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 No.304361[Reply]

The imposition edition. How many times have you done this? Previous https://wizchan.org/dep/res/303254+50.html
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 No.304455

Existence is a cruel and eternal prison, and I am alone in it.
I am God, and there is nothing besides me, I am all that exists and there is nowhere to run, I cannot escape myself.
I cannot simply cease to exist because I am the basis of all existence, I have always existed and will always have to exist.

 No.304458

>>304455
As a Christian this post was one of the most disgusting things I have read in a while. I don't like this pseudo-Christian "Christ is within you" stuff too

 No.304461

>>304458
"A christian meets a schizo"™

 No.304494

everything is so much worse than 2007, and i was already suicidal in 2007

19 years already, my suicidal depression is all grown up and has kids of its own now.

 No.304498

>>304458
Noone cares about your dead-end religion nigger



 No.304425[Reply]

is there any job a retard like me can do? my life situation is fucked beyond any comprehension. generally speaking, i dropped out of society at 18 and now im 29, my education level is the lowest possible(i doubt 1% of ppl even have this low in my country) and even cleaner jobs require higher education than mine. But I desperately need money as everything is falling apart in my life because I have no money to fix it. The only thing I ever succeeded at was investing(not a joke) but I have no capital and I have infinite expenses and debts. I'm not from the US, just middle of the shithole of 3rd world country Poland. Locally, most jobs here are either 'customer advisor' or whatever u call them, where u work at some store and are supposed to be a salesman there. Or some backbreaking physical labor that there's no way I can do. Idk, i'm just barking at the moon here. I'm simply completely stuck in an insane situation, and I can't do anything, because I have no money and no way to make any. I'm really losing my mind over this. Soon I'll die because I can't afford healthcare while I have 99 diseases and social help doesn't exist here, or they will lock me up in a psych ward forever because I can't stand the pressure. Sorry if this post makes no sense but really, i'm just rambling everywhere I can because I just can't stand it anymore. My whole family is dying from their own diseases and their own decisions. I don't want to pointlessly talk about my life situation but it's more insane than anyone can imagine.
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 No.304428

>>304425
You should be able to find a job as a day laborer at construction sites or something similar. They certainly shouldn't require education.

 No.304429

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>>304425
>I'm not from the US, just middle of the shithole of 3rd world country Poland
[A SLAV BROTHER IS IN A PINCH!!!]

Shit! SHIT!!!
So, look, I am a in the former heart of the former 2nd world

I survived being a no-good dropout by

a) looking for a warehouse worker job AND b) using an app that was looking for jobs near your current location (very useful for looking for jobs near hometown)

also c)

I was remembering today how I survived managing a small warehouse:



butt cushion saved me from "Hank Hill Syndrome" getting worse

2 screens = +30% productivity
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 No.304438

> Or some backbreaking physical labor that there's no way I can do

>>304428
>just get into construction, bro

>>304429
>just do warehouse jobs, bro

OP said he isn't capable of hard physical labor and what you two suggest would end up with him ragequitting after a few hours…

>>304425
OP, I can understand you. I'm very similar to you, nearly the same age, similar 2nd-world post-soviet country with no bux or anything like welfare and I also can't do any skilled job and don't have a higher education, plus I'm physically weak too just like you. So I can't give you some exact, magical solution to your problem but can give some of my personal insight:
- maybe try applying for a job at your local supermarket, like filling up shelves and replacing products, that kind of stuff, not the warehouse kind of job
- or try getting a job at some factory where you have to do repetitive stuff that isn't especially hard you on physically, like putting together parts of cars/bikes, etc
- you could also try finding some old guy or succubus and doing chores for them they can't do anymore, like doing the shopping for them or doing gardening, etc.
- maybe cleaning? Cleaning toilets or whatever, it doesn't require some big knowledge
- or maybe Burger King or McDonald's, doing whatever you can

Or you could just embrace your fate like me and shrug. I'm prepping myself mentally for the homeless life, with occasional visits to prisons or psych wards, so what? Life sucks. Whatever, nothing I can do about it. If I cared or gave a shit I would have already done something about my life…

 No.304459

>>304438


Look up what "кладовщик" does and you'll see what I mean - it's not about *carrying da boxes* like that Wojtek bear, no.

I was think of a job where you need to *manage* a warehouseful of small things.

 No.304497

>>304438
>OP said he isn't capable of hard physical labor and what you two suggest would end up with him ragequitting after a few hours…


no, no, not "literal warehouse" warehouse, I was thinking of "running a small shop" kind of warehousery or "carrying a cart around the aisles" kind of warehousery.



