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 No.311549[Reply]

It seems I have to accept my fate as homeless, because finding a job is very difficult. I have tried many jobs, but in the end, I was fired and failed. How fortunate are those who can work in their respective fields and live their lives by working as usual, going about their days normally, while I am shackled by the suffering every day, having no money and no job, being homeless is my last choice or death.

 No.311550

Try to have some fun with it!

 No.311555

Yes, try to have fun bein homeless, Larper 15 year old in parents Mcmansion,

As to OP, if you cant stay w/ parents, try to plead your way into a relatives basement or attic

 No.311556

>>311555
Atomized society means no family


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 No.309031[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

whenever you're depressed or sad, come here and draw something using Oekaki. you can draw whatever you want
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 No.311498

>>311496
what's epstein's relation with ponies?

 No.311499

>>311498
>he doesn't know

 No.311500

>>311499
I doesn't know, indeed

 No.311515

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Fuck off

 No.311553

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 No.307023[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "Suicide General", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards.

Previous:
>>296511
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 No.311507

>>311416
>It makes my throat dry and then wakes me up, I only use it when the weather is hot as fuck.

25$ air humidifier with bottled pure water

>Only the smell of a juice is already enough to make me nauseous. I will throw up if I force myself to drink one, I know because I have already tried before.

OK, use pure water then.

>Thanks to the meds, now I only feel pain in my sleep if I lay down in the wrong position

Non-salon mattresses are way cheaper than in-salon ones. Try looking up one on Amazon.



>>311504
IIRC, trains have plow-like attachments.

 No.311522

Don't do the wrist cutting method for fuck sake, just an advise to anyone who (||i hope no one||) think of ever using it as a definitive method to end.
This fat faggot tried it twice and it did nothing, only attention seekers do this type of method.
Just buy a gun if you can.
https://everything2.com/node/329862
RELATED EMBED/LINK

 No.311542

After getting used to my tinnitus I now have some new issue that I can't even understand and I am too tired to go to a doctor, I just want to give up. My right elbow is in constant burning pain and it is difficult to even use the computer now, laying down is also difficult because it feels like there is some kind of knot at my back. Thanks to this shit I am giving up on my only real constructive hobby, and unfortunately I can hardly even do something more passive like play video games or even just comfortably lay down because of this. Sorry, this is just word vomit. I don't know how I haven't killed myself by now, I probably never will unfortunately.

 No.311548

I walked to train station the other day to scout it out for suicide. I sat near the edge of the platform on the yellow line and suddenly a train came flying though the station it was so close like 60cm from me I felt a gust of wind and I was shocked at just how close to me it was I thought "wow is it really just that easy to die?" I wasn't paying attention and I almost did. All I have to do is stick my head out and the impact will surely kill me instantly.

I will walk to the train station which is about 35 minutes from my home. I will listen for the announcer to say "the next train does not stop at this station please keep behind the yellow line" and that is my cue that a fast train is on it's way.

 No.311552

i have been in pits of despair and panic so extreme that i think needing a suicide general and a huge discussion about it all is really performative. if you need all these complex plans its cause you aren't really suicidal and youre just looking for ways to vent that youre sad unconstructively. if i need to die im confident id be able to do really extreme methods like slice my own throat or run into a wall repeatedly if im imprisoned.
but things in my life have always worked themselves out before i needed to.
my problems really arent my problems. its being forced to live with my family members that are demented retards.
but things will work themselves out like my brother will get a new horse tranquilizer for his mental retardation or my mom will get an expensive surgery or some family member will give us money and i wont need to kill myself anymore cause my life went back to status quo.


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 No.311202[Reply]

>AI has already replaced programmers
>Programming no longer makes sense
>But programming is the only thing I know to work
>not like i was ever good
>im actually bad
>I try to go back to leran programming the way I used to
>Spent an hour writing and debugging code only to give up in the end, only to have an AI do it better in 5 minutes with fewer than 50 words
>I struggle to have a reason to live
>But every now and then I go to sleep with the faint hope that I'll wake up in another reality, in a better moment of my life where I have no debts, where my career isn't going down the drain, where I still got some hope. But when I wake up, my despair grows deeper with each passing month each passing day, as I get older, poorer, and more useless.

I'm tired of everything. I don't talk to anyone. Not even to myself lately, to hear my own ideas is tiresome as i know nothing will come out of that. i struggle to even speak myself out.
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 No.311464

for manual labor stuff,

supposedly is real. picture said robot 4 or 5 years more advanced:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FfxEDQ6UnQE

 No.311524

>>311202
AI is the only thing that gives me hope. I'm a developer as well - a mediocre one at best. I've long lost the joy of programming since I work on boring business apps. Meetings and corporate bullshit tire me - I've chosen this profession since I'm autistic, yet unless you're a genius who works on deeply technical software, you have to communicate with people on a daily basis. It's hard for me to explain technical limitations and trade-offs to non-technical people.

