No.211265[Reply]
Junior Wiz in training here. (Interned successfully since birth for Truecel Crab Corp. Ltd.) I find myself literally unable to go through life I am in a perpetual state of rage as a man.
It's just that I find myself incredibly bitter, not happy with my career, not happy with my life, not happy with my anything at all, I am trying to self improve but still, when I see succubi getting jobs like bartending, being a flight attendant, a hotel receptionist, etc. etc. it's a big deal in my turd world shithole, which sucks as well because the audience of this website is primarily from the first world so people here don't understand what life is truly like in a shithole.
Either ways, I want to give up the desires to be with a bitch, how can I do that? Whenever I see a couple I almost end up crying, knowing that its something that is never made for me, whenever I look up the profiles of my former classmates it depresses me to no end. I hate the fact that nobody talks about the financial impact of being a ugly man, I can never have a well paying job in the service sector in this turd world shithole that I live in.
And while I am struggling to literally have enough money to feed my stomach, succubi get jobs just by existing, because of diversity and yada yada. Now, I understand that I am not entitled to anything, but the least that normie world could do is let me have a job, that gives me a sense of purpose or something.
I hate it, I am angry all the time, I can't sleep, I rage walk all night, I have destroyed my hearing by listening to loud music, I have tinnitus now. Just because I am born with inferior genetics with regards to attractiveness doesn't mean that I have to suffer. I feel like I am literally going insane, I spend a good part of my day just seething. How do I stop this? I have started to bald, and watching a video related to crabs reminds me of the tale of a man, who was crazy and homeless, I made a lot of fun of him when I was in grade 3, I now fear that I might become like him, a crazy hobo, literally mentally ill. I am terrified, angry, and incredibly sad and lonely at the same time.
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>>217188It's bullshit we have to live like this, but you'll go mad trying to change a society that refuses to the bitter end to change, because the people who benefit see no reason to ever do anything else ever again. It's not something you can struggle against with any reason or intellectual trick. The people who engineered this have more information than you on the relevant matters, because you have a life to live and the people who did this make it their career and enjoy it. It's the only thing this sick race knows how to do with any sort of efficiency, and they're still lousy at it. They only need to be better at it than us, who would rather not participate in such a shitty and pointless world.
I never said "hate 24/7 and orient your life around the assholes". Nothing about life requires us to live like this for their sake. I do hate most of my life, but I'm an unusual case where I have to. I made railing against this beast my hobby, so I enjoy the hatred. Not everyone can do that or should, and I do take breaks and find pleasant things. Hatred puts all of the good in this world in a framework that makes the good that much more for me. If I didn't hate, could I have any passion for anything? That is my weakness, though. I think most of humanity hates this shit, and the people who think this society is a viable model for anything are sick fucks who should not have been allowed to hold this authority. Eventually, they won't. The people who really rule the world use "those people" as their weapon to cull the population while they sit in their castle and get to live in relative luxury, with slaves and shit. It really is that easy "up there" and they laugh at anyone who thinks this death cult they set up for us is normal or acceptable. They laugh at you so loud that it's a wonder anyone can go on with the farce without bursting out laughing at its absurdity. I would have thought Trump was the point Americans said "seriously" and wouldn't even entertain the farce they're doing. A good number of Americans did exactly that, will tell me politics is fake and gay, and it really is. But, the tea leaves have told us something about the next shit coming down the pike, and this is intrinsically interesting for paranoid me.
As for Fight Club, it was very obviously about the author being a homofascist at heart and thinking that this was a meme to spread fo
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>>211269>If being ugly is your biggest problem, then you must be smart and socially skilled already?That really depends on how ugly you are. If you're normalfag-tier, sure you can cope by being smart or by being a clown. But if you're a walking abomination, you won't even have the chance to develop social skill and being smart won't be of much use to you. I speak from experience.
No.217352
>>217075As an older wizard, I have bad news for you. It doesn't get any better with age unless you're a conformist normalfag who managed to blend in with the rest of the cattle. It gets worst actually, because you realize that your best years are behind you and all that is left is decay. If you think you're full of hatred and rage now, wait until you get older.
No.217390
>>217352It does get better with age if you take the effort to integrate your experiences. I'm an older wiz and am grateful for all that life has put me through, all the external hardships, damage, learning lessons and also internal happiness and beauty. This is the only place you will find happiness. The outside world is a desert, you are the fountain.
No.217391
>>217352I agree with
>>217390 on ways it can be better, but I'd also say that age doesn't cure it on its own. Really comes down to finding something you actually want to do in this world. I'm angrier than ever, but I'd rather be angry and hateful than live in the trap I was in during teens, or trying to deny it like I did in my twenties. As soon as I got out of the school trap I was trying to live some sort of normal life, only to see the whole country going insane - just as I predicted would happen since I was a child, and kept asking why anyone went along with what they were doing to the country.
The way age helped me was to have a worthy target for rage, to understand better why humans turned out the way they did and how it really was their fault. We had the misfortune of living in a Nazified country where "project, project, project" was violently imposed, because they had all of this wealth accumulated by better men to loot and destroy. All of that shaming and all of the ideology exists purely as a cover for them to keep stealing everyone's shit - all of it. There's no great secret or purpose to any of it, and it was particular to our time. In another time - say I were born 30 years earlier - I would have reached middle age just as the country and the world went full Nazi insane, and would have been among those purged by the "boomer remover" trend, if I could live that long. Since I know of Boomers who knew everything they lived through was a travesty, and the worst of them prevailed, I have enough standard of comparison to know how it goes. The millennials did the same thing but much worse, just as they were trained, and like the earlier generations, the victims were made to suffer all of the costs. The aim of the looters is to tell you "this is all there can ever be", but history doesn't work the way their theories insist it does. They have to edit history to sell their idea, and when that doesn't work when people retain a few brain cells, they have to produce hitherto unknown volumes of shit, and then forcibly drug and destroy the mind to make this plunder a thing to sell. The past was hardly "good", but there were actual struggles and a concept of class mobility. By the middle of the 20th century, class mobility was effectively destroyed, and the aim of th
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