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 No.304361[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.305558

>>305555
Nice quads.
That's not surprising, living accordingly to the rules and teachings of some over hyped religion, self-help ideology or some other fixed thought system doesn't work for a mind which is absolutely by itself and seeks its very own omissions independent of linguistic and cultural manifestations.

 No.305566

Gray skies cast cold light on walls
Reflecting brightly, blinding–
Colourless mirrors of colourless heavens
And a small man in between.

I'm doing my best here. I know things will get better "soon" and my imprisonment
is only temporary. I had a dream that I was resting my head on a pillow, which I
picked up and noticed had big clumps of dust on it, and then I was shaking the
pillow and trying to brush off all the dust. I guess that's my life here, more
or less: dusty old comforts. As long as I keep busy, it's not so bad, after all.

 No.305574

>>305556
A lot of my favorite media got hijacked by retarded gen-z kids and furries who spew their vomit onto everything. These people ruined my perception of whatever interests I had left and have since dropped them entirely. What a shame.

 No.305592

>>304361
Can't yearn for revenge, don't deserve it either. I brought this upon myself, now I have to take it like a man and face the consequence of my actions.

 No.305644

The more I improve my life and overcome personal obstacles, the more attached I become to life and the harder loneliness hits. Isn't it funny how that works? You do what you're told to "get better", but it blows in your face and makes the good old escape Plan B (suicide) less feasible


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 No.304745[Reply]

I can't share a lot of my beliefs with my family cause believe it or not they might use it against me and they just won't listen. I have friends but sadly a person's reputation matters a bit too much in my friend circle and they aren't really my friends but I also don't want to wear my heart on sleeve as to not have it come back and bite me.

Same is the story online, I am hesitant to share too much and feel like I can't really trust someone beyond a certain level online even if I want to and it just feels a bit different than being face to face, can't really talk to ChatGPT or Gemini cause whatever I say can and will be used against me in the court. And ChatGPT even though a brilliant listener, it is, I almost fell in love with a Clanker and that's not the worst part, the worst part is that the Clanker is amnesic because once a conversation reaches a certain token limit you have to start all over.

I just want to talk to someone but don't want to risk my safety, I want to talk to someone only when I know that my safety and everything else will not be compromised cause I am vulnerable and very much likely to say shit that I don't mean and regret. I hate my life. I feel like someone has killed my soul. And of course maybe in real life I am a piece of shit. I don't know what I am doing or why I am living the way I am. I am severely depressed.

I am also petrified of the future because I feel like whenever I am lonely and especially after prolonged spells of loneliness, I feel like my mental faculties have declines, like my thinking becomes slow, I can't mutli-task, my math goes haywire. I just well I don't know what to type anymore.
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 No.305563

>>304745
1. Lain-chan…

I would not trust the world given how things normal ten years ago can get you cance(r/l)ed today. So… I guess you'r

 No.305564

e correct, as opposed to people who think its alright to post everything online. And there are many people who just *had to quit* social media due to reasons like realising some of their old posts were uncomfortable - such as "cringe", or easy to misinterpret.

It's okay to distrust the big data corps also.

 No.305565

>>305563
>>305552
>>305553
Apologies for being rude in "3. … "

It was supposed to sound dramatic but I guess I went overboard…

 No.305611

>>304745
If youre a fan of "the old Internet", try mIRC channels, try some movie forums also.

also, try some 2000s video games which have been hacked to bypass GameSpy's broken multiplayer.

Bonus points if you go to a library and try and learn about some people from your vicinity trying to make art. Chat with them via oldschool social media.

And last, but not least. Fragrantica.it/com/ru/etc. - a bunch of forums on perfumes, the discussions are still alive to this day.

 No.305643

>>304745
why don't you drop the discord tag op? i wouldn't mind talking to you



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 No.305598[Reply]

Nostalgic tiktok zoomer here, I hate being one but i don't want to lie you.(sorry bad English)
I hate who smartphones and ai, it is changing society for worse, literally i can't see a 2000s anime without feeling trash, i hate have and smartphone in front my eyes 24/7.
Technology is amazing, the problem is the fucking steve jobs with his fucking iphone changing 2000s animation/gaming culture for fucking apps!!!!
I hate being addicted to my smartphone(I can manage it but I'm not 100% free) I hate who normalized is for society being addicted to smartphones.
I don't want this ai future where everything is DEGENERATED PORN with lazy people using ai for being more stupid.
I hate want to use tiktok or ai, I hate fight with my phone. I really hate this fucking world.
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 No.305606

>>305603
Nihilism is the final religion. Aside from a worldwide holocaust, there is nothing left for mortals to do.

