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 No.308343[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The Time God does not forget nor forgive edition. You will do this again.

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 No.309240

>>309239
Are you fat?

 No.309242

it's so hot that the air conditioner keeps turning off and other breakers are also tripping. living in the south is genuinely hell on earth. i google temps in coastal cities and feel such envy

 No.309243

>>309242
they predict that august will be warmer

 No.309248

>>309240
What a rude question. Are you a nigger?

 No.309249

>>309248
It's a perfectly reasonable question. Obesity directly contributes to overheating. As per its rules, this website accommodates adult men only. To take offense to an inquiry regarding body fat in an open discussion about debilitating heat is childish and feminine. I believe you are fat too.


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 No.301262[Reply]

It's Saturday night and I started taking a new antidepressant called Mirtazapine (15mg) on Thursday night.

This is my 10th or so attempt at a psychiatric medication. I've tried lots of therapy too.

Wish me luck anonymages. I was about to quit my job but watched some motivational videos on autoplay on Youtube for hours and as cheesy as it was, they convinced me to give this a go.

I didn't even get these prescribed recently. It was way back last year and then I just didn't take them because this particular medicine has a reputation for making people really fatigued.

It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.

Maybe it'll even help me turnaround my fortunes at work where it looks like I'm sliding towards a firing or just being unable to come in. Barely stopped myself raging at my boss the other day and took 2 weeks sick leave from stress afterwards. I need to swallow some humble pie come Monday and hopefully these pills help. Being off work for 2 weeks showed me I'm just as miserable and actually more so depressed, anxious and stressed not working despite all the antiwork slogans I collect.
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 No.309234

>>308685
As a wizard, I hate it, no matter how paradox it may look for a stagnant person. I was going to become a tech geek (mostly sucessful at that). I was going to enjoy shining in this geeky techy life of a standalone unit (I am semi-successful at that). Instead, I am getting regarded with pity (helped me to disarm a heated moment in a bar though).

 No.309237

I'm fucking mandated to take jewpills for the rest of my life, and have been on them since I was 6.

 No.309238

>>309237
Just stop taking them.

 No.309245

>>309238
I need to wait until I live by myself. My parents will snitch to my doctor if they know I don't take them anymore. And I suck at lying.

 No.309247

>>309245
>My parents will snitch to my doctor
SO
FUCKING
WHAT?!?



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 No.309207[Reply]

"I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me." - Hunter S. Thompson

erowid.org
psychonautwiki.org
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 No.309217

I'd do drugs…………… if I had any

 No.309225

>>309217
same

i don't know where to buy them i fear getting poisoned

 No.309226

I envy addicts who can easily exit this meaninglessness called life just like that

 No.309244

>>309225
Just get research chemicals from Canada

 No.309246

>>309217
same
you need connections to get drugs, and wizards don't typically have large social circles, if any at all



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 No.309031[Reply]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.309222

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 No.309223

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>>309192
Happy birthday wizard, this drawing is very good

lets pray we all earn a gorillion dollarinos

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 No.309241

>>309227
phenomenal :thumbsup:



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 No.306449[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

What is the average wizard's relationship with religion like? No religious person has ever been able to give me a good argument for why God, if he is out there, is not the most maximally evil being in the universe simply by the virtue of creating suffering when he could have chosen not to. Saying "suffering builds character" and derivatives of is just a manifestation of their stockholm syndrome for this vile entity

>I form the light, and create darkness. I make peace, and create evil. I YHWH do all these things - Isaiah 45:7
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 No.308920

>>308919
Looks like you forgot to capitalize correctly, prepare for hEll kid

 No.308926

>>308916
He feedeth birds to other animals. That seems cruel.

 No.308939

I simply think/pray in my mind to "the real creator" and tell him I hope he has nice plans for me because Im tired. I don't really associate it with any religion, just the powerful creator

 No.309230

>>307869
getting really red pilled by all this.

 No.309236

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>>306450
how do people force themselves to think this is good, I don't get it


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 No.301895[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Starting a new anti-suicide general as the original has been bump-locked.

Helping wizards to understand that persuasive feelings of suicide can be bested.

