/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>224723
lmao I know but im nearly 30

>>224722
Yeah, I need ownership. Too much traumatic shit happened, especially family became untrustworthy.
That's why it's torture to live here.
Everything in life feels like 'a touched hot plate', which makes one very immobile.

>>224726
>>224726
>Too much traumatic shit happened
did a third person break one of your toys before?

>>224722
kinda similiar case for me, Im just too afraid of accidentaly breaking them

>>224728
its one of the reason too

>>224727
third person as in 'not family'?
yeah sure, but it's not traumatic

>>224730
>third person as in 'not family'?
yeah, not family members

I feel like sometimes, children and parents don't find common ground, for anything.
Just because they are parents or family, it doesn't mean you are similar.
I realized this when I was away for a long time. I came back and they felt like strangers. I asked myself, if I wouldn't happen to be their son, would our lives possibly ever cross, and I knew: No, never.

this sounds like Pathological Demand Avoidance (PDA) AKA autism

>>224739
am not an autist for sure but this sound intresting, will check it

>>224722
Yes, I also prefer having my own things that I can use exclusively. I don't like sharing things, especially food and drink. Drinking from the same bottle after someone disgusts me, and taking a bite of a sandwich or something is ever worse.

I wonder what's the common factor for people like us? Were you growing up in clean, almost sterile conditions? I was born through c-section, so I never swallowed mother's probiotic shit and sludge like babies usually do. I have this wild idea that most people's microbiomes are very diverse but more or less the same. They don't mind sharing food, kissing, licking buttholes during sex, because they have the same stuff inside anyway. But our microbiomes are unnatural, weird and different than most. Our gut flora mess with our behavior through the gut-brain axis, causing us to avoid changing the status quo in our guts.

>>224787
I grown up poor, thats why Im like that (OP here)

Yeah. I am afraid to have another person be aware of anything related to me. If it's a public computer that hundreds of people use then it's fine but if it's in a family or small office I am scared of leaving any traces of individuality in the computer and then have someone who knows me take notice of it. It feels like a vulnerability for someone to know what you are like.

>>224809
>It feels like a vulnerability for someone to know what you are like.
it is because you can get in trouble and they can blackmail you

>>224739
>If my needs and goals don't matter, why should I invest myself in furthering their petty demands and goals.
It probably stems from not being "seen", emotional neglect, not caring.
Parents who are not emotionally there.
They give you food and maybe money, but they are cold, they just behave like vending machines.
You need to be emotionally available to them, but they are never emotionally available at all.
Then they think you are lazy, when it's not laziness but disdain.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWkGw-0sFhM

Kind of similar, I also don't like to use other people thing's. Anyway, you should get a Job and earn then buy a Personal Computer.

>>224722
Autistic lv2 and i use library pc often. But also hardly used by others and feels clean (ocd)

>>224722
>I want my own thing
Selfish Little Fuck syndrome

>>224833
I'm okay sharing things, its just I like having my own things. I just worry about the thing I share isn't damaged

>>224835
you vil share ze toilet und you vil be happy

>>224837
YES my lord!

>>224837
YES my lord

>>224837
context: i had a stomach pain so i literally asked an "excuse my rudeness" question to a guy who was busy fixing his SUV


context 2: my workplace is located in semi-villagey setting, not a street one



well, I borrowed some of his drotaverin pills e.g. stomach pain medicine pills