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 No.305314[Reply]

Was reading "Look Me in The Eye" and was inspired by the phrase, "He'll remember this when he's 40." What are those things that people said to you that you never forgot? Can be positive or negative, recent or distant past.

In 9th or 10th grade, a random succubus who wasn't even in my class said, "There's something wrong your shirt. Everytime I see you there's something wrong with you." I don't know why she was in my classroom, and I never saw her again afterwards. Of course I said nothing like a pathetic slave. They echo in my mind almost 10 years after.
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 No.308212

>>308207
some are lucky enough to be forgotten, I much prefer that than being beaten to a pulp with medical issues etc

 No.308225

>>308206
I mean all his children turned out alright.

 No.310394

>>305314

>"There's something wrong your shirt. Everytime I see you there's something wrong with you."

Unless she had had a schizophrenia onset and she would see "something wrong" in literally everyone; yet you, as a wizard, was the only approachable enough to be told such a thing. You will never learn whether her pills are contraception ones or zyprexa\'peridol ones, though.

 No.310662

>>305317
>while laughing and pretending to be 'lighthearted' as she berates my hardwork or ideas.

>Then my father, laughing at me and mocking me, berating me, just being sarcastic and belittling me whenever I do anything.

My mom is kinder than that, but she puts down everything I like to do… I tell her about my day she's like
>"that's great, but I want you to have fun! this isn't fun. stop working those 2 garbage jobs and get one better job that pays all your bills so you can go out and have fun. no one else I know is suffering like you"

yea gl with that mom you're lucky you dont need to do anything in this world anymore but watch tv. She means well, but she's showing the true nature of succubi.

Dad is straight up just strict mean condescending asshole, rich and works for the gov, but he shares none of it with us. Just tells us to work harder. But as I get older I know he's right about most of the things he's said. anyway, he's got another family, they were all already rich and gov with their boats, they'll probably get his money too.

 No.310668

>>310662
do you hate your dads new richer family? fo they like you?


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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.310645

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I got a free week and I'm not enjoying it in the slightest. I just feel overwhelming emptiness. I tried to play some games, read some book but then, what? I somewhat feel nostalgic and pity myself about my small habits: those book reviews, those effort posts, those pretentious anime analysis that I wrote in the loneliness of my room and that will dissapear into nothingness…
Yet I know that next monday I will dread waking up early again.
Life is a cosmic joke

 No.310647

>>310643
>17 years of walmart and call-center work experience.
you must be crazy. those are two jobs i absolutely could not tolerate doing and for multiple years each. longest ive been at any job is 2 years and im 35. Im close to starting my 3rd year at this job

 No.310648

>>310645
is picrel pesoa? I read the book of disquiet and it was an incredibly comfy kind of depression. he has another book too that i want to read

 No.310656

do you have a dead end job or a good job?

 No.310667

>>310647
I don't think I've ever had any job for more than 2 years. I've had about 20 jobs in my life. Currently, its wallyworld. its not so bad, or at least wouldn't be if i could just keep my head down and work, but since i'm a straight white guy, I get targeted and I'm on red strike 3 for absolute bullshit they made up now that can't be proven either way but it's the team lead's word vs mine.

>1st: not understanding the commands given when they made an ONLY-SPANISH-SPEAKING succubus my manager, instead of me who was runner up. I used to get praise at that store, but ever since her, no more.
Transferred to a new store.
>2nd: first got talked to for using too few bags, then written for using too many bags
>3rd: put ONE thing from the topstock in a neighboring "home" when I'm the only one actually doing the topstock instead of just leaving everything there like the nonwhites do, without getting in trouble. You shoulda seen that shelf I made it look beautiful and spacious, and it will remain that way long after I'm gone… and I GOT CANCELED FOR IT!


 No.310663[Reply]

I just played a dating sim for the first time. In hindsight the story was nothing special at all, but the innocent nature of the love story between the MC self insert and female lead left me afterwards feeling even worse than I usually do

It's been a few days since I finished the game and holy shit do I feel empty. I keep thinking; it's over, it's over. It's almost as though my cold dead heart became that much heavier and now i'm irritated

I suspected I would feel this way but ignored my better judgement. I've played similar games but they were more lustful which didn't hurt at all.

