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 No.302379[Reply]

Every morning I'm nauseous, really nauseous, sometime I puke and when I'm not nauseous I get random abdominal pain.
When I'm not nauseous or in pain I may have shortness of breath and tachycardia, often I'm also constipated.
Despite the vomit and constipation I try to eat and drink as much as I can, I'm losing weight and I fear to end up bedbound if I don't do so.
I've done some medical tests like blood tests, endoscopy, ecography, with no evidence of disease…still I'm really sick.
And my problem is I'm monitored by my parents, despite being an adult I have no freedom and they don't want to help me with suicide but I can't live like this.
I'm being tortured with no end in sight.
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 No.304012

>>302379
shortness of breath and tachycardia can come from reduced monoamine oxidase activity, very rare to have this.

try a tyramine free diet, since unmetabolized tyramine can lead to tachycardia and shortness of breath since it raises blood pressure.>>302379

 No.304025

>>304012
sounds somewhat relateable… i burp after cheese

 No.304936

>>304935
My diet for December has been:
more fish (good?)
more soda (bad?)
more beans, lentils cabbage (?????)
no meat
(inb4 soyboy) no soy also
no diary (seems to help?)
no spicy food also

 No.304942

>>304012
Ahahaha! Thanks for a hint, fren! Because I've been avoiding dairy products altogether for a month AND my burp problems have gone - even though my fizzy soda cola intake was awfully high yesterday. Havent it been for your hint, I wouldnt have noticed how smooth my last month was


regards, this very guy who've been complaining of being forced to lent - IT SEEMS TO DO TANGIBLE GOOD


i take i need to only eat dairy in moderation or… well,abstain from it,going full soiboi (im wizard-aged already anyway)

 No.304944

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i have same sympthoms two years ago. punking, panic attacks, nauseous, shortness of breath, sinus tachycardia, feel like someone holding my throat. urine and blood test were normal and doc said so healty.

then i realized my throat get irritated especially in the morning. its due to silent reflux. im in diet for 3 months. i have eliminated cigarettes, coffee, and chocolate from my life.



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 No.300442[Reply]

The top 5 regrets of the dying according to an Australian palliative care nurse Bonnie Ware are:

-I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
-I wish I hadn't worked so much.
-I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
-I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
-I wish that I had let myself be happier.
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 No.304533

>>300442
Basically, this gal says "My patients' most common BAAAAAAW is how they lacked the *qualities* or time to express their personality"

 No.304549

>>302967
Only one I don't relate to is the one about trying hard in school. I wish I tried harder. School in retrospect was actually piss easy compared to actual life. Easy and fun/interesting. I wish I tried real hard in college and didn't give a shit about friendships and just buckled down and learned shit real good. Now I am older and constantly running into things that I'd like to do but lack the knowledge to do. I could have learned a lot of it in college.

A degree would have made it much easier to wage slave at some low effort high paying job. IDK why I looked down on such a thing in my youth. I thought it was unfair and overly restrictive. It is unfair, but now I realize the only thing that sucks more than being a beneficiary of an unfair system is being one of the ones the system gives the shaft to. I had delusions of revolution in my youth. I expected too much from normies. Our current crop of people would never get it done. Now I'm coming to grips with living in a worsening dystopia while at the lowest possible rung of society.

 No.304937

>>304549
> had delusions of revolution in my youth. I expected too much from normies. Our current crop of people would never get it done. Now I'm coming to grips with living in a worsening dystopia while at the lowest possible rung of society.

Jesus I feel this so much, I was such a fool thinking things would change but as I get older, no one gives a shit and everyone gonna be for themselves. I wish I was selfish and worked really hard and stopped caring about the world. Only my own personal life, friends and family.

 No.304941


>>300448

Absolute truth bomb and you're absolutely correct.

 No.304943

>>300442
>-I wish that I had let myself be happier


Whoops, it was not me

it was me mum interrupting me randomly



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 No.304361[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.304929

>>304928
Human life is as valuable as a ant life, very disposable and replaceable pretty easily. Sorry that's the truth and the future will be less caring and dyspotian than you think.

