/wiz/ - Wizardry

I am not a full wizard yet, I am still young however even at a younger age of 24 I felt like I have already seen and done everything worth doing. I watched enough anime and movies, played enough vidya of every genre to satisfy someone for a lifetime. I scrolled enough on my phone for 4 people. Eventually I got bored of media consumption so I pursued other things like hobbies. I learned a language, an instrument and beginner coding in game dev and I felt again like it was enough. Learning things became boring, its the same baseline thing every time of encoding brain meat with specific patterns over and over. Skill progression of anything is basically the same. I got bored of those hobbies, I picked up exercise thinking it would give me more energy however after finally getting to the point of jogging a mile I stopped. I'm fine with how I look and I don't care how others see me so its as if there wasn't a motivation, just putting myself under duress without reason aside to live longer doing boring things. I quit. Eventually, I thought it was the NEET life that I became sick of, so I got a job at a gas station as well as a construction company both parttime. I was able to play my part well for a NEET of 7 years. I even got invited to barbecues and other outings and had many conversations with others. I thought that maybe finally I could fill the void but that feeling of boredom started haunting me again. Within months I was done, the jobs were all the same the people saying the same things and everyone doing the same things over and over. When you live with nothing for so long you get used to it, there was nothing I wanted to buy with my money. All of it stacked up in an account that I am now currently living off of as I left both my jobs and my relations with others. Neetdom is much easier to be bored in than a place where you stare at the time all day being bored.

I only feel as if I am wasting my life if I am bored. If I die tomorrow I would only regret the moments I felt boredom. I tried it all, jobs hobbies people exercise. None of it made me feel anything for long, it was as if I was solving a novel puzzle, it occupied my time but once it was "solved" it was just another puzzle for the pile. I don't understand, towards the end of my jobs I even started to try narcotics just to feel something but they were nothing. Mushrooms, meth, alcohol. Nothing. All I do now is learn about medicine and watch surgery videos, I find it fascinating but I know better than to get my hopes up. The minute I uncover everything and get to the second slope of the Dunning Kruger effect I lose interest. And this terrible feeling of boredom creeps in. I am truly fucked now, I feel as if I have already tried more things than most people do in a lifetime. I am not even at the halfway point yet of a lifetime. I don't understand what is wrong with me, I know continuing would be to find topics, consume them, and be done with them but even that act of it all I have already played out enough. Its like I would starve even by consuming the world. A jack of all trades is a master of none but nothing I have tried as made me feel anything for long, nothing like I want to keep doing it. I know what it is like to have a flicker of passion for something but it always fades. I feel so much envy for those that have things that they want to dedicate their lives too. Has anyone else ever experienced something like this?