No.227680
you know what would be nice? a way to further leave our humanity behind. free from the urges of the flesh, keeping only the love for anime, vidya, music, movies, perhaps food (though i would dispense that one personally). only the basic joys that life offers, the kind that allows me to have them independent of companionship.
in essence, a mecha, a robot, a machine that doesn't seek to harm but it is able to defend itself, enabling a life free from society, free from others, making them completely optional. i know that this is partly possible in human form, as my desire for the opposite sex begins to die down at the level 34.
but as this desire dies, leaving no trace of want or disdain, only cold indifference as the age progresses, a disconcerting peace takes place, along with the existential questions.
where to go from here? driving a car with no destiny, maybe that gives a high. once that is done, now what? maybe watching evangelion for the gorillionth time. making a new food or kicking the ball randomly. i don't know, i guess i am not used to this much freedom.
winning the struggle of the flesh comes with a price after all. "where to go from here?", the question comes up again, along with the image of a child looking up to you, holding your hand.
and that child is you.
No.227681
philosophical almost
No.227682
This is what Walter Pater suggested in his artistic menifesto. That whole art for art's sake philosophy.
Thing is you're never alone. If you care deeply about something eventually you'll find autists like yourself. It's not necessary but it is nice to talk about the things that you enjoy with someone else.
But yeah you're right. "Now what?" Is a trouble. Whole life is a just a distraction so I guess survive until your death.
No.227683
just keep indulging in dilettantism until it’s mandated that you shall live no more
No.227685
>>227682>If you care deeply about something eventually you'll find autists like yourself.i get that, but the people involved never matches my worldviews, i often feel like an alien invading someone's space because of that, which further fuels my will to lock myself inside a bubble.
>>227683i guess that is all that is left.
No.227686
>>227681lmao i luv you wizbro.
>free from the urges of the fleshyour desire to watch animu instead of doing shit is an urge of flesh.
No.227690
>>227686it is a worthy urge of the flesh wiz
No.227691
Idgi. You're saying you gave up on chasing succubi and success to watch anime but feel aimless?
No.227692
>>227691the urge for sex disappeared and now there are no dopamine peaks anymore, to put it simply
No.227693
>>227692Stop getting dopamine too fast then. Go do a challenging hobby or something.
No.227695
>>227690how can you tell?
No.227696
>>227680>where to go from here?there is nowhere to go and nothing to do.
and if you look at humans from an outside perspective you can see that it doesnt really matter anyway.
a human gets born, consumes resources and then eventually dies and thats it.
what he does between birth and death is pretty much meaningless be it rotting in a room watching youtube until he expires or being a normalfag wagie with a wife and kids and then croaking in some nursing home later.
its completely irrelevant what you do or dont do. its all meaningless and you can fill this time with whatever you want and I know this is easier said than done as someone who doesnt give a shit about anything and doesnt want anything. its difficult to find ways to burn some more lifetime.
logically speaking it makes sense to minimize suffering and try to enjoy the few good moments like a good meal or a shower or shit like that.
if you at some point run out of things to do thats basically it, you saw everything you wanted to see and now you just wait for that last part of death to finish your life's story.