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 No.306157[Reply]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
ice cold edition
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 No.306194

It's getting warmer and now everything is ruined and infected with normalfags running the streets. AHHHHHHHH

 No.306195

>>306189
>I'm curious though, do you still get real enjoyment out of games? Do you still have the ability to play one game after the other and look forward to the next one?
I think I do actually at least for now. I often have the same problems of being anhedonic and not having the motivation to even play games or watch stuff which ended with me just doomscrolling or while youtube plays in the background. Usually last for a long period of time, then one day when my motivation is a little bit higher than usual, I start a game, got my first dopamine hit unexpectedly and ended up being addicted until I got burnt out or force myself to stop or it slowly fizzles out.

>Are you staying up because it really is that enjoyable or did it turn into some sort of mask for the midnight depression spirals? Like you do it just to maintain a baseline or something?
It depends. Back when I made that post I was really enjoying my game and wanted to see more of it. A lot of times it was just me not being able to keep away from doomscrolling my phone or something even though it feels terrible because having my dopamine got cut off feels even worse. Not touching my phone won't help me sleep either if I am too excited and I'd just lay down for 4-6 hours.

>Do you still jerk off because you are horny all the time and seek the pleasure or is it just something to do out of boredom, like some form of sedation?
Same with games. It's very inconsistent. Even my fetish has started to change too. Whereas I'd fap nothing but x everyday in the past, I cycle between different fetishes now depending on my mood. Though I'd say rather the actual act of masturbation, I am more addicted to the act of collecting porn. Dopamine is released in the anticipation of reward rather than when you obtain the reward after all. So hoarding porn I'll never fap to but while imagining the pleasure I'll get fapping to it is more pleasurable than masturbation.

>I'm rather jealous if you still get the same feel-good-rewards from your brain at your age.
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 No.306196

>>306195
Thanks for taking your time to respond.
I relate to two major points here, the hoarding aspect, the "hunt" really does give more dopamine than jerking off for me as well.

Your point about not taking things seriously is something I also concluded for myself, just failed to implement.
I'd research stuff like builds and classes forever to find the optimal path to enjoying something instead of playing. Then I'd never play.
I have pathfinder wrath downloaded for well over a year now like this.
I really should just boot things up and play, enjoy things for what they are as you say. I wish I wasn't stuck in these neurotic loops when it comes to simple decisions.

 No.306197

>>306196
>I'd research stuff like builds and classes forever to find the optimal path to enjoying something instead of playing. Then I'd never play.
Huh, now I realize the reason keep remaking new characters in RPG games like Skyrim because the anticipation of a new playthrough gives more dopamine than actually playing. Funny thing is that I've actually had a few saves where I played and progress a lot because I was running around finishing quests after quests but I enjoyed those playthrough less then when I made new level 1 characters dropped into random locations and just walked around looking at things.

 No.306203

Feeling like filling a void. But not hungry.


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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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>>303176
Friendly reminder you body might not be able to absorb it from food or it might not be able to produce it by means of sunlight… both cases happened to me. After a study on vitamin D my doctor prescribed me pills of 5000 iu of vitamin D per day for four months. In the very first week those pills solved a problem that for almost two decades I thought it was normal: perpetual exhaustion. Nowadays I have more energy and don't even feel tired after working out. The downside of this is that I cannot blame fatigue for my lack of interest in developing my skills… that's a psychological issue no ammount of money will solve.

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>>305097
Thank you for being with me.
See, I used to hear on how the lack of vitamin D ruins the mood for the Finnish people. I understand when a Saint-Petersburg guy lacks the money to buy some cod liver, but the Finns??? Thank you for explaining the need for proper meds-like vitamins D

Regards, OP




>>305097
>The downside of this is that I cannot blame fatigue for my lack of interest in developing my skills…

ugh? uh? Your job, mate? Your title?
Coulda help you a li'l bit at that I guess

If you work at some gov't job, you will feel empty a bit from the very nature of strict gov't jobs, "by the book" and stuff… If not, please tell so I could some looking up.

>that's a psychological issue no ammount of money will solve.
Ah, sometimes you just need some *edutaiment* videos that explain your things in fun manner rather than bold manner. Coulda ask a chatty for some fun channels to larn something *adjacent* to the skills you already have

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>>305093
>to steel my nuts, lol?
:D

>anyway what does iron do?
hmmmmm… blood cells use Fe+ ion to contain, to "grab"/"hold" oxygen.