Further the discursive spirit of this thread will remain the same as the first: to counter the general luring tenor of sadness that defines all the other threads through sharing positive practical advice purposed to reducing suicidal behavior even when we feel most suicidal. Naturally, being that I started the topic, I will be the first to contribute.

(1) Know that I care about you guys deeply and sincerely. Call me a faggot, I don't care (many have already done this, to no worthwhile avail)
(2) Examine what you are eating. For example, gluten especially produces depressive/psychotic episodes in sensitive autistic individuals. Sugar also is not healthy for your brain. Delimiting ingestion of both is wise.
(3) Make sure you are getting sufficient sleep. Chronic sleeplessness or even a few days' worth of irregular sleep can seriously interfere with the clarity of our thinking.
(4) Clean up. Taking a warm shower and putting on fresh clean clothes always is refreshing and helps to break up darkened mental habits.
(5) Breathe fresh air. Open whichever windows punctuate your room and allow some wind to come in.
(6) Watch your breathing. When we are panicked, our breathing can become very disordered and we do not recognize the effect this has on our thinking. Take deep, purposeful breaths, and collect your thoughts.
(7) Respect yourself. You have done your best to survive in an awful world, and you should grant yourself forgiveness for any mistakes and the allowance to rest with a composed and balanced mind.

I've done my part. Anyone else?
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 No.308693

>>308684
>reminder people in curry countries have it easier than wizards in baker countries

 No.308779

>>308693
I've often wondered what my life would have been like if I had grown up without eating wheat.

 No.308983

>>308779
probably very few people have ever done this.

 No.309232

>>308555
I can't remember feeling ill after eating regular store-bought candies/snacks when I was young either but whenever I do now I feel very ill. It's like all the food has been poisoned.

 No.309233

>>309232
"Mexican mix" (carrots, potatoes, beans, some other vegetables)?

Carrots steamed with seasoning?

Eggs with seasoning?

Bananas?


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 No.309114[Reply]

>The more I seclude myself the more I long for human connection
>The more I interact with the 3D world the more I just want to be left alone
I literally cannot win in this life
I am always worried about doing the wrong thing, I am always lamenting all of my errors of the past
I hardly actually live
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 No.309198

>>309190
it's definitely a means to an end. cats like to snuggle up to you and you think "oh she luvs me" but in reality you're just a warm place that consistently generates food and stimulating scratches. animals are not capable of "love" in the same way, but the reactions they give to petting and feeding them is its own reward. they seem happy and that makes you happy in return. maybe its the same way with humans, you act affectionate towards someone because you know it makes them feel good (or at least you imagine that's the case), so making someone else feel good makes you feel good. its a very core circuit, you can't just shut it off or break it.

>>309189
it's unlikely it's broken, just suppressed or under-activated. i got emotional because it was probably several years since i just played with a cute animal and her cute reaction caught me by surprise, just activated something inside me that i thought i lost. usually i'm hikkimaxxing and when i'm walking outside i'm just looking to get home as fast as possible. i sort of understand why lonely people have pets because the touch starvation is probably the worst part, novelty and gossip you can always get on the internet.

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>>309198
I'd like to keep goats some day, they're actually very affectionate animals and not predatory, I became a vegetarian about 5 years ago so I feel somewhat incompatible at this point with predatory animals, obviously you need money for that though and lots of space. But thats a goal for me and Id say its important to have a goal

 No.309214

>>309198
also there's a beneficial thing happening internally when you are caring for another creature. Esp being kind/patient to a disobedient dog, or tolerating a cat's moodiness and still lovin' them. It's good practice cus it's easy to do for an animal. But that same circuit can apply to the self, or to other people.

Like it's easy to feed your pet. Why does it sometimes feel impossible to feed your self? We need to tend for our own needs too and be our own caretakers.

 No.309218

>>309114
Honestly, I don't crave that. I think I've done quite enough of it for 11 years. I miss the days of just being in my room, locked away, quiet.

 No.309221

When you are happy being alone they will find other ways to make you suffer



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 No.308694[Reply]

Do you think suicide hotlines are helpful? I have been calling them almost everyday without anything improving.
Is there a better alternative?
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 No.308753

no they suck, i called one once and they sent the cops to my house and they drove me to the psych ward.

