/wiz/ - Wizardry

>have you been in school/at work/uni, put down, beaten, mocked, humiliated by your pears?
Yes
>what changed about you and how do you handle others nowdays? did your mindset about people changed over time and after being bullied by others?
I became depressed, morose, avoidant and anxious, and lost all self-esteem. I stay away from social events (not that I am invited to them anyway), and keep unavoidable socializations curt and dry (such as coworker chatter or cashier pleasantries). I am unconsciously closed off to the world as far as possible so as to avoid being hurt again. I don't want to be like this, as a child I was very outgoing and sociable, but others didn't seem to have a problem with keeping me down, and no matter where I go, or whether I am socializing online or in real life, people treat me similarly as if I had some sort of invisible sign on me, so I don't see any reason to change my behaviour. I don't hold any grudge towards these people, but I cannot help feeling jealous that I was excluded from having a regular life through no fault of my own.

>>227175
I just deal with this by being a total shut-in completely isolated from the world, this might seem like a coward choice but the trauma from negative interactions is too strong to ignore, and I genuinely feel much better now. My mindset did change in that I stopped seeing normies as an evil caricature and understood that it's just human and especially male nature to try to put down those who you perceive inferior to you, some are more subtle about it while other are too straightforward. I still won't forgive them because I don't believe in such thing, when a wrong is done to you it's a primal instinct to want some form of vengeance and if it's not satisfied there will remain some bitterness, a natural human reaction.

With age you find your people that won’t put you down if they suddenly do I will leave

>>227175
>have you
yes
>what changed
more self reliant
>mindset change
yes in general people are assholes
most people are nice about things
but when everything goes to shit surprise nobody wants to help
>best of luck

>>227180
>it's just human and especially male nature to try to put down those who you perceive inferior to you
became complacent in evil award. might as well join them now, squire

>>227238
you might think you're peaceful but chances are you're just harmless.