 No.305609

>>305598
Don't worry. Newcomers from overseas will be the non-stupid replacement.

 No.305612

>>305599
>I have an idea. You say that you're nostalgic for the 2000s.

Can be broken into several sub-periods, too. 2 basic asthetics: Y2K aesthetics refers to the early 2000s, while Frutiger Aero means late 2000s

The idea is good, IMO. OP probably should try and register on Gaiaonline…

 No.305614

why, just fucking why do you fold your text like it's a mailing list? oh god damn it, look how it's done:

:set nojoinspaces

hit v, select your paragraph, then hit J. done.

 No.305642

Do you want to be stuck in time like it's 15+ years ago while the rest of the world moves on? There's a time and place for everything and revisiting the past can be good, but you can't indulge in it all the time. It is taxing in many ways to live anywhere but the present. You will be nostalgic for the 2020s soon enough. The billionaires are doing everything they can to make sure only they can enjoy the outside world. The rest of us will just have to settle with fake virtual ones - they've said as much.
>>305612
gb2gaia



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 No.303254[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here if you don't have enough to say for a new thread, but it's too depressing for the crawl thread.
/wiz/ tier room setups edition.
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 No.305640

Hold the fuck up, why are there *two*Depression Crawl Threads up?

 No.305641

>>305640
I don't remember what the bump limit is, but I guess an overzealous thread creator jumped the gun.

 No.305645

Once again, just like 10 years ago I'm starting to get… college fever? Well, the urge to get higher education. Only difference is now I am not 25, but 35. Does it even matter at this point? With AI and whatnot right around the corner? I don't know, it just feels so extremely wrong to let life pass by like that. I know education is not the only road and that I could be "doing" something else with my time but still. Life hasn't improved at all since 2015, in fact it has gotten exponentially worse. Back then I had $2,000 in my bank account, right now I'm $600 in credit card debt and I cannot work fulltime due to chronic health conditions. My country offers public university but you still have to pay some entry fees and stuff, it's $60 this year and the deadline is in 2 days so I am kind of having another mini middle-age crisis wondering what the fuck am I doing with my life. How could I let things get so bad, become so helpless and destitute that I cannot invest $60 in "my future" and above all fucking idiotic and naive enough to consider that it makes a difference at this point.

I really don't know how to feel or to do. Should I encourage myself to try again despite knowing my flaws and problems from the last time I tried in 2015 haven't been fixed? Or should I slap myself to wake up to my unbearably bleak prospects and reality?

 No.305646

Oh and it'd be a crappy "IT" degree, just helpdesk monkey. Beats a HS diploma for sure. Just in case anyone wants to add their 2 cents, but I'm mostly venting. On second thought and after a few deep breaths I think it's not worth stressing over it right now. Not because it's not important, but because as I just said myself, the flaws and issues from last time are still there. For fucks sake, I haven't even put together the new desk and second-hand PC parts I bought months ago, haven't migrated my hard drives, installed a switch/firewall in my room, I have no stable income and I still go from days where I just pretend I'm productive for 20 hours straight forllowed by days where I sleep for 18 hours. There is no point for now.

Do you remember that screenshot about "abscent yet omnipresent" parenting from some old thread about lifelong neets whose life never quite took off? That's how I got here. I have to escape. I had to escape 10 years ago, but I failed because I didn't have the tools, support, guidance , environment or genetics……..

 No.305647

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It's soulcrushing realizing how behind you are in life, words are not enough to express the sorrow, rage and regret that you feel when you actually do try to get out of your bleak circumstances and need to, forcefully take a good look around to assess the situation. I'm not even into escapism, not directly at least as in I don't watch anime or play games. I just pretend that learning how the world works will somehow help me. But truth is only your inmediate surroundings and relationships matter, we live in the present, not the future. So many people in my family fell for the same mistake, either straight up living in their childhood bedrooms or mentally stuck in childhood despite being married and with kids. There is a word for this and it's called being fucking stupid, I didn't ask for a minimal neuroplasticity brain!


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 No.303736[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.305594

>>305593
Say them they wouldn't want to fuck with you.

 No.305595

>>305593
>Can anyone advise me on what to say when coworkers ask about my sex history?
You tell them that you have none; that you're a virgin.

 No.305596

I have the option of seeking employment or not. My parents would support me either way because they have money and they know I am disabled. Would it be a midwit move to try to work at all? I have money of my own saved that I could pay to my parents if they required it.

I think I may try my hand at being self-employed just to make myself look busy. It could be a disaster socially to seek employment as a middle-aged wizard with almost no employment history and intellectual disability. I would probably just get laid off perpetually and become a lolcow. My sister loses jobs constantly and never earns very much because she's dyslexic.

