zophrenic, never had an autist-tier hobby to treat as own safe haven, yet all of the above seems to be just the thing that ruined my college/carrer prospects.
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 No.303322

>>303320
Point taken

 No.303906

>>303053
OP's here. I was crossing a small road today. And instead of a comfy walk, I was standing against a SUV that didn't seem to slow down today. I wasn't scared. I merely had a slight of that DO IT!!!1111 /dep/raved rage - which, however, didn't kick in.

I guess the SUV slowed down automatically due to its sensors, it's a modern one.

Oh and the driver had the nerve to just sit in his car for 20 seconds to memorize my face. Good. Time to shave.

 No.303910

>>303053
>performing poorly in school or work
that's 100% me

 No.303912

Being a murder victim could cause that disorder. Thanks for the info! Had issues with that for all of my life.

Fucking hate people who think they have the right to murder.
Fucking hate absurdity, always.

 No.303939

>>303912
oh, soma killa tried to whack me over a 35$ celly.

Good thing I had a knoife m8, they woulnt rob a elementary school boy, they would do some psycho stuff, good thing I had a knoife m8



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