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Sad Oekaki Anonymage 07/12/26 (Sun) 18:39:33 No.309031 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want

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Anonymage 09/17/26 (Thu) 14:27:37 No.310547

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Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 00:27:45 No.310612

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wizards final spell…

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Cyberbullying Anonymage 07/28/26 (Tue) 07:11:16 No.309393 [Reply]

Is anyone else here being cyber-bullied? I have been cyberbullied by a colleague in my hobby for over 10 years; he has used his superior reputation to waylay, insult me and make me feel insignificant. It doesn't matter how many laps I would run around him, he only becomes more entrenched in his own sense of superiority. It used to be I just didn't have the catalog of works to "prove myself" to him. Now he is just being incalcitrant, dismissing that I have such works even now. The worst part is that my "envy" has moved from wanting a catalog like his, to having now, in my own estimation, attained that catalog to envying his pride and arrogance and self-assuredness. This is terrible to envy these things as a supposed Christian. And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone. But I will say, I could be a lot more happy if he completely lost his access to the internet.

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Anonymage 09/14/26 (Mon) 13:01:00 No.310495

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>>310494
I have selective mutism so im like airlines fuel to assholes jerks that like to talk to much or have no problem to make suffering me bacause i fight little to them. In general i talk normal to normies and in hobby talks but when there're these attention whores its like they build a hierarchy to bully people thanks to their power, wealth, charisma, image or wathever
>Also
I never told anyone about this thing about selective mutism (just one nun and she was the most gentle and kind person i met in my life but she was more a nun than a succubi)
but i know these assholes know it by nature and they love ans enjoy torture me.
>And worse, I kind of just think "what if he died. Then I could enjoy my hobby in peace". As a Christian I shouldn't want the death of anyone.
I a stupid agnostic but i read a lot of religions and philosophies of life and every year i turn more slowly into a Buddhist Daoist with some christian like mindset and ideas.
And yes this year i got that idea of "what if this asshole achieve the worst possible suffering experience in life and keeps living with this suffering for his entire damn existence without death peace" and yes, this is a contradiction of my ideas and ideals, these are like alien ideas to me.
You know, doing these practices of metta or love-kindness actually hurt me a lot knowning that i feel like this in response to suffering that these assholes cause me. Its like i slowly turn from a Jedi to a Sith.
The best to do is learn to ignore them and if they are too much annoying take it to the legal.

Anonymage 09/14/26 (Mon) 20:41:24 No.310502

>>310494
it's ok, there's so many half breeds around that nobody is gonna be able to tell you apart

Anonymage 09/15/26 (Tue) 07:44:59 No.310513

>>309393
Yes, I don't know who it is as I see it everywhere I go, multiple people, will probably do a Rodger if I don't find it

Anonymage 09/15/26 (Tue) 21:01:45 No.310517

>>309393
He sounds like a typical narcissist, OP. Cut contact with him and find another social circle. You don't have to put up with this.

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 10:23:51 No.310622

Every time I establish myself in some group i get bullied, their 6th sense is remarkable I must say. I resort to just being alone, or fully embracing being the biggest troll I can possibly be, which often leads to bans and currently 2 police visits to my house!!

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Wageslave General Anonymage 08/30/26 (Sun) 20:21:36 No.310123 [Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736

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Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 16:52:19 No.310603

I somehow managed to save my budget after a moderately sized emergency spending last month OH WAIT

Oh G-d. Another emergency spending is coming my way. Guess I shouldn't have been despairposting this weekend.

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 17:31:32 No.310606

>>310603
Why did you censor 'God'?

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 09:05:34 No.310618

Recently hit 10 years at my job. HR decided to take a photo of me and post it on social media. I work retail. 50% of the comments are making fun of me. Why do they have to do this?

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 09:12:50 No.310619

>>310128
I'm not a great story teller but a previous boss of mine was a psycho midget demon succubus.

She would constantly bark orders at me "GET THE BOX NOW!!!!!" as I work into the room with the boxes, there are 10 boxes that belong to our department. I bring it out. "NOT THAT ONE WHAT THE FUCK!?" So I ask which one she wants. "JUST THE FUCKING BOX!" Ok, but which one does she need? There is no obvious common sense answer either, as nothing is currently a priority in regards to the polcies we follow or the situation at hand. She eventually just does it herself and grabs one of the boxes I originally asked if it was this one or not?

