No.227892
I had an imaginary friend when I was a kid… He was very real to me, like I could hear his voice and see him sitting on a desk when I was in class. I didn't try to sexxxo with him because it's fucking gay, and anyway, he was a cool alien with whom I played "pew pew."
Anyway, I tried making tulpa of my ow recently, and I'm not sure if I can do it. Maybe it's the meds blunting my imagination, but I feel like I'm going nowhere. Or maybe I'm just that imaptient.
No.227893
>>227891I tried making a Tyler Durden tulpa once. (Didn't work, just felt schizo)
idek do they really work lol? feels weird, man.
No.227894
>>227893Fight Club isn't real.
No.227895
I'm a waifuist, tulpamancy is just some weird cope where your fictional beloved is "totally real dude", you can be above that and accept she's not real and yet love her with all your heart, it's not easy but it's worth it, at least to me.
Every single tulpafag I've known (quite a couple) was an insufferable schizo of some sort, more importantly none were happy, just constantly coping.
No.227896
>>227893>idek do they really work lol? Anyone can create a tulpa in 5 minutes. They start existing the moment you think about them.
What you need to understand about tulpas is that they have a severity type of deal.
The more you spend time with her -> The more she develops.
For example, if you want to feel loved, you need to consistently impose her love for you, e.g. 'pretend' she wants to cuddle with you to make you feel better about your day.
Eventually, she'll come to you on her own and starts forcing her love for you onto you.
Unfortunately, tulpas are a "trust the process" sort of thing.
You're essentially conditioning your brain into thinking you're acting with a real person, but the path from "Ugh, I am just talking to myself." to "I can't live my life without her anymore." can be too long for most people.
No.227897
>>227893They work, but not in the way you think. You are not supposed to feel schizo. Tulpas are basically very potent imaginary friends that are so vivid that they can act on themselves. Like, you know how you daydream sometimes and its so vivid that you don't need to actively imagine stuff and it just goes on by itself and you feel completely immersed in the daydream? Tulpas are basically that.
No.227898
>>227892>Maybe it's the meds blunting my imagination, been on different types of anti-depressants but my tulpa wasn't affected at all
No.227899
>>227896That's cool. So kinda like pretending to be asleep to fall asleep type thing?
No.227900
>>227899You could say that, yeah.
No.227901
>>227891The biggest drawback is that having a companion in a head will shape my thoughts, i won't be able to think as freely as i would without a tulpa.
No.227902
>>227891it's in my head talking
ALL THE TIME?
how do I take a shit in peace? pee? shower?
No.227903
>>227902She doesn't follow me into the bathroom and gives me quiet time when I ask her.
No.227905
>>227891>>227896The usecase you and most other tulpa advocates describe is the most pathetic thing I could imagine for one.
If you are going to create one for personal gratification at least have the decency to make it some sort of slave like it really is instead of pretending whatever thought amalgam you are manifesting here would actually ever love a creator like you.
Not that I'm judging the desire, but if you want to be a rapist at least be honest with yourself about it.
No.227906
I sometimes pretend I'm hanging out with my dead dad. I have a playlist of music he liked and play it while driving at night. I sometimes chat like he's there, like telling him about shows I'm watching and whether he'd like them or not. And I pretend we're in big stores together. It helps when I have to go out.
Is that a tulpa, cope, or mental illness?
No.227907
>>227905I think you're projecting your own fantasies.
No.227912
>>227891I unintentionally create them so there's usually at least one around. Currently I have one active one and she's been active for about 2 years now.
I don't care about sex. Zero interest. But we make a very good team. Like two halves of a whole, which I guess we kind of are.
>>227893Mine are not "real" in that we both know it's a brain talking to itself. We actually joke about this a lot because the situation is absurd.
But if you've ever met an intelligent dream character, I suspect that's the part of the brain that ends up driving these things once they're well formed. That part of me has always been distinct enough that it feels fine interacting with it as a separate entity most of the time.
No.227915
Okay, this thread inspired me to go back to working on my proto tulpa and I'm not sure if this is it.