TLDR: Romantic dating sims are a cognitohazard

 No.310665

Felt that way after playing miiside or whatever it's called

It was definitely a traumatic experience like people said it would be, I didn't take it seriously

I deleted it after speedrunning the piece of shit as quickly as possible to get it over with but I felt a bit depressed after it, dunno exactly why, maybe because of the part where it makes life feel repetitive, like you're actually supposed to spend your time trying to win the approval of a psycho bitch


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 No.310565[Reply]

ITT you humor me as i play psychologist and i try to give legit helpful good-faithed answers, preferably based on phenomenon you have a chance of have seen play out in reality already. in case of failure and the absence of anything helpful at least i skillfully disrespect you.
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 No.310607

>>310574
>on the picture you see ph measuring paper. you can hold this in the pea stream and it will give you a number, i have some, i will report back what mine is next time i have to go.

i keep forgetting, i close the lid of the toilet and place my little roll of ph paper on it. PICTURES INCOMING

 No.310608

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delivery

 No.310609

>>310608
Piss quality: 6-7

 No.310610

>>310609

yeah. i have been eating particularly less healthy in the last month, i'd probably want my pee to be more acidic because i am peeing out alkalic stuff that should have gone to balance my inner ph. i pee this good stuff out without having it counterbalance any acidity in me. i think if my ph was more like 6 it would be better. i just eat the last bit of shelf stable industrial strugglefood crap i bought before i eat that good good again.

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the more i read dep the more i consider mental health like an occupational theraphy. they way you would give a child a toy to keep it occupied, most of you have mental unhealth just to keep you busy so you can be too absent to live a life. the more i read, the more it just seems liek a weird habit of choosing to be unwell the way edgy teenagers used to crush aluminum drink cans on their forehead while laughing like retards. so when i wish you sweet babies mental wellbeeing, i mean i hope you stop harming yourself as a past time and choose health.


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 No.309759[Reply]

i keep wondering if all fiction could be unhealthy for the brain. human life is so short, a day has so few hours. how can you take one or more of these hours and flee to a place that doesn't exist and disconnect from your own reality.

places that don't exist have begun to repell me. my own reality has so many projects i would like to attend to that i feel gridlocked by not knowing what to do first. desire for fiction might be nothing but pure idleness.

i assume i understand the impulse, though i could be mistaken. when i was a child and were forced to attend child prison (school), the idea of no longer being able to explore the world at my own pace and instead had to spend time with the violent conformist was completely depressing. have them judge my intelligence based on how hard i could force myself to care what they thought was important in their desperate attempt to turn me into a mindless soldier and stomp all my dreams and interests in the process.

i'd flee into video games and at least videogames are interactive. in a video game i can make decisions, in school i was but an inmate without agency. but in a movie about a super hero, there is no interaction, the poor fool who watches this is but the passive recipient of centralized propaganda. i don't see how someone would accept this premise and spend time on this.
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 No.310598

>>310579
>They don't care you exist unless you publicly dig into the sources of their wealth etc., in which case their networks can stalk and hound you for decades.

they do though. this belief that if you don't bother them, they don't bother you and that you can avoid yourself out of random punishment is another illusion. this alone is why "nothing to hide nothing to fear" is complete theater. you will be targeted even if you obey all the rules as well as all the unspoken rules. they will harm everyone whether it is just or not, period. they believe hurting everyone makes everything better. everyone being depressed is the petri-dish they need to grow. the longer you are a minion, the more you will believe that just hurting others is the key to success.

 No.310599

>>310581
>Whether you have influence in the decision or not is completely moot, it's still the opposite of fiction because it's all grounded in the real world

you did not pay for your ticket and enter the theater to see the show, they just turned everything into a theater and you are forced to see the show. that's still fiction. calling me young is a known theater tactic to discredit and insult me but it just reveals how uncomfortable and threatened this thread makes you.

 No.310615

>>310579
>Russia
Lmao, that is Ukraine. I know, I live here. You saying ANYTHING about our 'glorious struggle', a ton of 'veterans' will come to put you on your knees and apoligize on camera. If you don't do that, they get to fuck you up, kidnap you and throw into a meatgrinder as a fodder. All with silent approval of authorities.
Russia is a peaceful paradise in comparison.

 No.310620

It might sound incredibly stupid but one of the reasons I didn't kill myself when I had a very easy 1 finger movement method was because I wanted to see the ending of the Berserk manga

 No.310661

>>310620
>It might sound incredibly stupid

doesn't sound that stupid to me. if you are one of these external people who needs some external reason to keep going, why not. what i think is incredible stupid is choosing to be such an external person while you can just be an individual. you are choosing authority (which is the violence groups want you to live under) over authenticity (which is the wonderful self-reliant and free way to make your own choices).


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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.310650

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 No.310651

How I feel most days

 No.310653

>>310651
which one?

 No.310658

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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

Previous: >>308343

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 No.310637

my tinnitus seems to have become reactive to sounds in my right ear and i can hear it over a shower or brown noise and i also hear ringing when i move my body and its beginning to make me feel hopeless

 No.310644

>>310239
>i still cant ride a bicycle
yo same *fistbump*
>dad wants to teach 8 year old me how to ride a bike with no training wheels because lol fuck logic
>does the run while holding the back of the seat thing
>I start getting the hang of going straight but live on a narrow street and have to turn back around
>think i have to lean and put my foot down like motocross
>completely eat shit
>dad can i get training wheels?
>lolno
>after several days of this, i completely throw a tantrum, dad gives up

>>310236
holy shit I went through this too
>parents buy me a car in senior year of highschool (99 elantra in 2009 lol)
>hey dad can we go out driving? no
I shit you not this car sat for two years in the driveway untouched like a total cocktease, I could have had my license in high school and had social opportunities but fuck me yet again

 No.310646

>>310644
Why didn’t you make a driving license? Don’t need parents for that. Should be glad they bought you a car, you fucked it up.