Also when we filled the shelf during nightfill she would blast off on an unhinged rant at me for filling the chocolate ice cream first instead of the vanilla ice-cream, but this is totally inconsequential… It takes like 45~80 seconds to fully fill each flavor, and the store doesn't even open until another 6 hours. Why does it matter? She would scream at me call me names and report me. Everyone hated her, they hated her to the point they'd rather side with me the weirdo type than her. That should say a lot as they were typical normies. That boss was so fucking insane, and the funniest part of it all was I learned from the store manager that she had supported me on several occasions where they wanted to cancel my time off work, and she just covered my shifts so she essentially did 100+ hour weeks just to ensure I wasn't interrupted. That's why I'm so confected about this boss. Perhaps she's a good person that just has very severe mental issues? I don't know.

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 10:22:01 No.310621

>>310166
I always get a savoury pie. Steak n cheese. Chicken and sweet potato, whatever we sell. There's a ton of options granted they aren't sold old. Paired with an energy drink. It honestly is my biggest cope

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fiction and mental health Anonymage 08/16/26 (Sun) 10:38:09 No.309759 [Reply]

i keep wondering if all fiction could be unhealthy for the brain. human life is so short, a day has so few hours. how can you take one or more of these hours and flee to a place that doesn't exist and disconnect from your own reality.

places that don't exist have begun to repell me. my own reality has so many projects i would like to attend to that i feel gridlocked by not knowing what to do first. desire for fiction might be nothing but pure idleness.

i assume i understand the impulse, though i could be mistaken. when i was a child and were forced to attend child prison (school), the idea of no longer being able to explore the world at my own pace and instead had to spend time with the violent conformist was completely depressing. have them judge my intelligence based on how hard i could force myself to care what they thought was important in their desperate attempt to turn me into a mindless soldier and stomp all my dreams and interests in the process.

i'd flee into video games and at least videogames are interactive. in a video game i can make decisions, in school i was but an inmate without agency. but in a movie about a super hero, there is no interaction, the poor fool who watches this is but the passive recipient of centralized propaganda. i don't see how someone would accept this premise and spend time on this.

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Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 19:43:17 No.310581

>>310580
Also, even in a guided democracy where people don't actually have a say, the political decisions made by the leaders still massively impact reality which is mostly what I was talking about. Whether you have influence in the decision or not is completely moot, it's still the opposite of fiction because it's all grounded in the real world. Literally the definition of non-fiction.

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 10:41:21 No.310598

>>310579
>They don't care you exist unless you publicly dig into the sources of their wealth etc., in which case their networks can stalk and hound you for decades.

they do though. this belief that if you don't bother them, they don't bother you and that you can avoid yourself out of random punishment is another illusion. this alone is why "nothing to hide nothing to fear" is complete theater. you will be targeted even if you obey all the rules as well as all the unspoken rules. they will harm everyone whether it is just or not, period. they believe hurting everyone makes everything better. everyone being depressed is the petri-dish they need to grow. the longer you are a minion, the more you will believe that just hurting others is the key to success.

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 10:48:38 No.310599

>>310581
>Whether you have influence in the decision or not is completely moot, it's still the opposite of fiction because it's all grounded in the real world

you did not pay for your ticket and enter the theater to see the show, they just turned everything into a theater and you are forced to see the show. that's still fiction. calling me young is a known theater tactic to discredit and insult me but it just reveals how uncomfortable and threatened this thread makes you.

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 05:37:18 No.310615

>>310579
>Russia
Lmao, that is Ukraine. I know, I live here. You saying ANYTHING about our 'glorious struggle', a ton of 'veterans' will come to put you on your knees and apoligize on camera. If you don't do that, they get to fuck you up, kidnap you and throw into a meatgrinder as a fodder. All with silent approval of authorities.
Russia is a peaceful paradise in comparison.

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 09:15:20 No.310620

It might sound incredibly stupid but one of the reasons I didn't kill myself when I had a very easy 1 finger movement method was because I wanted to see the ending of the Berserk manga

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Depression Crawl Thread LXXVI Anonymage 08/17/26 (Mon) 16:31:10 No.309794 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

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Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 23:00:07 No.310590

>>310578
I went to my favorite mexican restaurant and got a molcajete with beans, cheese, chorizo, beef carne asada, chicken, cactus, cucumber, radish, and oaxaca cheese

Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 23:04:18 No.310591

>>310578
Rockstar Energy and instant ramen

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 00:22:02 No.310592

>>310590
>>310591
really good shit, mein mages
love it when I read people enjoying a nice meal!

