No.230067
Hello, wizzies. I have been thinking a lot about the matter on the title so I wanted to ask for some advice from people who may have already gone through what I'm going. So, first providing some context, I'm a 19yo guy who is just your average apprentice wizard, a khhv who likes otaku stuff, loves to spend his time alone and has his own deep problems, also probably autistic. As many of you must have already experienced throughout your lives, being on this path will influence your relationships with those around you as well, or so I think.
I have three friends/acquaintances which I see every now and then, I think around every 4 months, but I talk pretty often with them through messages, but sincerely, because of our differences, it's been being more tiresome to keep up with them lately because of what I think may be depression (due to many topics which don't fit here) and because since I'm still a virgin (and I'm sure it won't change, nor is it a big deal to me, personally speaking) they have been pushing me to lose it, almost as a joke, saying things like "hey, my gf know a succubus, wizzie, if you're interested just say so…". I know they aren't evil, but honestly? It's still tiresome, and I don't want to humiliate myself by telling them the reasons I will end up as a wizard, even with it being supposed to be simple to understand (this is also already another topic). I can feel their vision about me getting worse by the day. How? Because that's how normalfags usually are. If they link success to sleeping with succubi, then it's obvious their vision about me isn't that good on the inside, even if they don't say it aloud. To make things worse, one of these 3 is completely different from me, he likes going to parties, hates anime and also don't have interests on politics as I do, while the other 2 at least somewhat like anime.
I have been having a hard time deciding whether I should break our friendship or not because I got to know 2 of them on middle school and the giga normie one on elementary school (although we aren't as close as you would expect from such an old friendship, he still makes some effort to be in contact, although I think it's just on a whim because we know each other for a long time).
I'm tired, wizzies, and I feel like my bond with them was always temporary. How am I going to be in contact with them here in 11 years? What will they think about me seeing a mentally ill wizard making minimum wage (if even working at all) and living with his parents? (I won't go to college for many reasons and I probably can't live alone). I hate imagining them with pity on their eyes, or worse, smug smiles directed towards me. I'm really tired, I think I will give an excuse to block them around the end of this year and if they come to my home to know why I did it, I will just say it's none of their business. What do you guys think about this? Is this a smart way of dealing with my situation, or am I being stupid?