/dep/ - Depression

Good luck wiz. Sounds pretty bad what you're experiencing.

Do you work full time?

Mirtazapine is a powerful sedative. I tried it a few months ago and 5mg was enough to immediately put me to sleep and knock me out the next morning. Not good if you're employed.
Didn't fix the depression at all (and why would it? I'm depressed because my life objectively sucks) but at least it god rid of the sleep issues.

>Wish me luck anonymages
I wish that you'll stop falling for the pharacutecal scams.

You will get fatter if you keep taking that pills.

>>301269
Yep, full time. They'd make me do the same work if I went part time anyway since I'm a manager

>>301284
The evidence suggests antidepressants and therapy are the best option when you're depressed. Objectively, I'm not a peasant or a tribesman eating bugs. My biology was trained on shittier scenarios. So far it actually does seem to be helping but maybe that's placebo since it's such early days. Still depressed and anxious but not distressed as much now

>>301285
How can it be worse than the hell I was already feeling?

>>301294
I'm skinny so that's good. It's increased my appetite.

Ok, OP here with an update.

I've moved interstate to live with my parents. This includes my mum who was physically, emotionally and verbally abusive across my childhood.

But she's like Dr Jeckle and Mr Hyde. She's very helpful around the home when she's not abusive.

Everyone I know is shocked I'm moving back and had told me not to. It's been one night now and I'm surviving. I need to remember that I can and should leave if I get stuck in suicidal mode here or degenerate further.

Anyway, it's because I couldn't be stuffed figuring out a new place to rent basically. Too fatigued.

I keep getting tonnes of criticism from my boss and it's really eating me up. But they let me work from home interstate. It's almost performance assessment time and I'm dreading when the guillotine drops on my lasting sign of high functioning.

But I still have time, for now.

I'm going to apply for lots of jobs, and also try to really impress the boss in the coming weeks…

Ive tried so many medications from antidepressants to anti-psychotics, all that shit fried my brain even more and made things much worse, I'm not trying or taking anything ever.

Just like every other time everyone warned me something would be a bad idea, this was a bad idea thinking I could live with my partners

My mum is still a domestically violent aggressive psycho. Guess I got to figure out a place to live asap while figuring out the mental health and trying to keep this stupid job.

>>301499
That stuff doesn't have lasting effects if you stop tho. Unless you stop abruptly without tapering down, then you can get brain zaps

>>301566
>That stuff doesn't have lasting effects
sexual dysfunction, dystonia, akathisia, tardive dyskinesia, gastroparesis, rebound psychosis, dementia, tinnitus, diabetes, PR prolongation, cancer…all of this for literally a placebo/lobotomy effect, psychiatrists are INSANE

I have been forced to take a sum of six antipsychotics and antidepressants since childhood. I think it has given me slight mental retardation.

>>301571
You were poisoned as a child and those who poisoned you need to be killed. As a man, nobody can force you to do anything, so stop taking their poison.

>>301567
OOF

>sexual
AKA susceptibility to succ***

>>301262
Lemme guess. Your sleep schedule is a mess, you have a cheap bed or none (a.k.a. sleeping on a coach); you have no blackout curtains and no background noise to hum out the small noises in the night.


Well… You may or may not have additional" factors that render a decent drug useless.

>>301789
This was all true except now at my parents place I have an awesome bed

And it is dark and quiet enough here.

It's way better.

But.

My boss is back from leave and making me feel like shit again.
This job has rare qualities: remote, low effort, high pay, low interaction, secure, and prestigious. I’d be throwing away a dream job.

As for thinking I need to quit to focus on therapy or medication: that’s not true. When I was not working, I found I don't get healthier. I don’t eat better, exercise more, or feel less anxious. I just stress about different things — including future jobs, financial security, family and community perception and relationship prospects as a result of my job.
i am actually more productive in ny life outside work when I've worked that day it seems or worked during weekday if it's weekend, so not only a mental health boost but productivity.

That said, if the working conditions are too harsh for me, I still have to quit if I can't find a resolution, whatever the consequences.

The meds (I'm OP) are still keeping me from feeling too suicidal tho. Worth it. Still depressed tho.

hold on


so you used to consume SSRIs…

…without consuming serotonin precursors?

Well… You could use some 10$ box of L-carnitine



also, try fixing your diet (how? See "Dr. Berg" channel)

>>301848
ooh.

glad to hear the "better" part, comrade


I used to be somewhere in the /dep/ zone too. Never showed up at local schrink's since my maternal brother is a certified schizo (so they would pretty much misdiagnose me as yet another schizo as well)

>>301848
>My boss is back from leave and making me feel like shit again.


I wonder if you and your boss have different ethnicities, so you pretty much could try and "fake it till you make it" to be into boss' culture?

OP, how are you? OP, come in. Your thread was at the brink of sinking!