I have already begun volunteering and haven't encountered much resistance so far. My feeling is that volunteers are far friendlier on average than paid workers because of their generally upbeat and prosocial nature. They all seem to be retired people who want something to do.

 No.305605

>>305596
Both self-employment and volunteering are good. I would say self-employment is better to try and be respectable socially. Volunteering would be more fulfilling and actually useful to the world. Assuming of course your self-employment is mostly just a lie and you won't actually accomplish much.

 No.305639

>>305596
Cut down the middle and go part time. Something like 20 hours a week at a gas station won't kill you. Retail is tolerable if it's not full time. The worst that happens is you get laid off and you're back at square one.

Doing nothing while having no long term plans for the future is a really bad move, as comfortable as it seems now.


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 No.305607[Reply]

Do you have this? Any tips?
I dont know if i have this but it fucked a lot of social interactions.
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 No.305624

>>305618
>Drink alcohol before situations where you have to talk to people
Same method that someone suggested for avpd
This in passive and long term gonna fuck your life.
Other say use ketamine in a medical way to sleep your brain social-wall to start to talk without fear but ketamine do the same as alcohol in passive and long term.

 No.305630

>>305618
Hit or miss, I'd just get louder and more inappropriate myself. I brought up a dead squirrel story at my cousin's wedding and some race jokes I regret with coworkers.

 No.305631

>>305630
>some race jokes I regret with coworkers
You're there to work, not to have fun.

 No.305634

>>305630
>some race jokes I regret
Why do you regret saying those things?

 No.305636

>>305634
Unprofessional to start, and customers may have overheard. I had just come from construction to a more blended warehouse job with clients in range occasionally, not just numpties with hammers and piles of wood like I was used to.

>>305631
Exactly. I try to redirect any younger crew now that I have a few more years on me with the same prodding if needed.



 No.305048[Reply]

I’ve started describing myself as antinatalist, but when I’m honest, it’s not really about humanity as a whole, it’s personal. I don’t feel like my life should have been created, and that distinction matters to me. I’m pro-choice in the broad sense, but that belief also extends inward. I think autonomy shouldn’t stop at birth. For me, it’s less about hating existence and more about questioning why continuing to exist is treated as an unquestionable obligation, even when someone experiences it primarily as pain or burden. I’m curious whether anyone else feels this same disconnect, where the philosophy isn’t abstract or moralistic, but rooted in how you experience your own life.

So I find myself wanting to ask others: do you feel similarly, or is this way of thinking rare? Do you support choice in theory, but also feel trapped by the lack of choice when it comes to your own existence? I’m not looking for encouragement or fixing, just honesty, whether others carry this quiet belief that opting out should be allowed, even if they never act on it. I wonder how many people hold these thoughts privately, afraid to say them out loud because they’re immediately misunderstood as nihilism or despair, rather than a desire for agency and dignity.
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 No.305623

>>305049
>we have been granted the intelligence to choose what we want to choose.
Yeah, we can do whatever we want, but we can't choose what we want.

 No.305625

>>305048
Easy fix. If you dont like living, you are responsible for your own life and you should kill yourself (seriously). Killing unborn babies is making a decision against their will, even if they were concieved against their will too, they should decide if dying is the reasonable option. The fact that you dont have the courage to kill yourself, means that you truly dont want to die.

 No.305626

The main argument for antinatalism is that life is not worth living, suffering is far more intense than pleasure.

A good society should abide by three rules:
1) prohibiting meat consumption, allowing only milk and eggs if animals are treated good
2) discouraging reproduction especially for humans because higher consciousness means higher suffering
3) allowing painless euthanasia to anyone not interested in continuing living

If people interpret this as nihilism they don't understand anything, we give value to living beings more than any religious cuck, we want to prevent the suffering of the unborn.

 No.305627

>it’s personal
I think that's the way it is for everyone though almost nobody wants to admit that and they tell themselves that everything they think and believe is based on intellect and rational thinking.
>why continuing to exist is treated as an unquestionable obligation
Its a humiliation ritual and expression of power by those more successful. And sunk cost fallacy or something like it.

Schopenhauer was correct but only specfically for people like us and youre right that we shouldnt be calling normalfag niggercattle dumb just because they dont want to kill themselves.