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 No.301831[Reply]

Any other wizards here that have trouble with speaking "normally" or pronouncing certain letters? This kind of thing occurs naturally to normalfags and it really is just something that should come inherent to everyone. I've had times when I think I'm talking normally but people tell me to stop yelling, or other times when I think I'm talking in above average volume and people tell me I'm being silent. I also struggle to pronounce the letter "s" properly and sound like a spazz which has made me actively avoid certain words. It's just another one of those things that has made me realize how we and normalfags live in an entirely different state of existence. I remember how Chris Chan used to get bullied for his voice among other things, I'm not sure if it is an autistic trait or a consequence of my reclusive life but it has made my anxiety in public worse, and has also totally ruined my dreams of starting a music project one day
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 No.304175

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>>301831
>Talk problems
I dont know much about these talk things.
I read somewhere of selective mutism, social anxiety, avpd, avoidant behaviour and avoidant attachment can fuck you even at the most simple socialization things.
But accent problem sound strange to me.
>Also
Maybe you need some form of language and talking training or check your face-checkbones or so to know if there some problem.
I know a guy that after a face operation of the nose, some mouth muscles and teeth started to talk very well (as kid speaked very bad)
>Autistic trait
The Autistics guys I know doesn speak cringe, even one. They speak very well and fluid (and at times have more vocabulary than the common normie with pure 4chan-tik tok retardation meme language)
>Reclusive life style
>Anxiety in public
Check some help for social anxiety, selective mutism, etc. Maybe ask a IA sometimes they have good suggestion for these things.
Social exposure help sometimes but if you're too avoidant or have some social problems this not help much sometimes and induce more anxiety.
You can check this thread and link for some help tech for anxiety and social things >>303467
Sorry my shity engrish.

 No.304177

>>304175
You don't know any autistic guys then, you know people that call themselves autistic to gain some sort of social special scores.

 No.304493

>>301831
Yes.

I am convinced that I have some kind of partial paralysis of my mouth muscles, or a nervous system issue. (The latter being likely because I suspect my hand coordination is very sub-normal too).

S and Th are both hard, neither can form really well. I struggle with long vowel sounds too, particularly with difficult consonants like L or P. Sometimes too when I try to initiate speech, things just don't move, like I have to actually fire that "go" signal several times before it takes. These problems persist no matter how carefully and intentionally I approach the speech. It's a physical issue.

Everyone thinks I'm some kind of downy by default. Never had an inability to control my volume though, unless you count naturally having a very soft speaking tone due to a lifetime of people literally visibly recoiling in disgust when I speak.

 No.304495

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>>304177
>You don't know any autistic guys then, you know people that call themselves autistic to gain some sort of social special scores.
I know one guy who said he had Asperger's, although they don't use that definition anymore. If he hadn't told me, I wouldn't have noticed, and I know another guy who has all the traits of having something unusual that maybe sound like autism to me.
It's more because of his behavior than anything else. He wouldn't fit in with normies if you compare him to the first one, although the first one doesn't fit in with normies either, except for pretending or hiding certain behaviors.
>Also
And yes, this was before all that bullshit about inclusion, diversity, and neurodiversity became fashionable, as if it were an umbrella term, and even for everything weird, due to embarrassment or lack of interest in having to know or be overly specific and explain every damn personal problem on the part of normies or educational authorities or other idiots just to reduce the term to neurodiversity or wathever.

 No.304496

>>304493
yeah the Th sound is hard, I remember getting sent to speech class from K-5, never fixed it. its crazy u got to stick your tongue between your teeth everytime.

well these days i dont even use th when typing, its always about dis and dat



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 No.304421[Reply]

Knowing the hedonist succubi stroll the face of the earth was eating away at me so I drew for a bit in an attempt to extend my range of patience. Still, I remain degraded and in misery. I think I'm in a spot right now where I feel neutral but that can't stop me from knowing how disgusting and vile they are, and how even just existing is. What have you drawn?

 No.304422

you should look up guro if you want to satisfy this desire even more

 No.304473

It's a fun way to vent. I made a comic series albeit quite bad about an outcast wagie. Not entirely original but I get to plagiarize my real life experiences

 No.304492

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>>304421
>Hatred through art
>Knowing the hedonist succubi stroll
>was eating away at me so I drew for a bit in an attempt to extend my range of patience.
>I think I'm in a spot right now where I feel neutral
>but that can't stop me from knowing how disgusting and vile they are, and how even just existing is
Sound like a crabdom with a succubi rent free 24/7 in the head.