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 05:46:27 No.310616

The only change age brought in me was an ever more present fear of death. Fuck my nigger faggot life, just what I needed, attachment to a worthless existence.

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 07:48:44 No.310617

>>310616
what are your favorite meals? I'm thinkin about goin to a mc donalds today and order 5 big macs

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would anyone really care if you killed yourself? Anonymage 10/30/25 (Thu) 18:29:45 No.303825 [Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.

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Anonymage 07/07/26 (Tue) 04:30:39 No.308962

Nobody would care if I killed myself, everyone treated me like a joke, people in public and my family, I move a lot and because of that I have no friends, I’m so lonely that sometimes I feel like I’m going insane, I’m a neet and I hate it, I serve 0 purpose in life, I’m so Lonely, maybe life would be better after, ide like to imagine that after death it’s calm and warm with a nice breeze and you wouldn’t be trapped in a body, all succubi are sexist bitches, I’ve been treated horribly by succubi they’ve lied to me and have been fake to me, my family would be relieved if I’m gone, I have no energy to do anything I can’t even properly take care of myself, they’ll just see it as more room in the house once I’m gone, my sister would be happy and my parents would be happy but pretend to be sad, someone please help me

Anonymage 08/04/26 (Tue) 02:22:39 No.309529

My mom would be upset she looks like a bad parents and fear of legal retaliation from the state

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 14:16:31 No.310600

>>303825
This is a really infantile question. People don't care when others are murdered why would they care if a nigga shot himself voluntarily?

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 16:57:34 No.310605

>>310600
They care because it reflects poorly on them which can be traumatic to their self-image. Murders are often wrong place, wrong time like a car accident caused by a drunk driver.

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 21:03:10 No.310611

I don't know. I don't care enough about other people around me to know

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free theraphy Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 11:38:14 No.310565 [Reply]

ITT you humor me as i play psychologist and i try to give legit helpful good-faithed answers, preferably based on phenomenon you have a chance of have seen play out in reality already. in case of failure and the absence of anything helpful at least i skillfully disrespect you.

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Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 20:55:45 No.310588

>>310584
>liminal spaces
it did feel that way to me too, i guess they make a lot of money at the restaurant. i think they sell stuff like big schnitzels there so the restaurant might be helping to carry the store. i miss the ikea when it wasn't as high tech as it was today. i no longer go there.

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 19:04:49 No.310607

>>310574
>on the picture you see ph measuring paper. you can hold this in the pea stream and it will give you a number, i have some, i will report back what mine is next time i have to go.

i keep forgetting, i close the lid of the toilet and place my little roll of ph paper on it. PICTURES INCOMING

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delivery

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 20:16:06 No.310609

>>310608
Piss quality: 6-7

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 20:21:51 No.310610

>>310609

yeah. i have been eating particularly less healthy in the last month, i'd probably want my pee to be more acidic because i am peeing out alkalic stuff that should have gone to balance my inner ph. i pee this good stuff out without having it counterbalance any acidity in me. i think if my ph was more like 6 it would be better. i just eat the last bit of shelf stable industrial strugglefood crap i bought before i eat that good good again.

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Voluntarily cutting off ties Anonymage 03/20/26 (Fri) 01:04:37 No.306437 [Reply]

Does anyone else voluntarily exile themselves from society?

I'm tired of socializing, drama, human interests, social demands, social everything.

I wish I was a machine instead of a talking ape. I actually hate being an animal.
I don't even hate people, I just don't want to be in any contact with them. I even hate my own body for forcing me to eat and wash in order to not completely dysfunction.

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Anonymage 09/18/26 (Fri) 20:53:49 No.310562

It just happened without me noticing, like the body rejecting frost-bitten fingertips.
I feel forlorn at times because I did enjoy time with my family, but it's all gone. My father was the only one keeping us together and I miss him more than his relatives, so even the loss of pretending I'm valued by family is overshadowed by that loss. I also miss a friend I had as a child in middle school, my first and only friend. But there's no recourse by now. Miss you, Pretzel.

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 07:06:28 No.310594

>>306437
i work an overnight security job and i have no problem interacting with my coworkers, but some of them think that being polite and considerate means that its ok to have a 20-30 minute conversation with me.