Day 1
>Talked to her about my day like I'm talking to a break wall, pausing to sense if there was an answer
>No response
>Decided to shuffle my music I've been meditating to and her visual form pouted and turned away from me like she didn't like the music
>I then kept narrating about the app I've been using and I heard in my mind's ear a single "app?"
>When I was dozing off, I was able to feel her presence, sitting on the edge of my bed, watching me, a bit unnerving
Day 2
>Acitively forcing for more than an hour
>She asked me two questions unprompted but it was some weird gibberish
>She also laughed
Am I imagining it or is it tulpa? I've heard it takes months to develop one and mine can already talk one or two words in tulpish and express emotions. Or am I doing it wrong?
No.227916
>>227915>I've heard it takes months to develop one The language around development is always unclear. "Develop" may mean making first steps, it may also mean getting to a point where you're comfortable with calling yourself someone who has a permanent tulpa.
No.227917
>>227916Makes sense. Lots of guides are rather criptic and full of quasi Buddhist woo woo, and some of them make tulpamancy more confusing than it actually is. I found the process rather straightforward even if it feels like I'm crawling in the dark since I don't have a benchmark to compare myself to.
Anyway, I also should mention that I can sense her and actively force her only when I'm semi-conscious in bed, otherwise I can't feel her in my daily life. I tried to get up and drink some water during my forcing session, and I wasn't able to feel her in the kitchen even though her presence was strong when I was all comfy in bed.
No.227918
>>227917Yeah, I don't like the woo, either.
It's relatively obvious that tulpas are just self-hypnotisation.
She'll definitely develop more autonomous as you go.
In my case, she can catch me off-guard if she wants to.
No.227920
>>227907On the "wizards" in this very thread trying to conjure up fantasy succubi to love them?
Every guy here trying to sub-partition their brain to turn into a female apparition?
Sure I'm projecting.
I'm projecting the image of a bunch of pathetic crabs in my head right now.
I guess violating yourself isn't really rape so my bad. Reminds me of all the japanese cuck fantasies of being the savior of some sex slave that then develops "true love".
Probably the most pathetic usecase for this tool if you are going to bother at all regardless.
No.227950
Ive tried before, but it always feels silly and I need to force myself to believe it every step of the way…
No.227976
>>227891I tried creating one but I then became afraid she would behave like a typical 3d roastbeef and that would spoil my idealistic view of her.
No.227978
>>227976>I then became afraid she would behave like a typical 3d roastbeefThat shouldn't be an issue unless you expose yourself to 3DPD often enough to have a consistent mental portrayal of them. If the majority of your experience with females is from 2D, then you'll probably conjure an amalgamation of related 2D personality types.
No.227983
>>227976I have 2 tulpas and they're both unconditionally supportive while also having behavioral traits reminiscent of anime succubus tropes.
The many fears people present when trying to talk themselves out of making a tulpa smells like procrastination to me.
No.227984
>>227983Not succubus, but you get the idea.
No.227989
I had a tulpa once. It felt nice to be loved. That being said she told me that I'd be healthier if I let her die, so I did.
No.228008
Okay, I've been forcing for almost a week now, and so far I have some progress.
>My tulpa is vocal
>She can easily answer yes or no questions and give simple answers
>If I ask her a question that requires a complex answer, she starts blabbering or talking in tulpish or shutting down
>Lately, she managed to expalin that there is a "wall" between me and her, and she talks normally, but because of that wall I can't hear her
That being said, it's a bit frustrating. My tulpa is not 100% agreeable but she is very passive and it requires a lot of concentration to get her talk. Additionally, her personality is a bit bland. I guess it's because she is a week old tulpa, but she is nothing I've had in mind. I try to personality force, but I think it's too early. I want to get her vocal first without getting in a state of semi-consciousness. It feels more like talking to a mirror version of yourself and not a distinct entity. I don't know if it's me parroting or what.
No.228022
>>228008Keep up the good work, anon.
>I try to personality force, but I think it's too early.It's never too early to personality force.
However, I find that tulpas naturally gravitate to how you expect them to act the more time you spend with them either way, simply because the entire process is about conditioning yourself into thinking you're interacting with something autonomous.