I like drawing cute lolis and chibis sometimes (not in a sexually way you know) so i dont have a problem with that. so it can fullfiling just learning to draw or do emotion in arts.
>Also
At this point Crabdom gonna be normal in this place… fuck.



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 No.296511[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

This is the classic "suicide general", where we discuss methods and say farewell to our fellow wizards, quite different from that other thread in the catalog.

I'm currently 26, almost 27 (rings a bell?). And I can't take it anymore. I will soon depart from life through hanging. I haven't done it yet because I live in a shithole and there are always people around making noise and being nosy. I will just wait till it's very quiet so I can go to the woods and end this miserable existence.

I don't care if it might "get better". Existence itself is a curse and we're all gonna die anyway. I've read enough pessimist books and life affirming books and I side with the former. I don't need your compansion, because the thought that I will soon disappear is the only thing that makes me happy. I'm not even sad because of this.
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 No.304377

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can i die from a full script of ativan 2mg and alcohol?

 No.304488

advice for cowards on how to train yourself to have the courage to do it?

 No.304489

>>304488
My advice is to not do it, because suicide is for fags.

 No.304490

>>304489
just sobbing in a ball, wanting to do it, but too pussy to do it, is even more fag.

 No.304491

>>304377
it is possible if u have no tolerance, but mixing benzos with opioids is much more likely. death is through additive respiratory depression


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 No.304481[Reply]

feeling really lost
especially because i can compare it to earlier times
where things felt more bearable
or at least that i had some bearings to ground myself
school and college, a brief post-graduate unemployment, and then solid employment for many years that led to to a point where i actually kind of enjoyed my life
things felt really stable. i liked the people i had around me every day.
but shit doesn't last, and I have lost everything that kept my mental health from spiraling
and so it's spiraled
addiction and dopamine control my life and I get phases of focus and productivity that quickly fades when I get anxious and start smoking weed from morning to night.
I'm just rambling now because this is my mind these days, just constantly ruminating and unable to find a glimmer of hope to latch onto in order to make sustained gradual change to improve my life and 'return to glory' like I used to experience day to day.

Because nowadays life is uncomfortable
and discomfort without meaning is just suffering

how do i find meaning again after I lost it? Without it I feel so unmotivated to do anything about lacking it.
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 No.304483

>>304482
not gonna argue, i definitely feel like i have reverted to age 16-20 mentally/emotionally but I was mid 30s when everything fell apart. Gotta rebuild. Maybe the weed is just fucking with my perception of meaning or making me more of a pussy. I guess what i realize is that before when I had more meaning it was easier to work my ass off. Now it's like what's the point? Why not just chill and smoke weed instead of grinding?

 No.304484

>>304483
you really need to quit smoking weed
it fucks with your perception of things it can literally cause you to be paranoid or schizo

 No.304485

>>304484
in HS/college/employment i could smoke weed to tune out during my down time after class or work. now without the social structures around school/employment (no regular social contact) and without the daily obligations creating my routine/schedule, i just smoke all day every day and i'm just tuning out ALL of my time now. it's starting to feel gross. i'm not schizo but i think schizoid for sure

this is my sign it's time for a change

maybe i cant fix everything in my life but i can at least focus on quitting weed as my next goal

 No.304486

If you enjoy doing drugs then continue to do so by all means. If you enjoy wageslaving then get back to that. What's even the problem here?

My opinion is that there are plenty of wageslaves in this world, if you can afford then just NEET and do what you like, even if that includes doing drugs. At least that way you at least contribute to the destruction of society in a way…

Also
>college
>solid employment for many years
Can't relate at all. Too normal for me. The most I managed to finish was high school because I lost interest entirely in doing socially approved things at that point and from then on just retreated into my shell pretty much.

 No.304487

>>304486
i enjoy doing drugs
i enjoy playing games a lot too
but i do not really enjoy where this lifestyle carries me
when weeks turn into months and months into years
and i realize i smoked so much of it away while feeling anxious and lonely, or i get sick of a game and the rank I worked so hard for doesn't even mean anything to me anymore once I uninstall.

i miss how easy it felt when I was part of a cohort of students or coworkers. Being disconnected from it for years now I don't know how I can ever re-integrate and find meaning in society again

or how do I forget all that and find meaning in an endless video game drug binge? That one i've tried and it can't really be done long term so I just feel like I'm at the end of the road and need to make a change

quitting weed will be a start i guess



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 No.304408[Reply]

new internet of over 10 yrs now… is it me or there is nothing left to talk about?
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 No.304472

>>304471
Nope. Quite often those dumpsters have amazing items. For example there was a computer store that made employees throw away stock. Nothing crazy but a ton of memory sticks, controllers etc.. I would do it more often but it's quite popular these days as the economy in my country is incredibly awful compared to 10 years ago - more people are doing this and it's mostly for food now.