Less ferrum in your body means less Fe+ atoms are ready to parttake in your fresh blood generation.

Thing is, one's blood cells can only be used for mere weeks and then it gets recycled by your own body. The efficency is around 40%, if I remember it right.

Therefore, your body needs iron to make new blood as your body keeps destroying old blood cells with Fe atoms going down the drain.


>will it help me not feel like somebody's trying to crush my neck when anxiety hits? i'm fucked up enough that anxiety feels like a very physical thing

Hmmmmmm… Iron deficency and anxiety can be interlinked.

Some random words on top of that:
"inflatable neck collar", the thing's under 5$
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 No.305908

My family wants me to go full-on vegan for, roughly, a month. This has been happening, well, around every season.

I reckon going full vegan will turn me into a soywiz. I can't stand going vegan then going un-vegan then going vegan back and forth.

1) What do? Sneaky approach or clash with my family?

2) Can I claim such a diet - and the stress from the fact I've been *shunned into* taking it - has been ruining my mental health in case I request help and get some "how come a dude like you have problems? You're just faaaat".

 No.306201

>>305097
I'd suggest it's an issue where you are either aware of, or have been conditioned to, see said skills as useless. Perhaps not in the immediate sense in that maybe you could weld a beam or something, but having the skill of welding a beam is pointless without a suitably "nutritional" context to apply it.

This one is something i've encountered recently; I could get all the raises I wanted, get promotions and take on more work at work - it didn't actually change anything in my day to day life for the better. When I found tax efficient investment, a working context where each day was tangibly better than the last as a consequence of the work done, and so on, life got better.

Don't ignore your environmental nutrion - in the sense of what you are exposed to every day in the work place psychologically. "I put in 14 hours a day for months on end and I got not fired" is a strong signal to your body not to bother. If what you're doing doesn't actually make life better, why do anything more than the bare minimum is a perfectly rational strategy if your life is devoid of opportunity for significant change and positive feedback.


 No.305691[Reply]

Every single place is dominated by "dis why you don't have a succubus or a toilet or whatever". Every single place is dominated by toilets, simp men (across the political aisle), and normies in general.

There are extremely few only-male places left. They invaded anime, gaming, F1. And their only accomplishments is being pretty and having a blown-out hole in between their legs. Because of which they coast through life in tutorial mode.

Now, as much as we don't like involuntary celibates or crabs here, the bottom line is they were an all-male community for the most part. And yet they have been banned from every part of the internet.

And very few only-male places actually survive. This is an example of that but the problem is this chan is more or less nearing death and if not there aren't many people here.

Half of the crab websites have being pulled down. And one that exists most of it userbase say that they are "more racist than misogynist", so here we go again there aren't any male-only places left and which are left are STILL dominated with other forms of intra-male competition.

And guess what there are very few men left who don't worship succubi, sure not all are "liberals" but even most conservatives worship succubi in their own way. This is genuinely horrible. I have no place to go.

I have legitimately no idea why normies thought that it was a good idea to let succubi out of their house. Fuck them. Fuck succubi. Fuck men. Fuck simps. And Fuck 99% of the planet.

I hope that mutts, slavs, jeets, chinks, kikes, crackers, niggers, faggots, all start launching their nuclear weapons and put an end to this bull shittery that's been going on. Put an end to this faggotified planet. There's literally no place left for me to go.

 No.305693

it seems a succubus rented your head for free op. it's like with jews. learn defensive magic

 No.305697

Let them suffer, they will suffer soon enough.

 No.306198

>>305691
>TOTVL HOOOOMUN GENOCIDE
I don't think you would need to genocide all humans. Just all religious people.

 No.306199

>>305691
>I have legitimately no idea why normies thought that it was a good idea to let succubi out of their house. Fuck them. Fuck succubi. Fuck men. Fuck simps. And Fuck 99% of the planet.
This hits different on an IB that tolerates lolicons.

 No.306200

tldr but subj is epic
>>306199
oh no sjw inbound


 No.306061[Reply]

I got summoned to jury duty. I am depressed and socially anxious, probably have avoidant personality disorder. It is asking me if I have a disability that prevents me from completing jury duty and I honestly don't know how to answer that. If I couldn't handle college and I can't handle employment because I'm too mentally ill, why would jury duty be any different? I kind of feel like it would be possible just unpleasant, but then I also wonder if I can physically force myself to show up and that I'm less sure of.