 No.304931

>>304929
well look at WW1 where the cream of the Oxford British aristocracy could be mowed down like wheat at age 20. and here im a hikki neet pushing on 40 a living zombie. so it seems like lives are better preserved now.

 No.304938

>>304931
Hopefully it stays that way, I just have a bad feeling about a shit ton of rich billionaires having control of our society, with that much retarded power you really can troll society hard>>304931

 No.304939

>>304928
They don't care they just want to have unprotected sex, the predatory nature of life is embolded at the core of every society. The hunger games won't stop until the sun burns the earth.

 No.304940

Yeah I agree it's pretty bleak, but at the same time in the times past I'd be able to grow up more healthy physically, get my chance to murder a few people, and then blissfully leave this living hell at 20-25 years of age by a merciful bullet or a blade in my heart. I can't imagine anything better and more worthwhile than that. But now I'm a just rotten corpse, weak beyond the ability to be able to afford food on my own. Kill people? Lol dude. I'm afraid to simply be in the 10m vicinity. But yeah I do spend a lot of time fantasizing about violence, brutal, unprovoked and unchecked violence. That hollow, impotent rage is pretty much everything that's left of me as a human being. Ending my life would be more kind than satisfying any of my wishes at this point.


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 No.303176[Reply]

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one " Vitamin D3



they say Vitamin D3, because "Vitamin D" sounds like an euphemism, kekeke
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 No.303659

>>303658
Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:

L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.

You can put this into an llm to get explanations..

I've been doing this for 13 days and there is a slight difference… but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided, so it surprises absolutely nobody

 No.303660

>>303659
Thanks. I might find something similar in a DM store or something.

>but also my eating habits are very bad and one sided

Same reason I'm thinking basic vitamins worked a bit for me initially. I guess I was so deprived that anything, even low quality stuff helped.
I'm trying an iron pill now, it has 14mg iron 10mg zinc, 1mg copper(?) 1,4mg B6 some B12 and a bit of folic acid.

Doctor wasn't worried, but my blood iron is constantly on the low end so I decided to take this anyways.
Hope for something notable and that they don't mess with my BP meds.
Was drinking 2-3 energy drinks a day for a decade before and was forced to quit… That had B6 B12 too. Maybe this is the key to salvation.

 No.303661

>>303632
Depending on what you mean by "libido problems" pelvic floor exercises could go a long a way.
That was my issue. Now I can jerk it to doujins all day again if I wanted to.
The desire is lower now that I'm past 30 though. Probably natural + dopamine fatigue.

 No.303941

>>303180
what if i'll buy one too…

>>303659
>Of course, I grabbed a random german one (doppel herz) it has:
>L-Valin, L-Leucin, L-Isoleucin, L-Threonin, L-Methionin, L-Phenylalanin, L-Trytophan, L-Lysin, L-Histidin and non essentials are L-Arginin, L-Tytosin, L-Cystein.
bump

 No.304934

Reminder to take your vitamins, especially "fish oil" one - vitamin D


it's winter, so youre most likely in need for a source of vitamin D


The lack of vitamin D has been linked to both depression and ruined immune system



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 No.302164[Reply]

Does anyone here struggle with alcohol, or have managed to quit?

It used to be a good coping mechanism for me, but it seems the older I've gotten the worse it feels, and it's become detrimental to my health and the way I behave around people. Easily annoyed, constantly starting shit, tired all the time, strange pains. And I was still getting worse, fast.

This has been a wake-up call and I'm realizing I need to quit before it's too late. Though that's easy for me to say now when I'm still feeling bad, and I fear the cravings will come back strong, but I know I've got to try.

Curious to hear others experience with this.
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 No.303163

>>302637
Because this could mean a beer (330ml) each day, or chugging 2.4L on any given day of the week.