Ultimately, for me the job just isn't worth it long term. The slightly above average pay (I live in EU) doesn't offset the fact that the job drains me mentally, therefore it's hard for me to pursue fulfilling hobbies and work on my health.

I see AI as a coup de grâce to my programming career. Hopefully, in a few years, AI becomes good enough to replace me, I get laid off and find a low stress blue collar job. Currently, it's still hard to justify such a career change to normies such as my parents who still believe that programming is a lucrative job.

 No.311527

I never got into that field despite it being probably the most logical one for me. I am the typical loner type. God I'm so glad I just stuck with being a shelf stocker, I mean you get immune to normies and stupid customers after 5 or so years anyway. I'm more of a warlock these days, I put normies in their place. Especially when they are targeting people who share similar qualities as wizards.

I'm sorry for the massive loss you are facing. It's literally demonic. It's a massive amount of suffering and unfairness. Please know you are not to blame and that I will be spending my mana praying for you.

 No.311543

>>311527
> I just stuck with being a shelf stocker
Man, I'm a fucking useless idiot who isn't even able to get a job, even though I do want to get one now. I've been thinking on getting a job like yours, I think it's something I can do well.

 No.311547

I get like $50 to use claude at work which is gone in less than 1h

everyone else seem to be on unlimited plans or allowed to spends tens of thousands of dollars

not sure what to make of it


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 No.311337[Reply]

The more you interact with people irl the more chances they have to ruin your day
Avoiding contact is the best option for staying happy as a wizard based on my experience
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 No.311393

>>311374
>thank god at my job its just me alone at a front desk on the top floor of an empty office building overnight
What kind of job is that?

 No.311394

>>311393
Sounds like security guard

 No.311506

>>311337
Deal wizards,
Only recently, I learned how "narcissist personality disorder" is supposed to feel like. A "narcissist" may not only feel a burning desire to feel the center of the world, but also tends to cope HARD with the mismatch between "center of the world" position and the reality of people talking shit back to them.

Some people even develop "deviancies" to upkeep their fragile ego, that's how hard they cope.

Basically, a narcissist suffers from abandoning logic for anecdotal evidence as explanations why they are still special.

 No.311540

>>311391
yes i am autistic like probably 50% of this website nigger fuck off

 No.311545

>>311540
>yes i am autistic

oh how you must have celebrated once you learned that there is this new identity, this new narrative. autism they called it and it can be your excuse for everything; they didn't say it like that but that is of course how YOU heard it.

like to snif bike seats at the trainstation but hate to be considered weird for it? just blame autism. with autism you never have to be responsible for your behavior ever again! like alcoholism but without the liver damage.

>but i am an autist, i can not be responsible for anything?! *dials autism hotline beep beep boop boop beep boop boop boop* HELLO AUTISM HOTLINE THIS IS EZEKIEL AND I HAVE A COMPLAINT! I WAS WEIRD ON THE WIZCHAN WHILE STATING THAT I WAS AUTISTIC AND THE PERSON DID NOT SAY "ah oh ok i understand then in that case it is not weird"


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 No.309794[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another Evil under the Sun Edition. You of many.

Previous: >>308343

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 No.311534

>>311530
You are exactly right. I love swapping day and night and it fucks me up. Everything from dopamine, lack of control, lack of energy, everything stems down from sleep problems. I corrected the sleep schedule for now with titanic effort and life became about 15% better

 No.311535

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>order placed
WHOOPS FUCK MY NIGGER LIFE

I don't like cancelling things because then my bank will give me the finger the day I actually need their help. Or maybe, just maybe it's the pornbrain rationalization. I am getting sleepy at least, at last.

 No.311537

>>309794
Small panic attack occurred. The usual thinking that I am having a heart attack. Though there was discomfort in my left arm which is what freaked me out so much. Though the anxiety as subsided now and I am not dead so It is probably nothing.

 No.311538

>>311530
I feel shit and tired from when I woke up until late night when I get ton of dopamine and energy that makes me feel good and unable to sleep. I haven't had a regular sleep schedule since high school, that's 10 years ago and even then I was still having trouble getting enough sleep. I don't know how to fix it. Nothing seems to stick.

 No.311539

>>311535
Stop ordering customs


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 No.309207[Reply]

"I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me." - Hunter S. Thompson

erowid.org
psychonautwiki.org
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 No.311400

>>311382
That depends entirely upon your personal criteria for it being worth it. 10 pills for 50$ sounds like a fucking scam unless the pills are a high dosage like 30mg each or so, but I would never recommend someone who never took stimulants before to take that much the first time. The information you provided is not enough for me to give a helpful answer, sorry wizfren.

 No.311525

>>309278
>and it will rape the false you out of existence and reveal your true nature.