I have to ask my doctor to tell them I'm disabled though and then that would be weird. How are you supposed to know if you just have mental illness or if you are disabled by that mental illness?

 No.306063

>How are you supposed to know if you just have mental illness or if you are disabled by that mental illness?
If you're cognizant enough to ask this, then you're very likely not mentally ill. The entire prospect of 'mental illness' is not being able to introspect and be concerned with ideas related to your own capability or the consequences of being placed in an uncomfortable situation. You can try to claim some sort of social disorder such as social anxiety, but that's a learned disorder not inherent to some sort of physical ailment of the brain, so the government might not care. Don't fall for the "I'm forever helplessly mentally ill because I don't particularly enjoy being in crowded places" ruse. By all means fake it to get out of jury duty, but don't willingly lower your own expectations of yourself because some memelords online have convinced you that you're braindead in spite of you proving yourself able to communicate functionally.

 No.306130

>>306061
Never go to the psych ward or be blatantly honest with a therapist. These people are quick to deem you mentally adjudicated (incompetent) and will fuck you over for life.

Just because society socially ostracizes you doesn't mean you're mentally ill necessarily; it's a negative feedback loop.

All they'll do is gaslight you and project onto you. If you do need to seek out help from them, attempt to be as relatively neurotypical and politically correct in a nuanced way as possible, and pretend that their shit advice is somehow a groundbreaking revelation of self-awareness.

 No.306138

I think this is obvious unless you are truly delusional, or too retarded to realise you are retarded. I would avoid this jury stuff anyway, even when you interact with the court system in a good way these things somehow always bring bad stuff in your life

 No.306193

I know I must be developing schizophrenia. I am seeing plenty of visual hallucinations such as animals like cats and dogs that don't belong to me playing in my house, seeing massive spills of juice on the floor then it fades away after a minute. However the thing that gets me are the little things that aren't interesting enough to be noted as fake, such as hearing a knock on the door or a phonecall which really irritates me. At least I'm not seeing demons and believe the government is trying to kill me like my mother gets


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.306106

>>305982
You probably can say no though unless the labor market in your country is really fucked up. Just make up some excuse that you already have plans.

 No.306107

>>305835
In most places, dust is all that's left in the rivers, but you can still harvest the dust. You spend all day panning stuff until you get black sand mixed with gold dust then you spend another day picking the tiny bits of gold out of the black sand manually. It's shit work but I think I have figured out how to get my living expenses to practically zero by living in my car on public land. I bought an EV with this in mind so that I can charge at free chargers and spend zero dollars on fuel. My only expenses will be phone/internet and food. I calculate I should need to find approximately three quarters of a gram of gold per week (3g a month) to sustain this lifestyle. Also, despite being shit work, it sounds to me to be infinitely preferable to slaving for normalfags.

 No.306153

Seeing inbred witness fucking normies thrive and be promoted to managerial positions at my age (or roughly) makes my skin crawl, and this is not mere plain butthurt. You read and listen to them everyday - they won't shut the fuck up nor stop bragging about it. I don't see how I'm not fit considering the fucking retards they are, but then again, without normalfaggot networking and ass licking in this world for one is hard to come up.

 No.306179

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I'm moving soon and I'm planning to save up enough cash to move and be NEET for a few months. I'm nearly there, but unfortunately my job is becoming fucking unbearable. From the time I get settled in at my station until the time I clock out, I'm constantly bombarded with bullshit from every direction. Half the people I work with speak little-to-no English, and dump a bunch of their work on me. I've been given a lot more responsibility (but no extra pay) since I started, so I'm constantly moving, basically doing the job of three people by myself every single day, and it's wearing me down mentally and physically. On top of that, the higher ups have installed metal detectors and will be hiring security guards, as well as taking away our breaks. So soon I will have to get checked at the door in the morning, work for 4 hours straight, get checked on the way to my lunch break and back, work for 4 more hours, then get checked on the way out like a fucking convict. Plus we get shit pay for all of this nonsense. If I can hold out for another month or two, I can spend about 4 or 5 months NEETing and being pretty content, but I don't know if I can really stand this hellish sweat-shop job long enough to make it. I could possibly get another job for a couple months and still be on track more or less, but that's only if I can manage to find something suitable and early enough so I don't miss too many paychecks before I move. Honestly, spending my adult life wageslaving has made me realize exactly why so many people deal drugs, run scams, steal, or otherwise cheat their way through life. Being an honest workingman is a nightmare.

