/dep/ - Depression

>>303529
an old copy pasta, from i dont remember where:

Charcoal method. Hibachi chimney starter, premium charcoal as in briquettes, not lumpwood. The quality briquettes have a bit less carbon content, however they smoulder for longer + are easier to light.
Light the charcoal *only* with the chimney starter, not lighter fluid.
this ensures briquettes that'll burn at the same rate nicely.
You'll want the charcoal to be fully white, which takes a good 25 minutes or maybe even twice that amount of time.
When ready, dump em over in a portable charcoal grill. Dont cover it with the lid and remember the charcoal needs to be turned fully white. Now move in with your favored drink or benzo and pass out. Or wait 20 minutes before going into the enclosed space like a well sealed tent.

Location is important of course.
Dont do this in an apartment complex.
There are carbon detectors all over the place + it may risk others.
Other options are: rental minivan,
tents needs a flysheet build into the groundsheet to avoid air gaps. Look for a tent with a HH rating of 3000mmhh or more.. this is a measure of waterproofness. You dont want the heat from the grill to melt the tent, so one big enough for 3-4 persons is better. Place the grill on bricks and lay an extra layer around the edge. This is required, otherwise the tent floor may melt.
Only use a brand new grill, do not cook food with it. it would ruin the whole ritual. Supposedly carbon poisoning will byspass your survival instinct, just knocking you out, however using benzo such as xanax, valium, antivan, or klonopin mixed with strong alcohol should knock you out fast.

>>303527
> Find the forum >>303381 mentioned, there's a guide there on inert gas asphyxiation.
You mean the one that just the other day was ousted as being a troll honeypot ran by negro "femcels"?

Why is everyone talking only about hanging, heights, guns and drugs? Is this all there is? Hanging is the only viable method when you have little money.

I'm more interested in some learning resources. I can't believe nobody explored the topic of poisons, I'm very much interested in the results. Poison sounds like overall the smartest choice.

>>298222
Question about doorknob hanging, what's stopping me from grabbing the rope or grabbing the doorknob and trying to free myself? Likewise if regular hanging what's stopping you from just grabbing onto the rope?

2 attempted ODs now and both times I bottled it and got hospitalised. Thank fuck my country's health care is dog shit so I wasn't sectioned and can try again when I nut up. I fear I never will and the suffering will continue indefinitely.

If you don’t like blue jeans you could wear pajama pants or sweatpants. Nobody’s forcing you not to wear sweat pants.

You can get sweatpants that look like blue jeans

I stopped wearing jeans and went with color pants the hipsters used to wear in the 2010's. More casual than khakis and softer material than jeans after some washes. Most come in slims though so I look a little like Gru.

>>303374
if you think a delay is bad, i cant imagine what you think of a permanent denial like wizchan

take 10 mg oral minoxidil or more daily

1mg finasteride a day will keep the balding away.

The main problem is losing the halo effect.

I was probably about a 5/10 or 6/10 before so people generally were indifferent to me. As a balding man I'm easily 3/10 which is low enough to be a target. Better to get a wig and move to a new city so I can go back to being left alone

Though my hairline is getting worse, it's not over yet; but I feel like any haircut I have is just an attempt to de-emphasize it and delay the inevitable. I had to look inside myself to figure out why it was bothering me so much. I realised I had been lying to myself a little, and I had to stop dragging this out. Free myself. The hair had to go.
As wizards we are actually blessed to not concern ourselves with thoughts of what succubi might think about our appearance, so I'm not sure why anyone here should care about being bald or shaving their head. It was liberating when I finally bit the bullet at 30. I enjoyed the shocked expressions of my colleagues and the joking comparisons to Derek Vinyard. Now I have my sister shave my head every week and it saves me all that money and hassle involved with going to a barber.

I think a lot of people are telling on themselves in this thread with their view on balding. Perhaps my views are a little influenced by my country, where I've never heard talk of 'minoxidil' and 'finasteride'–only ever on the internet–so it honestly appears very vain and a half-step away from flying to Turkey for a hair transplant.

Embrace it, friend. Stop caring about what /they/ think.

Oh, I also like what someone else said about how this is probably going to be the kindest form of aging to you lol, so I think it's best to deal with this head-on as there's going to be a lot more coming down the line that a pill can't save you from…

A simplistic technique I use every evening is what I think they call grounding. First you tense up all your muscles, you can do this limb by limb or whatever you feel like doing, tense them all up making them all active, and then relaxing them. Face especially is a good one. Then for the mental side you want to start drawing a square in your mind and follow the lines, go clockwise for a bit, then counterclockwise. Anything works here as long as it qualifies as something that requires focus without information. The result of this isn't about attaining peace or relaxation per se, but it kind of resets you. You accumulate a lot of noise throughout the day, both physical and mental, and this flushes a lot of that out. It's a good first step before starting any of the other stuff in this thread depending on your needs. I myself use grounding to kill excess background information in my head to fall asleep quicker.