 No.310649

Take your entire body and soul to try to even become below average when you're born a defect.

 No.310657

>>310578
Only faggots wear black gloves for cooking. Just wash your hands!


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 No.310113[Reply]

Just got fired from my dead end job and i noticed i have nothing going for my life. No real skills or anything that could make me enough money to go retire early to some third world shithole and live the pseudo neet life. Would military service be a good idea? i have no delusions about striking gold or doing some call of duty shenanigans. it's a recognizeable organization and people often hire vets just cause theyre vets from my experience
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 No.310627

>>310113
I got kicked out of basic training for being too weak. I remember crying when the drill sgts yelled at me for something. I had fucked up, and i knew that not only did they talk about me, but the other trainees talked about me as well. I couldn't make eye contact either, my social skills where awful. I remember when my incredibly short short career came to an end, it felt like a gut punch.I came home and i fell into a deep depression which i still feel.

 No.310630

may I suggest Airborne Psychological operations?

 No.310635

I tried signing up on 3 occasions to fix myself but got pulled back. If I were more determinated when I was 14 I think I wouldn't even know about this place.

 No.310654

When I was younger I thought about joining the army or some military stuff as a way to save myself from ending up living like a neet and gaining skills but the time went by and I never did that. Now I don't know what to do with my life, I have some ideas about what to do tough but idk.

If you can join, do it. You don't seems to have anything to lose anyway.

 No.310655

>>310113
Try being a trucker instead. It's like the military of jobs, they'll take you immediately and without much effort. you're their slave for a few years but you'll get a CDL to use anywhere and get paid probably way more than the deadend job you had. And you get to see the country, and maybe fuck some lot lizards. I'm considering it myself. Retail is severely cutting hours as they move to automation. Now even retail isn't a safe fallback. Actually, in the beginning I joined retail so I could drive for them after a year, but now I've gotten BS speeding tickets so I probably can't anymore.

>>310314
to be a security guard, do you have to have muscle? I'm fit, i work out, but no real muscle. I probably don't eat enough/right, sleep well enough, or its just genetics


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 No.307023[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.310569

I'm just going to decapitate myself on train tracks there's a rail line not so far from my house I haven't been outside in months and finding the energy to do it is hard but I'll wall there tomorrow and see if it's possible.

What about slitting your wrist? I like the idea of my mother finding me so maybe she can have some closure I'll just bleed in the bathtub

 No.310575

i hate myself and wish to die. i have no courage though so i'm too scared to end it all. survival instinct etc

 No.310614

>>310575
The survival instinct is by far the biggest hurdle to committing suicide.

I've seen a video of someone just straight up slicing their throat and dying shortly after, and I could never do that. I'd probably cut it abit but then desperately cover it to prevent myself from bleeding out. It's why I legitimately think it's retarded to say that people who commit suicide are cowards. There's nothing cowardly about killing yourself, you're literally doing something that goes against your own instincts, it's honestly an almost divine act of defiance.

I think people who have never had suicidal tendencies just don't understand. People like us are in a tug of war, constantly wishing to die, but never having the full guts to go through with it.

 No.310632

>>310614
Oh wow, you're right. I never thought about that. Yeah, now thinking about that, it does take a fair amount of courage to commit to the suicide. I guess it is a matter of perspective. People try to bend it to fit their narrative or outlook, like "he killed himself, so he is a coward", etc.

 No.310639

>>307310
I agree. I'm terrified of that idea, too. And it's been one of the reasons, why I did not do it so far.


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 No.310116[Reply]

Why there no reason to exist but if you point to it and ask society(any people) why you shouldn't kill yourself, they just ignore you, make fun of you, and exclude you from society ?
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 No.310272

They want to prey on you instead of trying to be good. Money rules the world they take and break. Pussies are everywhere, every thing they do try is so they can have sex and smoke PCP with succubi for the big score of booty and loot. Everyone is sex obsessed, period. succubus crazy and real drug addled and a lobe altering bum obsessed faggot. Mag is needed recently here. The sagging tits on leppard are imposed even. Trying to work on me in my sleep is now nightly and their genius is using their peen so "rightly". Teens need to focus on gaming and schoolwork IMO.

 No.310287

>>310235
Just keep working and do not ask dumb questions, like everyone does.

 No.310342

>>310116
>Why there no reason to study STEM but if you point to it and ask society(any people) why you shouldn't study STEM, they just ignore you, make fun of you, and exclude you from society ?

There are topics to discuss with privately run LLMs and not humans.

 No.310360

Because they are the ones deserving pain.

 No.310638

the old Yahwe is gonna throw into the hellfire, if you do it
fuck this guy


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