/dep/ - Depression

>>303243
I think so, like you(?) describe in >>303238. It's a kind of metaphysical thing, like some souls are just linked or something.

bumping good thread yur chicken is cool

>>302193
7. Actually living in a remote location/off the grid/in a place where less that a half of your building has electricity outlets

>>302003
As a child, yes. A cat and an oddly affectionate one at that. He's dead now so there's no point in grieving. Grief should be reserved before the act of death and released afterwards. When death happens suddenly it shocks us to our core, that's why sudden deaths are traumatic.

>>304321
yes, as in "40 acres of land somewhere in Nebraska"

>>305066
Great. He used to say that it was good for idk what i was never listening to him

>>305066
I wonder if the same happened to me, now that I think of it. I've recently been taking D3 per doctor's advice and I feel differently after several months.

>>305080
Stop taking them, if you start feeling bad then the d3 is good for u

>>305083
I run out of it anyway. Also I didn't start feeling good, just a different sort of bad. But still much less lethargic, which is good I guess.

>>305087
next stop - test your iron levels and check if your body handles iron well.

or, just get some iron supplements as well…

>>304840
Sorry to hear that. When it comes to work, it's very difficult to find a job that's tolerable, and very easy to lose that job once you do find it.
>it's all very tight knit and everyone tries to talk to me cause I'm the new guy
I hate that shit so much, the "we're like a big family" type of workplace. It's the worst because your coworkers will try to pry into your personal life and even pressure you to attend social functions with them and get offended if you refuse. It's ridiculous.

>>304922
Exactly correct, wiz. I had to learn that lesson the hard way a few times. I would set out to do a good enough job so that no one has a reason to complain about me, but I would overdo it and impress the people around me, which result in more responsibility and higher expectations, which would ultimately result in me getting burnt out, overwhelmed, and eventually quitting. Also, as you said, there's no reward for working hard. In fact, with labor laws the way they are now, you can actually get legally screwed over at work. I recently got promoted at my job (I didn't try that hard, just most people around me were shit at their jobs or had bad attendance, so I was the best choice by process of elimination) and the company I work for wont even consider giving me a raise until April, because that's when their fiscal-year ends. So I'm doing a job that I'm getting provably underpaid for, but it doesn't matter because it's legal in the eyes of the shitty US government. The collapse can't happen soon enough.

All my suffering, all my pain can be contributed to wageslaving. Being rich, the opportunity to not mingle or bother with human beings is godlike. Chosen by the infinite. The godlike beings are rich people. That's it. Be in this world but not of it. Yeah jesus, i agree but how??? Should i be that badass homeless wiz who survives in the forest and just laughs at it? I cannot. I'm weak. I need to give it all up and take that bus to the void? Again. How? Weak. Even as a wizard i'm not chosen. The Crypto wizzies, the loving rich parents do whatever you want wizzies. They are heavenlike. Born alone, die alone. Lich destined. Death destined.

>>305051
Even as a trust fund kid I still hate socializing, am a wizard and have severe depression, only I can wallow in it in some remote country in a 5 star hotel instead of camping out in a public forest.

I also think life has absoutely no meaning and 95% of your life is decided by birth circumstances very few people can overcome.

>>305068
Didn't they teach you how to use money or something? How can you be rich, carefree and still depressed? Brain damage?

>>305088


1. Being full of existential questions like "but who I am???" (just like Lain)
2. Being a bit too into things you don't have enough test subjects to (just like GLaDOS)
3. Brain damage and such
4. Mental issues like anxiety and such, due to eating something your body refuses to process properly, although most people around you eat this very food just fine (think of gluten-free or lactose-free food needs or allergies)
5. Unshared love (think of a certain lady from Doki Doki Literature Club)
6. Being caught up in traditions of being nice to every family member you basically merely barely know
7. Your microclimate in your room is bad and your sleep is ruined simply due to that
8. All that drama over thinking whether your mate is into you, but not your wallet - demanding you to do this or that thing "with love" personally.
9. All that drama over thinking whether your mate is into your wallet, but not you.
10. Just being too sated to enjoy things you have already used to (so you probably should got a cheap "old preem" smartphone just to try living with it for some days over your normal fresh preem smarty…

That's the normal state of humanity. Also did you imply that you are on
>multiple drugs and getting therapy?
Because if so good luck waiting until your life improves.

It is very interesting. It is them, who do not believe in objectivity. Not me. They'll tell me "reality" is, what we "agree" it is. That is to say, what they dictate me. The implication: You are only "sane", if you comply. And, if you are not "sane", then you'll not be tolerated. That is their "sanity". Tamensi movetur.

>>305077
I understand what you are saying, I have been through more or less the same, many times over and over again. If you want I can drop you my e-mail, but keep in mind that I'll never be able to give you the full extent of what you desire.

>>305079
Perhaps that is what I have been waiting for. Drop it.

>>305079
Here's mine: simonc159789@proton.me. Write me, if you want to.

>>305081
https://bpa.st/DF4Q expires in a week.

I am going to become a fintroon. This hair loss is really fucking up with my mental health

>>304972
Your dad has good taste. Series is calle NYPD Blue and it is indeed a great show.The character's name is Andy Sipowicz.

>>305005
>be a wizard
>This hair loss is really fucking up with my mental health
>fin[asteride] troon

…
Eh. I see no problem; you're not staggubus after all…

>>293225
>microneedling
wont work so well if youre old

>>305069
if you're old it's beard time

>>304646
A jew is shitting in front of my door every week. I want to kill myself because of this. If I caught hum I'd fucking crush his neck, but he's too smart. Fuck jews.