Its socially unacceptable to just tell people "look i really don't want to interact with anyone" so i have to periodically endure this torture. I get NOTHING out of interacting with other men irl. Its just a nuisance and nothing else

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 07:10:25 No.310595

>>307190
i keep a beard and plan to let my hear grow out down to my chest if i can manage. its starting to touch my shoulders.

grooming is crab behavior

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 14:27:10 No.310601

>>306437
I did this and don't recommend as it's really easy to get yourself in horrible situations when alone, especially with family. If you are going to cut off ties it's better to murder your own family than have any connection to "exceptions".

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 16:55:40 No.310604

>>310601
>If you are going to cut off ties it's better to murder your own family
Retard

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Opioid agonists for depression Anonymage 09/12/26 (Sat) 04:54:23 No.310367 [Reply]

If you are hopelessly depressed and lonesome, you simply need a mu-opioid agonist to rectify this state of affairs and make you feel connected and whole.

Opioids are literally the chemical of social attachment, and this becomes evident shortly after you take one.

Obviously do not abuse them and take them at the lowest effective dose, and you can be like me and treat your depression for years without trouble.

Has anybody else here had experience with them?

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Anonymage 09/12/26 (Sat) 11:26:18 No.310382

>>310381
Yeah I meant exactly this, he prescribes poison to hundrends of patients, I personally have to endure a dystonia from antipsychotic injections, but he criticized my parents for giving me paracetamol for pain lol I'd need morphine.

Anonymage 09/12/26 (Sat) 17:58:09 No.310390

>>310380
picrel's oxytocin

Anonymage 09/17/26 (Thu) 02:55:48 No.310536

>>310368
What is your diet like?

Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 19:49:25 No.310583

They've scientifically proven that taking these actually sensitizes you to pain, meaing you feel pain worse as a baseline after taking them for a while. If you actually have pain you are basically asking to be hooked for life. I can understand it though, it's all a judgement call on whether your pain is bad enough.

I don't think they do shit for mental health. People just get euphoric and disconnected from life. It's like being in a comfortable haze that shields you from the normal feelings of life, but it doesn't actually make anything better.

Anonymage 09/20/26 (Sun) 07:46:32 No.310596

>>310367
I more favour to use LSD with therapies.
There's more ways to get the feeling of social connection without drugs.

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Suicide General Anonymage 04/12/26 (Sun) 14:37:38 No.307023 [Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511

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Anonymage 09/15/26 (Tue) 22:49:34 No.310521

left side of my head hurts a bit, i think i gotta take the practice a bit more seriously consequence-wise
also found some resources that are intended for people that find hanged folk or those in the midst of attempted hanging/asphyxiation, got a few more details of the nature of the injury from that as well as some hints on common setups (they naturally avoid being too descriptive)
im taking it slow since this stuff is scary, next up ill be looking into tourniquet method to secure a knot

its ridiculous in its own right but this is seemingly the only thing i can do to reassure my body and give me a moment's rest, its like it wants me to convince it that i can do this once it comes down to it
ive since spoken to a fellow suicidal person too but he seems more in a ready-to-die state than a wanting-to-die state, enviable but he's a chronic pain case so it makes sense to me
my own confidence in success remains low, thats always been my personality

Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 12:05:32 No.310568

>>307170
Because I experience no joy, I have no hobbies I have no desires or ambitions I am completely emotionally numb I feel exhausted constantly having to get up and live is just impossible

Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 12:15:16 No.310569

I'm just going to decapitate myself on train tracks there's a rail line not so far from my house I haven't been outside in months and finding the energy to do it is hard but I'll wall there tomorrow and see if it's possible.

What about slitting your wrist? I like the idea of my mother finding me so maybe she can have some closure I'll just bleed in the bathtub

Anonymage 09/19/26 (Sat) 17:15:54 No.310575

i hate myself and wish to die. i have no courage though so i'm too scared to end it all. survival instinct etc

Anonymage 09/21/26 (Mon) 03:44:20 No.310614

>>310575
The survival instinct is by far the biggest hurdle to committing suicide.

I've seen a video of someone just straight up slicing their throat and dying shortly after, and I could never do that. I'd probably cut it abit but then desperately cover it to prevent myself from bleeding out. It's why I legitimately think it's retarded to say that people who commit suicide are cowards. There's nothing cowardly about killing yourself, you're literally doing something that goes against your own instincts, it's honestly an almost divine act of defiance.

I think people who have never had suicidal tendencies just don't understand. People like us are in a tug of war, constantly wishing to die, but never having the full guts to go through with it.

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