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 No.308343[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

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 No.309144

>>309131
not really, but sugar is really bad for teeth, yeah

 No.309180

ALL human behavior, every single moment and action of the day, goes like this
If I do this, then that happens
If I do this, then that happens
If I do this, then that happens
from smoking a cigarette, every thing at work, any interaction or conversation with other people
reality has to be some kind of computer program or deduction

 No.309184

>>309144
Yeah really. How are you getting cavities without eating sugar? Smoking? Not brushing your teeth once a day for 30 seconds? I haven't been to a dentist in a decade, have crowded wisdom teeth, have crowded front teeth, they're yellow, but I avoid tooth aches primarily by not consuming sugar.

Thanks for the condescending comment anyhow! I recommend smart people follow my advice instead. Cheers

 No.309185

>>309180
Principle of cause and effect. let me guess, just by saying this alone, you are 23?

 No.309191

>>309185
It's really subtle but this fixes something in my perception of everyday life.
Makes my lived experience seem more orderly and have a particular format.
I don't get why I didn't see this before.


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 No.309114[Reply]

>The more I seclude myself the more I long for human connection
>The more I interact with the 3D world the more I just want to be left alone
I literally cannot win in this life
I am always worried about doing the wrong thing, I am always lamenting all of my errors of the past
I hardly actually live
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 No.309182

>>309141
That cope only works if you're a schizoid

 No.309183

I feel like people who are able to show affection have some kind of ability that I'll never have, I saw a succubus the other day talking to a bird in a sort of affectionate way and I realized that I'd never do that

The logical part of my brain says that it's meaningless, she'll turn around and eat a bird and cook its eggs right after as if nothing happened, but I sometimes worry about that, I always look at things in this analytical way to a degree that it prevents me from forming connections with people, the thought of being old and all alone makes me uncomfortable and I'm afraid I might end up like that

 No.309186

>>309183
you have the ability, it's just suppressed because acting like that would get you bullied and humiliated as a man. succubi can afford to express their full spectrum of emotions, they can be lovey dovey with their dogs and babies and they can be cheerful and dance and sing in public because no one has ever told them to shut the fuck up and shamed them for it.

find a stray cat or puppy and just pat that lil fella like there's no tomorrow. i remember this one time i pet this cat in front of my apartment building and it was pouring and everything and i could feel a wave of sudden emotion come up out of nowhere and just overwhelm me, almost started crying. yeah, the ability is there, it's just… suppressed.

 No.309189

not agreeing or disagreeing but some people (like me) have broken brain and really can't show affection. it's not that affection is something unknown to me, or something i don't understand, or something i can't do. it's just that i can't sustain it. i can't care about people enough to keep them in my head. so "affection" is something that just evaporates

 No.309190

>>309186
I think you're right wiz, it's just been too long since I've been around an animal

I find it strange though that most household pets are actually predators, I know that in dogs that instinct has been largely suppressed through selective breeding but it's still there and can surface at any time. Even though they're predators though it doesn't mean that they aren't capable of being affectionate, but there's always a part of me that wonders if it isn't just a means to an end, even birds are capable of psychological manipulation

I sometimes give food to a raven that comes by, maybe I'll be able to tame him some day



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 No.309031[Reply]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.309106

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 No.309108

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meow meow
nya nya
im a passive submissive
retard~

 No.309112

cant even post

 No.309119

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 No.309140[Reply]

i also noticed this in other areas of life even family events people tend to target me for wrongdoings but others do similar things and they face no repercussions.A good example of this is in middle school. I was pretty
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shy but sometimes did things that made kids laugh. what i began to
notice was sometimes id cross the line.whether it was being repetitive with a joke or something kids would get mad. There was a kid, Cam who was new to the school.He had good looks was good at basketball and was probably fucking horrible grades (assuming he got help from others which i saw a lot). after awhile i didnt do that well at getting other kids attention so id start to do annoying things to get some type of reaction.i would get in trouble or get told off by peers when i did these things. when cameron did them he faced little to no pushback or accountability. he also was i guess really close with a female teacher we had and i saw her let him off the hook for things i would be sent off for thousands of fucking times. i cant stand this shit seeing it almost daily it makes me so fucking tired of these sheep retards who let him do things i cant just because im not as good looking or good at some silly sport.
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 No.309176

>>309174
Not that poster but actually I think this is funny and accurate. These kind of small failures are typical characteristic mistakes I keep reproducing in my life. t. 33 year old wiz

 No.309177


>>309176 that’s crazy 33 is nutz i’m 19.

