>>227091I was born in 2002 aswell. I use astro.com > Free Horoscopes > Horoscope Drawings & Data > Extended Chart Selection. There you'll see all sorts of shit. I also use Astroseek when I wanna calculate dominant planets, and it has a wide variety of options aswell.
>>227092I interpreted this based on personal experience, but generally yeah it can go from North to South and South to North, its like a looping feedback chain and some people have one direction more prominent than the other.
I have Scorpio South Node in the 9th aswell, and this isn't about 'not getting involved in the occult', it's more about developing your own belief systems through communication, exploration of ideas and pattern recognition via 3rd North Node. You have it in Virgo, which is a very strong placement for the mind and shows you'd excel in critical mental work.
You said you have your Sun and Mercury in the 8th, that's the most perfect and barebones placement for occult studies. Even though your mercury is kind of weak in Pisces (Pisces prefers following ideas, impulses and intuition over criticality), that doesn't change the fact that you have a very sharp and penetrating mind, possibly an extremely sharp subconcious mind. Jupiter amplifies everything and shows how you learn best, so what feels effortless and closest to your natural self-expression is how you'd learn.
Your moon makes you detached and objective, if its in the 7th then you learn best from conversations or interpersonal associations, so I'd reccomend you immerse yourself in online occult communities (avoid real life ones, they're degenerate), and watch what others do on top of extracting information from your own work.
You have everything you need to excel in the occult. If you're using tropical, then your actual sidereal placements would be in Aquarius which is a sign that's a bit more objective. But either system will tell you the same thing, as Pisces/Aquarius aren't all too different in the way they navigate the world.
And for the last sentence, you can absolutely indulge in your fantasies. It's a great way to build your inner world and sense of self. You don't have to be around people you don't like, just watch what they do from afar and notice patterns in their behavior.