/wiz/ - Wizardry

Are there any wizards who are uncomfortable when there is a succubus? even around female family members. when there's men and succubi in the same room and I'm here, I try not to look at the succubus's body but my brain can't. it puts me in very uncomfortable situation for me and for other people around because I know they know and they know I know. whenever it happens, I want to kill myself. must be because I'm a virgin and a pervert. It kills me for real. I can feel the tense and feel the men/man of the group/family wanting to beat the shit out of me or talk and give hints. I wish I wasn't a pervert or a creep or a weirdo.
please help a wizard who's in big trouble. I wish to never exist, I'll say it again but it is really that: it fucking kills me inside so bad. I'm so scared