 No.309178

I ate shit in the school parking lot and a group of succubi laughed at me, i still haven't recovered

 No.309179

>>309177
Pack it up unc, shouldn't you be at work

 No.309187

>>309178 i envy you



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 No.308999[Reply]

Are there people here who don't have a job or don't get NEETbux and have to live with parents who are abusive and stupid as fuck but you just can't beat the crap out of them because you're dependent upon them?
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 No.309087

>>309037
Maybe my "de jure only" parent is both combined, given how it was me who managed to fix the trashed apartment (financed).

 No.309088

>>309083
>Misery loves company
>see
Oh I wanna be around
To pick up the pieces…

 No.309168

>>309011
>You're absolutely right but what do you do if you're born in a shithole where there is absolutely no way to survive if you don't have parents

Most practical way would be to find a bunch of other neets and pool your bux to rent a house. With enough people the individual rent would be low. If you really live in some third world country there won't be as many regulations prohibiting stuff like this.

 No.309169

>>309168
>trusting other people
Are you serious right now, my nigger?



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 No.309084[Reply]

Anyone experienced getting fired from almost all jobs they ever had? I’ve failed at almost everything I ever had and got insulted before. Has anyone expirienced something similar
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 No.309093

>>309084
>insulted
My own father insulted me many times working with him. Imagine how useless made me feel that

 No.309099

>>309093
Is he a boomer by any chance?

 No.309122

>>309090
This is what I ended up with too OP.
It's a good job, as good as I can ever imagine having.

The only negative is the stress some people have from >>309091 , but I can tank it pretty fine since I don't care.
Job security comes from normies being unable to tolerate normies.

I just think of myself as some robot since I'm very rigid with how I talk to customers.
It's like, I got my little canned sentences that I can branch from a little depending on how things go and that's about it.
You get better at it, you add stuff to your vocabulary, expand the instruction set of your robot body or something, but all in all it's not very taxing mentally or physically.

I'm very grateful for the second half too since I let my body fall apart pretty bad.

Another job I was really good at was being a cashier.
The machine gave me the numbers for how much change to give back or how much money to take. You just move stuff from left to right or right to left.
I also just had some pretty much memorized repeat sentences I'd say to customers depending on what they say if any interaction was prompted besides hello/wouldyoulikesomeXYZ/goodbye.

Unfortunately these jobs seem to be disappearing. Cashier jobs are only like 1 / store and the rest is standing around the self checkouts 8 hours a day and running around on top of that.
Phone support jobs are getting AI replaced too for the most part.

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 No.309137

my stepmother made me feel dumber even though I graduate college. A lot of education systems nowadays is mostly about passing the buck rather than educating students. Most people in leadership positions are assholes and will immediately test you upon meeting you to determine if you are leadership material or another lamb they can slaughter or ignore.

 No.309139

>>309122
>I was fired a couple times because I "couldn't figure out obvious things". Basically anything that required my subjective judgement I fucked up too.
People complain about instruction manuals and guidebooks that are too verbose and treat you like an idiot, but a lot of those came about because the alternative was boomers with 40 years experience doing one thing and one thing only assuming what's obvious to them is just as obvious to the newbies that they've put zero effort into teaching.



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 No.309064[Reply]

Discuss your substance related coping mechanisms and how it pertains to your depression here.
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 No.309089

massive drinker of beer. When im binging I can do 20 5% bottles of 3xx ml a day. currently trying to lower it a lot as I am running into health issues, 50 beers a week is kinda my max now and ideally want to do 24 a week

 No.309098

>>309070
Have you ever thought of referring to kombucha as "the booch"? I have. In fact last time I was at the store I asked the f/emale in the aisle whether they have any "booch" and she told me that they did not. Joke's on her!

 No.309101

Video games

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>>309098
boochi the rock

 No.309109

>>309089
Not a big deal if you eat a lot of food too, but then you get fat. I'm currently maintaining 10-12 a day by working out 5x a week and being a good long distance runner. I've only ever run into health problems from beer when I drank on an empty stomach.



