No.228410
I've come to terms that this is my life, but she won't accept that I'm no longer that smart quiet kid who had potential to become a doctor or lawyer.
I clearly have the symptoms of
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder#Signs_and_symptoms except the bad ones.
>Psychotic symptoms such as delusions or hallucinations may occur in both manic and depressive episodes; their content and nature are consistent with the person's mood.[4] Approximately 60–75% of people with bipolar I disorder have experienced psychosis.I'm part of the lucky 25% I guess, but I'm not normal. I tried to adjust so I can function in society, but I'm still a fuck up, and I'm not alone, many people have mental health problems for whatever reason.
No.228411
Look her in the eyes, give her a firm handshake, and ask when are the tendies are done
No.228416
Parents want to think they have a great one on their hands, their misunderstood special boy. I don't think there's a trick to it except for repetition until she gets the memo. Many never do. The older you grow, the more potential you see in people that was never realized.
>>228411I LOL'd
No.228417
mental illness doesn't work too long as an excuse. she'll insist you get medicated, go to therapy and still try to be normal. i mean, even downies these days are encouraged to get jobs and form relationships. no matter how retarded you might be on paper, no one is going to take it easy on you and just say "oh well, you can stay at home and do nothing with your life, it's ok kiddo".
No.228418
>>228417The economy's bad and no one's actually interested in your wellbeing they just want you to get off their back
As long as you're a functional zombie who cares even though the reason you're like that in the first place is because of them or people like them
No.228421
>>228418that's the thing. I watch the news, I see AI automating jobs, I see Iran war shit, possible WW3, I see Strait of Hormuz closure fucking up world economy, they even talk about fertilizer supply chain shit causing food shortages.
let's say I'm capable to get an university degree and a white collar job under the right circumstances, those circumstances no longer exist and it might be futile anyway.
>>228417it's a good thing I'm not medicated (alcohol and cigarettes are my medication), because medication may no longer be available if WW3 happens and too many people are addicted to that shit.
No.228425
btw, I remember my last job interview months ago, for a sales agent job, they wanted someone with driving experience and I admitted I didn't drive since the day I got my license.
>mother, can you buy me an used car, I don't care if it's the cheapest piece of junk you can find, I just want to practice
>no, someone as crazy as you would drive drunk and crash, first I want to see you act responsible
:/
>are you still applying to jobs?
>sure I am (not really, I gave up being a productive member of society at some point)
No.228427
Just tell her?
If she isn't listening to you I doubt you will change her mind
No.228428
I keep thinking why life had to be so unfair…
bipolar disorder is genetic, that means I was conceived with a defective DNA and it was inevitable, but it's not like autism and other neurodivergent shit.
you can be a normal child, a normal teenager, your brain develops normally, then you find yourself afflicted in early adulthood and realize you're different from everyone else, you basically have a defective brain and it's irreversible.
first year of university it seemed like life was on track, second year I had to drop out, what a fucking life, that's all I ever had…
am I supposed to find any meaning?
am I supposed to contribute to society?
No.228429
>>228427WTF, we posted 2 seconds apart, this is /x/ tier synchronicity shit, I'm telling you it's not the first time this sort of shit happens…
No.228431
that was certainly unexpected…
am I an actual wizard and this is where I can find the other wizards?
if so, I'd imagine they'd be discreet and not admit to such things carelessly, I might have failed the test already.
https://asurascans.com/comics/infinite-mage-b6e039fe No.228433
>>228429It's just coincidence, once you start thinking like this you will eventually see patterns which aren't there
No.228435
>>228433I will assume it is a coincidence, because I don't want to think about the implications if it isn't.
there's a theory, that people like Terry Davis (an ordinary electrical engineer before onset) getting schizophrenia actually unlocked latent abilities, but these abilities are very difficult to control, and there was a time when such people would undergo Shaman training (that knowledge was sadly lost)
No.228437
>>228433being schizo isn't something you can think away. embrace the patterns and enjoy the ride.
No.228440
>>228437thing is I'm not a schizo, I noticed that I happened to get repeating digits too often on 4chan/x/, or I would post at 11:11 (accidentally, I auto-hide the Windows taskbar) but I don't know what I'm supposed to do, or how I'm supposed to study the higher mysteries.
maybe if I met the right person, but I'm a loner who keeps polite distance from everyone, while the Internet is full of LARPers.
No.228441
>>228435cool theory wiz
the schizos I know say the disease is hellish and I read somewhere schizos have a 10 percent suicide rate
but sometimes you have these very creative schizos like Terry