Its pretty useless

 No.308823

The queues are always stupidly long too, i have sometimes had to wait hours just for some miserable lady to pick up and give me "motivational poster" ass advice

 No.309205

AFAIK, a door slam and a gunshot would be indistinguishable over the phone line.

 No.309210

They are designed for normies with normie problems "My succubus left me man!!" "Chad cheated on me !" or some other studpid reason. I texted one around 2013 in my country and gave them a very blackpilled reason for wanting to die, they couldn't even use the le happy responce they just said hope it gets better please call the police LOL

 No.309211

>>308735
whatever the reason is these hotlines exist, they basically 'do nothing' except call the cops on some callers



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 No.308999[Reply]

Are there people here who don't have a job or don't get NEETbux and have to live with parents who are abusive and stupid as fuck but you just can't beat the crap out of them because you're dependent upon them?
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 No.309087

>>309037
Maybe my "de jure only" parent is both combined, given how it was me who managed to fix the trashed apartment (financed).

 No.309088

>>309083
>Misery loves company
>see
Oh I wanna be around
To pick up the pieces…

 No.309168

>>309011
>You're absolutely right but what do you do if you're born in a shithole where there is absolutely no way to survive if you don't have parents

Most practical way would be to find a bunch of other neets and pool your bux to rent a house. With enough people the individual rent would be low. If you really live in some third world country there won't be as many regulations prohibiting stuff like this.

 No.309169

>>309168
>trusting other people
Are you serious right now, my nigger?

 No.309209

>>309168
sounds too ideal and you could just get a single studio apartment for similar prices depends where you live. much rather just have a 1 bedroom apartment, its actually my dream. just wouldnt like seeing others in the halls



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 No.301325[Reply]

>Join discord server
>Too nervous to talk to anyone and make friends
>Become a lurker and feel sad when I see others make connections and friends
>end up leaving the server

Any tips to help stop this dilemma?
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 No.306746

>>301325
If you don't need money, then get friends is not a need. I've tried being friendly and nice with people but always think that being a good guy to them is being weak so they surprise when I don't tolerate their injustices over me and automatically they consider me a threat to their environment so unless that I need money or stuff like that, I don't have any interest to know new people. At least until I get a friend that don't want to use my kindness to mock me around or use me.

 No.306755

>>301325
It took me awhile to find friends on discord. If you play video games you gotta find them in the games you like. Popular games are easier to find people but not high quality, high quality meaning good match for you. I found a friend while i was living in a hotel playing dark souls remastered on switch like 5 years ago and still play with him to this day. He found more people and they became my friends too. I also found friends playing pubg. I think for men and especially autistic men which i was very autistic before, it’s better to have a shared goal or objectives and the small talk is just a ctach up or time occupier inbetween gameplay. This could also be applied to a mens shed or something where you go to build objects or whatever else. When you’re socially awkward it’s better to have something to focus on objectively until you gain enough levels to tolerate and then later enjoy small talk. It took me years but now i enjoy myself with random people from good discord groups. I count myself lucky. I could have easily never recovered.

 No.309202

I am alone because having connection to the Inter is not equal finding people like myself.

 No.309203

>>301325
Also, bump.

Yesterday, a simple question of what to eat for the next dinner / breakfast was turned into a heated negotiation with various rhetoric tricks. Old good tactic - put your terms as "suggestion" and proceed to manipulate your opponent of a family member into agreeing with you. If the opponent proposes something else - proceed to ask dumb questions, suggest new ideas, rephrase your opponent's idea in the wrong way and so on. I am stuck with this faux-retarded highly educated person and my only way out is to abandon my decent job. Ugh. And the worst thing is, I actually do care about them so just grabbing my laptop and HDDs, some bags of clothing, and going away from them to a small rented apartment on a taxi is not for me

Regards,
>>309202

 No.309204

>>309203
P.S.

No matter how I tried, instead of finding people like myself, I would be greeted with… well, enough negativity against my "attempts to look bigger than I am", as they used to put it.

I
Have
Given
Up



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