 No.303344

>>303153
same situation
i just drink anyway lmao
and sometimes it goes away
it depends on how severe your GERD is

 No.303691

>>303344
It's gotten worse with age, will probably fuck up my esophagus if I'm not careful. at its worst it feels like there's molten lava in my chest. so i've been cutting back.

i've tried anti-acid tablets but it makes it worse in the long term i noticed, better to just drink a lot of water - and never imbibe on an empty stomach.

 No.303722

>>303691
I had a GERD-like booshi back in 2019


in 2020, I realised it was the "not so spicy" spicy food from work that was doing the inflaming stuff to me

 No.304933

>>303691



ok, just in case


try to eat 1 source of carbs only per month or, at least, week:

switch between:
rice/pasta+bread+buns/buckwheat "kasha"

to rule out undiagnosed GLUTEN stuff



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 No.304887[Reply]

any wizards choose to take psychiatric meds?
and also what's the deal with assisted/medically induced suicide these days?

i hate crawling back to antidepressants but when my thoughts start getting too dark that i can't metabolize them on my own with meditation, and i can't concentrate on anything, i just need something to take the edge off, and if i'm not abusing substances, it's really hard to think of anything that will work better than prozac. but i hate that i need them. my old doctors would say something like, "well what if you needed glasses would you hate them and refuse to wear them? Or just get glasses and live your life?"

Seems switzerland actually lets non-citizens have assisted suicide? my mental health is not really severe enough probably… i don't have a terminal illness or anything… just a tootheache and dysthimia that makes me want to escape dealing with it head on… i had a fleeting relief by researching it and seeing it exists, but the thought has since passed (for now)
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 No.304919

>>304917
>right
you keep using ""right"" the same way some subversive judeomarxist tranny does
legalizing murder isn't your ""right""
You have the right to slit your wrists in a bathtub

 No.304920

>>304918
Better yet, go down fighting if you really care about dignity, faggot

 No.304921

>>304919
if criminals have a right to be executed, then they shouldn't get privileges that law-abiding citizens can't demand as well.

 No.304924

>>304887
Assisted suicide is for sissies. I have suicidal thoughts daily but I'd never go there. I say if you are truly willing to die, you will do it by a knife, by a noose, by a train, by ODing drugs, it doesn't really matter. This shit reeks of 'profit' chasing. Giving jews shekels so that they kill you is awful. I'd rather dehydrate myself to death than give a damn nickel to those bastards.

 No.304932

>>304920
>>304924
Delusional, you wouldn't remain sane throughout this process and you would pussy out when you start feeling bad. Assisted death is a basic human right, deal with it savages.



 No.301044[Reply]

I'm nervous because I've tried so many times and it never worked.

I recently worked alone on the backend of a course project, barely sleeping and also helping with the frontend. Before the deadline, my hands were shaking from anxiety and lack of sleep, which made my stuttering worse. Still, I finished the project (ASP.NET + Angular) and got 11 out of 12 points - almost a perfect score.

But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs, creating the backend and connecting everything via API. After all this, I was given even more assignments, and now I can't focus on my own projects. Everyone acts like they know what I should do, but I want to do what I want. I have a few personal projects, but they never moved beyond testing.

What frustrates me the most is the uncertainty - I never know if I will succeed. The chances of failure seem huge. The military pressure makes it worse - if I do nothing, I am sent to war (death sentence), or thrown out on the street, or harshly judged.

Thoughts of suicide used to come a few times a year; now it is almost every day. I do not want to live like this. I am too weak mentally to die, but I feel like I am just existing without hope. On top of that, I am burdened by old wounds and a burning desire to take revenge for all the humiliations I have suffered.

Also, I stutter. Most people don’t really care about it and just ignore it, which is actually good. But a few still mock me, including relatives, saying things like, “If you don’t like it, don’t stutter, or it’s embarrassing for me.”
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 No.302356

>having a job
There's your problem.