>>303679
The muscle tension technique is used by the military for tension release and sleep. I don't remember the name of the technique, but they also use it together with box breathing >>303399
>Also
Body scanning together with constant body relaxation (muscle by muscle) is also good.
Some hypnotherapists combine this, using an entry or (induction, although as I said, this does not exist in hypnosis bacause its just believe and roleplaying maybe, which makes sense according to clinical books of hypnosis) such as eye fixation and counting from 1 to 5 or 100 down to 1 with reinforcements such as “relax” with “very good” or “you/i become more and more relaxed —specify a muscle or not-.” and some relaxing movements if you want (swing the body slowly like shuckling or a somatic exercise)
If you say gentle phrases to yourself while relaxing your body, Metta is interesting for this. Some people count Christian or Buddhist rosary beads while doing this. this can turn into a meditation practice.
>Also
some therapies use shaking of body for trauma release (this can be dangerous)
this two techniques of swinging and shaking are one of the trance techniques suggested in one chaos magick book there (maybe it's this, i dont remember. i remember the book says it's a german trance technique) Six ways by Aidan wachter >>303458
Trauma release therapy use shaking (used for ptsd in army and etc) can be little dangerous if you do alone bacause you end shaking too much for some time and can hurt yourself, and maybe the thing can turn bad and feel very bad. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wr2XFrinOlo
There're other variations of same technique with massage, stand or still in some way not just lay down position but still with shaking.
be aware of pseudoscience and quackery on youtube, check the source of the techniques if help.

I wonder if any wizzies can help me with this:
>try meditating in the afternoon
>usually exhausted from work
>when I sit too comfortably I start to fall asleep
>if I try straightening out my posture I get stiff and have to readjust for the pain
>not enough time in the morning between waking up and going to work to meditate
Anyone have any tips for sitting comfortably but not dozing off? I'm really trying to make meditation a key part of my daily life, but I'm struggling to really get it going.

>>303693
I follow Tai chi videos instead. But focusing on a candle in a dark room for 5 minutes might work in your case (low investment of time so hopefully won't fall asleep).

>>303693
>>303696
>Tai chi videos instead
Somatic exercizes in a way are similar or same (without belief of subtle energy body or use of visualizations) with more focus on the idea of vagus nerve and body trauma liberation tension >>303404
>focusing on a candle in a dark room for 5 minutes
Same as Tatrak, Kasina or wall gazing, Cloud Gazing or variations of same technique >>303400 >>303403
Metta can be a meditation if you get used to it >>303401 same as breath-work box breath >>303399
These techniques can make you be more aware of your body and relax the tension than turn you too much relaxed (and sometimes can turn some tension if you do it bad)
>Meditation posture
you dont need to do any of these lie down or on a Dyana, Burmese, Zen or any pose of meditation, you can do it stand or sit in a chair like westerns.

>>303621
>they only evidently have better psychological resilience
In the same way a wild boar is immune to the mating howl of a wolf. Autism enjoyers aren't necessarily 'resistant" to propaganda so much that the most prevalent media and propaganda is specifically targeted towards those without a developmental disorder. It's only a matter of making propaganda that targets the distinct brainwaves and interests of those who took the autism pill. And yes that is happening en masse; what's being propagandized is every genre of faggotry known to man. Just about every self-proclaimed haver of autism you can find online is echoing the same few lines of degeneracy that the corporations have tricked them in to believing. LGBT this, men can become succubi that, a little bit of "black lives matter" (LOL!)… This kind if "love wins" propaganda reaches the hearts of the mentally retarded so it is being pushed on to the autistic statistic hard. It's working.

>>303617
The only way autism hurt me was getting taken advantage of by others. But the +

Neetbux
Free bus pass
Aide worker that cleans/grocerie shops (can hang and play switch)
Activity aide that does whatever i want

>>303622
False. Low functioning autists are specifically at risk of brainwashing, someone forcing them to become trans etc.

Google the overlap between autism and transsexuality. It is significant. The vast majority of autists are low IQ and not capable of critical thinking.

Far right extremists, trannie, frustrated gamers throwing around terroristic threats - all low functioning autists.

Only high functioning autists are immune to brainwash.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/36996732/

>>303635
What country are you living?

>>302510
How can I know if I actually have this or am just misdiagnosing myself? Everything the OP said applies to me. I can't talk normally even to my family members and fuck eye contact. However I don't know if I'm just like this or if it's because I have spent so long isolated from other people that I became this way.

>>298058
If you have to ask, then your situation might not be as bad as you think. Death is a scary thing and it's hard to go through with it unless your life is permanently ruined, which is rare.

>>302162
>unless your life is permanently ruined, which is rare
it's not rare, it takes one traumatic event to ruin it forever

I enjoy my escapism and engage in some productive activites for the sake of my mental health.
I really don't think society has any right to shit on me given how retarded and clownish it is. Not that anyone cares about my existence in the first place.

>>302162
/thread

>>298058
I am alone but I not lonely.