>>304619
Well, could be your problem is unrelated to the meds, Idk. Male impotence can be caused by psychological things too, just low self-esteem or shitty moods. I can talk by experience, when I have periods during which I feel powerless/weak/a loser then my dick is softer and it's harder for me to get an erection but when I experience some success in some form in life I can get hard-ons that last for hours and can cum like a volcano. Your self-image counts A LOT when it comes to sexuality as a male.

Anyway, if you are sure it's the meds that caused this then sue them, get that money. Money is always good, especially if you didn't work for it, trust me, youngwiz.

>>304646
>pornography, abortionism, lgbt, contraceptives
These aren't necessarily evil though you are right jews push these things or use them for their own ends or to earn more money.

Enjoying sexuality in some way, whether it's masturbation/watching porn or another way and discovering new things isn't bad, it's a natural thing to enjoy life as much as you can. But when people start to assume identities like lgbt ones and make them their central core identity then it will end up with less white children. There is nothing wrong with porn itself or enjoying gay porn, only if you adopt some shitty stereotype that comes with this.

Abortion and contraceptives can be useful if the people in question have some diseases that could be inherited by their children or if we are talking about non-whites then by all means these things are good.

>>301262
>It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.


vent your apartment
go to sleep early
wake up early

>>304651


r u sure its not some Jordan with some Afghan Borzoi doggo pet?
set up a cam

>>304646
I've been researching and apparently some people crash from ginger and other organic serotonin antagonists, I tried for a day but I wasn't sure to keep going after I read some people's experiences

>>305048
Humans will naturally want to live than to die, but of course, we have been granted the intelligence to choose what we want to choose. So, if someone wants to die, no one can really stop them from doing so as it is not against the law. I do think most would see it as fine if the person is experiencing pain, but be confused as to why if the person isn't in pain. Also, religions disapprove of suicide so that is an important factor.

>>305037
Whenever I have several days in a row where I don’t have to meet anyone I feel the best. I make walks read enjoy play a video game enjoy porn and generally am just feeling relieved and safe. Then I have to meet another person and my mood is suicidal in an instance.

The conversation vaguely reminds me of the r/cogsuckers, I browse it for some prime mybfisAI cringe, but what puts me off is how normies treat those people, in a typical reddit fashion.
They call AI users narcissistic, antisocial assholes for not wanting to put up with human BS and preferring AIs over meatbags.
It makes me wonder. Those people genuinely can't wrap their heads around the fact that some of us are shunned out of society for our differences, or that we are hermits who genuinely don't enjoy human company. It makes them seethe and they come up with all sorts of insults. Why? Because some wizardly apprentice doesn't want to have friends and prefers to chat with a robowaifu? And it makes him a bad person because… Why exactly?
I don't like AI all that much, but I feel like this AI companionship hate is just normies hating on outsider people yet again.

Watching birds pecking at food scraps half-covered in mud on the street, then
coming home and throwing out bread on the suspicion that it might be moldy, I
feel ashamed.

Seeing the trees always standing tall, whether in blistering heat or icy cold,
from the window of my room where I never let the conditions go beyond "a little
chilly," I feel ashamed.

Reading about the lives and scope of activity of the men of the past - labourers
working all day and all night and resting only an hour, scholars waking at three
in the morning and working until ten at night - while I shrink from the thought
of even an hour of sustained activity, and fade into fatigue and abstraction
when I take less than nine hours of sleep - I feel ashamed.

I am so weak, so delicate, and probably more frail than many succubi. My body is
ugly, my features are not defined, my health and nerves are fragile and most
crucially I lack character. I think at this stage the only thing to be done is
to toss myself in the deeps and see whether I "sink or swim."

>>305043
>Birds
If you were a bird you'd do the same.
>Trees
If you were a tree you'd be the same.
>Men of the past
If you were living in the same time under the same conditions born in the same family as them then you'd do the same.
>9 hours of sleep
Consider yourself lucky
>Ugly
Lookup the Wiz threads about this one
>Character
If you don't refer to the Schopenhauer concept then character is just a feminine invention to keep men in check and getting them to do whatever they want

>>305045
Many thanks for the reflections and outside perspective. Your main point seems
to be that everyone is a product of his circumstances, which I agree with. But I
don't see that it precludes me from bettering myself. I was thinking today about
the saying of Antisthenes that he would rather go mad than feel pleasure. I
suppose I latched onto that way of thinking as an ideal to get through hard
times, but when things settle down I feel somehow lost. Consistency is what I'm
lacking, and discipline. Lying about and relaxing simply doesn't do me good in
the long run - my body goes - my mind goes - and there's a price to pay sooner
or later. In fact, I think it does not even make me happy.

On the point of character, it seems you have got an advantage on me, because I
haven't read Schopenhauer. When I used the term, I understood it merely to mean
strength of spirit. I know a lot of people here like Schopenhauer, but I get the
feeling I'm on a different train. At any rate, I'll watch out for that concept
whenever I get around to reading him.

>>304945
>>304952
This is not pol

>>304946
There's plenty of innocents who confess under pressure. I'm glad that emotional people like you don't make the laws otherwise there would be much more people unjustly murdered on this earth.

>>305016
as an emotional person, I can agree: good thing people like myself don't get to be in charge of implementing, "signing" new laws.

>>305044
If your only replies are "ur a faggot" and "ur a jew" you don't belong here, you look like automated shitposting bots and deserve to be ignored or even better banned