 No.302895

>>301044
>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover, while I was fixing bugs, creating the backend and connecting everything via API. After all this, I was given even more assignments, and now I can't focus on my own projects. Everyone acts like they know what I should do, but I want to do what I want. I have a few personal projects, but they never moved beyond testing.

>But our frontend guy only got 12 points for a beautiful cover


He's probably "full-on assburger" about design too - don't waste your nerves on him. His "beautiful" cover probably also involves avoiding bullshit features with un-intuitive names - shit youll find in mediocre AIMP4 skins let alone wonky websites.

 No.303758

You following the treaded path which can not only let you down but also drain you along they way.

Learn Human Design, you bunch of noobs. Learn why whatever shit you are doing now will never work while your bodies cry it even if things make sense the opposite way in your thoughts.

I stopped applying for wagecuck holes and I hate not having done it from the very start. How is it that I am anxious only when I seek "a future" as a wagecuck, but totally smooth while I neet?

Suck the world dry. They deserve it.

 No.304897

>>301044
still here?

 No.304930

>>302141
>4. you have a safe place to sleep


we don't know if his neighbour is a crazy junkie of sorts or a cat killa mad lad



 No.304864[Reply]

Its like it's this horrible world, full of horrible people, and it's so tempting to hate Being. To hate being itself. And fall into complete nihilism. But you have to embrace Being as it is. And yourself as you are. And just accept the place the Cosmos has given you. And even if it is your destiny to be friendless, ostracized, outcast by all. And to have a shitty job. And you just wagie and then you die forgotten. That's what you were put into this cosmos to do. And you just have to do it. And that's what it means to be a Man. And you just do your shitty job a little bit better each day. And you've made the world a slightly better place, even though the World still hates you back, and there's no reward for goodness.
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 No.304883

>>304877
might as well cut out the imitation and go straight to the source.

But its still a JP message. Take pride in being a frog. But its not like frog pride is because frogs are the best species superior to all others. there are so many species that are bigger, stronger and can do more than frogs. But you accept the role you were given and do your best at it, without any illusions or delusions of rising above.

 No.304884

>>304878
he is proud to be on benzos. That's what the whole lobster metaphor is about. Like people caricature that about JP worshipping lobsters as alpha male chads. And it is a little bit of that.

But the larger point is that the lobster gets a serotonin flush from winning fights. But if you get it from prozac or benzos it has the exact same impact on the lobster. So you can win fights, or you can just take benzos. it has the same hormonal impact.

 No.304885


 No.304903

Massively improved standard of living
The child mortality rate in Africa
Is now the same as it was in Europe in 1952
Which is a statistic
That I just regard as
Absolutely miraculous
The rate of poverty is diminishing
At an amazing rate, right
Between 2000 and 2012
We have poverty

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 No.303736[Reply]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.304780

So my boss and a coworker got hit with COVID-19 and guess who has to step in and cover. It's my dumbass. I'm now in day 2 of a 6 day stretch. Plus the fact that it's the holidays…I hate this time of year.

 No.304804

>>304612
Unlike most crabs here, I can't no longer stand being a NEET. I feel a burden to my fathers.

I know I will yearn being a NEET at some point in life, if I manage to land a job first.

 No.304840

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>>304035
Figured I'd give a little update:
I ended up quitting after about two weeks because I got another job offer that at the time sounded a lot better (evening shift instead of a night shift, and at a factory instead of a supermarket), but after a few weeks of working there, I can confidently say that I hate it. I liked it more at the supermarket. The problem with the factory is that it's all very tight knit and everyone tries to talk to me cause I'm the new guy when I really just don't want to talk to anyone unless it's work related. I've also made a bit too good of a first impression with management so they're pushing me to do more already, which I don't think I'll be able to do since I'm quite forgetful. At least at the supermarket, no one acknowledged my existence and I had one job in one aisle only.

How great being a NEET was and how I can go back to that is one of the only things I think about now, but I'm not retarded/lucky enough to have the government take care of me, so I'd have to live with my parents, and I don't want to do that.