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>>303738
Slight update. Thank the heavens I'm still employed in the same place.
I pray for another year or two at least.

>people that start are better at it after 2 months than I am now.
The guy who started half a year or year after me just became my boss last week.
I'm fine with it, he is chill. Hope I can bear the many upcoming changes…

The previous boss assigned some extra tasks to me this month too.
Felt good about it, despite having a panic attack during one of the presentations I had to give to a succubus on video call.
Hope it means they'll keep me around.

>Would I have the energy if I wasn't a wageslave? Did I? I prefer not to answer myself.
Unfortunately I haven't progressed much in the past 4.5 months. I actually regained a lot of weight too. Health overall is not good.
Days just pass by, I work, I turn my brain off for the rest of the day with no energy.
Weekends feel like time travel. Took a 10 day vacation with the weekends and it passed by like nothing.
It's rather scary. Still no real skills or certifications in case I have to find another way to make a living.

>I'm genuinely shocked to see my coworkers do all this while getting an education, having family, children, working towards cars, homes and whatnot with a ton of hobbies and interests that they also pursue.
Still insane to see. Many coworkers are having kids, some I mentioned spawned even more. So do schooling, some moved up to more technical positions.
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 No.305927[Reply]

>be me
>bored
>decide to go for a walk
>the group that used to harass me in high school sees me
>they start shouting embarrassing nicknames they gave me loudly, just like they did in HS
I thought I wouldn't need to deal with that anymore, but it seems like I was wrong. Has anyone here ever experienced something similar? I just want to have some peace.
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 No.306098

>>305927
yes bully memories still haunts me after more than a decade.

>Being me
>got a job
>everything is ok for the first time in my entire life
>speak to coworkers
>after some months coworkers begin to act WAY too familiar. like, a lot

>begin to throw shit at each other, me included

>one of them point out a delicate situation about me not going to work past week

it hurts
he laughs
everyone laughs
i fucking wish him to shut the fuck off
got so much shit inside me so I cant figure a way of resolving this withouth violence

my instincts are telling me to throw a punch as revange for all those years being bullied in highschool
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 No.306126

>>306098
1. You probably should switch your current job to night shifts.
Your excuse: "traffic jams finally got me".

2. If fails, switch jobs, but only once your "night shifts" plan failed.

Your excuse: "past jobs was about night shifts. Unfortunately, the windows get too much sunlight in the morning and I just cannot sleep from all the light and heat."

 No.306141

>>305927
Not quite like this, but yeah, I get the general sentiment.
Abused kid, everyone knew about my situation, small village, was bullied as a result, like, major life changing stuff at multiple points in life.
Was a nervous wreck, never quite adapted. Never quite got a fresh start either.

I changed schools 3 times by the time I was 18 and always there was at least a few people who "followed me" as they also changed schools.
These people often weren't the bullies themselves, but soon enough they told my tale and presented me as a social offering to the new tribe if that makes any sense.
They used my past torment and my weakness as a gateway to fitting in themselves. So I never really had a chance on my own merit.

To this day I'm haunted, it happens at at work too if you are unlucky. Contrary to popular belief the "bad bully" wont be your subordinate and you the boss later like my mom used to say.
A loser stays a loser because of the learned behavior patterns and developed character. The bullies are socially apt, they usually rise up.
Ironically enough I had the misfortune of meeting some when I was forced out of neetdom. You can guess how that went.

>>305940
This here is probably the worst of it.
Life is just one eternal highschool. I'm glad to have read your post. Said well and concise.
My mother is the same as me and lived through much humiliation too.
When I was younger I didn't understand why she was so nervous about how we present ourselves, but yeah later on this happened to us too and now I get it.
In an apartment complex you can get screwed in so many ways if the others sense blood in the water, weakness or whatever.
If there is a pre-existing clique and you make one mistake at work as well, you'll suffer. Same everywhere.
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 No.306144

>>305927
God I fucking hate people from HS

 No.306177

>>305927
Just wanting to be left alone is my primary goal in life. Too much trauma.