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 No.309015[Reply]

I fucking hate being like that but that's my only defensive mechanism against others. I'm sure I don't even have a real personality because self-victimization is the only way how I react and act.
Also self-pity
we're the worst type of person someone can meet. it's on paar with manipulative personalities
I am weak,
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 No.309028

I don't understand where this desire to be seen as a victim comes from.

 No.309029

>>309028
there is no desire. society judges your complaints as either valid or not. you are not a victim if you're a wizard. you are a victim if you're brown or female. that's all.

 No.309030

>>309028
it's a self-defense mechanism. by self-victimize yourself, you're telling someone you are weak and not worth being the targets of bad things they want to do to you. it also comes from fear

 No.309034

>>309015
It's "honest" (in brackets).
You can say to someone who doesn't mean to bully you it hurts already hoping civilized people to back off before some kind of a treatening to sue over moral damages arises. Soyboys are especially good at that.

Unfortunately, it does not *deter* bullies. If you are some kind of manipulator who collects evidence for possible lawsuits, you're golden, and so is your lawyer. If you're honestly asking to leave you alone with this victimization of yourself, you're in the wrong… spot.

 No.309056

>>309030
>>309029
self-victimisation is nonsense



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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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 No.308003

>>303176
I wish it were that easy:
> Light skin
> All year round summer hot place
> take Fish Oil and Vit D + K supplements everyday.
> plus other 12 or so supplements more

Still miserable.

 No.308005

Creatine Monohydrate should be supplemented because to get a full working dose one would need to eat an entire chicken dinner's worth of beef. It's vital in the human body's functions that relate to not being unhealthy. I've been taking it for years and I'm very strong and smart and large.

>>307661
That seems like a lot to take in but many men's health support supplements cover much of that in two doses. Ideally much of this shouldn't be supplemented but rather acquired through an actual balanced diet, but that would probably give a caloric surplus for the average NEET.

 No.308402

>>308003


I ask a chatbot (cheap DeepSeek, nothing fancy) to be a decent time-managing coach for me and tell DS some tasks off my head… get a timetable… tell DS some more… get a bigger timetable - bam! Now I have a three hour time-table for tomorrow :)

 No.308432

>>308402
Update: it's done and many more

 No.309043

>>303176
I have bought a vial of synthetic vitamind D, diluted in water, thanks to a hint from >>305097

I feel less anxious and not as doomed as before. I think half of my depression is gone.



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 No.307650[Reply]

I have become increasingly depressed at the state of discourse about almost any subject. Look at the opinions of most people and discuss their reasoning with them; they do not really have reasons based on experience or logic. They are just saying things they think are normal to say. They imitate others. They understand the world through memes. Zero actual curiosity or critical thinking skills when it comes to discussion of politics/culture/history/science/art. Everyone just parrots what they think others think. They think in memes. Partly to fit in and achieve social acceptance and partly just monkey see monkey do like a child or animal.

Democracy is a failure because most people have no idea what they are voting for or what the consequences will be. They just follow the cultural memes. The internet has exacerbated this. Most people’s political views or views on the culture are just glorified SIX SEVEN repetitions - people have no good justification for any of the ideas they follow.

It might sound arrogant and supercilious to say these things. I worry that I am not that different and I just copy things sometimes by instinct. Makes me wonder if the self even fucking exists and we are just biological self replicating robots copying things.

Depressing. Enraging.
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 No.308047

>>308046
My ego is very fine, don't worry. You avoided my point though

 No.308106

yea everyone pretends to fit in, that's the God of the normie, social approval.

 No.308903

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>Conformity and imitation drives human behaviour

Yeah, read René Girard

 No.308922

>>308903
Before I read an "in-a-nutshell" explanation of his ideas and some of the examples maybe…





…i would like to say I do find myself in the situations when the very feel of being pushed to the limit creates strong emotional feedback within my mind.

 No.309003

>>308903
Thank you for this recommendation. This is fascinating. Listening to a podcast about him. Yes, the theory of desire being mimetic makes sense. As does the idea that the subject of copying becoming a rival. This being a basis of violence. Therefore competitive violence is, for want of a better word, natural or inevitable. Scapegoating becomes the way of attaining stability. Makes sense. One can see it in schools.



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