/dep/ - Depression

>>304465
I can kind of tell when someone is slow/dumb/needs extra help. I'm more upset at them just looking at me for too long and being rude after I gave them the EXACT answer. Even literal gang bangers act more polite than these types.

>>304470
Ha, had some guy lose his phone and was asking what I was going to do about it (I'm calling the black helicopters for you right now sir, We'll get to the bottom of this!). Agreed on the sketchy crowd, I'd rather deal with them.

>>304179 here
>I'll probably work 3 days in December
Today was my first day off in December and I slept it away!

>>304463
Just needed to add the word aisle to make them understand. If you say the same thing over again after someone doesn't understand it is your own fault. You need to add clarification in those instances. Rephrase.

H A R D □ C O R E

C H R I S T M A S

>>304376
men falling out of society and stopping breaking their backs for them is their worst nightmare

Not gonna lie to you
That site >>304356 and this >>304404 sound oddly like a feminist.

>>304407
we're all neets here, fuck off

>>304407
>feminism is when men stop supporting a broken system that discriminates them and which is built to benefit and give preference to females wants and needs
what a retard.

>>304407
Based witchGOD

>>304513
i think it is and also how the mind is shaped by environment

if you were born in 1900 your coping avenues would have been drastically different and your visions of escape would be less powerful. The options for sustained escapism in the modern age makes it easy to construct your own prison where your own innate drives get hijacked and fixated on specific things that are instantly available. There was always booze and drugs I guess but escalation of those routes leads to death while kpop and porn leads to more kpop and porn

your art evokes a concept i learned from "The Power of Silence" where he talked about the 'assemblage point' of consciousness – basically where your third eye is looking (is it looking through your eyeballs out in the world? or is your mind really looking inward at some fantasy or inwardly at some emotional trauma that is driving every adult decision you make, etc)

Your art depicts a loss of focus, with eyes every which way and not even part of you anymore. A scattering of your concentration as if your eyes split itself in two, diminishing its focus power by 50% and splitting itself over and over again. But you are still smiling :)

ooh what's this i found inside the lump in my stomach?
a surfeit of suffering, yay!

>>304546
If I was born in 1900 then I would have been some criminal already at this point in my life or would have hanged myself probably. What would be there to do? Visit the library to read? Sounds okay but you still have to interact with the world in a way I wouldn't want to, much comfier to just download ebooks and read on your laptop.

>But you are still smiling :)
Not still, but exactly smiling because of the state I'm in. I think it is a form of mania I am experiencing currently, well at least better than melancholia.

>kpop
Anyway, I am in the process of creating my ideal kpop succubus alter-ego self with chatgpt. She is called NOA, shy at first in interviews but ends up being funny and a trickster later on, saying very honest things and 2deep4you stuff out-of-nowhere, she loves animals, she is kind of asexual like me, obviously still a virgin. Her style is futuristic goth, long dark straight hair with a line of silver in it and she looks kind of like Karina from aespa and Jennie from Blackpink mixed with Harley Quinn. Her whole theme is "If the world is a circus then I will be the cutest clown in it!" She is obsessed with eating tasty food and addicted to drinking cocoa. She still lives with her parents and has a troubled past with depression, self-harm and suicide attempts…so really I just self-inserted my character traits, history and habits onto her pretty much. She likes to wear torn-clothes, with crosses on them, she is a rapper/dancer mainly. Her debut song will be called ABSURDIA. She also loves horror books and movies, her favorite books are Thomas Harris' Hannibal books, plus she is obsessed with criminal psychology.

Yeah, I'm about to migrate into my fantasy world at this point and I don't give a fuck.

>>304553
This is what that "cyber psychosis" all the kids are talking about is.

>>304408
The internet isn't dead, it just been curated by corporations/governments, flooded by low quality content by grifters, shills, talent-less hacks, attention whores(the worst kind) and copycats.
While these people existed back then as well, they used to by outshine by genuine talented people. Now it's the opposite. Quality content are now like gems buried under mountains of garbage.

We now live in a world where people like IRATE Gamer thrives and people like the Angry Video Game Nerd are mostly unseen, while also being milked by copycats/hacks/corporations for ideas.
You get ahead by rehashing stuff, people like MillenniaThinker, Lord Wojak, Low Budget Stories and hordes of other similar "creators", makes a living by using wojak from 2010.
Just make a silly story with images of some wojaks, get 1 million views and ad money from google. Your story doesn't even have to be your own, can just be a "we have Joker(2019) at home" kinda thing.
It pays off more being a talent-less hack like these people than to be original.

internet viva theory

>>304541
lolwut

>>304543
Living Internet theory [meme proposal]

>>304539
this looks like it was drawn around 2012, the year Wizchan was founded, this was the internet Wizchan was born into

Waiting, waiting, waiting in my private prison cell.

