No.228159
>>228138I'm in the process of kicking some addictions which took up decent amounts of my day so I had to learn new ways of spending my time. I have some hobbies I neglected that I wanted to pick up again such as the guitar and drawing but I'm still too lazy for that. I recently had some inspiration to want to create a game world for myself. I don't know anything about 3d modelling, game development and so on. So I started doing 15 minutes of either Godot or Blender tutorials every day. I have this hour long tutorial that I've been working on for a week now and I got maybe 15 minutes into it because I always stop and play around with whatever feature he shows off. It's a long and arduous journey but I think I'm slowly starting to enjoy it, maybe. I think the main thing is to start small. Infinitesimally small steps. But to write down whenever you did it with a time and date. Whenever I log my daily session and see all the days I've been keeping at it, it makes me feel a little proud I think. I started doing the same thing with 10 minutes of daily exercise, just some jump rope usually. The goal for now is to literally just get used to doing things that I wasn't doing before so that I can slowly increase the "dosage" and some day get the results I'm looking for. But if you're starting out you need to find the lowest possible amount you would be comfortable to do daily and learning to live with that voice in your head that will inevitably berate and mock you for it.
No.228193
instead of trying to live for some moment on your deathbed when you can "look back", why not try to focus on the here and now… your daily actions and engagement with it
> "I don't see the future I'm doing stuff for so why would I bother"
this is a key piece. If this is the belief in your heart-of-hearts when you wake up in the morning… good luck getting out of bed with any vim and vigor…
personally im not really at the point of structured life… similarly live at home with basic needs taken care of. Sometimes fall into depressions with weeks/months of gaps in anything productive
for me meditation and boredom can be powerful cus if i sit still, two things happen: i either process whatever i'm feeling (but it can often spiral into rumination…) or I have thoughts about what i want to do… if i'm only allowed to sit and stare at the wall, doing work or starting a creative project finally feels like a path of least resistance. Staring at the wall more than 20 minutes starts to get really difficult and then if you put a task in front of you, the mind will be more likely to instantly engage. Takes a certain discipline and will, though… so often it's just #1. Ruminating about my parents dying soon, fear of being on my own, etc… but that can also be a bit motivating because I'd *LIKE* to be a strong wizard capable of supporting myself…
No.228194
at some point in your wizarding career, you just gotta stop thinking about those pesky concepts like "the future". you have to accept that "it's over" and really feel it in your body. acceptance feels like unclenching your jaw after holding it for decades. you're not a meaningful player in the normalfag dominance hierarchy, none of it applies to you so just chill out.
your goal should be to find engaging activities that make time fly. losing yourself is the best you can hope for as a relatively content wiz.
No.228317
>>228138>Having some "I don't see the future I'm doing stuff for so why would I bother" sort of thoughts.I might just be a retarded animal.
YOu might be… it's not logical because assuming you had this perspective 3 years ago… well here you are, in the future… the future you didn't see worth bothering for. It'll happen again in 3 years.
>How to become more functional? How does one really do anything long term without a guiding star of sorts?How do you become functional/discplined towards a goal you do not have?
First you must find the star.
The fact you can write a post like this shows there is an awareness that's looking for a north star. What if your awareness is the guiding star?
No.228320
Walking helps.
I have a stable job that isn't terrible, all things considered, and I make alright money. Not enough to thrive, but I got food and shelter so I'm alright.
But walking helps. Just get outside and walk wherever you can. Really clears the head.