 No.304476

>>304472
what do u mean people doing it for food?

 No.304477

>>304476
In this environment, no need to dumpster dive. One of the grocery stores in the area took away hand baskets because people were just loading up and tossing them in there cars without paying.

 No.304478

>>304477
*their
But I used to find sweet stuff at the old apartment complex, got a subwoofer for my car that worked pretty well.

 No.304480

>>304477
>people were just loading up and tossing them in there cars without paying
I can't believe it's real



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 No.303736[Reply]

You will still be stuck browsing this thread in 2026 edition

previous>>296811
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 No.304423

>>304317

I gave up on society and got some skills and started working in IT from home, freelance.

Where are you planning to work that is advertised as a solitary vocation?

 No.304463

Why are boomer customers so fucking retarded? I had this happen to be 10+ times today:

>Old boomer asks me where something is

>"That's in number 12"
>The boomer scowls and just stares at me
>"Number 12 sir"
>It continues looking at me
>I decide fuck it and get back to what I was doing
>"DON'T YOU WALK AWAY FROM ME"

… Luckily at my job I can tell them to fuck off if they act up, which I take insane pleasure in doing so.

 No.304465

>>304463
Some folks (myself included) could use a reminder like

>AISLE number 12


or even

>see plaques with numbers? See the one with twelve on it. Should be somewehre there.

 No.304470

>>304465
I can kind of tell when someone is slow/dumb/needs extra help. I'm more upset at them just looking at me for too long and being rude after I gave them the EXACT answer. Even literal gang bangers act more polite than these types.

 No.304479

>>304470
Ha, had some guy lose his phone and was asking what I was going to do about it (I'm calling the black helicopters for you right now sir, We'll get to the bottom of this!). Agreed on the sketchy crowd, I'd rather deal with them.



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 No.304474[Reply]

Furnishing/Furniture thread

in case you suspect your /dep/ression is a result of living in unfit living quarters.

I'll start.
In my family, we only have wool blankets (thick) and a cotton fabric-like blanket (very thin). I never thought it could have been any impact on me. TURNS OUT IT WAS IMPACTING ME A LOT. Two years ago I got a nice cotton blanket (medium thickness) and my sleep improved, well, overnight. Well, THIS WINTER, my mommy borrowed my blanket and now I have to look for another similar one (can't find the same class of fluffy blankets anymore, ugh…) - hope the blanket I've got recently will help. I mean, I got my brain fog from bad sleep… ugh… I only realized it today… ugh…


Also, don't forget to vent your bedrooms

 No.304475

>>304474
Bonus thought. I'll grab some rubber bands to keep my window "slightly opened" to vent while I sleep under my thick regular blanket.


Cyao.



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 No.303825[Reply]

Would they? I've been thinking.

My mom is already LDAR'ing due to the debt and she's already lost one child, so I think either by suicide or stress she would die. My dad? He didn't seem to care that much when my stepbro died, but I am his firstborn. I don't know really. My little brother would probably just turn into me. That's my only concern. Everyone else, would cry for a day maybe.

 No.303827

No. I don't think anyone truly cares, they just pretend to make themselves look 'good'. If anything, I think they're glad you died, because they're sadistic malicious demons in human skin.

 No.303836

Personally, I think my parents would be relieved. "Took him long enough".
Coworkers would range from slightly happy to ambivilant. There's 100 people in line to replace my basic-bitch warehouse job. Would still cost the real victims, company/executives/investors a few %'s of %'s of profit. Line not go up as much as should, VERY SAD!

And whoever found my carcass would probably be upset. Though maybe they'd think it was cool.

 No.304460

>>303825
My parents would straight up die due to sadness. Thats what keeps me from doing it sadly.

 No.304466

My mom would be destroyed, she's already severely mentally ill and only takes her meds because of me. My dad would be sad too, but he'd get on with it. No one else would really care, maybe a "oh thats sad" at most from old relatives. My boss at work would actually be pissed, I'm a good worker in his opinion (im not, im good at looking good)



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