/wiz/ - Wizardry

>>227246
you might as well just commit cyber crime then, scamming hacking, selling peoples card info etc. youve already resigned your future why not try and make some mooney

I turn 30 next year. As someone who's undoubtedly on a different life path as you (no two people are the same), I found this post fairly relatable.

>>227246
>I just realized recently that I'm kind of a borderline-schizoid nutcase with some antisocial and narcissistic characteristics. Yeah, I thought psychology was just some some jewish bullshit too for a long time but recently I started to think that maybe there's SOME truth to it.


afaik, it has evolved since those ga(iet)y times of Freud spewing stuff about repressed se eggs.



Modern psychology involves stuff like "Cognitive psychology"

There is nothing like fate. You seem to reason a lot with your emotions and not with actual logic. Your life may be very bad at the moment, but you still have lot of years to spend on this earth so the best attitude surely would be to find some way to improve your life as much as you can. Yeah its hard because bad mental health, bad experiences in the past, low energy due to depression etc. But if you can improve just a bit, to create one good little habit and keep it for a while, you will prove your brain that improvement is still possible and this will get you out of inertia for the best.

And by the way, you surely dont want to go to jail, as an introvert wizard this is probably the most hellish place on earth.

Hope it helps

>>227266
yes, jail is hell on earth and wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy especially people of wizard kind

>>227247
I'm not much of a tech guy, the most I could do is steal the picture of some attractive succubus and try to scam thirsty men for money on the net. Which sounds hilarious in a way, actually. Virgin men tricking other virgin men to give them money…

>>227266
You see, I don't even want to improve in the sense that most people use this word. Somehow a voice deep inside me says to me to crave some kind of excitement and challenge and the average life just doesn't appeal to me that much.

By fate I simply mean the course of life or how things end up happening. Obviously most things are out of our control…But I don't want to turn this thread into another free will vs determinism thread, we discussed that many times on this site. The point is, I enjoy living life as it comes at me, I don't plan ahead and I'm surprised lot of times at what decisions I ended up making.

>>227276
That's just luck mostly, like everything else in life is. It depends on what country you live in (for example swedish or norwegian prisons are almost like hotels or relaxation centers), what you did and what kind of people you end up living with/working with/sharing a cell or floor with, etc.

I'm not saying it's some ideal place at all, duh. Rape/homo stuff, stabbings, beatings, bullying, it's all there really but especially in the civilized world (Europe and US/Canada) you can luck out, even if you committed the worst kind of crimes like child molesting you can end up living a decent life if the staff at the prison separates you from the general population. You don't have to worry about paying bills or what will happen tomorrow, the state takes care of you. You don't have to worry about what you will eat or whether you can eat or not (well, stealing each other's food portions is a thing but still, you get my meaning). You don't have to worry about sleeping in the cold in minus degrees and freezing to death. You can occupy your time with working something the prison leaders think is suitable for you. If you get sick doctors will take a look at you. You can spend your time in the gym and watching TV or doing drugs/drinking alcohol that is smuggled in. You can visit the library. You can learn and get a degree or some skilled profession Etc.

Of course it is an extremely controlled environment with aggressive people yelling at you all the time, both guards and other inmates. You have to defend yourself and be on your guard all the time. But it's far from being "the hell on earth" some people think it is, from what I've read and watched. Yes it can be hellish but if you are lucky you can get by and even have fun.
Yeah, I'm an introverted schizo wiz but you adapt when you need to. The loss of privacy would bother me greatly, like using the toilet in the room where you live with 10 other men, smelling the shit odor all the time and whatnot. Stuff like that would be the hardest to endure, imo.

In a way you could say that society lies to you. They say bad people are punished for their crimes and that you should behave well and society will protect you. That's bullshit. It's all luck. You can still get raped, beaten, robbed, murdered etc outside of prison walls and no amount of police will stop that. Conflict is a part of life. Following the rules and laws all the time doesn't mean you will live a peaceful life necessarily, only that you handicap yourself because you put your trust in ""society"". My conclusion is that there isn't much point in behaving like a good boy. Because this world is pure chaos.

Everyone is a borderline, schizo narc. That is the essence of the human condition.

There is nothing wrong with you. You are accepting reality and becoming aware of the bio-socio forces which influence your life - genes, environment, dialectic-mind.

But you are slacking in the imagination department. Narcs usually have more grandiose intentions than the shallow criminality you've imagined for yourself.

That you have concluded your destiny is teleologically limited to a range of possibilities dictated by a diagnostic and, to a great degree, ideological narrative is your only failing.

Try to be what you want to be and remember, if you fail, Tyler will blow your fucking brains out.