 No.304922

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>>304840
>I've also made a bit too good of a first impression with management so they're pushing me to do more already, which I don't think I'll be able to do since I'm quite forgetful.

As an older mage who's been in the working world a while, let me give you some advice here young wizzie, NEVER go above and beyond at your job even if you're more then capable of it - your reward won't be more pay or bonuses, you'll only be rewarded with more work AND your coworkers will start to dislike you since you'll make them look bad in front of the management. You want to neither stand out at the very top nor be the one at the very bottom, always try to remain AVERAGE with the amount of effort you put in at work.

The less your managers expect from you - the better it will be for you. Nowadays also in this economy being a high-performer at work doesn't guarantee you job security, I've seen some hard-working smart individuals get laid off in jobs simply cause they were being paid higher then the rest of the team and someone needed to be let go to save on employee costs. And now that you showed your managers that you can be driven to work hard without any extra reward on their part, they'll come to expect that level of hard work from you consistently at the same amount of pay. In short - learn to take it easy wizzie, you don't need to impress anyone at work or go above and beyond since you'll only end up burning yourself out.

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>>304840
Sorry to hear that. When it comes to work, it's very difficult to find a job that's tolerable, and very easy to lose that job once you do find it.
>it's all very tight knit and everyone tries to talk to me cause I'm the new guy
I hate that shit so much, the "we're like a big family" type of workplace. It's the worst because your coworkers will try to pry into your personal life and even pressure you to attend social functions with them and get offended if you refuse. It's ridiculous.

>>304922
Exactly correct, wiz. I had to learn that lesson the hard way a few times. I would set out to do a good enough job so that no one has a reason to complain about me, but I would overdo it and impress the people around me, which result in more responsibility and higher expectations, which would ultimately result in me getting burnt out, overwhelmed, and eventually quitting. Also, as you said, there's no reward for working hard. In fact, with labor laws the way they are now, you can actually get legally screwed over at work. I recently got promoted at my job (I didn't try that hard, just most people around me were shit at their jobs or had bad attendance, so I was the best choice by process of elimination) and the company I work for wont even consider giving me a raise until April, because that's when their fiscal-year ends. So I'm doing a job that I'm getting provably underpaid for, but it doesn't matter because it's legal in the eyes of the shitty US government. The collapse can't happen soon enough.



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 No.303847[Reply]

I feel like I have a big black hole instead of my heart. it happens when I'm sad. It 100% comes from my depression for sure. it hurts because it's like someone stabbed you and you can feel the hole and it hurts even more and I get more depressed and I feel like the hole is growing bigger and heavier. it hurts so much when it happens. no hobby can satisfy me to fill the hole. the hole acts like a black hole and absorbs every positive thinking or things.
anyone felt/feels that and how did you overcome it?
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 No.303955

>>303954
>didn't do anything these years, just resting at home/a NEET another words).

That's kind of what I did. I used it as an excuse to take up a bunch of hobbies and just try to learn any skill. I managed to code a few simple video games during that time. At this point, the ship has sailed on trying to make a career for myself due to AI and the worsening job market but I had fun at least.

 No.303956

>>303955
waoh you made a game,im impressed.
for me, I learned no skills in these resting years. I couldn't do anything, I was too depressed and crying like everyday. i was in a bad mood and the delirium because of schizophrenia. so yeah I developped 0 skills

 No.303959

>>303955
Wiz, don't beat yourself down over AI. The people who care about games would rather play an authentic game made by YOU rather than some quickly made AI game with stolen assests. Same thing with art: people who CARE about art pick a real drawing every time.
Give coding one more try, you have nothing to lose, aren't you? Who knows, maybe in a few years you will develop your skill so well that you would be able to solve complex problems where AI stumbles.

 No.304898

>>303849
these things really do not matter.
are you healthy? this is really all that matters.

 No.304923

>>304898
I'm kind of okay yeah



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