Psychfags make me sick. You're not Joe Rogan, you're not Terence Mckenna. Psychs are interesting and make you feel abnormal sensations and thoughts, but compared with sober meditation, they won't "show the real you" unless you're some dumb nigger amerifat who needs external stimuli to face themselves.

 No.311528

>>309225
Mods please don't take this comment at face value.

People casually deal drugs on sites such as facebook marketplace and grindr the gay hookup app. Obviously do your research into it

 No.311536

>>311525
The real you I mentioned is more of a higher sense of oneness you can't just easily get on sober meditation, unless you dedicate years to it or get satori. Also you are a ego-bound retard.

 No.311544

>>311536
>can't just easily get

That's the point. You dumb nigger americans can't revolt against the epSTEIN class, you "just easily get" jew-addled turncoats like trump. You dumb nigger americans "just easily get" corn syrup, GMO, drugs, alcohol, give speed to children, pray to 2000 year old jew. Everything is "just easily get." Dumb fucking nigger cattle.


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 No.311452[Reply]

Everybody stop whining, be men! Everything's going to be okay, you don't have it that bad, I say this as a hohol from the east (Kharkov region) who has way more problems than you
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 No.311516

Stfu normtard

 No.311519

nah, i don't think i will

 No.311521

If today is a good day then tomorrow is a bad day so learning from mistakes is not solving problems but postponing problems in this world everything is unfair for anyone who wants justice

 No.311523

>>311455
the problem isnt about not getting succubi. the wizards problem is pretty much that he is forced to exist in a world that hates him. forced to struggle in a world where everything works against him all the time.
its a normalfag world and in this world there is no room for wizards.
>"just live normally"
the average wizard cant even get a job and has been a NEET most of his life. getting employment is difficult when the HR department is staffed with succubi that pick the candidates like they pick men on dating sites.
I applied for thousands of jobs, didnt get one.
so no job means no money, no money means surviving is gonna be difficult the more time passes.
the wizard also has no support network, no parents that give a shit, no friends, no gf (obviously) and nobody who would help him in times of need. a wizard is completely on his own.
and everyone hates us sexless wizards, succubi hate us, normalfags hate us, governments hate us etc.
most of us here, who are still around, are also doing our best to try to stay alive but the wizards way always leads to suicide eventually and besides that there isnt all that much a wizard can look forward to.

 No.311529

Explain why it will be all okay. We are facing constant problems, they are still problems even if yours are insanely more, which honestly I doubt as you're far more likely to be normie adjacent than to be a wise old sage.


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 No.310904[Reply]

Hesitation is defeat edition. There is no running away.

Previous >>309794
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 No.311439

>>310904
I've no energy to things around.

 No.311440

>>311439
Turn things around** (misclick)

 No.311472

Discovered that one famous journalist was editing Wikipedia, his article was nominated for deletion 3 months ago. I wikimailed him, he said the nominator has been just recently banned by him on Facebook. What a coincidence. I tried to save e-mail the correct way (for myself), but Gmail on Android lacks features. Initial 197 beats per minute turned to 176 after I measured again after 2 minutes. If you have doubts, it's better to measure again.

 No.311517

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Within a few months of developing screeching tinnitus in my ear I now have burning elbow pain, probably from engaging in the only hobby that has ever really made me feel good about myself (drawing). I don't even have anything to show for all the hours I've put into this hobby and have extreme burning pain that makes it difficult to even just use the computer. I'm just going to go back to playing video games and consuming passive media. It's not worth it to try to do anything for someone like me. I'm too low IQ to ever develop a real skill and I'm too physically weak to use my body for anything either. I am completely useless and the only option for someone like me is escapism. Too bad that will probably be taken from me as well. I flew too close to the sun trying to do something other than mindlessly intake media and I have been punished accordingly, because I'm meant to be a retarded slave hylic. The worst part of this all is that I will probably go back to trying in a couple of weeks or months and again make zero progress, realize it was futile, and regret it even more than I do now with even worse issues.

 No.311520

>>311517
At least you tried man, at least you tried. That's better than what I could say.


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 No.310123[Reply]

seeking an escape edition

previous >>303736
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 No.310961

you sound as bad as the people wroking with you

 No.310962

>>310618
>10 years
>retail
Can I have the link? I want to do it too.

 No.310968

>>310618
That's the problem with being a lifer

 No.311406

>>310643
I'm kinda like you. I'm the guy that does everything but they let me skip cashier as I majorly fuck that up. Really not a role I like. Hope you can hang in there man, sounds like a nightmare lol. I hate stupid boomers who don't listen, I get this at work a lot. "After 9PM we don't sell alcohol" comes on the speakers, the boomer says he doesn't want any, I say that's fine. He yells at me telling me to shut that damn speaker off then! LOL. Many of them do this, and they can't read signs they are mega retards.

>>310962
>>310968
No idea what you guys mean. It's just the best job I could realistically get, plus I'm settled in now. I'd hate working at a new place

 No.311470

>>311406
I really don't like people who yell


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