Go to bed to-night and wake up to-morrow.

What a joke! I'm still dreaming.

>>304551
10/10 reply, made my day.

>>304511
>You only wish, buddy. If only that was true then life would be much simpler. Unfortunately, there are billions of retards on this planet, sharing it with you, all ready to butcher you just because you are seen as a weirdo by them.

yeah, but what you don't realize is that they are only empty shells, i'm just imagining them, I'm imagining all the pain and suffering of this world, including mine, tricking myself into believing that this reality is the only thing there is because the "true reality" of everything is eternal unending horror, I've seen it with my own eyes on DMT.

>>304551
checked. From Nietzsche's Will to Power Notes:
> “…It [anti-paganism] also shows a taste for Stoicism, which is essentially the work of Semites (‘dignity’ as strictness, law; virtue as greatness, self-responsibility, authority, greatest sovereignty over oneself — this is Semitic). The Stoic is an Arabian sheik wrapped in Greek togas and notions. Christianity only resumes the fight which had already been begun against the classical ideal and noble religion….” (which i assume was the old Greco-Roman pantheon)

German Nachlass material (dated Nov. 1887–Mar. 1888).

>>304565
> The Stoic is an Arabian sheik wrapped in Greek togas and notions.

So is he saying there is a common virtue-signaling Semitic morality shared by both Arab Sheikhs and Jews?

>>301695
I think everyone without children cope in better or worse ways. Like you cant believe The amount of 30 yr old normies with less than 5k to their name "just gotta get rich" with a straight face

People with children just care about their family and this is normal and healthy

>>297542
>scary

of course it is
until AI chatty got available for massed, people were assuming shut-ins and crabs are the same
turns out that's not the case and while shut-ins enjoy "AI girlfriends" or similar stuff, ex-crabs don't

That explains, by the way, where all the wizards who weren't into sex due to, say, social anxiety, went.

>>297543
that would make OP a crab. OP is, probably, a purity-seeking person.

>>304560
focus on your studies and improve your life, isn't inherently about sex

>>297542
>>297546
>>This website is scary.

Of course this is scary! It's a reflection of how unfair our lives were!

For instance, I had a very simple idea in mind to focus on: enroll in IT uni, get a proper rented room for studying, get degree, get a job.
>inb4 this plan was shit as modern CS/IT graduates have to kiss AI's outputty.

My father did everything he could to keep me hanging: kept assuming people like me are not supposed to "waste their best years in a dusty classroom", not supposed to do this, do that; yet he never had the balls to admit he won't support me - NO! He was two-faced: not supporting me in terms of affording a corner to study because I t'is or I t'at - yet he was always repeating me this chant: "SOnNY! I will support you in whatever *aspiration* you have".

And this year he has the ball to call me names.

I take it he's the one who has one lobe working against another when thinking about me. Ugh.



>>297546
OR your honest efforts get thrown into shitter by your "loving" parrots and your room is not designed to accomodate you at all. As well as your lifestyle…

>>304474
Bonus thought. I'll grab some rubber bands to keep my window "slightly opened" to vent while I sleep under my thick regular blanket.


Cyao.

OK, so, I have a couple more ideas to improve your bedroom if you live in a tower block

1. Door blockers. A thingy made of rubber, 1$ a piece… online so you could block your door from inside
2. Keep an emergency sedative near you, I suppose
3. BLOCKOUT curtains. The cheapest that do the trick are 20$ only from an online store.
4. Fresh idea! Humidifier - or a proper "air washer", even - because heated dry air does… things to a person.
4.1. Don't forget to vent out your CO2

5. It sounds counterintuitive, but you can fight internet addiction and device addiction with a device.

Put some cool stuff on your old smartphone (without cellular internet, that's important! without viable browsers also)

Browser your faves before sleep, +1 to comfyness without the desire to "lurk more".

I just ordered an electric blanket. I wake up each morning and I am cold. I think it's because I drink a lot of water in the morning, but even when I try to slow down my rehydration it seems like I get cold. I lay under 4 layers of blankets and feel like I am not warming up at all.