>>301848
get your boss a cam/a "radionanny" so your boss kinda *knew* where your ass is at, mr. Remote Location.

context: nervous because afraid for you

>>301262
Anonymage are you still with us?? How did the meds help & are you still taking them??
Some gay doctor prescribed me the exact same (15mg mirtazapine) for sleep issues & it's actually helping me be more productive for once. I don't wanna fry my brain on this shit though. I'm thinking of taking it on alternating weeks until I get my underlying issues fixed, not sure if that's too much though.

I was on prozac for a while and I'm pretty confident it made my memory worse but most of all it killed my dick. I almost want to kill the doctors that prescribed it to me before I die

>>304430
I had the same experience (impotence) with antidepressants…what's up with that? Why do they kill your dick? Realized then and there that these pills come from the devil himself and that I should avoid them like the plague if I can. Also, never trust psychiatrists, psychologists and supposedly "mental health professionals", they don't know shit, it's all about conducting experiments on humans for some big jewish pharma company.

>>304439
You're right on everything. It's experiments, you should never ever trust these "people". I don't know why they kill your dick but it's truly devilish. They make you numb. You don't feel anything. For me, this started after I stopped taking them and it's been like that since a year, no libido, no orgasm. Once a week I'll go insane over this issue. right now I am tearing up, just can't think of something else. I don't want to be part of this world anymore. Nothing brings me true happiness lately. Avoid them like the plague wizs.

>>304440
Wow, that sounds horrible, my case was only temporary, I only took the pills for a few weeks and when I went impotent I stopped immediately and after a couple of days everything went back to normal…Your case actually sounds like something you could take legal steps to get some money out of it for compensation, if you have the time and money for a lawyer…That's fucking ruining your life-tier bullshit. If you live in the 1st world and have the means, sue them in court.

>>304454
Sue the doctors or the brand? I live in the 1st world, but what makes me think I shouldn't is that one of the two doctors is a friend of my mother's… I told her one night how much her actions had ruined my life, but she continued to deny that my side effects were real, claiming that they should have stopped by now. She never warned me about side effects or anything, and I wasn't even depressed to the point I would need medication. I agree that it's a life ruining problem. I'm even still kind of young compared to wizards here (19), I think it's fair to say that this is lawsuit material. It's not even like I took them much longer than you did, just a month or two (Honestly, I didn't know what I was doing, just took a pill here and there). Honestly I don't know if I even want money. I don't need it, it's dirty… I just want my life back.

mirtazipine was the only drug I ever took that made me gain weight.

>>304440
>I don't know why they kill your dick but it's truly devilish. They make you numb. You don't feel anything.

It was learned in the early 1950s through experimentation that an over-abundance of 5-HT (serotonin) in the brain completely suppresses lordosis response in female mice (the inward curving of the spine instinctively shown by all female animals prior to intromission). In males, excess serotonin collected in neuronal synapses causes impotence and genital anesthesia. In both sexes, serotonin excess produced apathy and artificial tranquility (like the sort you would see in psychiatric wards with half-catatonic patients wandering about).

There is an entire conspiracy surrounding this topic (the promotion of the false theory of serotonin deficiency being the commonest cause of depression/sadness, and all the panel of related drugs marketed by popular response to this theory.). Psychiatry (arguably) has always had the sterilization of the mentally ill as a principal aim (reaching all the way back to the "ship of fools" model when doctors would just burden whole ships with groups of mad men and launch them upon the sea). I do believe that most psychiatrists (who are jews usually) are conscious of the dangers of these drugs and prescribe them nevertheless. The companies that manufacture these drugs are obviously jewish (as "big pharma" is one central arm of jewish mafia). Even the main youtube "medical personality" dealing with this subject is a kike:

https://www.youtube.com/@taperclinic/videos

Jews are behind feminism, pornography, abortionism, lgbt, psychiatry, modern psychology, contraceptives, vaccines, etc. All of these social projects tend to one common end – reduction in the number of living goyim.

>Once a week I'll go insane over this issue. right now I am tearing up, just can't think of something else.

You need to calm down…and I say this with all respect and care. Rationality is your greatest weapon in defeating this.

>but she continued to deny that my side effects were real, claiming that they should have stopped by now.

This is typical for doctors. You are *very* young, and lack experience in this regard. That is okay. Doctors are both far less knowledgeable and far less honest than you imagine them to be. Either she honestly doesn't know or she's feigning ignorance in the interest of protecting herself. Also you need to remember that w/omen are not men, they are w/omen. What this means is, outside of very few cases of compassionate females, they do not and cannot make sympathetic sense of anything you are going through.

>I don't want to be part of this world anymore. Nothing brings me true happiness lately.

PSSD (post-ssri sexual dysfunction) is best reversed by trying to lower serotonin levels in the brain. This can be slowly accomplished through ingesting organic serotonin antagonists like ginger, through getting enough vitamin B1 (which promotes the recycling of serotonin), through getting enough magnesium (which has the same action), and probably also through general exercise which will encourage the natural elimination of the drug by sweat.