Your question does not exist.

>>303706
QRD on witch house?

>>300854
I have a purpose in life, but my dreams are so impossibly difficult and out of reach compared to my physical limits, that everyday feels like an unbearable slog to get through. Only now am I slowly learning how to let go of my compulsions, fixations, to allow myself to drown in the negativity instead of coping with it or 'managing' it. I don't listen to advice or even follow instructions, infact I have no routine or schedule because I am incapable of listening to instruction, doing as I'm told, doing what I'm 'supposed' to. I don't respond to structure.

So I've learned to just let my subconcious sort it out, naturally. I've learned to work with my limits. I can't create an artistic masterpiece or even muster the energy to draw, fine, let me make something out of gluing newspaper scrap and build my energy slowly from there.

Work with what you have, anon. Work with what's most immediately available, what's most easiest, what feels the most effortless, and do things slowly from there. There's no rush, we're all gonna die anyway, anyways. Whatever. Take your time with whatever difficulty you're facing. Remember that many problems you face in life solve themselves, often intervention perpetuates them, such as in the case of intrusive thoughts or mental overload from your subconcious flooding you with unprocessed thoughts.

I don't know what waits for me. I can only wait and see. I wonder if fate will fully free me by the end…

>>300865
You don't need to be world famous at something to lead a fulfilling life, anon. That's very silly.

>>303711
You sound like an aspiring artist

>>303709
"Witch house".

I'll post a link to a certain COUB channel to avoid elaborating by typing too much

>>302917
I was considering smoking but it doesn't do anything for me. Weed as well, tried it about 4 times and I just feel a little tired. I wish I could experience the happiness its often associated with

>>302637
Because this could mean a beer (330ml) each day, or chugging 2.4L on any given day of the week.

>>303153
same situation
i just drink anyway lmao
and sometimes it goes away
it depends on how severe your GERD is

>>303344
It's gotten worse with age, will probably fuck up my esophagus if I'm not careful. at its worst it feels like there's molten lava in my chest. so i've been cutting back.

i've tried anti-acid tablets but it makes it worse in the long term i noticed, better to just drink a lot of water - and never imbibe on an empty stomach.

>>303691
I had a GERD-like booshi back in 2019


in 2020, I realised it was the "not so spicy" spicy food from work that was doing the inflaming stuff to me

>You are blacker than a pile of shit in a toilet bowl, fucking negro ass gorilla zoo nigger
>Tie a noose around your neck and kill yourself with a dildo up your ass, cocksucker
>Suck your dad's necrotic dick and blow your brains out like a depraved kike

These are the things I want to say to him, the biggest piece of shit abuser in my life, this malicious piece of shit who constantly bullies me, berates me, robs from me, steps all over me, takes advantage of me. To call this nigger my 'father' makes me want to barf out my entire colon.

But I can't.

Because if I do, I will go to prison for hate speech.

I can't even so much as offend someone without being fined or thrown in prison. Yes, that's how things work here in Kikenada, in Fuckberta, which is the supposed to be the most kikeservative place (it is NOT).

I am suffering in silence. I am forced to be subservient to evil, and if I so much as dare offend abusers, what little freedom I have is robbed from me and I am utterly enslaved to evil, so that I will be perpetually at the recieving end of it's exploitation and my suffering will be extreme.

This is what they want for me. They want to rob from me and promote their abuse in my name, while violently persecuting me and adding to the betrayal against me. This is their dream, their sadistic abuse fetishes, to violently exploit from a helpless child since birth and turn them into slaves by adulthood, perpetually subservient to evil and constantly at the recieving end of abuse until the day they die.

I am in pain. I am in so much pain. I want to cut myself, I want to dig my nails in my flesh and drag it down until my muscles flay off. I want to mutilate myself and make a bloody mess all over the carpet. I feel so horrible, so fucking inferior and invalid and worthless, so fucking angry at myself for being so weak, so fucking violently angry at them for doing this to me.

Please tell me, what do I do? How do I escape? How do I fight back? I cant afford to move out, I cant afford to leave, I am disabled, I cant even work to save my ass without being abused even more.

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>>303717
You could look for methods to poison them or burn the entire house down when they're sleeping. You still regret later if avoiding more violent means on your death bed.

>>303718
Glowing bright early in the morning fellow wizard.

>>303717
Start a soundcloud rapper career to get his approval

>>303720
Idea.

Don't just start X (rapper or shit)

Do X somewhat tied to Y (a crazy straw themed rapper, for ex. … or FOREX-themed rap ahaha)

and add some Z side theme of *environment* of an certain imaginary world where the X*Y shit is happening

>>303239
and here she is giving him a kiss

>>303238
It sounds like she really loved you. I believe in fate, that certain souls are just meant to find each other.

>>303241
Are you saying you believe in true love?

>>303243
I think so, like you(?) describe in >>303238. It's a kind of metaphysical thing, like some souls are just linked or something.

bumping good thread yur chicken is cool