 No.306131[Reply]

Never look for psychiatric help, expecially as an addict. It was the worst mistake I ever made in my life. I got addicted to ultra high doses of xanax 8-10x over maximum, and when I tried to get help, instead of tapering me which is what they do in every civilized country, they took me from 30 to 0 in a day. I had stroke symptoms, 60/40 bpm, i was teleporting in real life, i couldnt talk think or know what day it is, function or do anything. I spent 3 days falling on my knees under the doctor's office in the psychiatric hospital and got treated like an annoying fly. I wanted to call an ambulance to take me out of there, i called an ambulance on myself because I thought I had a stroke when I ran away out of my drugs, but nobody ever checked nor was interested in anything. My doctor was an ukrainian piece of shit that treated me like shit under his shoe. After 12 days in psychiatric prison i barely escaped by pretending to get better, and spent 3 weeks in a psychosis despite taking antipsychotics and antiseizure meds, i felt 24/7 heart attack, stroke and epilepsy symptoms. I also lost feeling in my body, i had visual, auditory, time perception problems, became and invalid that couldnt move or pick up a paper, eat, swallow, feeel thirst, pee, lost ability to control my muscles. If i took a bath i would swallow all the water and not feel it, i hit my head on everything and didnt even feel it, i could punch walls and not feel if i broke my bones. When I went to a private psychiatrist to get help, she saw me and said she doesn't deal with this and kicked me out the door after 30 seconds without letting me explain a single thing. I lost my mind, it has been completely destroyed and ruined to the point there's nothing left. After 5 weeks of this treatment and choking on water I thought i'll die anyway so I went back to my drugs and after taking 1 pill I got a better remission and improvement than over a month of their psychiatric treatment. I could actually feel things and i wanted to cry from happiness. But it was all temporary, and in the end i went back to my old habits, but now, they ruined it so that I get every single side effect from the drug that I never had before despite taking the same amount for a year straight. My physical health has also completely collapsed, I was unable to take a bath for a month, shave, eat, think, time moved 100x times slower and I experienced hell on earth worse than being torturted alive with worst cia methods. Now I have nothiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.306132

Dead internet theory, seems made up. Stay off drugs if true.

 No.306134

>>306131
You're the guy who kept suicide baiting last year about how you only have 1 or 2 days left to live and you're gonna die. Dunno if you're the same guy but I keep seeing these xanax suicide posts that all revolve around the same themes.

 No.306136

Are you the benzo guy?
I am dying too and I found out in my last days I just look for some sense of peace and warmth, even if rage is justified.
your post reads like a typical drug addict death spiral.

 No.306176

Never try Xanax, not even once


 No.305879[Reply]

I wake up every day in disgust, fear and anguish of my existence. I have left no pride nor confidence in my confused brain. Every day I wake up and I loathe the person that I am and my world instantly.
I wish to go back to sleep. Sleep. I just wanna sleep and not take place.
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 No.305900

I disagree only if dreamless sleep dreams are another form of torture designed by the filthy creator

 No.305909

>>305896
>idk about that. think about how we live in an industrial world. we're like cats locked in a flat. you know actually unless you sterilize your cat it'll go insane locked in the house. same with dogs for that matter. i think that's what's happening to people. you can't live like this unless you're castrated, but castration isn't an option is it. so yeah for us at least it's just suffering out there

I knew it.

>you can't live like this unless you're castrated, but castration isn't an option is it
It's not an option here because it's "untraditional".

 No.306154

i feel the same way. i hate who i have become. i am truly disgusting

 No.306161

>>306154
I think society is way more disgusting than any of us.

We owe nothing to the world.

 No.306173

>>306161
Fully agree. I may be a worthless jack of shit, but humans are spawns of the Devil. I don't regret not taking part in their grotesque play.


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 No.305937[Reply]

Every time I think of death, the end of my self I can feel my brain fighting it, pretty much actively trying to shut down.
It's a weird sinking feeling, thinking of the unimaginable.
People have died around me and I felt nothing, but then again I'm not an overly emotive or emotional person.

I still can't cope with death as a concept. I don't want to cease experiencing. I'd genuinely prefer hell to oblivion.