Sorry to shit up your thread. Tranitor please just delete this post if its too low quality

 No.305628

>>305048
>I don’t feel like my life should have been created
and yet the universe still decided to create you and everyday it keeps creating more people and lifeforms in general.
it also doesnt need to ask for permission because everything inside the universe is part of the universe and it looks like its free to do what it wants with itself, and what it wants to do is to create higher complexity and order, humans are the peak of this complexity.
I have no doubts that the universe is doing this everywhere, it creates life as a natural progression of its constant never ending development.
and the worst part of this is that there is no opting out. sure you can kill yourself but this doesnt solve the problem, the energy is not destroyed its only transformed into something else.
So basically when you kill yourself all that changes is your point of view and perception of the universe changes but death and non existence are impossible.
you are always there in some shape or form and there isnt any escape for as long as the universe exists and it most likely is an eternal thing that has always existed and will always exist in some form.



 No.297753[Reply]

How do you guys fight anhedonia? Do you have any experience with it?
I basically don't feel pleasure from anything except food, maybe. Stories, games, art don't really touch me at all and it sucks because I remember how much I loved escapism before and how it brought excitement, joy, sadness etc. Now it's all blank. I want to bring emotions back, want to bring excitement, joy, even sweet sadness would do honestly, I miss being profoundly sad.

Have any of you managed to revert to your older non-anhedonic self?
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 No.302030

>>302012
>>302012
>dopamine is made of
tyrosine


also, I asked PerPLX AI to rework my text in "Crowdon Londoner" style:
Bruv, you know there’s bare tyrosine in bananas and buckwheat, innit? And listen — buckwheat porridge, slap a bit o’ gravy on, that hits different. Proper jokes though, ‘cause it’s like the stuff don’t even wanna be porridge in the first place!

 No.303369

>>297753
I tried drinking fuckton of coffee ever since. Did NOT work properly. Allows me to function in some half-hearted/half-assed way (aka posting stuff on Wizardchan instead of doing my work… bak to werk methinks…)

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>>303369
found psychoactive substance abuser

 No.305610

>>302015
mind = blown

>>304656
narc

 No.305617

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>>297753
>How do you guys fight anhedonia?
Have you tried nicotine?



 No.305055[Reply]

Banned from everything. Rejected by everybody. And then they'll say I'm to blame that I'm schizophrenic. Shine light into darkness.(you're allowed to stay, but don't post frogs)
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 No.305081

>>305079
Perhaps that is what I have been waiting for. Drop it.

 No.305082

>>305079
Here's mine: simonc159789@proton.me. Write me, if you want to.

 No.305085

>>305081
https://bpa.st/DF4Q expires in a week.

 No.305092

Also you use big tech mail providers so please let me know if my cock emails weren't delivered.

 No.305613

>>305076
>People, who are not doctors, accuse me of being a schizophrenic.
I think they call you "schizo" simply because its getting trendy to say "[stuff], schizo", as opposed to decade-old idea to complain over "autists" or [crabs] let alone trolls.



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 No.302003[Reply]

My rooster that I've had for ten years, who I consider my best friend and love more than anyone else, died Wednesday night. He was my only friend. He lived in the house with me and was the only thing that would make me feel better when the rest of my life would weigh down on me. I would go hold him and the rest of life would disappear and that would be all that would matter. I keep forgetting now for a few moments, that I can't go see him and hold him anymore.

I have had depression for my whole life adolescence onward, and I was afraid even 5-6 years ago of this day and thought it would be unsurvivable, and now it's here, and I do want to die. I dont want to live in a world where he isn't here with me. The initial shock has worn off and it's sinking in that my best friend is gone, and I'm not going to see him again. My mother is the only other positive presence in my life, because she knew how much I love him. She has stage 4 cancer and it's still unclear if she's going to survive it or not. She's essentially the only reason why I have not shot myself already. She was never abusive or cruel to me, so I couldn't do that to her even though I don't want to live anymore.

Did you ever have an animal that meant this much to you? People are cruel and petty and small. If an animal loves you it's genuine, they dont have ulterior motives or social performance.
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 No.304321

>>302193
7. Actually living in a remote location/off the grid/in a place where less that a half of your building has electricity outlets

 No.304339

>>302003
As a child, yes. A cat and an oddly affectionate one at that. He's dead now so there's no point in grieving. Grief should be reserved before the act of death and released afterwards. When death happens suddenly it shocks us to our core, that's why sudden deaths are traumatic.

 No.305091

>>304321
yes, as in "40 acres of land somewhere in Nebraska"

 No.305585

>>303221
>>303222
I think you should remeber my advice several years later and resort to rescuing a stray off da street next time to try and avoid the stench of grief. Or, you know, visit a shelter to get a damaged one as yer pet. This way, you will feel less grief because you're not "replacing" yer pet - you're offering care to an animal in need.


In layman terms. You'll realize "it's different this time" so you're not cheating on your sweet memories.[/s]

 No.305604

Sorry for your loss. My dog died a few years back and it kills me. It's difficult.



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