No.228930
I've frequented this place before but not as much, and I would go on Kohl instead. You've probably heard of it as the "pedo" chan but it's actually a bastion of free speech and the pedos are relegated to their own generals usually. Anyway I'm here to tell you that I'll be getting a helium tank delivered because I think I've reached an impasse in my life. I don't want to get into it since it kind of embarrassing but I made one very very bad decision and I'm afraid my whole livelihood is at stake. It was indirectly created by my father. But it doesn't matter, nevermind it. There are other things that I'm worried about concerning this life like the rise of AI, UFOs (I personally was contacted by one), life being a simulation, etc. Basically everything. It's just alot of things on my mind and also I'm quite a dysgenic human being having autism and irritable bowel syndrome, I don't think I'll be able to sustain myself for long. I also might've had some trauma early in life since I can't remember much of my life either. I know it was inconvenient for most of it, which is probably why I can't remember it. Or maybe, I'm drinking too much and I've lost too many bracrabls as of late. I've been drinking for 9 years straight. I'm currently 30. Don't have any friends or a gf (in fact never had one), I don't chat with my mother or my siblings either. My family divorced early in my life btw.
In truth, wizards, I do want to die. But what prevents me is not knowing what comes after and I have often told this to those on other forums, especially Kohl, but they were not able to alleviate my worries about it very much. Since I feel like I have no choice now I will be trying to go through it when the time comes but I still need to know what comes after. If any of you have any idea please let me know.
No.228932
It's this cowardice which.. ultimately prevents me, if only I knew what death was exactly.
No.228933
no one knows what comes after death but some possibilities:
>reincarnation, you just go back into the meatgrinder again and what you did might or might not matter for what your next body is going to be. might or might not be possible to escape the infinite cycle.
>hell, either designed by a deity or just a random chaotic world where your consciousness lingers in god knows what kind of state, and it's forever
>you wake up from the simulation surrounded by the scientists that put you there. life could look like anything but it's most likely better than what you experienced.
>spiritual afterlife, the material world was necessary as a way to teach you something and now you're ready to experience what you're truly here for. might or might not depend on what you did in your life, might require reincarnating N times before (((they))) let you pass.
>nothingness, it's just like before you were born, the most optimistic outcome where the suffering ends
No.228934
>>228933There's also quantum immortality which I'm very afraid of, I just need to know which one it is
No.228935
Is there any way we can steelman this
No.228936
Being here for Dutchwiz's death was already one too many.