/dep/ - Depression

Reading back in old societies, the tendency for the depressed to snap and kill people tended to be a lot higher. Running amok, spree killing, was common.

The eskimos had no time for mental illness, at the first signs of it they'd smash your head in and throw you into the sea. I suppose it makes sense, because someone smashing apart the igloo or snow hut late at night would kill off everyone.

Yeah if you're depressed you get treated awfully best to just avoid everyone.

>>311820
Eskimos also sanctioned suicide.

Thats why I have been gradually isolating myself continuenly. Being alone is the best, although that also feels empty.

>>311824
Passive suicide was common as fuck historically. Eating less voluntarily during a famine or just wandering outside during a rainstorm to die of exposure.

>>311525
The real you I mentioned is more of a higher sense of oneness you can't just easily get on sober meditation, unless you dedicate years to it or get satori. Also you are a ego-bound retard.

>>311536
>can't just easily get

That's the point. You dumb nigger americans can't revolt against the epSTEIN class, you "just easily get" jew-addled turncoats like trump. You dumb nigger americans "just easily get" corn syrup, GMO, drugs, alcohol, give speed to children, pray to 2000 year old jew. Everything is "just easily get." Dumb fucking nigger cattle.

Got prescribed methadone, it's weird being able to get an illegal drug legally now. I'm going to enjoy this until roughly EOY as a way to soothe the crippling FOMO from EOY celebrations.

Anyone else here an opiate addict? I'd quit but I have nothing else that even comes close to a substitute to the bliss of opiates.

>>311816
>I'm going to enjoy this until roughly EOY as a way to soothe the crippling FOMO from EOY celebrations.
As usual, "drugwizards" are all failed normalfaggots who need to take meth to cope with the crabby sadness they feel over not being invited to parties.

>>311816
Your walls remind me of a certain green booru

In the coming months share what you got

I see you're running gnome, I'm on actually on fent myself

>>311793
You really don't belong here, perhaps /r9k/ is more upto your speed

Psych wards are useless and expensive and you will be abused. Best to just hide substance use if you're into it.

>>311822
Obviously.

>>311712
For me, its the nucleus of my emotional state. as i've gotten older, the experiences that took me away from it towards something more pleasant and enjoyable have steadily declined.

now, its something im just used to shouldering and shrugging off to start the day. some days i start spiraling so badly that i have to just go to sleep; usually done by drinking myself into sleep

>>311763
Im so hate a fucking idiots gym kid like piece of shit

>>311712
>you just dont really want to get out
I really dont want to get out of my NEETcave anymore and havent been outside, not even once, in over 6 years now and I'm a full hikki NEET wizard.
for some time I was actually looking for reasons to go outside but I couldnt come up with any.
walking around is boring and I dont want to encounter all these normalfag NPCs. cant interact with them in any meaningful or interesting way anyway.
I used to drive a car but gave up on it because driving is boring and I have no destination anyway.
there is simply nothing out there for me.

>>311787
>not even once, in over 6 years now

How? Is there someone else taking care of the domicile, bringing food, etc?

Even the worst hikkiwiz have to roam around from time to time….

>>311788
I live with my parents and my mom is doing all the grocery shopping or picking up my amazon orders.

Got hit by a car a couple of months ago. Nose got broken pretty bad and some teeth have been messed up. I've been left with some relatively bad scars on my face. The worst part was that while I was sitting in the hospital bed I didn't feel anything. Absolute listlessness. There's nothing that I missed, nothing that I looked forward to. It reminded me of The Stranger and how the main character believes he'd get used to living in the trunk of a dead tree with nothing to do but look at the sky.
I don't even feel like a real person. I'm just waiting to die because I can't even find the energy, or courage, to kill myself.
Sorry for another boring blogpost. There's no one IRL that I can tell this stuff to.

>>311750
>I'm just waiting to die because I can't even find the energy, or courage, to kill myself.
>courage
I've postponed my hanging several times now and I'm always like: some unexpected stuff happened I will surely do it next month. I'm wondering if I'm actually delusional. Anyway I'm completely done with life and I'm ready to go now.

>>311784
>some unexpected stuff happened I will surely do it next month.

But moooom, I can't do the dishes now; I'm trying to kill myself!

Adderall is the only thing keeping me from killing myself at this point

there's no way happiness is a real thing lmao

How to hang?

>>311723
>>311730
I can't get guns where I live and throwing myself under the metro scares me due to the posible pain when my head or arms get crushed

My idea was alternatively to use an angle grinder or something like that so the cut gets properly done

>>311749
Do it carefully so you don't make a mistake trying again

>>311756
For what I've been researching, cutting the main aorta on thr neck and the jugular is lethal, there's very low risk of blood coagulating. So I guess I find the way, now I must plan it carefully

>>311749
I noticed some people succeed and others fail at suicide is mainly because they have correct knowledge about a specific method.
Guy 1: Doesn't know about hanging, fails drowning attempt.
Guy 2: Tries to hang himself by blocking the airway instead of constricting the blood flow, fails hanging attempt.
Guy 3: Succesfully hangs himself by carefully placing the rope around his neck. Released from pain and suffering forever.

drew in wrong tab.
i have not experienced this but many have, i think on it.

>>311770
Real

this is art

its name is Berry Punch. in the show its made out that this horse is an alcoholic.
There are sad fanfics with her.