>>304554
>I just ordered an electric blanket.
Good, good! I expect it to help you MASSIVELY.

>>304438


Look up what "кладовщик" does and you'll see what I mean - it's not about *carrying da boxes* like that Wojtek bear, no.

I was think of a job where you need to *manage* a warehouseful of small things.

>>304438
>OP said he isn't capable of hard physical labor and what you two suggest would end up with him ragequitting after a few hours…


no, no, not "literal warehouse" warehouse, I was thinking of "running a small shop" kind of warehousery or "carrying a cart around the aisles" kind of warehousery.

Hmm. Can u travel to another country, like Germany, where the wages are higher to work there? Or any other EU country?
As for jobs, I might recommend being a baker or a dishwasher. I worked those jobs and it's pretty comfy ngl. Nobody interacts with you and it's not that physically demanding.
I would recommend being a baker. You need to learn how to kneed dough first. But I'm talking specifically about confectionery bakeries. I worked in one, I made donuts there. If you can stand up for long periods of time, you are golden. Making donuts is easy squeezy. You might even ask for a tall chair if your legs are weak. It pays alright, too.

>>304501
Good.


Oh, and I work at an online shop, where social interaction is limited

The answer is not going to be one you will probably like. You just have to play the numbers game.

Apply to jobs that are close to you. Apply to ones you think you could do even if you are utterly unqualified for. Then you try and get to an actual person that you can either impress or con or otherwise manipulate into giving you a job. The numbers game alone without the con part of it will work, but much less efficiently. You need to come up with a story and figure out an angle. You need to figure out how to sell yourself. How to maximize your upside and minimize all downside. Make yourself appear like a really good worker that any employer would want and then you just need some excuse to explain what you've been up to the rest of your life.

You can invent work history if it's legal to do so where you live. It would be wildly beneficial to take this step and many people do it. AI is increasingly being used to select candidates and you can game the algorithm by crafting a resume that has all the things the algorithm is looking for. If this isn't legal where you live, then you better up your story game. Your sick aunt, or some bullshit IDK give it more thought than me. But just a note about the legality thing, make sure you look up the consequences, because if it's "illegal" but the worst that happens is you get fired, then it's not really illegal at all. On the other hand if you could go to jail then it's a different story.

You win by taking many shots and maximizing your chances of success with each shot you take. Don't hold back on trying to succeed. Do all the tricks, dress nice, groom yourself well, try to be charming and affable. Try to seem smarter and more learned than you really are without bullshitting enough to give yourself away. Many people will see through you, but that's fine, think of them as learning experiences and move on. Eventually you will find someone who will take a chance on you. Getting to the people in charge of hiring is key. Start by asking them questions about the job before you even apply and use it as an opportunity to chat them up. Always try to take an interest in the people around you no matter how fake that interest is. Talk to receptionists and be charming as possible. Normies like a normalfag they can judge by interacting with right off the bat and hate lone wolf loser types who keep quiet and they can't judge effectively. You need to be signaling all the right things to all the people in the wPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>302880
Basically, my life fell victim of "big guys are dumb" meme. I work at a literal warehouse now, all thanks to stereotypes. Eeeeesh.

-I wish I had started working earlier, better economy and I wasted a good 5 years. Also 2x rates for overtime was still around back then
-I wish I didn't try so hard to appear normal, wasted effort and no results
-I wish didn't try so hard in school and instead focused on real skills that could be used in the workforce
-I wish I took better care of my teeth, and health in general
-I wish I committed to learning languages, I would have been fluent by now

>>302915
Relateable! All relateable…

>>300442
Basically, this gal says "My patients' most common BAAAAAAW is how they lacked the *qualities* or time to express their personality"

>>302967
Only one I don't relate to is the one about trying hard in school. I wish I tried harder. School in retrospect was actually piss easy compared to actual life. Easy and fun/interesting. I wish I tried real hard in college and didn't give a shit about friendships and just buckled down and learned shit real good. Now I am older and constantly running into things that I'd like to do but lack the knowledge to do. I could have learned a lot of it in college.

A degree would have made it much easier to wage slave at some low effort high paying job. IDK why I looked down on such a thing in my youth. I thought it was unfair and overly restrictive. It is unfair, but now I realize the only thing that sucks more than being a beneficiary of an unfair system is being one of the ones the system gives the shaft to. I had delusions of revolution in my youth. I expected too much from normies. Our current crop of people would never get it done. Now I'm coming to grips with living in a worsening dystopia while at the lowest possible rung of society.