>>304646
>It was learned in the early 1950s through experimentation that an over-abundance of 5-HT (serotonin) in the brain completely suppresses lordosis response in female mice (the inward curving of the spine instinctively shown by all female animals prior to intromission). In males, excess serotonin collected in neuronal synapses causes impotence and genital anesthesia. In both sexes, serotonin excess produced apathy and artificial tranquility (like the sort you would see in psychiatric wards with half-catatonic patients wandering about).

…

You know, that explains why "asexuals" who are "comletely fine with it" are mostly females.

I’ve tried a lot of anti depressants and not one of them helped me except amisul pride at 200mg. Amisul pride makes your brain retain more dopamine at low doses kinda like giving you a bigger battery. The other meds just brought my lows up and highs down and squashed me into a monotonous bore.

>>304646
A jew is shitting in front of my door every week. I want to kill myself because of this. If I caught hum I'd fucking crush his neck, but he's too smart. Fuck jews.

>>304619
Well, could be your problem is unrelated to the meds, Idk. Male impotence can be caused by psychological things too, just low self-esteem or shitty moods. I can talk by experience, when I have periods during which I feel powerless/weak/a loser then my dick is softer and it's harder for me to get an erection but when I experience some success in some form in life I can get hard-ons that last for hours and can cum like a volcano. Your self-image counts A LOT when it comes to sexuality as a male.

Anyway, if you are sure it's the meds that caused this then sue them, get that money. Money is always good, especially if you didn't work for it, trust me, youngwiz.

>>304646
>pornography, abortionism, lgbt, contraceptives
These aren't necessarily evil though you are right jews push these things or use them for their own ends or to earn more money.

Enjoying sexuality in some way, whether it's masturbation/watching porn or another way and discovering new things isn't bad, it's a natural thing to enjoy life as much as you can. But when people start to assume identities like lgbt ones and make them their central core identity then it will end up with less white children. There is nothing wrong with porn itself or enjoying gay porn, only if you adopt some shitty stereotype that comes with this.

Abortion and contraceptives can be useful if the people in question have some diseases that could be inherited by their children or if we are talking about non-whites then by all means these things are good.

>>301262
>It does put me to sleep. But, maybe that's ok. If it means I can find some happening apart from fapping and dreaming while I sleep.


vent your apartment
go to sleep early
wake up early

>>304651


r u sure its not some Jordan with some Afghan Borzoi doggo pet?
set up a cam

>>304646
I've been researching and apparently some people crash from ginger and other organic serotonin antagonists, I tried for a day but I wasn't sure to keep going after I read some people's experiences

>>305050
I couldn't surmise that there would be any danger in incorporating a small amount of grated organic ginger root into your daily tea/water. I did this myself years ago and found no harm from it. It was one of the first serotonin antagonists that I had discovered to which I had no ill reaction.

Ginger, B1, Magnesium, Vitamin E, total discontinuation of the offending drug (ssri, etc.), eliminating fluoride, sweating, belief that things can and will improve – are all helpful weapons in fighting pssd, all of which can lead to cure.

>I tried for a day but I wasn't sure to keep going after I read some people's experiences

Be mindful that many in the "pssd community" do not want others to improve. This is not say that I am calling into question their claimed experiences with certain herbs (ie, ginger), but at least in virtue of my own experience with pssd and the trying out of different serotonin antagonists of variable strength, I can say I do not feel you need to be afraid of crashing on the ingesting of some ginger for however many few days. Ginger has been used safely for thousands of years; even in antiquity high-class etairai (greek prostitutes) would mix ginger into the drinks of their clients so to encourage arousal.

But like in any personal experiment, proceeding gradually by steps, not over-running one's goal, being watchful for any sensitivity in the diet to the introduction of a new element, is always a wise course. So ultimately it is up to you. But don't ever lose confidence that your brain can be restored to its original healthy chemistry…whichever restorative path you end up following.

>>305150
I've also noticed that everyone in the "pssd community" is terribly dishonest, there is so much toxic positivity going on. So many people think their condition is a fundamental aspect of their personality and spend all their precious time discussing their symptoms. That can't be healthy… I never want to become like that.

>Magnesium, Vitamin E, B1
Do you recommend dietary supplements or rather only finding it in natural foods?

Thank you for reassuring me about ginger. I put some in my tea every day now. I've been doing cardio, exercising, and eating healthy without fail. And thanks for your previous advice, I wish all wizs would realize what you said about serotonin and the people behind it all - this is truly evil.

Anyway, I hope I have what it takes to keep going. I'll try not to lose hope, it seems that dopamine receptors take more than a year to heal. By the way, I don't even care about libido that much anymore, I think I've accepted that's how things are now. But I can't accept the anhedonia… Climbed up a hill yesterday and felt nothing. It goes away sometimes thankfully. Sorry for blogpost.