>>311689
That should be the least of your concerns

>>311686
At a certain point your thinking just becomes dominated by this craving for the end

>>311700
Yeah, I don't think I've gone through a single day without thinking about dying at least once since then.

everything started dying in 6th grade, the new current me was born by 7th grade. being an undiagnosed adhd sperg with no social skills and parents who secretly have distain for you will do that.
My life still had magic until my brother died. now the colors aren't bright and I can't feel the wind anymore.

>>311700
I've noticed people seem to think that goes away.

>>310551
Cod liver or cod liver based "fish oil", correct. Synthetic vitamin D is fine too.

Did you know 1928 Nobel Prize in Chemistry is related to vitamin D research?

>>310767
Synthetic vitamin D gives me headache.
And I'm cautious about cod liver oil because of its mercury content.

>>310982
Because the vitamin D is liberating calcium and that is entering into your bloodstream causing increased pain.

>>307761
>>308984
I've been doing alright. Full disclosure: I haven't noticed any improvement in my symptoms, despite all my efforts. I was waiting until I saw some improvement before posting here again, but unfortunately, nothing has changed.

I think I'm learning to live with it. A good part of my time now goes into taking care of my health. My diet has been nearly perfect for over a year now (absolutely no processed food, sugary food, grains, carbs, gluten or alcohol, and the only fruits I eat are low-carb ones, particularly berries). I have been using natural products. For example, I know the succubus who makes the aloe vera soap I use. I use natural toothpaste. I have stopped using deodorant and shampoo. I haven't turned into some ascetic monk or a stoic either (I find aspects of both interesting, but ultimately I reject both lifestyles). Mostly, I have realized just how much people take their health for granted when they have it, and how true the saying "we are what we eat" really is.

I've found that masturbation reopens the mental wound, so I've been trying to avoid it. The same goes for writing about or looking up things related to the condition, and browsing imageboards. It's just not worth it.

More important than health or good habits, I realized that I should not wait for the restoration of the old vitality. I must not expect to recover. I must treat this as a test and strive for excellence even under these conditions.

Your thoughts on rationality have been helpful. It seems the hedonic adaptation process happened, and now I am more self-controlled. Also, not to diagnose you, but I think you might've had PAWS instead of PSSD. Or else I have a particularly severe case.

I attached an image showing all my current symptoms. I'm aware this is a near-complete collapse of the drives that constitute a living human being. I haven't stopped wanting to live, though. I've stopped needing to; after having seen everything, there's this kind of serenity in the face of impermanence.

Do you have anything else to recommend? Also, what are your thoughts on the raw primal diet? I've looked into it lately.

Aajonus Wonderplanitz advocated for something similar to what you mentioned, regular short hot baths and sweaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>311752
>Full disclosure: I haven't noticed any improvement in my symptoms, despite all my efforts. I was waiting until I saw some improvement before posting here again, but unfortunately, nothing has changed.

You haven’t noticed any positive change at all? If so, I’m very sorry to hear that, wiz. If I can ask (and not to be repetitive here, just wanting a better understanding as I didn’t see all individual aspects addressed in your recent post), how many of the following would you say you are still taking/eating/engaging in on a daily basis:

-complete B vitamin (B1 and B9 especially)
-good clean source of vitamin A like organic canned pumpkin
-natural serotonin antagonist like organic ginger
-nitric oxide rich foods like arugula
-sauna bathing/concentrated sweating

>My diet has been nearly perfect for over a year now (absolutely no processed food, sugary food, grains, carbs, gluten or alcohol, and the only fruits I eat are low-carb ones, particularly berries)

This is excellent. Congratulations on the discipline. Though I will say as one criticism that the total exclusion of carbohydrates is not the healthiest choice. Non-glutinous carbs like quinoa and sorghum and even various types of legumes wouldn’t hurt as elements to be added to your diet either. I eat these weekly (while avoiding gluten and rice). Sorghum in particular is one non-glutinous grain that might prove helpful as it naturally increases dht (dihydrotestosterone).

>Mostly, I have realized just how much people take their health for granted when they have it, and how true the saying "we are what we eat" really is.

Absolutely true. I had an attack of severe pain in my 20s (unrelated to ssri use) and I recall learning in the moment of the attack (which lasted many hours) how dearly underappreciated was my former health, as if it were a thing I had unconsciously carried with me all my earlier life. Realizations of this sort are normal however; they are a part of growing up.

>but I think you might've had PAWS instead of PSSD
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The hell is this

Up is actually down

>>311764
Umm well, maybe this
>>311719

>>311764
And i like he firmness suicide
>>311762

>>311764
If you need to ask, then you'll probably never know.

Men are incredibly diverse in what brings us joy and sorrow. There is no limit to the extremes to which one functional adult male can differ from another. It's not a phenomenon that needs to be broken down and extrapolated on, it's simply the baseline nature. Some men can find happiness in homelessness - something the idea of brings others fear and sorrow - simply because 'they can'. Consider that there are archetypes of men who can have the world handed to them, but still they wish only to sit under a tree and listen to the birds. Men who work and live comfortably in a hectic bustling society, only to discover later in life that camping and backpacking are what truly brings them joy. For one of these types of men to suddenly be thrust in to homelessness wouldn't have any significant toll on his psyche as that lifestyle is not dissimilar to one they'd want to live out voluntarily.