/wiz/ - Wizardry

Drawing/piano are two hobbies I've agonized over since early high school. Both are the only means I can think of that could help me properly express myself, or at least give me the brain-coolant I so desperately need to continue functioning.
Piano specifically is nothing but blackpill after blackpill. As a guy with a fucked up back/arms from years of neanderthal autism posture + stupid job giving me arthritis, I'll never be able to play the piano at a master level. I feel like there's no point in even continuing.
Drawing is something where there's very little joy in learning the fundamentals, and of course not being very smart or blessed with visual memory kills most of my motivation to draw anything at all.
Every other hobby is either an extension of the two, or a boring waste of time.