I screwed myself, my health because of a lack of attachments and care for things in general and I'm at the age where recovery is getting harder even if I try.
Mitigation is a more realistic goal if I don't already have something terminal, hopefully. (29)

How do you guys cope? I see so many people here talking about suicide and I just can't fathom it.
I suffer from many chronic ailments, pain, tinnitus (really severe) and much else. I had many absolutely horrid experiences during childhood and youth.
I have no real connection to my broken family, no connection to pretty much anyone or anything. Never loved or felt loved by anyone, not even family.
I don't pursue hobbies I'm a man of inaction. I can't even force myself to do things I supposedly enjoy.
I have one friend I talk to online exclusively in text and meaningless time wasting activities, consuming media, manga/manhua mostly.

It's a pointless life. Wasted.

Based on all of this I should probably be suicidal, but I'm the opposite. I'd be content being a specter just observing things too. I just want to persist.
I don't want this to end, I don't want to end.
I'm terrified. Sure I'm sick, in pain, constantly depressed or anxious, generally a failure, but I don't want to be gone.
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 No.306026

you're in pain, so your self preservation instincts are constantly on high alert. you definitely sleep ok, eat ok and don't overly exert yourself, so that's what keeps things running. i don't know what you're trying to cope with

 No.306128

>>306000
Oh! Nice round number!
Please tell more on St. Aquinas part of the question

 No.306168

>>306128
evil people just are like that and live for it
can you look at someone like Epstein and imagine there is even the tiniest amount of goodness or purity, anything but the ultimate depravity in him?
there is no good guy inside the high school bully, just someone seeking to do nothing but torment
so when they die they go to the ultimate evil and depravity, that is hell

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I'm sorry took a while to gather the energy to reply to anything at all, wont reply to everyone, but thanks for contributing regardless.

>>305943
I'm no longer in a state prior to birth nor do I have any recollection of such.
Therefore it is reasonable to fear what comes after, at least in my eyes.

You might be spot on in some sense, I do suffer from quite a lot of ailments as described, but over all I'm sure I'm blessed compared to many.

Suffering is relative.

A strong person might think what I suffer from is nothing.
To me the suffering of a virgin normie is nothing as well, yet some just blow their brains out for not getting a female demon of their own.
Does any of that matter? Not to me. I'm sure it will get worse, I'm sure I'll suffer more as I age, I might even wish for death later.

Still I don't want to be shut down forever. I would prefer to persist, even if just a specter. I don't desire survival I desire to remain, for my awareness to continue for eternity.
For you maybe that counts as this survival instinct too, but I don't believe so.
Wanting pain to stop and wanting to not exist anymore is not the same for me.

>>305956
>you lack the fantasy to think about the unimaginable.
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>>305937
I'm in a similar boat. Life not worth living, but death is a taboo for me. The thought of not existing gives me have anxiety attacks; the thought of eternal existence, good or bad, fills me with dread. I'm a prisoner of my own flesh.


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Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.306034

For everyone asking "why drink bro? lol" you sound like normies anyway here's a simple answer:

It stops the self hate and voices in my head, it puts me in a state of relaxation

 No.306045

>>306034
actually if you didn't drink you'd simply die inside and not need substance to cope.

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>>306034
>and voices in my head, it puts me in a state of relaxation

Auditory hallucinations kind of voices or endless inner monologues kind of voices? It's not my field, just kinda learned a factoid recently: "auditory hallucinations happen in 4 out of 5 SCH havers".

As for shy people, welp, I remeber reading in some book how some shy people tend to drink "because it helps to be less shy" and BAM! Alcoholism due to tolerance (that's why resolving life issues makes a person a less of shut-in)

 No.306135

I'm pretty lucky I'm such a total lightweight. Liqour is prohibitly expensive due to taxes but I'm able to get properly drunk on beer, doesn't even take a lot. It's probably in large part due to weighing only 57KG (180 cm tall). I just skip meals by sleeping 14 hours a day.
Anyways, I strongly recommend homebrewing. Super cheap to get into and you're able to get ~15% abv drink and get wasted for a dollar or two (less than a dollar for me).

 No.306155

I like drinking but only when I know I'm not going to interact with other people. Sober me knows to be quiet and not say stupid shit I'll regret later. Drunk me does not. Sure feels good though.


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