/dep/ - Depression

What's stopping you from being what you want?

Do you want to be a billionare astronaut concert pianist? Ok, maybe you need to reevaluate.

You want to be "the main." What does this mean?

>>304279
I tired
Being poor its a shit, i need to study a shit thing to get (maybe, theres a chance) job and get money to buy things i need to do wathever i need or want.
And the worst part its I not a child anymore so learning gonna be a shit slow and the feel of out of place is insane.
I feel it like the things are next, behind and too close to me but there's a invisible wall just stopping me to do something
I dont want to kill myself, I just tired.

>>304281

Are you the guy who only wants to do math and draw?

>>304279
what do you even want to be? I found that there is nothing worthwhile out there.
>where people would respect me or care about me.
this is more of a burden than you think.

>There's no meaning of existing
Correct. The is so little meaning that the feeling of meaninglessness itself is meaningless. Train your will to ignore it and just do whatever is available. If nothing is, don't do anything.

I wonder how many people would still be around if everyone was given a small device with a single button at the age of 20 years that simply makes you never wake up the next time you fall asleep. I'm sure I would not be around. But this kind of utopia is not even dreamable in a normie psychopathic narcissistic ruled world.

>>304236
This.

I can't stand people, I live in a overpopulated european city and every time I leave the house I have to endure crowds of people driving cars, talking to each other and forming queues in shops.

Now that winter is coming they also spread viruses and illnesses. It's intolerable how selfish and shallow humans are, they don't care if we get sick.

>>304257
Can't tell if a troll or just the general mindset on this chan. We got covid measures, because niggers like you went along with them, retard.

>Hurr durr other selfish
Meanwhile lives in an already overpopulated city

>>304275
>B-but people have no choice about where they live
Yeah, I bet the rest of those assholes are saying the same thing, yall deserve each other

>>304275
I'm forced to live with my parents and I'm immunodepressed, so yeah these selfish assholes meeting with relatives for christmas spread all kind of diseases. I truly despise this time of the year.

>>304230
>But let me tell you, after a year of not having any libido you start to regret. You don't feel human. I wish I could go back and never take that shit.

wrong


you, basically, feel you're not like other people when it comes to innuendos, gimmicks and cuddling so you cant "read the code"


I never took SSRIs and yet I had a phase of stress so harsh I did not have morningwoods

I never understood why people give up quietly. Instead of like doing some stupid shit like David Goggins. You know you don't have to be violent or hurt others unless you have so much anger in you that you would want to do that, but like if you're giving up life already, why not kind of play around with it a little bit without a care in the world. This is by the way not well thought out and if it is stupid, I'm sorry OP. But I used to have some kind of thoughts like that, I'm sorry I cannot articulate it right now.

Killing yourself for anything kike related is such a fucking cuck move. Guys, if you're gonna kill yourself, make sure it's not because of the fucking Jews. Let it be something deep and existential in nature, not some minor rock on your road or a pebble in your shoe (watch the movie revenant, it doesn't necessarily affirm life, but it just shows how far not giving a fuck about obstacles on the road can go and ultimately true power is not measured by achievement as much as how deep into doodoo you can go and still remain unphased, think qui gon jinn right before getting killed by darth maul, not that he had it tough, but he just ultimately really didn't give a fuck about anything ) and you know what, generally just not anything social in any way. On the other hand, if you kill yourself because of social stuff, you low-key deserve it, because to see life that narrowly, to only care what people think and do, I understand it's hard to survive without the benefits of civilization, but you can make it work without having anything more than business-like relationships with others, but to kill yourself because boohoo people suck and now I'm going to kill myself, not a huge loss tbh. Fuck people who only see other people as the thing worth living for. Have you been outside at night? Have you looked at the ocean? Have you walked alone in the forest? Have you consumed some good art? Have you looked at the sky and at the clouds or just the rising or the setting sun? Have you looked at the desert? Are you a fucking retard? Have you enjoyed your body? Are you so sick that you haven't ever fasted or enjoyed a good food after a good fast? Have you been to a sauna? Have your ran, have you lifted something heavy? Have you sprinted? Have you riden your bike? Are you fucking stupid, killing yourself because you're surrounded by boring ass people? All I have news for you, you are one of them, my nigga and if it's those boring ass people ruining the party… I don't want to get banned for encouraging suicide, but honestly the real ones will not be killing themselves because of reasons like that and the ones who will be, honestly, if anything it's a relief. Yes, most people suck.

killing myself once i get my SN. happy to leave this place and enter the void

My favorite method of dying has always been DMT but it has a nasty side effect of evaporating all your thoughts of killing yourself if you actually break through

Stay away from them fractals y'all

Oh my science he posted it everywhere
https://crystal.cafe/b/res/314392.html

>>304268
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>>304271
What's his endgame?

>>304271
>>304272
pantsu pantsu~
ich ni ich ni~

Moved to >>>/b/1029471.

>>304248
this


(speaking from experience)

>>304241
There are surprises you left for yourself still

I'm not going to say don't give up, but I will say have a tiny little bit of curiosity, maybe.

>>304248
look at this bitter wagie trying to rationalize his misery

>>304256

Are your days filled with uninterrupted bliss?

>>304277
I am bipolar (not I), I don't give a shit. I just watch the pattern of my mood repeat itself year after year and eat popcorn.

I sometimes wish I was born before all of this and barter economy was a go. If someone tried scamming my goats or turnips I could gove them a sound thrashing.

>>304210
I know a fella who could use a 100$ purchase of a proper matress atop of his old foldable sofa. And a big pillow.

His sleep is shit, his mood is shit; I remeber how my sllep and mood were also shit X years ago over ruined sleep.

Money cannot buy health sorry

>>304211
nice bux

Money won't buy you self respect you'll just die after overdosing.

Being a murder victim could cause that disorder. Thanks for the info! Had issues with that for all of my life.

Fucking hate people who think they have the right to murder.
Fucking hate absurdity, always.

>>303912
oh, soma killa tried to whack me over a 35$ celly.

Good thing I had a knoife m8, they woulnt rob a elementary school boy, they would do some psycho stuff, good thing I had a knoife m8

>>303906
Oh and the road is equipped with a traffic light so had he whacked me, he would be responsible for a murder and not a manslaughter becaue he was driving at the red light and not an unregulated crossing

>>303053
>never had an autist-tier hobby to treat as own safe haven
Why autist with hobbies can have a own safe haven? I ignorant about autism, sorry.
I dont have hobbies bacause I poor and dont have money to do things, I just read or pirate things or try to learn something thanks to internet if i can.
>Also
The truth is, I'm not very successful socially, so I don't think I can do much about that.
Only an idiot who doesn't know how to use money would say that money doesn't bring happiness. That excuse about simple things and living simply for happiness is true, but it's also partly a lie. Money makes absolutely everything easier.
>"Adaptation disorder"
Sound like a term when they cant alienate you to a shit society of abnormal people fucked by hyper-socialization and other problems.

>>304208
>I dont have hobbies bacause I poor and dont have money to do things, I just read or pirate things or try to learn something thanks to internet if i can.

Digital hobbies are hobbies too

>The truth is, I'm not very successful socially, so I don't think I can do much about that.
Only an idiot who doesn't know how to use money would say that money doesn't bring happiness.

Oh I used to be such a person… Now I am kinda wiser with modey.


>"Adaptation disorder"
Sound like a term when they cant alienate you to a shit society of abnormal people fucked by hyper-socialization and other problems.

Or when they need to mark down your "not like them" is cause by outside stress - OUTSIDE e.g. not some inner split-o-phrenia

there's no magical solution. it really is just about sticking with something long enough to see results and let your brain automate some parts so it becomes effortless. i've surprised myself quite a few times by just sticking with something, enduring the initial suckage, ignoring the shitty results and at some point something *clicks* and it's a whole different experience.

just give yourself a goal of spending /at least/ a 100 hours in the activity before you give up. it gives you a simple metric to focus on i.e. time spent, and you only have to show up. if you fail to make progress (unlikely), you can say you gave it a serious shot and you can move on emotionally. if you succeed, then… yeah, congrats, you have a new source of enjoyment in your life.

>>304180
>2. Wear several

*edit - carry several [backup t-shirts] so your sweat could go into a haha funny laundry bag

I swear I serve some of the most retarded people this side of the Mississippi. For context: There was an outage in our area that affected our card processing server and as a result we couldn't take a single card payment and had to resort to cash only. We had signs all throughout the store like picrel, and throughout the day people just outright ignored it and tried to pay with card anyway, only to bitch about it when we told them TO THEIR FACE that we couldn't take card payments at that time. It didn't help matters that our ATM was also out of order so they were fucked in every which way.

There was even one customer that said "I was too tired to read"…LIKE YOU'RE NOT TOO TIRED TO DRIVE BUT YOU'RE TOO TIRED TO READ. FUCK OUT OF HERE WITH THAT. /retail rage

>>304185
Normies love that "ah. It's broken, sorry m8 can't do a thingy"

Thoughts on the diogenes route?

>>304194
We have Britbongs on Wiz?

>>302793
>Not the anon youre replying to but how so? Also what form of Zinc? I take Glycinate and Gluconate, and I've previously taken Monomethionine (OptiZinc) and L-Carnosine.

It was gluconate. I think.

>>302793
So, I have both K2 vitamin pills and D3 vitamin pills. Then, I grab Zn also.
And then, I get some vitamin A also.


(also, B12 since my lent-oriented diet makes me, effectively, a half-vegan)


Hmmmm…
Thanks in advance. I'll try my best.

Tried to befriend a person. He would not listen to me at all. Friendship - screw him

Well, yeah, a lot of schoolboys used to bully me (of course they would bully a fatherless person who's too tall, they would call me "second yearer" and such.)

Good thing those bully twins aren't in my town anymore. I assume they had to move to Siberia to work some plant job…

>>304195
Basically, when Im bored and have to focus, I remeber those stinky working-class (cook's kids?) retarded kids who couldn't handle 4th grade curriculum yet had the brainz to leave a fuckton of emotional markings in my mind. I suppose they live the life I expected thm to live - gatherting scraps ant some kitchen job, "trying to survive", "it's not us being ass, it's life being ass" stuff…